There is a kind of you to hit again

"Is it something?" Guan Ze asked.

"You know what I want to say, you don't want it." Lin Yao sat up nervously.

"Don't tell your family." Guan Ze's voice was low, but clear, and his tone was still firm.

"Why?" Lin Yao didn't understand, "I just thought, it's too uncomfortable to hide it like this every day, you don't have to worry about it and just say it, I have to give my wife an explanation."

"Didn't you say before that you didn't have time to think about these things?" Guan Ze took a sip of tea.

"In the past, I didn't have time to think about it. I just wanted to have a good talk with you. I wanted to have a beginning and not think about the end." Lin Yao sighed, "But now I have to think about it, I can't just go on like this Bar."

"Then let me ask you, will your mother accept it?" Guan Ze asked.

Lin Yao frowned, and didn't make a sound. After thinking for a long time, he fell back on the pillow: "I don't know, with my mother's personality, I really can't guess how she will react."

"Where's your father, where's your brother?" Guan Ze asked again, and said after a pause, "Don't think about these things, you haven't thought about how to face this situation."

"Guan Ze," Lin Yao stared at the lamp on the wall, "Will you regret it?"

"Regret what?"

"I regret following me like a fool."

"I never thought about it," Guan Ze didn't let Lin Yao continue, his tone suddenly became a little anxious, "I won't tell you now, I seem to want to have diarrhea."

Before Lin Yao could say anything, Guan Ze had already hung up the phone, and Lin Yao was stunned for a long time holding the phone.

Have loose bowels?Eat bad noodles?

He didn't know if he was a little sensitive. Guan Ze was acting weird all the time today. He couldn't tell what was wrong, but he felt that it was different from usual. This change made him very uneasy, but when he thought about it, he felt nothing.

think too much?Lin Yao sat up annoyed and got out of bed, went to the bathroom to wash his face, walked around the room a few times, and opened the door. He planned to go downstairs to watch TV with his mother.

When Guan Ze rushed into the bathroom, he almost hit the door frame. The feeling of a splitting headache made him a little bit overwhelmed, and the strong vomiting in his stomach due to the headache was also hard to resist.

When he vomited on the toilet, he felt dizzy, and his legs were a little bit unsupported, and he was shaking so badly that he had to support the wall with his hands to prevent himself from falling.

A few minutes later, Guan Ze could no longer vomit anything from his stomach, and turned on the nozzle, standing directly against the wall with his head in the hot water.

"Fuck..." He closed his eyes and said softly, his whole head seemed to explode, the pain was unbearable, and the hot water didn't relieve the pain in the slightest.

Finally, he turned off the water, walked out of the bathroom dripping wet, picked up his cell phone and made a call.

"Doctor Zhang," Guan Ze said, sitting on the carpet against the wall, "Private consultation?"

Zhang Xing is his classmate and has a good relationship with him. He also sorted out Guan Ze's previous information, and Zhang Xing handled all the appointments to check.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Xing's voice came from over there.

"I have a terrible headache, and painkillers are completely ineffective," Guan Ze tapped his fingers on his head, "Do you have any good prescriptions to save me?"

"What kind of pain method?"

"There is no way to say, there is no place that does not hurt, and it is fully covered."

"Have you vomited yet?"

"I threw up." Guan Ze stood up, and when he was sitting, he felt blood all over his body rushing to his head, and the pain was unbearable. "I've never had such a headache before."

"How did you vomit?" Zhang Xing asked again.

"Doctor, I just vomited, and I had a terrible headache. I really didn't observe how I vomited. I vomited while holding the toilet." Guan Ze took a sip of hot tea.

"Be serious," Zhang Xing said in a very serious tone, "Is it a feeling like jetting?"

Guan Ze leaned against the table and thought for a while: "Yes, what conclusion do you have."

"The check-up time should be earlier. It's not your cervical spine problem, it's your brain," the other side paused, "Are you too excited these two days? Did you get a year-end bonus?"

"I haven't been so excited about the year-end award yet." Guan Ze smiled, he understood what he meant.

"Don't be emotionally ups and downs, control it a little bit, aren't you very good at flattering or humiliating?" Zhang Xing also smiled, "Come over after the New Year's Day holiday, let's check carefully first."

