deceased into ashes

People who are used to living in corners and places where no starlight can be seen; once they see the scene surrounded by stars and the sky is full of stars, they will never want to go back to that small and dark corner.

This is probably the case for Yu Qingyue.

Zhou Qianyi took out the case sheet hidden in the safe, opened it, and looked at it carefully:

"Severe somatization, obviously accompanied by a lot of physical discomfort..."

Zhou Qianyi continued to scroll down:

"The subjects have obvious physical symptoms"

“Subjects are sensitive to interpersonal relationships”

"The subject's vigilance (hostility, terror, paranoia, inner tension, psychosis) is too high"

Zhou Qianyi closed her eyes, and tore up the document; the pieces of paper were scattered on the clean porcelain plate, and Zhou Qianyi curled up in the corner with her head in her hands.

In fact, for most people's cognition, depression is just an excuse for a person to express his fragile heart by being overly hypocritical.

Yu Qingyue never listened carefully to what she said, or in other words, she never had time to listen to what Zhou Qianyi said.

She didn't know the feeling of being at a loss and waiting for someone to come home in the dark. She was a proud person, and she hardly cared about Zhou Qianyi's wholehearted love.

After all, sincerity is for people to trample on.

She is very busy, busy with work, busy with her lovers one after another, busy with various things; and many times when Yu Qingyue and Zhou Qianyi quarreled, Yu Qingyue always said: "I don't have time Compete with you, not as free as you."

Not as free as you.

Such a sentence can completely cool Zhou Qianyi's heart.

She's at home, out of a big corporate job, for whom?She is willing to delve into various complicated dishes one by one, for whom?

Even when she was sick, because the other party was very busy, she never bothered her once. When it was the most serious, I climbed onto the cold wall, took a taxi to the hospital, had needles all day and night, and was asked why I didn’t stay at home when I got home. with.

She has done so much for the person who is obsessed and unwilling to turn back.

My mother once said that if you love someone for a lifetime, there will be results.

What if it's a bad result?

Since she was a child, she has been curled up in a corner, silently, tears falling drop by drop; she thought that as long as Yu Qingyue was around, at least someone would pass her a tissue and talk to her for a while.

In the end, this person also left.

Gone without a trace, what was before is no more, and all that remains is infinite weariness and disgust.

The shreds of paper all over the floor and a lonely person are silent together in this deserted room.

Feeling waves of left angina pectoris, Zhou Qianyi knew that there was another heart attack.

She stepped on the piece of shredded paper, step by step on the cold porcelain board, every step was painful; behind the drinking fountain, she found the medicine she had hidden.

She mixed the medicine with cold medicine and poured it down her throat in one breath. The smell of the medicine was not strong, but the pain in her heart was still very clear.

Zhou Qianyi collapsed on the sofa, her face was pale, her lips were smothered purple, everything in front of her eyes was blurred, tinnitus continued in her ears, her headache was caused by tears, and her whole body was about to be torn apart.

She thought, will she die?

Did anyone come to see her at her funeral?

She hasn't chosen the cemetery yet, and she hasn't thought about these complicated things yet.

You should tell your lover about this...

At this moment, she felt that she was living a miserable life.

She still didn't want to die at home. {Dead Alone}This kind of death is... so pathetic.

If Yu Qingyue saw her die at home... how would she feel...

Shock disgust or collapse?Or is it a relief?

Thinking of this, Zhou Qianyi's fingers were trembling, and her pupils were hollow; she bit her lower lip tightly, trying to keep tears from falling.

After crying, her head will hurt, and the medicine will take effect, which will make her feel even more uncomfortable.

After half an hour, she recovered from the pain. She got up carefully, cleaned up the shredded papers on the floor, cooked some mung beans, and started to tidy up other things.

She found a small box containing a dozen letters, a closed leaf bookmark, and a fake marriage certificate.

She opened the little red book, and inside it was a picture of the photo taken with Yu Qingyue before, and the words in the book were carefully written by Zhou Qianyi.

Zhou Qianyi felt extremely glared by the content of such beautiful words.

When I was writing these... have you ever thought about the embarrassment of today, it is ridiculously naive to say it.

In the end, she carefully put the little red book back, closed the lid of the small box, and hid it again.

When she was 20 years old, Yu Qingyue kept thinking that if she wanted to get together with Zhou Qianyi in a legitimate way, she had to apply for a marriage certificate, but it was not allowed in China, and they had no money to go abroad to do so. Working very hard and wanting to save money earlier can be regarded as a peace of mind for the two of them.

Zhou Qianyi found out later, so she secretly bought two high imitation marriage certificates, took Yu Qingyue to take a photo, and without telling Yu Qingyue, she made these two fake marriage certificates.

Later, one night, under the yellowish light, Zhou Qianyi solemnly handed one of the sheets to Yu Qingyue, and said very preciously: "Qingyue, we have a marriage certificate, don't worry, I will always be here, won't go."

That night, Yu Qingyue's eyes were swollen from crying. At that time, she fell asleep with the little red book in her arms, as if it was some kind of treasure, once it was lost, it was gone.

She also said that she would never abandon Zhou Qianyi alone in this life, and she would give her a home.

A home they share.

......

Times have changed, and the world is hot and cold.

It's better not to say a vow of eternal love.