Xu Jun's life

"Xiao Zhe?"

"it's me."

"Where are you now?"

The sound of the door closing, I couldn't ignore that sound was similar to what I heard on the recording.

"I'm having a meeting outside." His voice was very calm: "Have you eaten yet?"

"have eaten."

"What time are you going home?"

"It's probably going to be dark," I explained to him habitually, "My dad likes it here."

"At that time, I will drive to pick you up. Let's come out for dinner. I have reserved a place at Yutai. Let Yuan Hai pick up my aunt when the time comes."

"it is good."

"Okay, that's it."

"Xiao Zhe." I stopped him.

"Ok?"

"come back earlier."

He is lying to me.

If he really had a meeting, the phone would usually be in Yuan Hai's hands.Such a great opportunity, how could Yuan Hai not grab me and give me a mean meal?

He is out there alone.

He is seeing a psychiatrist.

I didn't go back to the lab.

There was Qi Jing taking care of it, and I had nothing to do when I went back, so I just sat on the roadside outside the research institute. It was midsummer, and Albizia Julibrissin was blooming everywhere, and Beijingers called it lantana flower.The afternoon sun fell in spots from the shadows of the trees, creating halos all over the place.

Before, it was at this place.I talked to Li Zhurong, and I said, one day, I will definitely enter this institute and win the biggest award in the physics world.I said, Xiao Zhe, you have seen everything, you must have never seen that medal.At that time, I will definitely bring back the medal and show it to you.

The words are still in my ears.

Everything is wrong.

Li Zhurong came over at five o'clock.

He was sitting in an unfamiliar black RV, the driver was driving the car, and there was an unfamiliar young man in the car.

"Why are you sitting under a tree?" He stepped out of the car and stretched out his hand to pull me: "Uncle is on it?"

He grabbed my wrist and led me upstairs.The young man followed behind us.I looked at him, and smiled: "I'm Li Chang."

The Xia family used to have Lu Feixia, but now they have Jin Yun.The Zheng family has Lin Wei, and the Li family has Li Chang.

"Don't go up, let's take a walk below."

He probably also knew that I had something to say to him, so Li Chang followed from a distance.

What I took him was the way to our former teaching building.

I always remember that when I first became his tutor, I asked him for leave for the first time because of school affairs.He was very upset, and ran to our school to find me, with a cold expression on his face, wearing a black British school uniform, and standing at the door of our classroom with arms folded.

I was inexplicably pleasantly surprised, and took him for a stroll around our school, which was the same path I took at that time.

The predecessor of R University was a very beautiful garden, and the lotus pond inside was very famous.

We sat down under the shade of the willows. It was class time, and only a few art students were sketching there.

"Xiao Zhe, do you think I like you because of your face?" This is my first sentence.

His body tensed up immediately, and he stood up.

His face was well-defined and his eyes were long and narrow. When his face turned cold, it made everyone around him nervous.

"Zhongli's office was monitored?" He reacted almost instantly, narrowing his eyes: "Who did it? Zheng Yehu or Ji Ye?"

I grabbed his hand.

"It doesn't matter who did it. The important thing is that I have something to tell you now." I emphasized my tone and told him, "I said, I want to have an open and honest talk with you."

He glanced around suspiciously.

I know that his heart is by no means as peaceful as it looks on the surface.

That's what he is.The more restless he was, the more arrogant he appeared on the surface, pretending that everything could not be seen by him.

"Sit down, Xiao Zhe, listen to me, and it's not too late to find someone to trouble you."

He finally sat down, fingers crossed on his knees.

"I didn't know your reason until this morning..." I kept holding his wrist: "You don't want to know, what do you think after hearing your reason?"

He glanced at me.

"what idea?"

"I want to beat you up."

He curled his lips into a smile, but the smile was fleeting, and I don't think it was because he thought it was funny.

"I don't know if I misunderstood it," I looked into his eyes and asked, "Do you think that I was with you in the first place simply because you were good-looking. So five years ago, your grandfather was no longer a hindrance After that, you didn't come to me right away, but quietly followed me to GAY, right?"

He was unmoved, as if it wasn't some funny stupid thing at all.

"Do I still have to praise you for being patient? You turned around and returned to Beijing after taking one look at me, and gave birth to a child! If you stay in Beijing for the rest of your mother's life, why do you go to City C again?" Come! What have you been doing for the past five years?"