"Success, tell me first, what should I do if I have a headache now?"

"Be patient."

Guan Ze took off all his wet clothes and lay naked on the bed.The house is well heated, and he also turned on the air conditioner. The room is warm, and he needs to relax completely at such a time.

Enduring pain is nothing, for Guan Ze, pain is not something too unbearable, the main reason is that this kind of headache is different from those pains he has experienced, there is not even a second interval.

No matter what method he tried, he couldn't divert his attention away from the pain. In the end, he had to open the drawer and take out a bottle of sleeping pills, which was given to him by the great Dr. Zhang Xing. He occasionally suffers from insomnia, and now he has such a headache. , I don’t know if this medicine can make him fall asleep.

In order to ensure that he fell asleep, Guan Ze ate three times more than usual, and then lay down on the bed.

As soon as the body lay flat, the blood would rush to the head, which made the head that was very sensitive due to the pain immediately feel like being hit with a hammer several times. Guan Ze had to sit up again and piled the quilt on the He leaned back and closed his eyes.

The medicine didn't help, Guan Ze endured it for almost an hour with his eyes closed, the pain didn't ease, and the drowsiness didn't appear at all.

He sighed, touched the phone and pressed it down, flipping through the text messages sent by Lin Yao.He really wants to call Lin Yao right now, it will make him feel more comfortable if he teases Lin Yao to be silly, but he probably can't concentrate on speaking now, Lin Yao is very sensitive in some aspects, he doesn't want Lin Yao to notice What came out.

He considered Lin Zong's words very carefully. Anyway, he didn't want to hurt Lin Yao's family, nor did he want to destroy such a warm home. He originally planned to tell Lin Yao the truth about the results of the inspection, but now he changed his mind. In the current situation, if Lin Yao knows the result is not so good, things will only develop in an irreversible direction.

Lin Yao and Lin Zong were watching TV with their mother on the sofa. Lin Yao was not interested in the content of the TV. It was nothing more than the hero and heroine. You love me, I don’t love you, I love you, you don’t love me. My mother watched it very interesting. , Lin Yao glanced at it one by one, thinking about the changes in Guan Ze uncontrollably.

"I'm not in a good mood today," my mother patted his face, "What's wrong?"

"No, the company has too much work." Lin Yao didn't look at his mother, but looked down at his fingers, "Maybe I'm a little tired."

"Then go to bed," my mother frowned distressedly, "You said you have to go to work in some company, and if you are so tired, you can go to your brother's place, if you want to go, if you don't want to go, just stay at home and rest , he can't do anything to you."

"What's the point?" Lin Yao smiled, and took a peek at Lin Zong. Lin Zong was watching TV seriously while peeling oranges, "And my brother is not so talkative."

"Your brother, someone will take care of him sooner or later." Mom looked at Lin Zong, "I'll wait and see."

"Want to see it?" Lin Zong suddenly turned to look at his mother, "I'll bring one back in two days for you to see."

Lin Yao was a little surprised. Lin Zong claimed to be broken-up not long ago, and now he can bring another one back?He couldn't help answering: "Aren't you broken in love?"

"Can you always lose?" Lin Zong glanced at him, "I've known this for a long time, Mom should know."

"I know?" Mom was stunned, and slapped Lin Zong on the back suddenly, "Ah, isn't that Ye Xiaoling! The one with big eyes? Your college classmate? He came to our house for dinner!"

"Well," Lin Zong nodded, "my mother has a pretty good memory."

"Of course I remember her. This girl is good. She is gentle and sensible. I like her very much." Mom was very excited. After shouting for a while, she stopped and frowned at Lin Zong. "She is not married yet. ? I know that she likes you, haven't you been ignoring her all the time? Oh, you think you're such a hot commodity! Now go back and look for her. "

His mother clicked his tongue for quite a while, but Lin Zong didn't smile or speak. He waited for his mother to finish his click before he said, "I didn't say I didn't like it. Ye Xiaoling is so nice. I didn't make up my mind not to provoke such a girl. Seriously."

"Then you mean that you're at ease now? Don't you change them one by one today?" Mom couldn't believe it.

"When did I change one today and one tomorrow?" Lin Zong couldn't help raising his voice, "Don't make me sound like..."

