deceased into ashes

Zhou Qianyi asked Yu Qingyue to meet in an old cafe.

That was the first time she said in a stranger's tone: "Then I will meet you at "London Noon"."

It was also the first time that Zhou Qianyi did not use the word "we" to express their relationship.

After a few words, Zhou Qianyi hung up the phone.

It's the same as they were before, only the roles have been reversed.

For the first time, Yu Qingyue realized how cruel her previous actions were.

The cold violence in the past two years, so counting, no matter how deep the love is, it should be wiped out.

The feeling that only one person gives, can't hold it anymore, if you are tired, this feeling will collapse.

Yu Qingyue lowered her head, using silence to cover up her deeper melancholy.

After Zhou Qianyi hung up the phone, she lowered her head in disgust. Nuomi rubbed against her hand. She touched Nuomi's chin, coughed a few times, and rubbed her temples.

"Nuomi," Zhou Qianyi hugged his knees, looked down at the blue-eyed little guy beside him, "Can you help me take care of Yan Min?"

Nuomi blinked her blue eyes at her.

"please."

She's gone, what will Yan Min do...

Still have to finish one by one.

She buried her head in her arms again.I closed my eyes.

Three days later, it was noon in London.

This coffee shop has been open for many years, and Zhou Qianyi used to work for a company nearby.When working overtime, Yu Qingyue brought her coffee, but not much, because drinking too much coffee would hurt her body.

Yu Qingyue arrived very early, and when Zhou Qianyi arrived, she asked the waiter to order two cups of Zhou Qianyi's favorite latte.

Although Zhou Qianyi's complexion was not as pale as before, and the bandage on his head was removed, his expression did not change much.She was wearing a dress she had never seen before - a dark blue windbreaker, which made people feel a sense of distance, and her expression was unprecedentedly indifferent.

"Qianyi..." Yu Qingyue clenched her clothes tightly, not knowing how to speak, and then Zhou Qianyi spoke.

"Qingyue, let's break up."

Sentences are short, but there is a lot of content.

This was something Zhou Qianyi had never said before.Her words were also decisive that she had never had before.

Yu Qingyue was stunned, and after a while, she lowered her head, still clutching her clothes, and said, "Qianyi, I know these days...it's my fault, it's all my fault... .Since you are willing to come to see me, then you...should still love me, let's not separate, okay..."

"I was wrong...It's all my fault...Let's go home, okay..." Yu Qingyue lowered her head very low, her nose was a little red, and tears fell uncontrollably down.

She didn't want to cry in front of Zhou Qianyi, but she couldn't control it.

She was really too scared.

She just wanted to bring this strange Zhou Qianyi home and hold her in her arms, even for a moment.

"Qingyue," Zhou Qianyi said with a hoarse voice, "After a lifetime, you won't be able to survive on that little love."

Yu Qingyue raised her head and looked at the cold Zhou Qianyi, her eyes were a little red.

"Maybe I love you, or you still love me, so what. It's happened and there's no way to undo it..."

Zhou Qianyi looked at her and said slowly:

"Qingyue, I have given you many chances, and I hope you will turn back."

"But I don't want to wait anymore, I'm too tired."

Yu Qingyue looked into Zhou Qianyi's eyes, they were still shallow, but lifeless, like a pool of stagnant water, on the verge of extinction.

"I don't want to live my whole life, waiting for others. I don't want me to just watch you in the corner."

Yu Qingyue looked at Zhou Qianyi who was so calm, but said such stinging words, it really felt so strange.

The coffee had already been brought to the table. Zhou Qianyi looked at the cup of coffee and said, "Your life from now on will be the same as this cup of coffee. It may be a bit bitter at first, but later you will feel that it is very good and mellow, and it will gradually Forget those bitter tastes."

I will gradually forget myself.

Zhou Qianyi took a sip of the coffee, it still tasted the same as before, but it's been a long time since he drank it, and he felt a lot bitter.

Yu Qingyue didn't know what to do. Zhou Qianyi in her impression didn't like to talk about life and the future with her in such a deep way.

In her memory, she just liked to talk about those dreamy things like a child, but the first time she pulled back to reality, she realized that Zhou Qianyi was not as ignorant of many things as she seemed.

She concealed herself so deeply that sometimes Zhou Qianyi wondered if she didn't understand her purpose.

"If I have time in a few days, I'll go to your house and take my things away."

"Qianyi..."

"It's still the same address."

"If you want to come, you can come either..."

"Okay, goodbye."

Zhou Qianyi gently put down the cold coffee, and walked out of the coffee shop with a backpack.

Once, she also thought that she would always follow Yu Qingyue, at least she could see her, at least in the same world, and she would be very happy.

But now I realize that I don't seem to be that worthy of being loved, it's just my own wishful thinking that caused these miscellaneous things later.

If she really loved her so much, why didn't he want to talk to her for two years?

I am just a toy, I hug it when I think of it, and throw it aside when I have a new love.

Not everyone can believe the love that young girls say.

Since Yu Qingyue loves herself more, it's time for Zhou Qianyi to learn to love herself.

People who don't love themselves are not happy.

Before going out, Yan Min told her that he called her if he had something to do, and even drove her here.

Yan Min was not angry either, but worried that Yu Qingyue would hurt herself again.

Zhou Qianyi stood on the street corner opposite the coffee shop for a while.Listen to the cold wind blowing across the face, and watch the remaining fallen leaves scattered on the ground by the wind.At seven o'clock, the sky was already dark, and the street lamps were lit with a yellowish light, but everything was still so bleak.

She saw someone coming to pick up Yu Qingyue, but Yu Qingyue lost her mind and stood there without moving.Zhou Qianyi thought that after a while, she would completely forget about herself.

A woman got out of the car, who seemed to be her assistant Xiao Chen. Yu Qingyue's face was sullen, but Xiao Chen didn't say anything. He just opened the door of the rear seat and they exchanged a few words.Suddenly, under the yellowish light, the little girl hugged Yu Qingyue tightly.

The wind is really cold.

The tears that fell had no temperature.

She watched as her ex-lover gently pushed the little girl away and then got into the car in silence. The girl smiled and went to the front seat and sat down. The car sped away and walked away in the dark night.

The taillights stretched Zhou Qianyi's thin shadow very long.

Take her longing far, far away.

It was really so fast, someone replaced him.

The way that girl hugged her was really like the way she hugged Yu Qingyue when they were young.

Sure enough, he was replaced.

After half an hour of breaking up, he was quickly replaced, which is also an unprecedented speed.

But why is he always so useless, the tears still fall.

Zhou Qianyi propped herself against the wall in the cold wind, coughed a few times, her lips were white, she clutched her clothes and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

My heart still hurts.

How can I love myself more than others, how can I give up on her.

Zhou Qianyi's breathing was weak, and her short hair covered the reddish corners of her eyes, making her look pitiful and helpless.

She will be fine.It's just that my life is not so worth living.

People who can be replaced at any time are not important, and there is no such thing as sad or sad.

I just sigh with emotion in the long river of time.

12 years.

The person she loved must have disappeared long ago.