He pursed his lips and said nothing.

I just feel that the anger that I suppressed this morning is welling up again. This is a farce. What's better, I seem to be the only one in this farce who doesn't know it!

"Are you still not saying anything?" I stared closely at his eyes, and the dark blue pupils were calm.

"I have nothing to say." He said lightly, "I don't need to explain."

"I need."

He stood up.

"Go back, uncle should be hungry..."

I'm still gripping his wrist tightly.

"Does the teacher want to go back with me, or should I carry the teacher back?" He asked me calmly.

"It's not that difficult, Xiao Zhe..." I looked at him pleadingly: "You always have to say it. When you are alone, don't you say it well...why can't you tell me..."

He pursed his lips tightly, like the most stubborn sculpture in the world.

I just felt chills all over my body. I don’t know how many times I looked at these dark blue eyes, as if I was looking at the deepest and darkest Dead Sea. I would never be able to see through. How many secrets.

"I need an answer, you know, Xiao Zhe..." I just felt my eyes warm up: "Do you remember, we were not like this before..."

He looked away.

He seemed to be carrying something heavy, and he straightened his back arrogantly, he was always so stubborn...

"I," the light-colored lips were only opened for a moment, and then closed tightly like scallops. He turned his face and looked at me quietly.

He is almost mournful.

I'm afraid to look him in the eye.

Those dark blue eyes seemed to be silently questioning me.

It was getting dark, and the sky was full of blood-red sunset glow, which made the eyes seem to be dripping with blood.

"I have also tried to be the kind of good person that the teacher likes..." He seemed to swallow the sharp blade, and every word was painful: "I didn't do it."

I kissed him.

I know, I know it all.

I know, you used to be afraid, you know, I want to be a physicist, and you know, when I left, I had such anger and hatred.So you dare not see me, you only dare to take a sneak peek at what I am doing first.

I know, you always thought that no one would like you.Your parents don't like you, your grandpa doesn't like you, so you don't know how good you are.You don't know, it turns out that liking doesn't need a reason.Whether you are domineering or withdrawn, I like you both.This is impossible, who let me meet you?

I know that you have tried very hard to be a good person.You want to put me in city C and meet better people.You think that you are the person I hate the most in 25 years, you think that I will never want to see you in this life.You used to, and you didn't want to imprison me, and you didn't want to force me.But Xiao Zhe, after being a good person for five years, you ran to City C, grabbed me out of a small ditch, and told me that you will never let me go in your life.

I know all this since I listened to that recording.

But I still want to hear from you.

This is punishment.

"Xiao Zhe, look, it's not that difficult to say it..." I was still a little short of breath, and after a while, I looked into his eyes and said, "Don't hide anything from me in the future, okay?"

He probably felt ashamed to explain to me just now, so he looked away arrogantly.

"I know you don't like to explain, but I'm not as smart as you think. There are many things that you can't let me think on my own..." I held his wrist and continued: "And there are still some things that I want to talk to you say."

He glanced at me: "What's the matter?"

"I don't look very good-looking, and my physics is only average now, and my temper is too indecisive." I lowered my eyes: "I always thought that the reason you like me is because I treat you well."

He lifted my head up: "What nonsense are you talking about, and you are not the only one who treats me well, why do I like you?"

I laughed: "Now you know why I wanted to beat you up after listening to that recording?"

He was generalized by me, he hummed, and dragged me towards the research institute.

"Xiao Zhe, you will tell me everything in the future, right?"

He gave a "hmm" indifferently.

"Would you like to explain your injuries to me?" I asked him, "Or did you change your shirt because you took a shower outside, and the bandages because you fell in the bathroom. And because you were frightened, So you want to transfer Li Chang to be your bodyguard?"

He stopped, squinting at me.

I stared at him relentlessly.

"It's just a small matter." He explained to me in a very reluctant tone: "I went to find Zhongli in the morning. I didn't bring anyone with me. When I came out, someone cut me. It was a small injury and no stitches were needed."

Although I knew it was useless, my hands were trembling when I tried to unbutton his shirt.

He took my hand.

"Although it's rare for a teacher to be so enthusiastic..." He leaned towards my ear with the corners of his lips curled up, and kissed me on the face: "But I still want to feed the teacher, so that the teacher will not do half of it like last time. Just faint."