"Anyway, I changed a lot." Mom waved her hand, "Speaking of the main point, do people take care of you?"

"Well, if you are willing, I will marry her back after the new year." Lin Zong stood up and walked to the kitchen, "Is there any milk?"

"It's in the refrigerator," my mother yelled again after being stunned for a while, "I am willing, ouch, of course I am willing!"

"That works." Lin Zong entered the kitchen.

"Does your brother mean that he is going to marry Ye Xiaoling?" Mom turned around and patted Lin Yao on the shoulder.

"Ah," Lin Yao finally recovered after being photographed, but was still surprised, "That's what it means."

"Go and help me get the juice out," my mother patted him again with a smile on her face, "I need to calm down."

"Oh." Lin Yao stood up and ran into the kitchen.

Lin Zong was pouring milk, Lin Yao hesitated for a while after taking out the juice from the refrigerator, and walked to Lin Zong: "Brother."

"Huh?" Lin Zong responded, and put the milk cup into the microwave to heat it.

"Why do you suddenly want to get married? Still with Ye Xiaoling?" Lin Yao couldn't figure out what was going on with Lin Zong. Lin Zong didn't have many girlfriends, and he didn't seem to have thought of getting married. Marriage surprised Lin Yao, and the most important thing was that he and Ye Xiaoling had never talked about it.

"What's the matter?" Lin Zong turned around and folded his arms to look at him, "I've always liked her."

"...It's nothing, it's just very sudden." Lin Yao scratched his hair.

"Mom has been thinking about my daughter-in-law for a long time." Lin Zong opened the microwave oven and took out the milk, and patted him on the back. "I can't count on you for the time being, and I don't want to procrastinate. Let her feel at ease."

Lin Yao looked at the back of Lin Zong walking out of the kitchen, and his heart sank. Lin Zong's words made his hands feel cold.

Lin Zong must know something, he followed behind slowly holding the fruit juice, Lin Zong seldom speaks in this tone, he must know something!

Lin Yao was restless all night. His mother was very excited to confirm with Lin Zong about his marriage. He sat on the sofa without listening to a word. His mind was full of chaos and he didn't know what he was thinking. About Guan Ze, he thought for a while about whether he should come out of the closet, and then suddenly thought of Lin Zong, and suddenly scared himself into a cold sweat.

It was not until the discussion between his mother and Lin Zong came to an end, and his mother poked him on the forehead to let him take a shower and sleep, that he checked the time, it was almost eleven o'clock.

He responded, went upstairs and returned to his room, walked around twice in a daze, picked up the phone and dialed Guan Ze's number.

The phone rang for a long time, but Guan Ze didn't answer it, so he had to hang up the phone and continue to circle around the room. After walking around for almost half an hour, he slapped the wall hard, opened the door and walked out.

The door of Lin Zong's room was not closed, he was playing games in the room, and the killing was lively.

"Brother," Lin Yao stood at the door, holding on to the door frame, trying to control his thoughts of turning around and running back to his room, "Are you free?"

"Yes," Lin Zong looked back at him, and forced the game to quit, "What's wrong?"

Lin Yao didn't speak, walked into the room, and closed the door behind him.It took only a few steps from the door to the chair next to Lin Zong'er, but Lin Yao was having a hard time walking, and almost pulled his leg forward with his hand.

"Brother," Lin Yao finally sat down on the chair, he gritted his teeth, "Let's talk about it, I really can't bear it."

Lin Zong glanced at him, stood up and opened the window, threw a cigarette into his hand, lit another one for himself, then sat back on the chair and said: "You start."

As soon as Lin Yao heard this, he wished he could put the cigarette in his hand into his mouth and chew it. He wanted to listen to Lin Zong's tone with the last chance, but when he opened his mouth, Lin Yao bit down. Ya scolded viciously in his heart, fox!

However, he didn't think that there was any room for turning back. Lin Zong looked at him as if he was transparent since he was a child. He had no doubts about what Lin Zong already knew. He was just wondering how much Lin Zong knew.

"I..." Lin Yao took a few deep breaths, put his mouth on his mouth and lit it, took a puff, held the cigarette in his hand and stared at the cigarette end, "I fell in love with someone."

