Restlessness

That night, Gu Yuan exhausted all his strength, as if unreservedly smashing all future thoughts into Xu Yue's ears, between fingers interlocking, at the corners of their lips, and even in each other's body .

The cup of spirits named "you" fermented afterward, and in the middle of the night when the bitterness dissipated, Xu Yue turned sideways, her hands tightly holding the soft blanket and Gu Yuan's right hand, and finally there were wet marks on the corners of her eyes. Go to sleep.

Gu Yuan couldn't help but lit a cigarette, took a big puff and then slowly exhaled a misty white smoke ring. He lowered his eyes and touched Xu Yue's eyes, and withdrew the hand that Xu Yue held on his chest. In the dense night and the mist, Gu Yuan bent down and kissed Xu Yue's ear, and finally picked up the coat that he took off not long ago from the stool on the other side and went out.

The next day, under Xu Yue's persecution, Li Ranran and Zhou Hui explained the matter of Gu Yuan's going abroad again in a decent manner, but this time the only sentence "why" was missing.

Gu Yuan didn't want to say it, so Xu Yue stopped asking.

Two days before the official college entrance examination, the entire senior high school students ushered in the same high school graduation season every year. The students in class A did not know which class they learned about romance. Several girls took the lead in writing a leave note on the blackboard with the deadline "no more high school life". Li Ye pinched off half of the chalk head and wrote Come down and agree with the word.

One afternoon when the sun was shining brightly and the cicadas were singing loudly, all the students in Class A were wearing blue and white summer school uniforms on the flag-raising square of the attached middle school. Bent, the corners of the mouth are raised, and there is a youthful atmosphere everywhere.

"The boy on the left in the third row, come on, he looks so handsome and looks at the camera... Hey, everyone graduated, are you happy—"

"happy--"

click

So, the graduation photo of Class A of the third year of high school was frozen. Xu Yue stood at the farthest position in the third row, barely showing a passable smile, holding Gu Yuan's red-backed photo tightly in his slightly clenched right hand. student ID photo.

Xu Yue jumped off the stool, but was stopped by Li Ye the moment she turned to leave.The square was as empty as ever, without any shade. Xu Yue was facing the strong light, and couldn't help squinting his eyes.

"Teacher? Are you looking for me?"

Li Ye didn't say anything, but grabbed Xu Yue's sleeve and dragged him to the shade of a tree 15 meters away near the teaching area of ​​the second year of high school.After hesitating for a long time, he slowly opened his mouth: "Xu Yue, the college entrance examination is two days away. Are you... are you ready?"

Xu Yue was in a daze, rubbed his face and pulled out that inexplicable smile that he had just had when he took the graduation photo.

"What is there to prepare for? The exams and papers you have done in the past two years..." Xu Yue smiled wryly, "If you take it home, it will cover the entire wall of my house."

"Xu Yue, the teachers have always thought that you are a good boy, good in every way, but why you..." Li Ye got stuck in the middle of her sentence, and she didn't dare to apply the few words that describe poor students to Xu Yue. , "The teacher doesn't know what the reason is for you, but you have to know that you have been working hard every day in class and doing papers for the past two years, all for the two days of the college entrance examination... This determines your future..."

"The future..." Xu Yue felt a little ridiculous, "I don't have any future, it's just an ordinary exam for me... Teacher Li, I really thank you for treating me so meticulously in the past two years concerned."

When Class 1 finished taking graduation photos, Li Ranran and Zhou Huitian ran over fearlessly, threw themselves on Xu Yue's back, and smiled at Li Ye a few times.

"Teacher, happy graduation." Li Ranran felt emotional, and his voice was a little choked up when he said this, "Teacher, do you remember the winter vacation in the first year of high school, when you punished me and Yuan..."

Li Ranran stopped suddenly, his eyes darkened, he coughed a few times and continued, "You punished us for writing the composition. In fact, we finished it later, but there is no chance for you to take a look."

It wasn't until this moment that Xu Yue realized it.

Gu Yuan's name has become a taboo in Class A of Senior Three and even Class 1 of Senior Three.

No one will pay attention to whether there will be a good-looking "shooting guard" who almost never makes mistakes on the court, and no one will pay attention to where the high school student named Gu Yuan has gone, or even the last graduation photo of Class A Gu Yuan's name was no longer printed on it.

