Restlessness

No one knows how long it took for the rain to stop gradually, just like Xu Yue was stunned all the way and finally didn't even know how he got to the hospital entrance.

During the ten minutes in the taxi, Xu Yue didn't even move, his eyes were fixed on the phone.His eyelids trembled slightly, but he didn't blink heavily.

Gu Yuan's whole body was drenched by the rain, from head to toe no one part was dry, but Xu Yue was wearing Gu Yuan's coat, his pupils were dilated, and his eyes were full of helplessness.He held his mobile phone tightly with his right fingertips, raising his hand from time to time to look at it carefully.

It wasn't until the lights outside the operating room went out that Xu Yue managed to regain his senses and saw a few medical staff in white coats and blue medical masks coming out of the door.

The door was very dark, and the blood dripping on the ground could be seen clearly for a moment.

After scanning around, several doctors shook their heads at Xu Yue and Gu Yuan.

"Doctor, doctor?" Gu Yuan took two steps forward and stopped the chief surgeon who just turned around, "What do you mean? Inside...that person inside..."

"Who are you?"

"I, I'm his son." Gu Yuan was a little anxious, turned his head and glanced at Xu Yue with empty eyes, and reached out and grabbed the doctor's sleeve, "Doctor, can you save him... I beg you , money, we have money, any amount of money is fine, as long as you can save him. Doctor, help him, please help him..."

Gu Yuan's words were somewhat incoherent, until finally his whole body slowly slid down along the wall outside the operating room.He didn't know what he just said, what he did, whether his voice was hoarse, whether he disturbed other patients, whether he really shed tears... If he shed tears, would it be seen by others? a bit embarrassing...

One question after another got deeper and deeper in Gu Yuan's eyes, and finally only these few words remained in his mind.

Xu Yue can't live without him, really can't.

Gu Yuan was very scared, he was more afraid of that person disappearing unexpectedly than Xu Yue.

In Xu Yue's ears, the few words the doctor said a few seconds ago became the clues that completely collapsed his last line of defense. The heavy sword hanging from the top of his head fell heavily and was stuck in the heart and spattered with blood everywhere. .

It hurts, it really hurts... There is even a feeling of suffocation.

Xu Yue took a deep breath, struggling as if drowning in a swamp, he stretched out his hand and grabbed a few times indiscriminately.

In the end, he could only meet the eager and disgusted eyes of a passerby when he passed by.

"I'm sorry..." Xu Yue slowly let go of his hand, looked at the figure that was fading away, and whispered three words from the corner of his mouth. "sorry Sorry……"

These three words are too heavy, but they still can't find their owner, one after another, floating in the corridor full of disinfectant.

The chief surgeon just looked at Xu Yue's side face and sighed, and finally left the sentence "We really tried our best."

Gu Yuan closed his eyes and took a deep breath. When he stood in front of Xu Yue again, Gu Yuan opened his eyes slightly, and hugged the tired-eyed boy with his wet coat into his arms with great force. , I can't wait to rub him into my body.

This place is no stranger to Xu Yue, not only is he used to the smell of disinfectant that is unique to each hospital, but he even witnessed a life and death with his own eyes.Xu Yue read the three characters in the same font twice.

Once my mother was seriously ill and passed away.

The other time is right now.

Gu Yuan gently pushed Xu Yue back on the stool in the corridor, and he stuffed the silver-white mobile phone handed over by the doctor with a layer of paint worn off into Xu Yue's hand.

"This cell phone belongs to your father. The doctor said that when they rushed over, in his call records, the first two..."

Xu Yue's face was gloomy, and he suddenly pulled the corners of his mouth, showing an ugly smile, ugly enough to be described as grinning.

"It's for me." Xu Yue suddenly raised his head and looked at Gu Yuan, "But I didn't answer... Gu Yuan, I hung up those two calls with my own hands..."

"No, we were in class then. It wasn't you—"

"Gu Yuan, I told him to definitely attend this parents' meeting..." The mist in Xu Yue's eyes faded away, and there was a buzzing sound in his head, and the stretched string finished playing the final farewell song , broken strings splashed everywhere. "Gu Yuan, I am the culprit."

Xu Yue suddenly pushed Gu Yuan away, and the helplessness that remained in his eyes just now had unknowingly become daunting. At this moment, Gu Yuan felt a pain in his heart, like an extremely sharp knife. The dagger pierced into his heart fiercely and without hesitation, and then pulled it out abruptly.

