Xu Jun's life

For a moment, I almost thought he was sad.

But in the next second, he turned into the impeccable Li Zhurong again, and he said in his usual arrogant tone: "I don't understand what you're talking about."

Actually, you know exactly what I'm talking about.It's just that you can't give me what I want from you, and you won't let me go, so you pretend you don't understand anything.

It's just that I'm too ridiculous, until this time, I'm still trying my best to make him "understand".

I said, "Xiao Zhe, I probably haven't told you the story of my parents."

"My dad has been studying physics all his life. He has a weird temper. He doesn't care about what others care about, but he says what he cares about. My mother has been accommodating him all her life. My dad also accommodates my mother. My mother doesn't like it. Because of the smell of cigarettes, he doesn’t smoke at home. During the Chinese New Year, both of us squatted on the stairs to smoke. They also quarreled and would not speak for a whole month. But they also came here.”

I said: "Xiao Zhe, when two people get along, there will always be problems of one kind or another. When encountering troubles before, I always thought, I will accommodate you a little bit, give in a little bit, and this matter will pass like this."

"However, I am not a saint. I will be tired too. I also think, why can't you give in a little bit, even a little bit? I have been waiting, but I have not waited until the end. In fact, sometimes I think, if I It would be great if I could die immediately..." I closed my eyes, and it seemed like a ball of cotton was stuck in my throat. I waited for a long time until the sourness in my nose subsided, and then slowly said: "Little Zhe, if we are in love, we should break up. If not, please let me go."

As I spoke these words, he kept looking at me quietly.

After I finished speaking, he was silent for a while before he opened his mouth and said, "In the past, Xu Mei..."

He only said four words and then closed his mouth. He pursed his thin lips for a long time before saying, "Go upstairs."

He sits there like a sculpture that has existed since ancient times, and will not move anyone.

Xu Meiyuan is his mother.

He didn't say anything.

Because his mother didn't leave him anything to say.She had done nothing for him other than giving birth to him.

I grew up in an ordinary family.Until I met his mother, I never knew that there were such mothers in the world.

I remember that our matter was discovered by his grandfather, and the frightening old man called me upstairs to speak and ordered him to stand in the living room and wait.When I came down, the mother was just coming home.Well maintained, eyebrows and lips are just like him.Behind her is a driver-like figure with many shopping bags in his hands.

As soon as she entered the door, she walked towards Li Zhurong fiercely. She wore stiletto heels, her face was full of resentment, and she scolded him in a low voice: "You have embarrassed us, now your uncle should be happy... "

And Li Zhurong just glanced at her arrogantly, and said coldly: "Do you have a share in this family?"

Such a mother followed him in a well-dressed manner when he started high school.Shuttle among the parents of the same class as her, smiling, and complaining to those parents that he doesn't want to talk to them, pretending to be the most gentle mother.

When I said I hated him, it was a lie.

After going to his house, I couldn't hate him anymore.

Perhaps, no one is wrong, but the time is wrong.

I always wanted to say to him: I'm sorry I didn't let you meet me earlier.

But I never said it, because it was too hypocritical.

Because the most vulgar and cheapest four words in the world are to hate each other late.

I was locked up again by Li Zhurong.

It is not appropriate to say yes.Because he doesn't seem to be very busy these days, he often takes me for a run.He forced me to run up the steps on the mountain. He was wearing casual clothes, with long hands and long feet. He ran far away by himself, and then stood on a high place and waited for me leisurely.

Sometimes he even laughs unconsciously, obviously he is such a cold and hard person, but his eyes are squinted when he smiles.His lips were thin, and the upward curve was obvious when he smiled, and his whole face became gentle.

But that's just sometimes.

Most of the time, he wears a haute couture suit, from shoulders to back to waist, leaving a straight and indifferent back. When I woke up in the morning, he stood by the window like this, not moving or talking, I think He may be in a daze.

But being in a daze is a luxury for him.

He was always busy, phone calls, documents, meetings, and he sometimes came back late at night, took a shower, and went to bed lightly—for him, this was almost an unthinkable behavior.

We seldom talk, and he has a lot of books in his upstairs study, which I can read at will.I seem to be reading all day long, but in fact, if he is around, I can't read the book.

My life is not sad, I am even comfortable, but I am not at ease, I am like when I was in elementary school, I went to my classmates' house after school to play and have fun, but I always looked at the window inadvertently, because it was already dark outside , guilt is unsettling.

I think I will remember this period of time after a long time.