For a moment, Xu Yue felt that he had been dreaming for two years.When he woke up, he was still alone.

But the truth is not. Li Ranran and Zhou Hui took Xu Yue back to the dormitory, and began to pack their parting luggage. The two were still noisy. Standing by his bed, smiling happily, then came over and asked him

"Are you the transfer student Xu Yue who was very popular in the class a few days ago?"

In the blink of an eye, two years have passed, and it seems that everyone has returned to the original point.

Dormitory 207 still has one empty bed, and one familiar person is missing.

The fog was thick and the flight to Los Angeles was delayed for a full four hours.Gu Yuan still wore two Bluetooth headsets in his ears, and Gao Li and Gu Xu sat beside him.

"Dad, Mom, I can actually wait here by myself." Gu Yuan pinched the boarding pass and a brand new mobile phone in his hand, "You don't need to waste time with me."

Gao Li frowned, and fiddled with his curly hair a couple of times.

"What nonsense are you talking about, dear son, you are going to study abroad. No matter how busy or important something is, your father and I will push it away today."

"Yeah, Ah Yuan..." The middle-aged man with sharp eyebrows in a black suit next to Gu Yuan couldn't help turning around, "When your mother is talking to you, don't wear earphones—"

As he spoke, Gu Xu reached out to take off the Bluetooth headset in Gu Yuan's right ear, but Gu Yuan subconsciously dodged it.

The man's hand stopped in the air, and finally put it back in place with a little embarrassment.

"Ah Yuan, someone will pick you up when you get there. Mom has already arranged the house and everything. You can live there directly after you pass. And mom has already contacted the best teacher in the school who majored in finance... "

What Gao Li said later, Gu Yuan could no longer listen to it.The daily recommended Chinese playlists were continuously looping through the earphones one after another. During the blank period before one song ended and the next one started, Gu Yuan clearly heard various flight boardings from the radio. broadcast status.

The dense fog dissipated, Gu Yuan couldn't help tilting his head and glanced at the sky outside through the glass window, the sunshine became very bright.When the mechanical female voice on the lobby announcement announced that the flight to Los Angeles had officially started checking in and boarding, Gu Yuan slowly took off the pair of earphones that never left his body, and immediately met Gao Li's eyes when he got up.

"Mom, Dad, thank you for taking good care of me these 18 years...Compared with other ordinary high school students, I never lack food or clothing, and the money seems to be endless..." Gu Yuanqing Blinking.

"Silly son, we—"

"Let me finish. There are some things I have to tell you before I leave." Gu Yuan interrupted Gao Li's greetings, picked up the ticket and held it in front of Gao Li, "This is the last time I listened to you in so many years. Your arrangement. You have always wanted me to go abroad, okay, I promise you... But, from the day I came back, even from the day I got on the plane to Los Angeles, I was just Gu Yuan, and every day in the future One day, I will live for me...for the people I love."

"If that day really comes, whether it's myself, Xu Yue, or your high-ranking threat... I won't make any further retreats."

"Mom, the reason why I agreed to your request was never just for myself."

Gu Yuan's eyes were full of firmness, and Gao Li didn't know how to refute it for a moment.It wasn't until this moment that she suddenly realized that there was already a sea between them that could never be crossed.

She seems to be the same mother who puts honor first in her eyes, but Gu Yuan is no longer the previous Gu Yuan who only knows how to obey.

"Passengers, please note that flight xxx to Los Angeles, USA has already started boarding. Please bring your belongings and get on the plane at gate 31. I wish you a pleasant journey, thank you! Dear pas color ngers, please hat the xxxflighttoLAXisalready..."

The broadcast repeated it again, Gu Yuan suddenly took a deep breath, bowed deeply in the direction of Gao Li and Gu Xu, and then went into the boarding gate without looking back.

It wasn't until he couldn't see Gu Yuan's back that Gao Li's eyes turned red, and he showed a wry smile containing flaws.She gently took Gu Xu's arm.

"It seems that we really can't keep Ah Yuan..."

Xu Yue was almost late for the Chinese subject on the morning of the first day of the college entrance examination. Under the collective gaze of many candidates, he just sat down in his seat with a blank expression.

Without the calmness of the past, Xu Yue lost his mind many times, and finally put down his pen in a panic and stood up when the bell rang at the end.

