Yu weep

In the midst of being busy, time seems to go by very fast.

Before we could react, the freshman year was coming to an end.

In late spring, the weather in Yanjing was not too good.The willow catkins are flying in the air, the dust in the north and the often smoggy weather cast a layer of gray on Yanjing's spring.Yanjing is in the north, even in spring, it still makes people feel a bit chilly.

Yandi is cold, after the Flower Festival, the remaining cold is still severe.It is hard not to think of this text.And one morning, when Yu Qi shrank his hands and wrapped himself up tightly, he couldn't help sighing like this.

On a rare sunny weekend, Yu Qi and I planned to go out to the campus for a stroll.The day before this, our Yunhu team had just met once.After coming to Yanjing for a school year, everyone has changed more or less. Of course, the most essential thing has not changed. When we get together, we should fight or fight, play or play, and share our respective lives.

Life is dull, but not boring.

Maybe God heard my exclamation, and my last sentence was like planting a flag.

Yu Qi and I still went to the shopping mall in University City.A new feature film was released, and Yu Qi and I were very interested. We asked each other at the same time, and got a positive answer from the other party.

That's right, Yu Qi and I agree more and more, perhaps, we can even use the word tacit understanding to describe it.

Entering the theater 5 minutes early, we unexpectedly found a familiar figure diagonally in the front row, which was Jiang You.

Jiang You didn't come alone. There was a handsome girl sitting beside her, who looked a little familiar. If I remember correctly, it was probably a classmate Jiang You met half a year ago. In the past one or two months, she It appears frequently in Jiangyou's Moments photos.Sometimes it is a photo of a person, sometimes it is a photo of two people, and sometimes it is a photo of a group of people.The two got together and chatted about something.

The movie is about to start, and we have already muted and turned off the phone screen.The lights in the cinema hall also dimmed, so we didn't go to say hello for the time being, thinking that we would say hello to Jiang You after the movie ended.

Although it is a feature film, as you know, most of the domestic movies or TV series like to bring some, um, emotional elements.The lips of the hero and heroine on the screen gradually approached, I subconsciously turned my head, and inadvertently saw a scene that caught me off guard.

Jiang You and that girl were kissing.

I froze for a moment.Maybe I kept my head tilted for a long time, maybe my movement startled Yu Qi.Yu Qi glanced at me, and subconsciously glanced in the direction I was looking.

I look away.

Yu Qi tilted his head carefully, and whispered in my ear, "You... can't accept this?"

Vaguely, I felt that Yu Qi's voice seemed a little uneasy.

I was silent for a moment, then turned my head and whispered in her ear, "No... just, a little surprised."

What's the surprise?

It's not that I've never heard of homosexuality, but it's as irrelevant to me as any other, more common relationship.But I didn't realize it until I saw Jiang You and her girlfriend with my own eyes.It's like suddenly realizing something.

I think of the countless nights in the dormitory, and the countless times when I got together with my friends, everyone talked about liking and love.When talking about falling in love, they often have happy and shy faces on their faces, but they look very soft.I'm always confused because I've never felt this way before.

... really never?

It's not like I don't have the feeling my roommates said.I just, never thought about it.

For more than half a year, the vague and hazy mood in my heart seemed to suddenly become clear, and it was like a blocked river, which suddenly had a vent.I seem to understand something.

That kind of emotion that I want to touch but dare not, that kind of indescribable emotion that makes me feel a little helpless, maybe I like it?

I finally figured out what was wrong.I have never put all the definitions of liking on the opposite sex.

"You are not curious about anyone, do you want to know him?"

"You are not interested in anyone, do you want to talk to him?"

"Or, when you see someone, your subconscious heart beats faster, and you want to look away, but you can't restrain yourself?"

"Or, have you ever thought of meeting someone who you can't help but feel happy, with the corners of your mouth turned up, in a good mood?"

When asked, my answers are, no, no, no, no.

It wasn't until this moment that I realized that it wasn't that I didn't have it, but that I didn't think of that person.

The person next to me at this moment.

It turned out that before I knew it, the definition of liking was Yu Qi.

So I like Yu Qi?

As soon as this idea appeared, I felt a little at a loss.How do I distinguish between liking and liking?And how to distinguish between friendship and love?It is said that the emotional boundaries between girls are blurred. Where is this line?

I pondered silently, the light and shadow on the screen could no longer attract me.Before you know it, the movie is over.

When the theater lights came on, I woke up suddenly.Yu Qi looked at me, didn't say anything, his expression was calm, he just said, "Are you going to eat?"