"Yeah." Lin Zong didn't say anything else.

"This man..." Lin Yao continued with difficulty, almost breaking the armrest of the chair, "It's a man."

After saying this, Lin Yao leaned back into the chair, his whole body seemed to be exhausted, he couldn't hold the cigarette, his hands were trembling all the time, he had to put the cigarette in his mouth and bite it with his teeth.

This is very good, and it can effectively prevent teeth from fighting when you are nervous.

"Lin Yao, I really didn't expect it." Lin Zong moved forward enough to touch his head, "How dare you tell me about this."

"You already know, don't you?" Lin Yao didn't bother to smoke, and the ashes fell on his pants when he spoke, "How much do you know, brother, you don't tell me anything, I'm almost holding back Crazy, I really..."

"Is there any difference if I tell you or not?" Lin Zong sighed, took the cigarette off his mouth, flicked the ash and put it back on his mouth.

"You want to get married because of this." He looked at Lin Zong. "Because I am like this, so you are in a hurry to get married so that my mother can feel at ease?"

"Not all," Lin Zong stood up and walked to the window, "However, this time I won't be on your side. From childhood to adulthood, I will protect you in everything, but not this time. Nothing else is the same."

"I can see it." Lin Yao felt that his whole body was aching from the cold, and the muscles on his back were stiff. "If you could stand by my side, you would have told me a long time ago."

"How do you plan to deal with this matter?" Lin Zong pinched his cigarette, and stood beside Lin Yao, "If you think I don't know about this matter, how will you deal with it?"

"I won't say it so early," Lin Yao replied in a muffled voice, "I admit that I have thought too little about it, but at least it is a fact that I like men, brother, I have never been tempted by girls , never... I can't marry any girl in my life."

"I don't care if you get married or not, you are only 24 and no one will force you to get married," Lin Zong leaned on the arm of the chair and looked down at him, "But this is different from falling in love with a girl, I just want you to think about it What do you want? Parents can’t accept this kind of thing. If you must do this, you have to bear all the consequences. If you don’t think about what to do, and you’re not sure if you can handle it, don’t say it.”

"Brother..." Lin Yao was silent for a long time, and asked softly, "Do you hate me?"

"No." Lin Zong bent down and hugged him.

Lin Yao bit his lip, pressed his eyes on Lin Zong's shoulder, his voice trembling: "I've always been scared, I'm afraid that my parents will feel bad, I'm afraid that they will be disappointed, I'm afraid that our family will become unhappy because of me, But I'm also afraid that my whole life will pass by alone like this, I have a lot of things that no one can say, I dare not, I dare not say to anyone..."

Lin Zong didn't speak, but patted him on the back.

"I really didn't think that much before I met him. I never fell in love with anyone I liked. I never got a response," Lin Yao sniffed, "One day there was a response suddenly, you don't know me How happy, there is a person like me, I am also in love, this feeling is really good, I want to always be like this, I also know that I am too naive, think things too simple, I just want to say, I I didn't want to hurt anyone..."

"I know," Lin Zong took a tissue from the table and pressed it on Lin Yao's face, "I know."

"I dare not tell my parents, I'm afraid they won't be able to bear it," Lin Yao pressed the tissue, "I..."

"Let's celebrate the New Year first, let's talk about other things," Lin Zong patted him, "Go to sleep, I want to be quiet."

Lin Yao went back to his own room, went into the bathroom, looked at his red eyes in the mirror, turned on the hot water and stood under the nozzle.

When the water flowed down his hair and onto his face, he leaned against the wall and began to cry.

He felt that he was facing a dilemma he had never experienced before, like an unsolvable deadlock, no matter which direction he walked, what he encountered was a cold wall.

He wanted to be with Guan Ze, forever, but when he thought of his parents' distress, he felt as if something had pierced him.

After more than half an hour in the bathroom, he slowly came out in his pajamas.

Seeing the mobile phone lying quietly by the bedside, he couldn't help but pick it up and check it. There was no incoming call or text message. He hesitated for a while and dialed Guan Ze's number again.

There was still a long dial tone over there, and Guan Ze still didn't answer the phone.

"Guan Ze," Lin Yao threw himself onto the bed, listening to the dial tone, "What should I do?"