deceased into ashes

Before I knew it, it had been January.

The sky in Shanghai is still gray, and there is no joy about the New Year.

There was still no snow that she was looking forward to in previous years, and she did not come again.

Zhou Qianyi was sitting in the ward of the hospital getting an IV drip. Recently, her health has become worse and worse. She almost felt like vomiting in the toilet several times. Yan Min was worried about her and asked her to get an injection many times, but she was not happy.

Zhou Qianyi has been afraid of pain since she was a child, afraid of being beaten and scolded by her father, afraid of being bullied by people taller than herself, afraid of falling, afraid of injections, even afraid of the dark, and afraid of being alone.

Even though she has been afraid of more and more things over the years, she cannot avoid feeling the fear and pain they bring.

She closed her eyes and sat on the hospital bed to rest. It is estimated that she will spend half a month in the hospital, so as to ensure that she can live for a few more days.

When Yan Min came in the morning, she said that the attending doctor had changed, and it was replaced by a young male doctor, telling her not to be nervous.

Yan Min was worried that she would not be able to cope with interpersonal relationships, and specifically told the nurse to take care of her, so Yan Min went to work with peace of mind.

Thinking of this, Zhou Qianyi felt complicated again. For so many days, she really didn't feel the slightest bit of emotion towards Yan Min.

I just feel that my confidant is rare.

Just thought this girl... was really nice and nice.So good that she doesn't deserve her at all.

Zhou Qianyi decided to make it clear to Yan Min at the end of this month that she was afraid of hurting Yan Min, but this was the fastest way.

She thought, someone knocked on the door of the ward, and then the door was pushed open.

A tall, mild-looking doctor in a white coat came in, holding a form in his hand, with a red mole on the bottom of his right ear.

When they saw both sides, they were stunned.

how is he...

Zhou Qianyi didn't know what to say for a while.

"Qianyi...?" The doctor was a little surprised, he coughed twice, relieved his embarrassment, and said, "I'm Song Yihan, do you...remember me...just call me Doctor Song... .”

Zhou Qianyi didn't want to see him.

They knew each other very early.

Song Yihan was Zhou Qianyi's ex-boyfriend in junior high school, the boy who was widely rumored to be a school bully.

At that time, in fact, it was not his fault, but there was a girl with a bad temper who liked Song Yihan. Song Yihan was good-looking and gentle, but she was not decisive in her actions.

The breakup between him and Zhou Qianyi was brought up by Zhou Qianyi. After that, Zhou Qianyi was tortured for a whole semester by a group of unscrupulous girls in the school on the grounds of being artificial.

At that time, the ink stains on the desk, the bugs in the schoolbag, the disgusting moldy leftovers, and even blocking her in the toilet and slapping her were all shadows of her life.

At that time, if he stepped forward to stop it, things would be much better.

But Song Yihan didn't.

He just watched, and later came to her in high school, but she didn't want to talk to him anymore.

Song Yihan closed the door silently, and coughed in embarrassment: "How are you doing recently... The girl who told the nurse at the front desk this morning... Isn't Yu Qingyue?"

Zhou Qianyi lowered her head and continued to remain silent.

"...Where's Yu Qingyue?" Song Yihan had seen Yan Min busy here during this period of time, but had never seen Yu Qingyue once.

"It seems that this is out of your control... Doctor Song." Zhou Qianyi said such a sentence indifferently, which made it difficult for Song Yihan to answer for a while.

"Are you not going to stay in the hospital? I saw that you told the former attending physician before." Song Yihan had no choice but to put the topic aside.

Zhou Qianyi nodded, still indifferent, but finally there was some warmth in his words: "I'm very tired, and I won't live long anyway, so why are you dying in the hospital?"

Hearing this, Song Yihan frowned slightly.

He flipped through the case checklist hanging on the hospital bed, and said, "It's not easy, this disease is exhausting."

"It's okay." Zhou Qianyi coughed untimely.

Song Yihan went to the window and closed it, and looked back at Zhou Qianyi who was sitting on the bed and was still as submissive as before, her heart seemed to be hurting.

"Then I can help you with the procedures for leaving the hospital... Remember to take your medicine after you leave the hospital, and if you can't do it, come to the hospital to find me again."

"En." Zhou Qianyi kept her head down.

"I'm going to get married in May this year. I've been wanting to apologize to you and Qingyue before. Would you guys come? You can ask my wife to apologize to you without paying."

Zhou Qianyi raised his head slowly, saw the red mole on his ear, wanted to ask but didn't ask.

"My wife is the one from before..." I still didn't want to say the last few words. After all, it was well known at the time that his wife bullied Zhou Qianyi for a semester. The other party is not even afraid of punishment for him.