I feel my throat is a little dry, and I can only utter a single syllable: "Hmm."

When I was eating, I was also very quiet, and my mind was a little messy. This kind of emotion is really strange. I don't know how to deal with it, and I am also a little annoyed by this uncontrollable emotion.

"Are you troubled?" Yu Qi's voice sounded in his ear.When I regained my senses, I realized that I had made a mess of the food by subconsciously poking at the contents of the bowl.

How should I say it? "No..." I replied slowly.

"Did you know before?" I suddenly realized and asked Yu Qi.

"...Yes." Yu Qi didn't seem surprised that I would ask this question.She smiled at me and said, "I knew about it a long time ago. Jiang You... She didn't mean to hide it from you. I know because of... an accident."

That's it.I thought about it, this accident may be the same as today, it may be that on a certain day that we don't know, Yu Qi saw Jiang You... But speaking of it, think about it this way, when was quite a long time ago...

"Did you know it when you were in Tongcheng?" I thought about it carefully, and suddenly remembered the girl from Meifeng who was smiling in the back seat of Jiangyou's car in the past.

"Yeah." Yu Qi didn't deny it.

"That girl from Meifeng..." I hesitated.

"...Yes, it's Jiang You's ex-girlfriend." Yu Qi nodded lightly, "Jiang You didn't intend to hide from you, but she didn't have a chance to say it. It would be abrupt to speak out suddenly, and she doesn't really want to make a fuss." Yu Qi cry to explain.

"That's it." I murmured.

"That's it." Yu Qi said softly.

Because of this little accident, our day passed in a little silence.Yu Qi seemed very worried about me, I really wanted her not to worry, and wanted to get along with her as before, but my heart was full of thoughts, I couldn't grasp a clue, I really didn't know what to do, even Don't dare to look directly at Yu Qi.

I think I might need a little time to clear my head.

Do I really like Yu Qi?Do you really like this feeling?If yes, what should I do...?In high school, Yu Qi said that there is someone she likes, does she still like it now...?Is it possible for Yu Qi to like girls?Or... do you like me?

Too many questions and worries, I can only temporarily suppress, I think I need some time to think slowly.I have no place to find answers to questions other than learning, so I can only explore by myself.

The sun was setting again, we said goodbye at the door of the dormitory, she turned left and entered the elevator, and I turned right and went up the stairs.

Back in the dormitory, I put down my things. Instead of turning on the computer to study or do things as usual, I sat at the desk and fell into deep thought, or in a daze.

I really have no other intentions to do anything.Everything that happened today left me at a loss and overwhelmed.Breaking through the secret of Jiang You can be said to have opened the door to a new world for me.It's one thing to know, but it's quite another to be there, aware of the possibility.Yu Qi's expression is very calm, after all, she has known this secret for a long time...

Her reaction, at least, was non-repulsive, right?

Does that mean that I have some possibilities?

When I realized this, I thought, maybe there is no need to doubt this feeling, do you like it?

I like Yuqi.I read these words silently in my heart, an unprecedented feeling filled me, I couldn't help but want to smile, my heartbeat seemed to speed up a bit.It turns out that Xiao Lu Luan Zhuang is not a lie.

So, presumably everything is traceable, right?From the first time I saw her in Yunhu Junior High School that year, I have never had a second curiosity about her.And when she held an umbrella to protect me when I went home in a typhoon, maybe her meaning to me was different.I treat her differently than I treat others.

I'm too slow.

So what about Yu Qi to me?Do I have a chance to be liked by her...?She once said that she has someone she likes, who would that person be...?

That person is so lucky.I can't help thinking about it.

If it were me, if it were me...

It was too late to react.I regret it a little.If I didn't suddenly see Jiang You and her girlfriend today, when would I realize it?Those strange feelings turned out to be heartbeats.Thinking about it now, I was happy every minute and every second I spent with Yu Qi.Her gentle smile, her expression when she was helpless, her small expression of pride when she won the test, her little unwillingness when she lost me in the test, her stubbornness when encountering difficulties, and even her slightly pursed lips when she was annoyed or embarrassed.

And every time I stare, it's like eyes in a deep pool.

Thinking of her, I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips.

I really like Yuqi.

The author has something to say: Half of them are lying on the bed and using their mobile phones to code--

School starts again.

I wanted to finish writing during the summer vacation, but an accident happened, which disrupted the plan, and I don't know when it will be finished.

After writing this article, I should read the book for a while to adjust and adjust the status. I still have many shortcomings.

Then start a new article.

Sorry to keep you waiting.Thanks for watching.