deceased into ashes

A week later, the beach.

After the heavy rainstorm, the sky in Shanghai was clear for a whole week.

Yan Min was sitting on a tourist boat sailing on the sea. She was wearing a long black dress with a small piece of black gauze sandwiched over her head. The dark circles under her eyes were much heavier than before.

She has lost a lot of weight, and she is much more lonely than before just looking at her back. There are many boats sailing in this sea, and she wants to do that thing in a place where there are no boats.

The blue sea and the sky seem to be connected together, and the sun is covered by clouds and reveals a halo.She was holding a small box in her hand, the off-white box was carved with golden patterns - inside was Zhou Qianyi's ashes.

She took out the shell that Zhou Qianyi had placed on the table in her room earlier from her bag. The shell was very shiny, with light purple and translucent reflections.

Holding the box for a long time.She listened to the sound of the sea breeze and the seabirds calling each other, and the distant waves hitting the stone island.

Open your eyes, the colors in front of you are very bright.

The nearby ships had all gone away, so she picked up the box and looked down for a long time. Finally, she walked to the stern near the sea, opened the box carefully, and used the shell to remove the gray ashes. Drift into the bottomless sea.

Yan Min stood at the stern of the boat, and after an unknown amount of time, the box was finally empty.

This is the last farewell.

She vaguely remembered the conversation with Zhou Qianyi in the hospital.

When Zhou Qianyi wrote the letter with a hanging bottle, she once said that no matter what the future holds, after she passes away, she hopes to be buried at sea.

"I don't want to die on the hospital bed, I... still miss the fireworks in this world. But if I have to go, I still hope to be buried in the sea.

I like the sea very much. "

When Zhou Qianyi said those words at that time, her eyes showed rare longing and anticipation, and the drop bottle slowly dripped. She was silent for a while, and continued:

"I want to hoist my ashes into the sea, so that maybe I can accompany the whales to fall and rise with the sun."

When the whale falls for ten miles, all things grow; when the sun rises in the east and sets in the west, the world is fixed.

At that time, she probably knew how much Zhou Qianyi liked the sea.

Yan Min hugged the white box and waited at the stern for the boat to return. The surroundings were very quiet and the sun was warm, but her heart was cold.

She also understands Zhou Qianyi's feelings for Qingyue, she has always been just a bystander, always hoping to help Zhou Qianyi, because she doesn't know how to love herself.

And in the end, even before she died, Yu Qingyue was by her side.

Yan Min looked at the sea in the distance.

"Qianyi... let's go." She looked at the sea, waved her hand gently from the bottom of her heart, and tears fell on the white box.Her eyes were red, and it had been like this for several days.

She remembered a passage in "The Other Side" that she liked before:

In my heart, there is a sea, very big.

Inside is my sorrow.

Sometimes I tremble and tremble, and when I collapse to the extreme, I can only turn the grievances in my heart into tears and flow them all into the sea.

The coldness in my heart made me feel as if I was walking in a deserted wilderness wearing thin cotton wool. The sky was dark and the wind was blowing chills.

The moon shines on me, and I just keep going forward without looking back.

There was no response in front of them.

The moon sky in the wilderness is really poignant and lonely.

I probably did too.

I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

I close my eyes and think the world...

so empty...

so empty...

The boat docked, Yan Min got off the boat, and she put away the shell.

It was only in the past few days that she read the letter Zhou Qianyi gave her, and realized that she was the author of "The Other Side" - Yun Yan.

Once, when she saw that book in the store, she just felt that the sentence written on the cover really made people unable to take their eyes off. It could be said to be a sentence that was lonely and smart, but also gentle and poignant.

Many people couldn't understand those sentences, so the book didn't sell very well.

At that time, she bought a series of "The Other Side" back home.

There are not many introductions by the author, only one sentence: a lampkeeper who yearns for warmth.

She opened the book with curiosity and fell in love with this unique author ever since.

Yan Min never imagined that the author would be someone who has been by her side for so long.

Some people previously commented that "The Other Shore" is a prose that penetrates the hearts of many people; others said that it is just a paper for the author to vomit bitterness.

Life is like this, as long as you improve a little bit, there will definitely be all kinds of evaluations waiting for you to meet, no matter good or bad, right or wrong, they will all hit the source like venting anger.

Yan Min sighed, and now she finds the most disgusting thing - Zhou Qianyi jumped off the building and was reported by the media.

Someone picked up pictures of Zhou Qianyi who were secretly photographed in the subway and books published under her pseudonym, which are now very popular on the Internet.

Nowadays, many young people like to follow suit, and Zhou Qianyi's works that almost no one cares about before became popular instantly.

The words and sentences of articles such as "The Other Shore" also appeared in the comment areas of various songs and the Weibo of some well-known bloggers within a few days.

And I don't know who it is. Yu Qingyue's identity has been revealed, and she and Zhou Qianyi have been a couple for 13 years on the Internet, spreading rumors that she committed suicide by jumping off the building.

The comments section exploded in those days.

Even the topic "Yu XX people. The scum pays his life" was put on the hot search.

Immediately, there were a lot of people eating melons on the Internet, and some people even found out Yu Qingyue's phone number, address, and company, and now it is a mess.

But Yan Min knew that Qian Yi didn't want to do this.

She jumped off the building, but she was really tired and painful, she just hoped that Yu Qingyue could remember her, and she hoped that she could choose the way of her own death.

And to let myself go, I just hope that I will give up on her completely and stop being persistent.

The fact that Zhou Qianyi's work became popular after Zhou Qianyi's death is really ironic.