It's just that Zhou Qianyi was really wronged. They always wanted to make up for her, but they couldn't find her.

Song Yihan once met Yu Qingyue at the gate of a large enterprise company. Yu Qingyue is the kind of person who can't be forgotten at a glance. That time, she could feel the brilliance of the other party when she looked at it from a distance. Liangli, from this point of view, really formed a stark contrast with the current Zhou Qianyi.

After Zhou Qianyi heard this, she shook her head and said, "There's no need to apologize. What happened back then is over, and I don't want to see her again. It's even more impossible to ask me to forgive. After all, I'm not the kind of person who will give you whatever you ask for."

Song Yihan nodded and said, "It's normal, if it's me, I might still beat him up."

"Qianyi...are you and Yu Qingyue not together?" After thinking for a long time, Song Yihan still asked.

Zhou Qianyi stopped breathing immediately, and only raised her head to look at the scenery behind the other party.

The clouds have not lifted...winter has arrived.

But can she wait until autumn?

"I don't want her anymore," Zhou Qianyi said with a wry smile, "I don't want her, and it has nothing to do with her."

This sentence was actually a lie, she was really afraid that once Yu Qingyue came to find her again, she would really throw away her armor and go back.

She feels that she is really worthless every day, but fortunately Yu Qingyue doesn't love her anymore, otherwise she will lose all the face that is dispensable.

"Okay, I got it, you take care of yourself." Song Yihan went out, closed the door gently, and sighed outside the door.

Zhou Qianyi took out the pen, picked up the notebook on the table, and began to write in a swish.

......

In the evening, Yu Qingyue had already arrived at her previous home.

The furnishing of the house has not changed, but the people in the house have changed.

Chen Xi was waiting for her to come back on the sofa. When she saw Yu Qingyue open the door, she rushed over to hug her.

Yu Qingyue gently pushed her away, feeling an indescribable emotion in her heart.

"Qingyue, I made your favorite dish, do you want to eat it?" Chen Xi looked at her cautiously, and there was a shadow of Zhou Qianyi in his gestures.

Yu Qingyue looked at Chen Xi, sighed, patted her head with a wry smile and said, "Well, let's eat."

Chen Xi is Yu Qingyue's assistant, and has worked with her for many years. That night, Chen Xi accompanied her to the bar. Suddenly, the effect of alcohol made Chen Xi in her impression look like Zhou Qianyi.

She kept crying that night, hugged Chen Xi, and said, "Qianyi, don't go."

It can be said to throw away the helmet and armor, full of affection.

Later, Chen Xi took care of her at her home and told her why.

Chen Xi and Yu Qingyue are alumni, and Chen Xi had a crush on Yu Qingyue for a long time, but Zhou Qianyi didn't say it out.

But now that Zhou Qianyi is gone, she will take the position openly and aboveboard.

Although Yu Qingyue did not admit that she had replaced Zhou Qianyi, but the situation looked like this, Chen Xi smiled lightly, took some food for Yu Qingyue, and said, "Sister Qingyue, I found some old... ...Sister Zhou's medicine, do you want to send it over?"

Yu Qingyue paused and said, "No need."

It's fine for Zhou Qianyi to get it by himself.That way she could see her again, and maybe there was still room for redemption.

Chen Xi looked at Yu Qingyue, as if he had seen through her: "Sister Qingyue, do you want to see Sister Zhou?"

Yu Qingyue didn't speak.

"Actually, you can go to Sister Zhou, but Sister Zhou may not want to come here." Chen Xi continued: "I understand that you have been in love for many years, but no matter what, whether you are suitable or not will eventually be revealed. Sister Zhou is now I don't want to drag you down because of illness..."

Yu Qingyue stopped and listened to her.

Chen Xi said: "I also found the marriage certificate between Sister Zhou and you in the cabinet. I kept it for you, and I can use it when I go to find Sister Zhou."

"Thank you..." Yu Qingyue looked at Chen Xi wearily, and said, "Really, thank you."

Chen Xi also smiled, but stopped talking.

She wanted to completely push Zhou Qianyi away, after all Zhou Qianyi's days were numbered.And she will be the one who will be by Qingyue's side in the end.

Not in a hurry.

Slowly, that proud sister Zhou will be forgotten.

Whether it is a substitute or a fake, anyway, if you get it, you get it, and if you lose it, you lose it.

Chen Xi and Yu Qingyue have worked together for five years. She watched Yu Qingyue cheat, watched her panic, watched her become angry, and watched her lose face.

"Sister Qingyue, don't worry." Chen Xi kept smiling: "I understand you and everything about you."

Of course she'll take care of it.

Slowly erase the memories related to Zhou Qianyi, and finally replace everything that existed in her.