Restlessness

During the big class break, Li Ranran couldn't help but tremble when he received the call from Gu Yuan.He froze for a few seconds, then picked up Zhou Hui, who was lying on the table and opened his eyes silently. When the two rushed from Class 1 to the last row of Class A, Xu Yue just gave them a cold look. Quickly moved his eyes back to the few exercise books on the table.

"What's the matter?" Xu Yue didn't raise his head, turned a few pages forward with his left hand, held the pen in his right hand, and quickly recorded the English word that he had just chanted many times on the blank white paper.

"Xu Yue, Brother Yuan's phone number..." Zhou Hui licked his lower lip and whispered the name, "Brother Yuan..."

"Gu Yuan's call?" Xu Yue reacted for a few seconds before slowly stopping with his right hand, "What's the matter? Didn't he go out 10 minutes ago? Maybe he hid in a place where no one was around to smoke again. However, It's been so long, why hasn't he come back..."

Li Ranran was stunned for a moment, and slightly shook the phone that was tightly held in his hand, the screen had just turned off. Soon, Li Ranran unlocked the phone again, clicked on the call record and looked at it carefully.

"It's not Brother Yuan... No, it's indeed Brother Yuan's phone call..." Li Ranran frowned, "But it's not Brother Yuan's voice... On the contrary, it seems, like playing with us last time The one from... the one from the third year of high school."

"In the third year of high school?" Xu Yue put down his pen and frowned suddenly. He raised his head and stared at Li Ranran, "What do you mean? Gu Yuan is in the teaching area for the third year of high school? What did you say on the phone?"

Zhou Hui glanced at Li Ranran, and pushed him impatiently.

"Hurry up, what did the person on the phone say?"

"They said that Gu Yuan was in the men's room at the back of the 1st floor of the senior three teaching area..." Li Ranran slid the phone screen while staring at Xu Yue's eyes, "then...then just hung up. Xu Yue, Yuan Will something happen to brother? Otherwise, how could he allow others to touch his mobile phone, let alone..."

Not to mention actually using his mobile phone to make a call...

Li Ranran unconsciously blinked his eyes, how could Gu Yuan easily hand over the mobile phone that even close people like them are not allowed to touch.

unless……

Li Ranran and Zhou Hui were not the only ones who felt the absurdity. Xu Yue also looked at the two standing in the aisle in disbelief.

"Could it be that the three of you colluded to play me?" Xu Yue closed the homework on the table expressionlessly, and he took the phone from Li Ranran's hand and took a closer look.

It is true that the call made 2 minutes ago was from Gu Yuan, and the call record is less than 5 seconds.Judging by the expressions of Li Ranran and Zhou Hui, it doesn't look like a prank that was arranged in advance.

Xu Yue hesitated for a while, and finally chose to dial back, but to everyone's surprise, there was only one cold and mechanical blind tone on the phone.

"Fuck!" The only slightly confused expression on Xu Yue's face was instantly withdrawn.

At this moment, the untimely ringing of the class bell came to Xu Yue's ears from the first floor, and the back door of Class A's classroom was instantly crowded with students who were squeezing back from the corridor toilet or even the stairway.Xu Yue got up, bypassed Li Ranran, and squeezed into the crowd over there, finally got out the door, but was stopped by Zhou Hui and Li Ranran at the corner of the stairs.

"What are you doing?" Xu Yue was a little impatient, and suddenly raised her arms to shake off Li Ranran. The force was too great, and the zipper pull of the open thin coat fell on Li Ranran's right face without hesitation. Yue was stunned for a moment, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. Class is already in session, you go back to class first, and I will go to the senior year to find him by myself."

"No, just in case." Zhou Hui was still worried, "It must be difficult for those high school seniors who happened on the stadium last time...Xu Yue!!"

Before he finished speaking, Xu Yue walked around behind Zhou Hui, clutching the handrail tightly with his left hand and jumping down.There were five concrete steps, and Xu Yue jumped down with one foot without hesitation.

They didn't know if Zhou Hui was sprained, because the second Xu Yue jumped, Lao Yang came from the other end of the corridor, still shouting Zhou Hui's name loudly.

Soon, the two people who were fixed at the stairs had no choice but to turn around helplessly and enter the front door of the classroom of Class 1 under Lao Yang's gaze.

In the entire three-story teaching building, Xu Yue appeared at the gate of the teaching area in only 10 seconds. He completely ignored Li Ye who was standing in the corridor of the office door on the second floor and shouted his name. The rain still didn't stop , The sound of the wind in his ear was mixed with his heavy breathing.The tree-lined road was drenched, leaving muddy footprints after running step by step, which slowly faded under the new wave of rain, and finally only two slightly muddy water marks remained.