Before there was no fire, it was a water work. Once it became popular, it became the flower of Gaoling, reaching the pinnacle

These people are ridiculous.

Yan Min sneered, looked at those comments, and turned off the phone irritably.

Recently, she was also fleshed out, as Zhou Qianyi's friend.Many netizens expressed their liking for her appearance and ability. Under Weibo, Sister Yan called Sister Yan more affectionately than her own mother.

It was as if she had gone to heaven, and some people even compared her with Yu Qingyue, saying that Zhou Qianyi was blind.At that time, she directly posted a Weibo saying that she would never go online! Then she uninstalled the software.

The most commented under Yu Qingyue's blog is: She looks beautiful, but she didn't expect to be so skittish.

Some people shamelessly commented: I can't tell it's a t, it should be pretty good on the bed.

These people are obviously going for their faces and heat, anyone with a discerning eye can see it.

What is fighting against injustice, what is being ruthless, do you want them to take care of other people's affairs? !!

Yan Min wanted to drop his phone these days.

What's more, she went directly to her store to recommend wildly, and while recording a video, she said affectionately that she wanted to take a photo with Sister Yan.Now she doesn't want to pay attention to those people who are rubbish, and she is so angry that she closes the store for a month.

She knew that Zhou Qianyi's original intention was not like this.

But the world is like this.

Yan Min left the beach. In order not to be recognized by others, she put on a mask and carefully avoided the crowd to go home.

In the room with the curtains drawn without any gaps, wine bottles were scattered on the floor. There was a disgustingly strong smell of alcohol in the room, mixed with the smell of blood. A woman with disheveled hair leaned dejectedly against the wall.

Yu Qingyue raised her head and drank the wine.

She looked at the wine bottle on the ground, and when she looked up, she seemed to see someone coming in. The person seemed to be saying softly, "Why do you drink so much again? It's not good for your health."

She stared at the seemingly indistinct person in a daze, his face was blurred, but with a familiar tenderness.But she suddenly stood up and wanted to hug the person over there, she ran over and threw herself hard at that side, but missed.Her body suddenly fell to the ground, her arms were bruised and purple.

She felt the pain again and regained her sanity.

It's an illusion.

She got up again and leaned against the floor silently.He stared blankly at the dimly lit hall.

Zhou Qianyi still didn't come back.

"Qianyi, when are you coming back..." She looked at her phone, she made one call after another, but no one answered.

Yu Qingyue stared at the phone in a daze for a while, she was in a mess, and she was no longer as neat as before.Now it looks more like a dilapidated household, with a haggard face and bruises all over his body.

Her left foot was originally wrapped with a bandage. After returning home, she fell asleep, and then realized something. She frantically tore off the bandage, then found a fruit knife and stabbed hard at the newly healed blood hole. .

Severe pain enveloped her, and blood gushed out from the blood hole, blood staining the ground.

"Qianyi...I...are hurt...Come back and see me? Okay..." Feeling the pain, Yu Qingyue looked at the ceiling and muttered to herself.

"Qianyi?" Yu Qingyue looked at the blood-stained fruit knife and said in a daze, "I see, are you unhappy..."

After saying this, she gritted her teeth and scratched heavily on her legs and arms. Dark red blood flowed out instantly. The scars were frighteningly deep, as if she was about to pick out the bones inside. The dark red blood flowed down The white flesh flowed to the ground.

Yu Qingyue trembled, she watched her own blood dripping on the floor, and she looked at the seemingly invisible person in front of her.

It should be an illusion...but it's fine even if it's an illusion.

It's good to see her.

She passed out again, and when she woke up, the house was still in such a mess, and the blood on her legs and arms had coagulated.But the deep bloodstains looked terrifying.

That's it for now.

Yu Qingyue suddenly stood up slowly, went to the bathroom to wash off the blood on her body with cold water, then cleaned the floor, slowly filled the wine bottle, took out the vegetables from the refrigerator, and started cooking.

"Qianyi doesn't like dirty things..." She muttered this sentence, went to take a bath, picked out a long shirt and trousers and put them on to cover the wound.

She picked and washed the vegetable leaves one by one, more carefully than ever before, she stood in the kitchen blankly, listening to the noise outside, it seemed that Zhou Qianyi was going home from get off work as usual.

"Qianyi will be happy to see these when she comes back."

she muttered.

In the evening, she sat at the dining table and put away the bowls, two bowls, and two pairs of chopsticks.

The color of the dishes is very good, exuding a strong fragrance, but the hall is still deserted.

She just sat in her seat like this, waiting for Zhou Qianyi to come to eat.

The second hand ticked away.

The steaming hot dishes were completely cold, but Yu Qingyue was still sitting in her seat.She wore long sleeves to cover the wound, all the buttons were buttoned neatly, and her hair was simply tied up, showing a rather virtuous appearance.

Waiting until early morning, Yu Qingyue's eyes were bloodshot, she pursed her lips, looked at a table of cold dishes, and said: "I see, you may not like it, I will cook something else for you tomorrow." .Are you coming back?"

She knew that Zhou Qianyi would not come back.

She cleaned up the dishes and poured out all the dishes, and she didn't eat anything.Then he washed and let his hair loose, went to the bed and looked at the pillow next to him.She rubbed the pillow, and tears fell into the bed.

Yu Qingyue looked at her arm full of scars, then looked at the pillow, the night light was left on, she smiled and said:

"Qianyi, good night."

"I'll wait for you to come back."

"It's not dark at night, with me, don't be afraid."