Li Ranran and Zhou Hui performed well, and they couldn't help answering the questions in classical Chinese that Li Ye had focused on before lunch.

"...Right? Haha, I chose C..." Li Ran ran across the thin exercise book with his fingertips, and finally locked his eyes on Xu Yue's face, "What about you, Xu Yue, you chose C... What?"

Xu Yue put two mouthfuls of warm porridge into his mouth, and replied without looking sideways: "I don't know, I forgot. It seems to be a B or a D... I've finished the exam, so I don't care."

Zhou Hui hesitated for a long time, winked at Li Ranran, and forced him to put the language exercise book back into his schoolbag.

After each exam, Xu Yue often lost his mind, sometimes staring at the two invigilators, sometimes turning his pen aimlessly... The two days ended quickly, the last subject was over, and Li Ranran finally She couldn't help crying on Xu Yue's shoulder, completely ignoring the weird looks from many parents at the school gate.

"Xu Yue... I, us, the college entrance examination is finally over... All my papers this time... have been written seriously..." Li Ranran sobbed, rubbing his eyes from time to time, "I think... For three years, it's really...really worth it..."

Although it was a bit embarrassing, Xu Yue knew that this was a complete release of the pressure they had accumulated over the past three years.It seems that from now on, there will be no more neurotic and cautious teenagers holding a flashlight to read a book after turning off the lights in the middle of the night, running wildly in the arena, or holding a broom on that tree-lined road.

"Okay, Li Ran." Xu Yue couldn't help laughing a few times, and pinched Li Ranran's shoulder, "Congratulations, we have graduated. Generally, colleges don't start until mid-September to early October, and by the way, congratulations to us for having a full year of study." Three months of vacation."

"Damn, this time... really made up for all the falsehoods of our high school at once." Zhou Hui couldn't help sighing.

……

After the college entrance examination, Xu Yue found another old-fashioned community near the middle school to live in.One month later, in the middle of the night, the Milky Way above Shanghai was extremely clear, so clear and bright that it was scary.Xu Yue sniffed, withdrew his right hand from the black mouse, and dialed Zhou Hui's phone with tired eyes.

"Zhou Hui..." Xu Yue closed his eyes, leaned back on the sofa, "I failed the exam."

Zhou Hui was completely stunned on the other end of the phone.

He didn't think about this result at the beginning, but the only thing they could do was to try their best and even try their best to play with Xu Yue in the month before the results were announced, and taught him how to play the game ...The purpose is to make Xu Yue happier than before.

But at this moment, Zhou Hui suddenly understood that they could never replace Gu Yuan's existence, and there was no way to give Xu Yue a bright future.

"It's okay, Xu Yue." Zhou Hui said in a calm tone with a rare calmness, "It's really okay, Xu Yue...you are so smart and have a good foundation, the big deal...the big deal, brother, I won't go to college anymore, and accompany you Let you study for another year in the third year of high school... There is a word that is especially suitable for you, called 'resurrection'..."

"Get out of here." Xu Yue suddenly laughed, "Zhou Hui, I haven't met many people since I came to Shanghai, and only you have a good relationship, so...you and Li Ranran's college entrance examination volunteers must be Fill it out carefully, do you understand... I think you are quite right, I am so smart, I will do it again."

After finishing speaking, Xu Yue hung up the phone resolutely, and the living room, which was deserted in an instant, only heard a few heavy breathing sounds.

That's right.

At worst, do it all over again...

A life without Gu Yuan's presence.

The climate in Los Angeles is pleasant in all seasons, and there is a bright galaxy at night. The most famous professor of the Finance Department finished the last evening class of the day, watched all the students in the class leave the classroom door, and said goodbye to each other.

Only Gu Yuan stood motionless and looked out the window quietly with his arms propped up.

"Yuan." The professor came down with a smile, looked at Gu Yuan whose eyes were wandering, and asked softly, "Are you homesick? [Are you homesick?]"

Gu Yuan came back to his senses, took a deep breath and rubbed his face, forcing himself to be more awake.

"No.I'mjustalittlired[I'm just a little tired]"

"Allright [okay]" the professor nodded and shrugged his shoulders, "Payattiooyourhealth [pay attention to your body]"

"thanks [thank you]"