The structures of the two teaching buildings were exactly the same, and Xu Yue ran to the end of the corridor on the first floor without even thinking about it.Not knowing whether it was because of the heavy fog floating in the air on rainy days, or the long-lasting smoke in the boys' toilet, Xu Yue couldn't help coughing a few times.until……

Until he stopped and stood at the door of the boys' toilet, he saw Gu Yuan who had fallen on the ground at a glance...

"Gu...Gu Yuan..." Xu Yue's eyes widened, he took off his coat and rushed over.He raised his head slightly, and the remaining drops of water on his forehead, accompanied by wet tears that filled his entire eye sockets, slid into his brown hair from the end of his eye sockets.

Gu Yuan raised his head slightly, his messy black hair blocked his closed eyes, his back was tightly pressed against the wall covered with white tiles next to the sink, one of his left legs was slightly bent, and the light-colored floor tiles beside him There was blood dripping down his lips continuously.

"Gu Yuan..." Xu Yue's voice was extremely hoarse. He stepped forward with heavy steps, and finally squatted down and hugged the blood-stained boy in front of him tightly, his whole body trembling non-stop.

"Xu...Xu Yue...you, why are you here..." Gu Yuan slowly opened his left eye, his bloody and misty vision finally gained focus, until he could clearly see Xu Yue's entire picture Gu Yuan pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled, "I'm sorry... I promised to protect you... I didn't do it."

Obviously the saddest thing is myself, but there will always be someone who will stand in front of Xu Yue and empathize with him.

He was in pain, and Gu Yuan was in pain.

Even sadder than him.

Xu Yue raised her face, her eyes instantly turned scarlet.

Xu Yue couldn't help calling Gu Yuan's name several times in a low voice, stretched out his hand to gently caress the corner of Gu Yuan's mouth, and finally asked slowly, "Does it hurt?"

Gu Yuan stood up slowly, leaning on the wall with one hand, and naturally pressed the other hand against Xu Yue's profile.

"What about you? Are you in pain?"

Coming out of the school infirmary, Gu Yuan curled his mouth, and the tip of his tongue could not help slipping out from between his teeth to lick the corner of his mouth where the medicine had just been wiped.The atmosphere between the two was overly depressing, Gu Yuan couldn't help blinking a few times.

"Hiss—why does this medicine smell like laundry detergent?" Gu Yuan frowned, took out his phone from his pocket, turned on the front camera, and carefully looked at himself with a red and swollen face inside, "I thought that It will be very hard to help others, fuck, that’s all I can do.”

"Why, why do you look so proud of being beaten like this?" Xu Yue took a deep breath, and he stared straight at Gu Yuan's face with three band-aids on it, probably because he took him to treat the wound Because of this, Xu Yue's tone also slowly slowed down. He was neither warm nor hot. In the end, he only hid some distress in it, "Tell me, why did you go to the third year?"

"I'm addicted to cigarettes." Gu Yuan quickly answered, and after meeting Xu Yue's eyes, he continued in a low voice: "Isn't it because the headmaster only checks the men's room in our freshmen and sophomores...otherwise, who would want to run away?" Going over there, what a pain in the ass to be idle? Hey, you know, shit...the boys' toilet in the third year of high school can be called a 'fairyland', just those white smoke...you didn't see me when I just went in When I was young, it was similar to the scene where the Monkey King wreaked havoc in the Heavenly Palace when I was a child... Oh right, you should have read Journey to the West..."

Gu Yuan stuffed the phone back into his pocket, and Xu Yue's thoughts were forcibly diverted to other insignificant places by him.Finally, after the sentence "I swear I will never go to the teaching area of ​​the third year of high school to smoke again", Gu Yuan ended all the topics.

"Gu Yuan, I want to drink a little bit... Don't they always talk about drinking to relieve their sorrows? I want to try to see if it's true." Xu Yue felt stuffy and cold in his heart, as if something was firmly fixed on him. Stuck there, not going up or down, even the most gentle breathing seemed to be suppressed back invisibly.

Gu Yuan couldn't help laughing, and after a long silence, he slowly opened his mouth: "Okay, then let's go home."

The wine was delivered by Gu Yuan from a convenience store near the community.Liquor, beer, and even red wine were divided into three big boxes and placed on the floor. Gu Yuan took a bottle of low-alcohol beer from the cardboard box and placed it on the transparent coffee table at home.

