deceased into ashes

It's not just a day or two for Yu Qingyue to have someone outside.

Since four years ago, when they were working separately in Shanghai, a young director of the company pursued Yu Qingyue, but at that time Yu Qingyue and Zhou Qianyi confessed that she had no feelings for that person at all.

At first, there were many people who pursued Zhou Qianyi, but no matter what kind of people, Zhou Qianyi would patiently reject them, so that later many people knew that she seemed to have a mysterious object.

But Yu Qingyue didn't seem to handle it properly.

But Zhou Qianyi still chose to believe it, and she didn't want to spend all her time managing Yu Qingyue's affairs outside.There will always be some men involved in the company's entertainment and the like.

Yu Qingyue is an employee valued by the boss of the company. She can speak well and has a good-looking face. It is inevitable that some people will not be tempted.

Later, Zhou Qianyi happened to go to discuss business with Yu Qingyue's company once. The business was done by a wealthy Mediterranean company. The seats at that time were arranged by the bosses. Their idea is to please the Mediterranean with the best staff.

But the Mediterranean is restless, seeing Yu Qingyue's guarded appearance everywhere, it is a little difficult to start, seeing Zhou Qianyi who is like a weak lamb at first sight, he immediately became interested.When Zhou Qianyi was toasting the others, he took the opportunity to touch her.

Yu Qingyue couldn't bear it any longer, she argued with that Mediterranean on the spot, and that Mediterranean became furious, and fought with Yu Qingyue.In the end, Yu Qingyue was fine, but that Mediterranean Sea was beaten black and blue by her on the spot.

Yu Qingyue and Zhou Qianyi had been arguing for many days because of this, and Yu Qingyue didn't want her to go to work for entertainment anymore, that would be too dangerous.

Later, Zhou Qianyi didn't go to the company to work and socialize anymore. Yu Qingyue was afraid that this kind of thing would happen again, and she couldn't protect Zhou Qianyi if she wasn't there.

So Zhou Qianyi went to work as a waiter in a petty bourgeois enterprise, and since then she has lost contact with commercial marketing.

Yu Qingyue jumped from one company to another with her ability, and her reputation grew. Later, when Zhou Qianyi proposed to work in the company again, she was once again opposed by Yu Qingyue.

"You are not familiar with the current market, and there is me. You are not so tired as a waiter over there. If you don't want to work, you can be a good wife and mother at home. I can support you." This is Yu Qing Yue's explanation.

Zhou Qianyi didn't bring up the matter of returning to her original job, but she didn't know that in the past four years, there were still many people chasing after Qingyue, but Yu Qingyue would not refuse one by one like before, but instead started all kinds of involuntary things. The ambiguity of the rest.

Fortunately, at that time Yu Qingyue was not bold enough to dangle with her little lover in front of her.She never thought of being separated from Yu Qingyue, and she was sometimes confused about where she would go and how to continue her life after separation.She has no home for a long time, and her life plans are all kinds of plans with her lover.

If you leave her, what else do you have?

It may be that Qingyue felt that it would be too boring to live a lifetime with a girl like her, so she wanted to find some fun in life.

She still cherishes this relationship...

In the beginning, indeed, Yu Qingyue not only came home on time, but sometimes brought her some of Zhou Qianyi's favorite desserts, and told her some miscellaneous things about the company.

Yu Qingyue told Zhou Qianyi several times that someone gave her flowers again, but Zhou Qianyi just smiled bitterly, pretending to be relaxed and said: "You don't need to ask me for this kind of thing, I know you won't accept it."

In fact, Zhou Qianyi didn't know how to answer at all.She didn't want to act like a bitch, and she didn't want to look like she didn't care.

Excessive words will only make the other person feel that they are annoying.

Zhou Qianyi has lived in the environment of watching other people's faces since she was a child, and observing words and expressions is what she is best at.

She didn't want to make the other party unhappy.

As time passed, Yu Qingyue became a little annoyed. Even though she knew that she shouldn't have accepted those flowers in the first place, she felt that Zhou Qianyi didn't really care about them.

And she was getting more and more tired of Zhou Qianyi's submissive look, which was so limp that there was no place to vent.

Often when quarreling, the cotton is punched with a fist, and the other party just keeps his head down and keeps silent. This kind of forbearance looks like a fool to her.

Yu Qingyue didn't know that Zhou Qianyi was just tolerant, and she was just afraid that she would get angry and have such a temper.

When she saw Yu Qingyue flirting with others so blatantly downstairs in her own house for the first time, she felt bitter in her heart.

She doesn't want to lose this home.

She has no family, she only has Yu Qingyue.

She really didn't want to argue with Yu Qingyue, because she couldn't help crying every time she quarreled, and Yu Qingyue would just slam the door and leave.

Zhou Qianyi was left alone on the sofa at home crying, her heart ached and she was dizzy from crying; she didn't want to cry, but she just couldn't hold it back.

