Xu Jun's life

After dinner, it was already dark.

I don't like to eat vegetables, and I don't have much fruit at home. Only the oranges I bought a few days ago are still in the refrigerator. Seeing him sitting on the sofa, he doesn't seem to want to leave at all.I had to cut up the orange and bring it to him.

He was trained by his grandfather as his successor since he was a child, and he has been socializing and dealing with business matters in foreign countries.So his taste is western food.Back then, I saw him and Xia Zhifei ridiculing each other. Xia Zhifei also said something to the effect that in European cuisine, there is no other way except for a few pieces of meat and vegetable leaves, only those with shallow roots, Nouveau riche with low self-esteem can't wait to eat western food, learn etiquette, and wish to step into the upper class in one step.

Li Zhurong has a light taste. When he is busy, eating some vegetables and fruits is also a meal.I don't like meat, and I always feel that eating only vegetables is the same as cattle eating grass.My mother works in the cafeteria and cooks good dishes, but she is very indulgent to me. My father only cares about my studies, no matter what I eat.I can almost list a dictionary of things I don't like to eat.

The few kinds of vegetables I would like to eat are only the stalks, which are still used to stir-fry meat, and the other is to eat eggplant.The rest, from cabbage greens to winter squash and squash, to cabbage and cauliflower, all are not eaten.Don't eat onion, ginger, garlic, scallions, cinnamon and pepper, coriander, no matter what kind of food you make, as long as you thicken it, don't eat it.Fruits are more picky, mangoes and other watery ones, apples and other sweet ones, watermelon, durian, jackfruit, and grapes, as long as they are sweet, they are not touched.The same goes for snacks, and even more so for drinks.

I once wondered if I didn't like sweets, maybe I had diabetes, and asked Lin Youqi for advice, but he refused with "It's hard for me to explain this problem to a medical idiot".

But when I was in City C, he often came to my house to have a meal. After observing my eating habits, he came to a conclusion: Xu Xu, if you continue to eat like this, if you live past 50, you can come to me.

In fact, I don’t need him to remind me. I know how to read it myself. For a while, the medical school subscribed dozens of magazines, so I gave some to our law school. I saw an article on it, saying that it was a man’s fingernail. The crescent moon disappeared for more than three months and I had to go for a medical examination. I was shocked at the time. Let alone three months, I haven't seen that thing for a whole year.

I am a timid person. In Lin Youqi's words: "You are full of the inferiority of Chinese people!" One of my outstanding characteristics is that I avoid diseases and avoid medical treatment.Even if I knew there was something wrong with my health, I would rather die than go to the hospital, because I was afraid that something would be found out and I would delay it if I could.

Lin Youqi couldn't understand me, and every time he thought about it, he scolded me. Before I left, he had already changed his words, saying that I was "the limitation of the peasant class".

Whatever he said, I said yes, yes, yes, yes, turned around and went my own way.

It's not that I don't want to be like him, running around the school every day after getting up.But I can't, I don't have his self-discipline.

I have never been the protagonist of an inspirational story, and I have never possessed such qualities as being kind and strong.I have no willpower, I am lazy, and I give up on myself.Sometimes I have a sudden whim, wanting to be like the protagonist in an American inspirational comedy, suddenly hit the chicken blood, work hard, get enlightened, fight for my dream when I was young, and create a second spring in my life...

But I am not the main character.I'm not kind, I'm not brave, and I'm not even funny.I am not a genius. The film uses a few montage shots to show how hard I am. After working hard, I can stand at the pinnacle of international physics and win the Nobel Prize. , and then happyend.

I'm just Xu Xu.

I was doing the dishes when the door knocked.

Li Zhurong, who was sitting in the living room, opened the door as a matter of course.

I didn't react until I realized that the room was a little too quiet.

When I walked to the living room, I saw who the "guest" was.

Standing at the door, confronting Li Zhurong was my colleague, Frankenstein, and the owner of the pile of pots in my kitchen—Lin Sen.

"Lin Sen, what's the matter?" I stood behind Li Zhurong, trying my best to show my face from his arm that was propped across the door: "Lin Sen, come in first..."

Lin Sen was wearing a white shirt with black trousers underneath. His face was pale and he looked a bit embarrassed for some reason.

"He won't let me in." He stated calmly, he was a little shorter than Li Zhurong, and looked much weaker.

Of course I saw the facts he said. Not only did I see it, I was still pulling Li Zhurong's arm silently, trying to pull him away from the door.

Li Zhurong let me hold my hand for a long time, then suddenly grabbed my wrist, easily pushed me aside, frowned, glanced at Lin Sen, and asked me in a disgusted tone: "Why is this idiot looking for me again?" you?"

If someone else frowns, at least it can make people feel a little helpless.

But when he frowned, I could see nothing but simple disgust and high-profile displeasure.

"I didn't eat dinner." Although Lin Sen was blocked by him, he still stated his reason for coming: "I didn't eat lunch..."

"If you don't have food, go buy it yourself!" Li Zhurong interrupted him impatiently: "Do you still need someone to feed you? Idiot?"

Lin Sen glanced at him.

"I won't talk to you, I want to eat." The Frankenstein despised him very indifferently: "My IQ is [-], you are not as tall as me, you are an idiot."

I felt the danger immediately.