When Xia Lan was crying so heartbreakingly, Xu Yue didn't even look at her, he just watched Xu Lu lying motionless and being sent into the cold machine from the outside.

Afterwards, there was only blackness left, and the only thing that could be seen was the red flame bursting out from the gap, like a pulse beating, one after another.

Gu Yuan shouldn't have appeared here, but he was really worried about Xu Yue.Especially this Xu Yue who can't say a word and doesn't shed a single tear.

Obviously, the boy standing in front of him is the one whom he puts in his heart and wants to protect him for the rest of his life, but why, Gu Yuan can't detect any remaining warmth from him.

Only the ice cones that covered the whole body remained.

A few days later, when Xia Lan appeared in Li Ye's office again because of the compensation issue, Xu Yue really realized that no one in this world would love him unconditionally and accompany him wholeheartedly.

In fact, he still has a lot of things in his heart to say to Xu Lu, so much that he can't finish it all night, and he needs to use every minute and every second of every day in the future to tell.

He wanted to tell Xu Lu that our future will be better, and it will definitely be.

Unexpectedly, Xu Lu has long since lost his future.

"This card contains part of your father's compensation, 15." Xia Lan knocked on the table, "The other part is from Mumu and I. Xu Yue, starting today, there will be no relationship between our mother and son and you." No more contact."

"Xu Yue, are you satisfied with this result? Do you know that all of this is because of you?"

"Carry this life on your back and live the rest of your life."

Gu Yuan's hands kept trembling, he stood up abruptly from the sofa on one side, and Li Ye stopped the half-raised glass ashtray abruptly.

"It's okay, let her talk. After all, what she lost was her husband. From now on, that little boy will have no father like me..."

Xu Yue blinked twice, took the brand new bank card and stuffed it into his pocket without even looking at it.

How much is the compensation?How many are left?Who is Mumu?Is it the little boy born to Xu Lu and Xia Lan?Is the full name also a single word like him?

Xu Yue slowly closed his eyes, and all the doubts came to an end at the last moment.Following the past, everything sank into the bottom of my heart.

Things backfired, and things changed.

Xu Yue signed the paper Xia Lan handed over without hesitation, put his hands in his pockets, and touched the corner of the bank card with his fingertips the moment he got up, he stopped and looked back at the child, and smiled wryly for a while. out of the office.

"You are Xia Lan, right? I heard Xu Yue mention it a long time ago." Gu Yuan frowned and suddenly squatted down, reaching out to touch the little boy in her arms who looked less than two years old, "Xu Lu He is the father of your son, but he is also Xu Yue's biological father."

"He usually doesn't even dare to call Xu Lu, for fear of disturbing the people in your life. What right do you have to say that about him?"

At this moment, Gu Yuan suddenly understood what the carelessness of the father and son was born out of nothing.

It's nothing more than an apology for being five years late

It doesn't matter.

The school was the place where rumors spread the fastest, especially after they witnessed Xia Lan coming out of the teacher's office with swollen eyes, guesses and hypotheses spread to the entire second grade at the fastest speed like some kind of virus.

Li Ranran and Zhou Hui heard the rumors from a few girls in Class 10. When they broke into Class A, Xu Yue was holding a pen expressionlessly and copying homework exercises in his homework book.After writing it once, tear off that page of homework paper again, and write it a second time...

Tear it up when it's full, tear it up and rewrite it...

The white balls of paper under the table for two gradually increased, and some rolled directly into the aisle on Gu Yuan's side.

Xu Yue's right hand trembled a few times from time to time, and even the handwriting on the white paper was sometimes dark and sometimes shallow, and the pen at the end of some words was bent several times.

With a "bang", the back door of Class A's classroom slammed into the wall, and the rain-soaked wall fell to the ground in an instant. Bai Hui rushed over from the ground and stuck to the last row of boys. on the back.

It also landed on Zhou Hui's left shoulder.

Gu Yuan lay on the table with his face sideways, half of his face was hidden in his arms, no one could clearly see what his current expression was like.

Just looking at the tightly knit brows, Li Ranran felt sad for a while.

"Xu Yue..." Li Ranran's voice suddenly sank, and after hesitating for a long time, he finally said the next sentence, "Are you okay..."

Zhou Hui couldn't help but glanced at Li Ranran, and the two immediately lowered their heads.

Are you ok?

How could it be okay?

