Yu weep

Chapter 48

Maybe it was Yu Qi who told Jiang You that last time we saw her and her girlfriend in the movie theater, when we went out to play together during the summer vacation, Jiang You chose to talk about it with us.

It was Jiang You's birthday.Her birthday happened to be on August 31. Fortunately, college students basically start school in September, so we were able to celebrate her birthday together in Tongcheng.

She invited us to dinner on her birthday.We joked about Yu Xiaonan who was already in a relationship as usual.When the topic was about to end, Yu Xiaonan said: "Don't always talk about me, you are going to have a relationship yourself!"

Jiang You laughed and said, "How do you know we don't have one?"

Yu Xiaonan and Fang Kexin: "? When are you!"

The two of them looked very surprised, looked at Yu Qi, Yun Ling and me, all three of us reacted flatly, and immediately asked, "Why do you act like you know?"

Yunling waved her hand innocently: "I'm not, I don't, you're talking nonsense! I probably guessed something." She glanced at Yu Qi and me, "These two probably know something."

I kept silent, Yu Qi smiled: "Let Jiang You decide what's the matter with us. It's her who has the situation."

Jiang You laughed dryly twice.

"Actually, I didn't deliberately hide it from you..." Jiang You squeezed toothpaste, "When I was in Yunhu, I actually..."

Yu Xiaonan: "What?" Fang Kexin also widened her eyes.

"That's right, Mei Feng's..." Jiang You said the girl's name, "So, we broke up later, the summer vacation after the college entrance examination." Jiang You looked a little lonely.

"...So, you were in a bad mood at that time because you broke up with her?" Fang Kexin said.

"Yes." Jiang You nodded.

"Then I guess, you are in another situation now?" Fang Kexin asked.

"Yes!" Jiang You came alive, "It's a girl I met in the club activities last semester, she's super cute——"

Jiang You talked endlessly about her love history.It was almost the end of the speech, and it seemed like a sudden reaction: "You... don't you wonder that I like girls?"

Yu Xiaonan and Fang Kexin looked at her like a fool: "It's already the 21st century, friend."

I secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

"Besides, it's not like I didn't guess it." Yu Xiaonan was thoughtful, "It's not like there are girls like you in our school. She is quite high-profile when she comes out among the students."

"Speaking of which, are there many girls who like girls like you?" Yu Xiaonan asked curiously.

"No way, is this a stereotype?" Jiang You said, "There are also many girls whose appearance is very common. Appearance can't be used as a characteristic, right?"

Yu Qi and I didn't participate much in the discussion.I'm a little confused, but why is Yu Qi?

I watched Yu Qi secretly, she lowered her eyelids, and the fingers holding the cup tapped the wall of the cup again and again, as if she was thinking about something.

She is very sensitive to the line of sight, I look back, also lost in thought.

Summer in Tongcheng is very long.Yu Qi was wearing an off-white T-shirt, and the sunlight outside the window hit her body. Suddenly, I seemed to be back in junior high school and saw the child by the window.

The chubby little girl who protected herself with a thick shell has grown into a sharp adult.I have watched Yu Qi's debate competitions many times. On the field, she is different from her usual gentle and elegant appearance. Her words are sharp, and she is sure to hit every blow. She has already gained a reputation in the school.Can that hesitant child imagine that his future self will be like this?

Or, in fact, Yu Qi on the field is the one who indulges his own nature?

It's Yu Qi's nature to be high-spirited and a little aggressive, right?

Maybe when I was in junior high school, I already had a crush on her.Whether it's when they're fighting, when they're being protected by her, or when they're having countless exchanges and learning...

In fact, I treat her differently than she treats me.This is an obvious thing.

Maybe, should I confess?Can I take care of Yu Qi, can I keep Yu Qi feeling safe?

I really didn't know who to talk to, I thought about it and thought, maybe I can ask Jiang You.

But what shall I say?

Finally, I typed "What does it feel like to like?", closed my eyes, and hit send.

Jiang You immediately replied with a "?"

I hesitated again.

Jiang You was displaying: "The other party is typing..." and soon sent a message: "In layman's terms, liking is the feeling of heartbeat, the joy when seeing the other party, the rapid heartbeat, and the raised corners of the mouth , It is the determination to protect the other party, and the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time."

Me: "I probably understand this...but it's very similar to what everyone said."

Jiang You: "..."

Jiang You: "Then let's simply say, do you want to doi with each other?"

I almost choked on my saliva, and after coughing violently for a while, I replied to Jiang You: "As expected of you."

Jiang You: "So, this is the simplest and most direct judgment. Allow me to gossip, what are you?"

Me: "Well... that's right, but I'm still hesitating whether to confess."