He grabbed my wrist and dragged me into the bedroom, I tried my best to resist, turned around and shouted to Lin Sen: "Lin Sen, you go back first, I'm fine, you go back quickly..."

Li Zhurong dragged me into bed

room, threw it on the bed, then opened the door and walked out.

He wanted to deal with Lin Sen, and thought I was in the way, so he threw it aside first.

When he was angry, his tactics became more ruthless. For him, maybe it was just a lesson to the person who angered him, but for others, maybe even the fate was changed.

I grabbed his wrist.

The strength of the mantis arm to block the car... But before he let me go, I hooked his neck, touched his cheek, and comforted him eagerly: "Don't be angry... he was just joking..."

He looked at me coldly and let me do useless work. After a long time, the corners of his lips curled into a sneer.

"You overestimate your influence on me, Xu Xu."

I have overestimated, I know very well.If you were really so disdainful of all this, you wouldn't say a word.

"Stop venting your anger. If you want to lose your temper, just send it to me." I'm not a nice person, but I don't want to hurt others either.I was the one who provoked Lin Sen first, and I was also the one who attracted Li Zhurong. If Lin Sen offends Li Zhurong, it is my responsibility.

"Knowing that I'm going to lose my temper, I'm going out with other people on purpose." He sneered disdainfully: "I thought you wouldn't play tricks like playing hard to get women."

This person, who was eating at my dinner table half an hour ago, and was holding an orange I peeled in his hand 5 minutes ago, is now able to sneer at me frankly.

Because he thinks that anyone should treat him well, and my kindness to him is no different from the kindness of the cook and housekeeper in his family. The only difference is that they have a salary, and I don't.

Because I like him.

He was so sure of this that in his eyes, Xu Xu became an emotionless person, and everything he said and did was to attract his attention.He is convinced of his influence on Xu Xu, so Xu Xu should be a puppet who has no friends, no colleagues, is on call 24 hours a day, and only has eyes for him.

Ten years ago, maybe I could have done it, because I was young then.One of the signs of being young is that you can do a lot of stupid things.At that time, I barely reached the standard, and I was around him all day long, and I still felt that the world was vast and life was beautiful.

Unfortunately, he is not rare.

Now, Xu Xu in his mind is still the same as it was ten years ago, but his mentality has changed, maybe because he thinks that I don't have a salary, so it's a good deal.Maybe it's not bad to find such a person around me.So he came back to me again.And set high standards and strict demands on me, and strive to bring me back to the peak state that was so stupid and bubbling ten years ago.

But I can't do it.

I'm not a puppet, I'm human.

My friends, though few, are friends.My colleagues, although strange, are also easy to get along with.Even Meng Su would say thank you after eating my meal.Even Lin Sen knows how to smile at me.

No matter how much I like you, no matter how heartless I am, I still want you to smile at me.I'm not brass, I'm just human.

"Let's go..." I finally said to him like this, I know I must be very depressed now, as if my favorite thing has been snatched away by someone.

He looked at me coldly, with a flash of surprise in his eyes.But he quickly returned to normal.

What is there to panic about?He is Li Zhurong, everything in this world is under his control, how wonderful, he understands everything.

"Stop putting on airs here," he held my shoulders, stared at me with a sneer, his deep eyes looking into the depths of my soul: "You obviously want to see me, why pretend? I'm willing to eat your cooking, Don't be too happy in your heart. Don't do this with me..."

"If you want to eat my meal, you can ask your driver to come and get it from me." I looked at my fingers and said slowly, "Don't bother me again."

"Harassment?" He stood there with an expression of "you are so ridiculous" on his face, and said mockingly, "You should be very happy to be 'harassed' by me, right?"

"I know what you want." After I finished speaking lightly, I raised my head and looked up at him.

"I like you. When I stay with you, I am very happy and happy. I want to find you what you want. I like to cook for you and be with you. None of this has changed. "

"But, I don't want to see you now, Li Zhurong."

"Your son is four years old this year. Every time I think of him, I feel that I am the biggest joke in the world. My dad is 61 this year. When people ask him what major I am studying, he always says that he is studying physics. .But I didn’t study physics, I studied law. I haven’t studied physics for ten years. I can’t even compare to a graduate student now.”

"I'm 31 years old this year, Li Zhurong." I looked up at him, and something probably slipped from my eyes. The man in front of me was as handsome and proud as he was back then. Over the past ten years, I have been behind him, chasing from a distance, chasing after him, and finally I am tired.

"I know, you always think that you are a swan. Everyone in this world is a toad, and they should all look up to you, and they will be overjoyed when they look at you."

"But a toad also has a toad's life, and a toad also has relatives and a job. A toad can't live a lifetime waiting to look at it. You will have other people, such as Chen Ke, who will like you more than me, and they will like you more than me. Better for you."

"I know I can't ask for anything from you. But, for the sake of being a teacher and a student. Please let me go..." I spread my palms, and the palm lines were like knives in my palms. One clean break.

For the sake of liking you so much before, let me go...

All kinds of things in the past are already so unbearable, let me keep a little bit of thinking, let me remember the stupid things when I was young, and show a bitter smile instead of crying bitterly when I am old.

All I want is this

That's all.

But this man named Li Zhurong, he stood there, looking at me with a cold face, the expression in his eyes changed rapidly.Finally, he leaned down, put his hands on my shoulders, and looked straight at me, his eyes deep as hell.

He said, "Xu Xu, don't think about it."