After Li Ranran finished speaking, he raised his head again, only to see Gu Yuan suddenly kicked the stool away with a sense of irritability, strode out of the classroom and went downstairs directly.After that, only the silence between the three of them and the noise of other students in Class A reciting vocabulary texts or other knowledge points remained.

"Where's Gu Yuan?" Xu Yue finally raised his head slowly, raised the corner of his mouth slightly, and blood was squeezed out of the cracked mouth in an instant.

Li Ranran frantically grabbed half a bottle of mineral water from Gu Yuan's desk pocket and handed it over.

"I'm fine, don't worry." Xu Yue bent slightly, unscrewed the bottle cap and poured some into her mouth, and her Adam's apple rolled up and down twice.Xu Yue wiped the blood on his lips which was diluted with water, and smiled at Li Ranran again. "If I said that I carried a life on my body, would you be afraid?"

"Xu Yue, what are you talking about, don't talk nonsense." Zhou Hui was a little hurt by Xu Yue's smile, he moved forward a few steps and put his hand on Xu Yue's shoulder, "I don't blame you, really Yes. This incident has nothing to do with you...just an accident."

"Gu Yuan already said these words when he was in the hospital." Xu Yue said lightly. "I heard that both of you have made a lot of progress in this monthly exam. How is it? Li Ranran, your mother didn't tell you, did you? Did you reward you with a game console or something? If you have a chance, you can secretly bring it to the dormitory to teach me how to play." What about you, Zhou Hui, did Lao Yang praise you? Your words are much better than when I first met you..."

"Xu Yue..."

"And Gu Yuan, do you know? He has a perfect score in English this time. Teacher Xiaoyu must be very happy. Maybe he will be allowed to participate in the English competition in the city in the future. If he comes back with a prize, our attached high school will lose face. But he has to break through—"

"Xu Yue... can you stop doing this, we know you're uncomfortable, don't hold it all by yourself... okay?" Li Ranran interrupted.

It seems to be discussing, more like a silent concern and request.

Gu Yuan left the teaching area with a face full of hostility, touched a pack of cigarettes out of nowhere, and quickly entered the toilet on the first floor of the senior three teaching area, which is closest to the playground.

He took a big breath suddenly, and the white mist surrounded him.

There will also be a few high school seniors who can't control their smoking addiction and hide in the toilet between classes. Gu Yuan glanced to the left and saw Zhang Ze and Cai Chen who played with them last time.

"Yo, this isn't the second year of high school... no, is it Gu Yuan, a celebrity from the Shanghai High School? Why, come here just to smoke a cigarette?" Zhang Ze didn't mean anything malicious, after all, they were the ones who lost the game, and the grievances and grievances have long since followed. Canceled at the end of a match.

But not here in Gu Yuan.

He spit out the cigarette butt, stepped on it several times with his feet, and waited until he couldn't see any stars before Gu Yuan looked at the boys in front of him.

"Whether I smoke or not is none of your business? Go to your toilet, smoke your cigarettes, stay away from me."

During the rebellious period, the face of every boy is like a territory that no one can violate. Zhang Ze's private territory was suddenly kicked to the ground by Gu Yuan, and he moved closer with a cold face.

"Gu Yuan, let me remind you, this is the teaching area for the third year of high school, don't you think we are afraid to do it?"

In any case, judging from the number of people, Gu Yuan already had the upper hand.

But he didn't care about it himself. Compared with the pain in his heart, the physical pain became a specific transfer point.

"Then come." Gu Yuan said, "Those who dare not do it will be coaxed by the fuck."

After finishing speaking, Zhang Ze's fist landed directly on Gu Yuan's left face without any buffer.Now that someone started this, the rest has become to join in the excitement that shouldn't be joined.

It wasn't a day or two for the boys behind to see Gu Yuan unhappy, the courage gathered together prompted everyone to punch forward.

Gu Yuan fell down and sat next to the washbasin, spat out a few sticky blood clots from his mouth, the corner of his mouth was hooked by something, and a long scratched hole overflowed with blood, in a cloud of smog Medium and extremely dazzling.

"You fucking fight back, fuck it. It's like we're bullying people." Zhang Ze squeezed Gu Yuan's collar tightly and cursed a few times. "Gu Yuan, you're fucking cowardly. What about your so-called good brothers? When you protect them..."

Gu Yuan was stunned for a moment, the scene in front of him had already started to blur, under the double image, he seemed to see Xu Yue's eyes that were no longer filled with any emotion.

"Sorry, I still couldn't protect you..."