April [-]th, the morning has been windy.He grabbed me to go for a run, and when I was going down the mountain, it suddenly started to rain, a very small drizzle, the kind you can only feel when it touches your face.As we were walking, he suddenly pulled me over and wrapped me in his windbreaker.

He put his arms around my shoulders, laughed, and said, "This height is just right."

I don't really mind height, although I'm only 1.7m1.7.But probably because the atmosphere at that time was so good, I explained: "My dad is 1.6 meters seven, but my mother is only [-] meters."

He raised his eyebrows and said proudly, "My grandfather is 1.9 meters tall."

I didn't take his word for it.

On April fourteenth I left his house.

I always thought that Li Zhurong would not let me go back to R University.

In fact he didn't let it go either.But April [-]th is his son's birthday, probably because his son filed a criminal complaint and invited Mr. Li's family over.

I was in the garden when Mr. Li arrived, and suddenly there were many footsteps coming from behind. I turned around and saw a hale and hearty old man with white hair, wearing a Chinese tunic suit, tall, with complicated but stern eyes looking at me.

The look in his eyes can be summed up in one sentence: Why is this guy named Xu Xu still alive?

I knew a long time ago that if I die, he will be the first to set off firecrackers.

Mr. Li never said a word to me from the beginning to the end. He looked at me like a bug, and ordered the people next to him to drive me out. Yuan Hai is not here, and the people Li Zhurong put in the villa have no backbone. Just let them kick me out.

Li Zhurong's son has been standing in the living room, arms folded, looking at me calmly.

This kid is a fine person and likes to hold grudges very much.When I was at Martha’s Manor, I teased him and deliberately refused to let him eat the dishes, but after coaxing him for a day, he refused to eat.

He doesn't like me, but he doesn't want me dead either.The people of the Li family are strong at this point, they are very good at weighing the priorities, and they are so calm that they are hardly human.So I'm not good at talking about feelings.I heard Zheng Yehu talk about Mr. Li's romantic history before, saying that he married a Russian woman and turned her mad within three months.Nine months later, the woman entrusted someone to bring him a baby, who was Li Zhurong's father.

I was young and vigorous at that time, and I reasoned with him, saying that he had problems with Li Zhurong's education, that it was because of such a family that Li Zhurong was so indifferent...

I babbled a lot, thinking that I was presenting facts and reasoning, and I could convince others.In less than half a month, I was persuaded to quit by R University. The vice principal said: You harassed the male student you tutored. Just drop out.

Only then did I understand that some people won't reason with you because they don't even bother to talk to you.He only needs to drop one fact, and you will be defeated.

I went back to R University again. When I went back, it was class time, and my house was still very clean. I didn’t bother to clean up, so I just lay on the bed.

Suddenly I remembered that Shen Wanyi once asked me to visit her doctoral supervisor on the phone.

I received the call from Shen Wanyi around April 30th. At that time, Li Zhurong had just returned the phone to me. I received a call from Shen Wanyi within half an hour. She kept scolding me why I was so slumped until I was only [-] years old, and then she asked me what I was doing, and I said I was looking at flowers.

She immediately realized: "Are you staying with Li Zhurong now?"

I said I didn't stay together, we lived together.

She froze for a moment and said, "That's a good thing."

She and Xiaoyao have different views on the matter between me and Li Zhurong. Xiaoyao's point of view has always been to let me carry it to the end. Instead, she often persuades me to take it easy. The past is over, and the key is to enjoy the present.

This time she persuaded me again, saying: "Xu Xu, don't be too stubborn. What's the big deal in this world? Both of us are fine, and we don't lose arms or legs, so don't mess around. Get together and have a good time. Right. There are only so few days in a person's life, and it is a day to live a good life. There is nothing more important than you. He is alive, and you are alive, and there is nothing that cannot be solved. How dare you be so brave, Li Zhurong Before I found you, what kind of life did you live, you stayed in C University for ten years, did you go to the back mountain to see flowers once?"

She is from the south, but after many years of Yu Zheng's death, she began to imitate Yu Zheng and speak with the tone of a northerner unconsciously, and I don't know why.

She said, "Ask Lin Youqi, if he can change his situation with you, he would be willing to lose ten years of life."

In the end, I couldn't listen to her words.

I think there are always some things in this world that are more important than living.

There are not so many stories in this world where you live and I live so we are together.

It's like, there is always a person, you once loved him so much that you could die, but in the end you couldn't accompany him to the end.