He couldn't wait to turn on the ceiling light in the living room, but when he stood up, Xu Yue roughly pulled him back.

"Don't turn on the light, it's too bright, it's dazzling..." Xu Yue turned her head and turned on the familiar floor lamp, then picked up a bottle of beer from the table and poured it down.

Nuo Da's living room is dark and quiet.Xu Yue moved closer to the light source, blocking most of the warm light in the living room with his body, Gu Yuan could only see his side face hidden in the darkness when he sat on the other side.The sound of rain outside the window continued, and the wind blew the curtains of the living room.

Counting it, from the day Xu Lu was sent to the hospital to now, it seems that the whole of Shanghai is gloomy.

More and more empty wine bottles appeared on the empty carpet beside Xu Yue, until finally he put the half bottle of wine back into the cardboard box, lowered his eyes and buried his face deeply in his arms .He didn't say a word, and he could only see his shoulders rising and falling.

Gu Yuan couldn't help reaching out to pick up the remaining half bottle of wine on the table, and poured it all down with his head raised.

"Gu Yuan..." Xu Yue rubbed her face and raised her head, her eyes were loose, "My mother used to tell me that when a person dies, he will become a star in the sky, very bright... But, but I think she He lied to me..."

"Gu Yuan, actually, I don't like looking up at the stars. I want them to come back to those that I can't touch... all come back to me..."

"Just like when I was a kid, our family..."

Xu Yue's voice became smaller and smaller, until finally it became a burst of sobs.

Those short words were like a knife, piercing Gu Yuan's body one by one.

"Gu Yuan, do you know..." Xu Yue stared expressionlessly at Gu Yuan's eyes that were secretly shining in the darkness, "I have no relatives..."

These words were bloody, pouring Xu Yue from head to toe.

Gu Yuan raised his head and closed his eyes, tears could no longer stop dripping into his hair.It took a long time before he pressed Xu Yue's whole body on his shoulders.

"You have me." Gu Yuan repeated again in a shallow voice, "You still have me. Remember what I said before?"

"My name is Gu Yuan, and it's Xu Yue's Gu Yuan."

……

Xu Yue blocked Gu Yuan's lips and sucked them continuously. The strong smell of alcohol instantly surrounded the two of them. He raised his head and narrowed his eyes slightly, like a drowning person, instinctively sucking Gu Yuan's lips. Wrapped tightly into his own arms, as if the only person he could touch in front of him was the last straw in his life.

He is begging for help.

The deep and sometimes shallow temptation between the teeth is like Xu Yue shouting for help word by word, the thin and cold lips lingering in the dark are pressed together tightly, even if the eyes are only averted for a while, the only thing left on the chest is It hurts.

A pain that cannot be relieved by medicine.

"Gu Yuan..." Xu Yue called Gu Yuan's name over and over again, "I really, really only have you..."

"I am, I have been..."

Gu Yuan's breath was unsteady, his chest heaved and fell, and his hand went from Xu Yue's lips to the tip of his nose and finally stopped between his eyebrows.Every touch is like telling him, I love you, love you desperately.

Gu Yuanming had done a lot for him, exhausted all his strength to wake up Xu Yue who was sleeping in the dark, he couldn't just watch Xu Yue being pushed back to the deep place by those invisible hands again. In the bottomless abyss.

"Xu Yue...I love you...I love you so much..." Gu Yuan took off his coat and school uniform shorts, got up and hugged the half-drunk Xu Yue by the waist, and finally hugged him and fell to the side in the sofa.

Xu Yue also couldn't see Gu Yuan's expression clearly, the palm of his hand was cold.

"During the day, you asked me if it hurts...Xu Yue, actually it hurts..." Gu Yuan stretched out his hand to touch Xu Yue's fingertips, and it landed on his left chest, pressing the back of Xu Yue's hand tightly with his palm. , "This position really hurts..."

"Gu Yuan, turn off the light." Xu Yue raised his hand to caress Gu Yuan's face.

"But you are afraid of the dark..." Gu Yuan said.

"It seems that there is nothing to be afraid of..." Xu Yue smiled lightly, and raised her head slightly with her fingers interlocked.

There is no gentleness like water in the past, and there is also no youthful and crazy domineering.Only the cold breathing in this endless night invaded every inch of their skin from top to bottom.

Continuous tears gushed out of Gu Yuan's eyes, and hit the tip of Xu Yue's nose drop by drop, then mixed into Xu Yue's tears, and finally fell silent in the night.

Unspeakable despair spread into the entangled bodies of the two.

The evening wind in early summer is still as biting as the winter night, and even a kiss is full of sadness.