Extremely weak and incompetent.

In the words of Yu Qingyue, "I know how to cry all day long, tears are so cheap."

Once you get used to her cynicism, you start to get used to her cold violence.To get used to cold violence, you must start to get used to the loneliness that overflows from your heart no matter day or night.

She was really at a loss.

Yu Qingyue said she was going out for a while, probably because she was going on vacation with her little boyfriend.

Zhou Qianyi thought so, she opened all the curtains in the bedroom, the sunlight shone in, light and shadows flickered on the wall, and Zhou Qianyi's tears fell drop by drop, she couldn't feel the warmth of the sun at all.

12 years, how did it become like this?

Zhou Qianyi will never forget that Yu Qingyue moved the table to her side in front of all the students and teachers. She remained still even if others grabbed her, and said to her with a smile:

"Qianyi, we will be at the same table from now on!"

After she had set the table, she blushed again and said with a smile:

"I'll stay one level, we'll be together, so that no one will dare to bully Xiao Qianyi!"

The person who once held her on top of his heart, now finds it difficult to even look at her more.

After Zhou Qianyi washed up, she looked at the time. There was a late shift at night, and she could tidy up things at home in the morning, but she didn't feel at home as before when she looked at all this.

How can a person's home be called home?

That person's heart has long been wild, but she still foolishly believes that Yu Qingyue will definitely turn around, protect her as before, and never bully her like others.

She couldn't afford to gamble, so she could only delude herself into believing.

Zhou Qianyi remembered what her mother said, that if you love someone, you should love them wholeheartedly for the rest of your life, so that you can have the best results.

After you see the shortcomings of that person, you can still love her and tolerate her. Is this love?

Zhou Qianyi's father had been a jerk who didn't come home at night as long as she could remember, and often abused her and her mother at home.

Since she was a child, she was beaten all over her body because of a little quarrel, which can be said to be a common occurrence. The old wounds on her body did not heal and new wounds reappeared. This was her childhood.

When my father was not at home, my mother always flipped through the old photo albums over and over again. The bruised arms were so thin that people felt horrible, and my mother's tears fell drop by drop.

Grandparents passed away very early, and my father was my mother's only support.

However, this dependence is a seemingly beautiful but false illusion.

My father had someone outside, and he used my mother's savings to sell the house that my grandfather gave to my mother.

My mother had heart disease, and before giving birth to Zhou Qianyi, she gave birth to a boy who died at the age of one month due to congenital heart disease; after giving birth to Zhou Qianyi, the heart disease became more serious, and she also suffered from postpartum depression.

The last time Zhou Qianyi saw her mother was on the top floor of a high-rise building in the hospital. When she was parting, she finally saw her mother who had never smiled before. She smiled happily and tears fell into the air.

she says:

"Mom is going to find your brother, Qianyi... Be obedient. Mom... I'm sorry."

"Qianyi...you must live a good life..."

After finishing speaking, he took a leap and jumped off the tall building, ending this sad life.

She hated why her mother was so cruel to her, and why her father treated this family like this.

But she let it go in the end, she didn't want to live with hatred for the rest of her life.

Later, she gradually understood her mother's difficulties, so she no longer blamed the woman who committed suicide and jumped from a tall building back then.

Zhou Qianyi also has a genetic heart disease.Just not as serious as her brother who passed away.

The reason why she was indifferent before was because she never got the slightest warmth from human nature.

When she was 19, her father found out about her and Yu Qingyue.The scum who never cared about Zhou Qianyi suddenly came back from a far away city and beat and scolded her.

Then he told her to get out of his sight, he couldn't afford to lose this person.

However, that scumbag was only for a little inheritance from my grandfather in his hometown.

Then Zhou Qianyi also cut off contact with the only blood related person in the family.

All she had was Yu Qingyue, she had nothing left.

But now she feels that every step she takes is covered with thin ice, and she doesn't know when it will collapse.

Because her only reliance is no longer the same as before.

They have all changed.

One changed from indifference to tenderness, and the other from enthusiasm to hypocrisy.

Zhou Qianyi took the medicine and sat on the sofa to relax. She couldn't cry anymore, and after crying, she had a severe headache.

She nestled on the sofa, hugged her legs, buried her head in the pillow on her legs, and her long hair was scattered beside the pillow.

Holding her mobile phone, she dialed Yu Qingyue's number several times again, wanting to hear her voice.

But still no one connected, the grievance in her heart burst out all of a sudden.

Zhou Qianyi's eyes were red from crying, she couldn't breathe, her heart hurt like hell, for a moment she really felt that she was going to die.

She was really desperate.

"Yu Qingyue, how could you lie to me..."

"Didn't it be agreed that it would be enough to have me for a lifetime..."

"Don't go, please come back and see me..."

"I beg you...I only have you...."

"I'm so sad... I'm sick and I'm dying! Why don't you come back... My whole heart is breaking, can you hear me..."

Still no answer.