Jiang You: "It's rare to see you ask this kind of question. If you think about it, go ahead, and maybe the other party likes you too? By the way, I'm very curious, who can make our school committee's heart beat~"

Me: "...you are really gossip. I am a little hesitant..."

Jiang You: "I am concerned!!"

Jiang You: "What are you hesitating about?"

I struggled for a long time, and I still said: "She is not a person who accepts others easily, and she also needs protection from others... I don't know if I can give her a sense of security, and I don't know if she will like me..."

Jiang You: "She...? The school committee, you..."

Jiang You: "Good guy, I call him good guy.jpg"

Jiang You: "Let me take a guess. I think it's possible with your description. She is someone I also know."

It's easy to guess...

Jiang You: "Is it Yu Qi?"

Yes I am."

Jiang You: "Aren't you influenced by me... I mean, have you misjudged the relationship between you? Sometimes girls' possessiveness that comes from friendship will make you mistakenly feel that this is Love. The question you asked me just now makes me guess that maybe you haven't come up with the answer yourself."

Me: "I don't think I should have judged wrongly."

Jiang You: "If this is the case, I wish you sincerely. I think if you have the courage to step out, you may gain something."

thank you."

Jiang You's words made it hard for me not to think about them.What she meant, could it be that Yu Qi treats me too...?

Speaking of which, Yu Qi said that she knew about Jiang You's situation a long time ago, so maybe Jiang You also knew about her situation?This kind of thing, maybe, will be discussed with each other, right?

If Yu Qi has a little meaning to me, then maybe I have a little hope...?I can clearly feel that Yuqi is different to me.She is more or less defensive to others, and to other friends, she is more or less disguised... Not to say that she is insincere, but after her diagnosis, she has obvious defensive psychology.But with me, she's relaxed and real.I can also feel that we are happy with each other from getting along with her.

As long as there is something special, I have hope, right?

This night, perhaps because I was always thinking about this matter, and of course perhaps more likely because of what Jiang You said, I had a very bizarre dream.

I came to the roof of Yunhu High School, and in the magenta purple sky of Tongcheng in the evening, Yu Qi stood on the edge of the roof with his back to me.I wanted to shout, but I could only open my mouth in vain, but I couldn't make a sound.

I slowly approached Yu Qi, she turned to look at me.I found that Yu Qi in front of me was Yu Qi from junior high school. She smiled at me, said goodbye, and gradually disappeared.

I subconsciously reached out to grab it, but it was empty.Looking around, he found another Yu Qi standing beside him.This Yu Qi seems to be the Yu Qi who is closer to the current appearance after high school.Her eyes were dull, but tears were shining, and she seemed to be muttering something.I approached her slowly, and what she said was, "Why should I exist?"

My heart seemed to be grabbed by something suddenly.It's heartache, this feeling.

I just wanted to reach out to touch her and hug her, but she suddenly disappeared again.

I turned my head again and looked towards the end of the sky, and sure enough there was another Yu Qi on the other side of the roof.

It's Yuqi now.She leans on a cane, wears a white shirt and black jeans, every button is fastened meticulously, like the shackles, or shackles, she puts on herself, she shuts herself in this invisible cage, as if If you lock yourself up, you will not be harmed by the outside world.

An inexplicable sadness welled up in my heart.

I stepped forward and hugged Yu Qi, but Yu Qi didn't disappear.I don't know why, but relying on instinct, I hold her tightly in my arms.

Yu Qi in his arms seemed to wake up suddenly, and hugged me back.Gradually, her hands were not just holding me, she was staring at my eyes, which gradually became difficult for me to understand.She suddenly kissed me.

Is this feeling real?I have never kissed.She gradually became aggressive and her hands became restless.I just felt hot all over, and I guessed my face should be very red, because Yu Qi's pale complexion in the dream gradually turned pink.My hand also followed instinct, wanting to tear off the shirt on Yu Qi's body.

I felt Yu Qi's hand gradually stretching down, and when I was about to enter, I suddenly woke up.

My eyes gradually opened, my thoughts gradually recovered, and I found myself in my bed at home.After staring at the ceiling for a while, I moved my body, only to feel sweat all over my body, and even...

I froze.I ran to the bathroom and saw that it was not an illusion.

This is really embarrassing...!

Looking at the time, it's only four o'clock, so I can't go to the balcony to wash clothes now, I will pass by my parents' room.I rested my forehead and sighed, so I had no choice but to throw the clothes on my body into the laundry basket, take a shower at the speed of light, and change into clean clothes.

Fortunately, the room has its own bathroom.

It's all Jiang You's fault...!It's okay to say something weird!

But... this also proves that I have desire for Yu Qi.So, yes.

I thought about it before falling asleep again.

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