Yu weep

I no longer remember how I walked back to the dormitory.

What happened in the afternoon continued to spread and ferment in the school, and the roommates also knew about it.Seeing me coming back in a daze, he quickly surrounded me and asked me if I was getting into trouble with that man, or if I had a bad fight with Yu Qi.

I was very tired, waved my hand, said nothing, and fell headlong into the bed.

Behind me, the roommates looked at each other, and invariably chose to let me calm down.

I lay paralyzed on the bed, thinking about a lot of things in a mess, but couldn't grasp any thoughts, and finally gave up thinking altogether, turned over, and stared at the stars on the top of the bed curtain in a daze.

Speaking of which, I bought the bed curtain with Yu Qi... She likes the starry sky very much, so the bed curtain I bought also has a pattern of the starry sky.At that time, I didn't care about patterns, so I bought the same one as her...

She said that sleeping in it will give you a feeling as if you are really in the starry sky.In many cases, she always has a bit of straightforward romance.

I curled up under the covers, sobbing uncontrollably.In a daze, I gradually lost consciousness and fell asleep.Before my consciousness disappeared, I thought: I need to talk to her clearly.

But after that, I couldn't find Yu Qi for a week.She didn’t reply to me when I sent messages, or she replied very perfunctorily; she always made calls on silent do not disturb; even when I went to her dormitory to block her at night, what I got was “She hasn’t come back for a week. She’s not here with you.” Over there?" Such an answer.

Didn't she even go back to the dormitory? !

I am in a hurry.I called Jiang You: "Is Yu Qi with you?"

Jiang You's tone was very surprised: "Why is Yu Qi here with me?"

At this time, I had already left Yu Qi's dormitory, and I was not in a hurry to go back to my own dormitory, but looked at the sky from the public balcony.The air in Yanjing is actually not very good, even the Polaris is dim in the night sky.The moon seemed to be covered with a layer of gray veil.

Me: "Then has she been looking for you recently? Or, has she chatted with you?"

Jiang You: "..."

She called directly.

"What's the matter with you two recently?" Jiang You's tone was full of confusion, "I really think something happened to you two recently."

"It's a long story." I let out a long sigh, "Last week, there was a very, how should I say, a sb guy who publicly confessed his love to Yu Qi."

Jiang You: "? Do you know the name? I'll beat him up!"

I had black lines all over my head: "Don't worry, I've already beaten him... I stood in front of Yu Qi to fight him."

Jiang You: "That doesn't stop me from going to trouble him... Even if you say he's a slut, I think he must have done something too extreme, or said something ugly."

"You guessed right, indeed. But that's not the point..." I was a little helpless and a little angry.It's been a week, but every time I think of the scene that day, I still get angry.

Jiang You: "Oh yes, you continue."

I thought about my words: "After I pissed off that man, I dragged Yu Qi away, and then...then she confessed to me."

Jiang You: "Damn it?" She suddenly raised her tone in surprise, which startled me, "And then what?" She asked.

"I said, I like her too." I looked at the dim North Star in the sky.

Jiang You said "Fuck!" again, her tone was tense and hasty, and she couldn't wait to ask: "Then what? Then?"

"She doesn't believe me..." I felt my throat was a little congested, and my voice was a little choked, "She didn't believe me, or she didn't believe me either. She felt that I was accommodating her and comforting her..."

"Ah..." Jiang You couldn't help but let out a soft sigh, "Oh, Yu Qi really seems capable of doing such a thing..."

"What am I going to do...? She didn't even come back to live on campus this week, and she's not with you, where would she go..." The more I thought about it, the more anxious I became.

Jiang You was also a little anxious, but she advised me: "Calm down first. Don't panic. Do you have Yu Qi's class schedule? She will never miss class. Go find her when you don't have class."

Yes, timetable!I ran around like I was in a hurry to go to the doctor, but I forgot that Yu Qi would never, never, never miss class.Tomorrow is Friday, and I have no class on Friday afternoon. Yu Qi has an elective class of "Eastern and Western Aesthetic Trends", so I can go to her.

Fortunately, we exchanged schedules before.

Under Jiang You's comfort, I calmed down a lot.Thinking about it carefully, it seems that I have rarely experienced such uncontrollable emotions.

If you care about it, you will be chaotic.

The next afternoon, I went to the classroom on the second floor of Mingde Building early to wait for Yu Qi.

But I didn't expect that Yu Qi was already sitting in the classroom.She wears headphones and sits in the sunlight by the window.The heating was turned on in the classroom, but she was still a little chilly. The fluff of the down jacket and hat surrounded her, making her look less serious than usual, but a little more...cute?

After thinking about it, I went forward and sat down beside her.

Yu Qi noticed that someone was sitting next to her, and looked over with a slight frown.Seeing that it was me, her expression was unnatural for a moment, and then she regained her composure.She pretended to be natural and said, "Why did you come?"

I was still on fire in my stomach, but when I saw her hands torturing the corner of the clothes again, seeing her pretending natural expression and erratic eyes, I wanted to laugh again, and I couldn't help but think in my heart, she is so cute.

There is no hope, Tao Zhizhao.I told myself.

I looked at Yu Qi with some amusement, and asked her back in a half-smile tone: "Why do you think I came?"

She turned her head away: "How do I know? You also want to take a class at the Academy of Arts?"

Me: "I really want to hear it, and I want to talk to you even more after listening. I think you can see me," I said with emphasis, "very, very, like, you."

Yu Qi shrank his head subconsciously, and turned away from looking at me.

Anyway, I'm sitting here, and Yu Qi can't escape, so I just quietly listen to the teacher in class.

Sitting next to someone you like, it's really hard not to be distracted.My mind wandered several times, and I couldn't help but stare blankly at the people around me.

Fortunately, the teacher did not call names, otherwise I guess I would not be able to answer the question.

This is a co-class class, besides Yu Qi's class, there are two other classes.The two of us listened to the class quietly, but I could still hear whispers around me, and from time to time, I could also feel some eyes falling on us.

Although Yu Qi has adapted to being watched by many people in the debate competition, she is still not used to being watched like this in class.I could see that she was slightly uncomfortable.When she is not natural, she will have a lot of small movements.For example, at this time, she would grab the corner of her clothes from time to time, touch her nose from time to time, and rub her ears from time to time.

I think I'm probably out of medicine.Every move she makes, I think, is so cute.

In this case, this class may be very long in Yu Qi's eyes, but it is a short class for me, and get out of class is finally over.

Yu Qi looked at me, I looked at her, and I could see the meaning in the other's eyes: Where are you going?

Sighing, we whispered, but said in unison: "Intangible Forest?"

Although we are still in a cold war (probably), we still couldn't help laughing when we looked at each other.

The invisible forest in winter is covered with snow. In the cold winter snow, the students who love to come to the invisible forest on weekdays are forced to stay indoors due to the power of winter, either in empty classrooms or libraries, or in Departmental clubs and even dormitories draw heat from heating.

The highest temperature today is minus ten degrees.Yu Qi and I arrived in the invisible forest, and there was white mist between our breaths.She and I looked at each other, and I said, "I think this season's invisible forest...is not suitable for talking, what do you think?"

Yu Qi: "...I think you are right."

We laughed in unison again.But I still remembered the business, so I cleared my throat and asked Yu Qi: "I went to your dormitory to find you, and you haven't lived in the dormitory this week. I also asked about Jiang You, and you didn't go there either." .where did you go?"

Yu Qi lowered his head slightly, the knuckles holding the walking stick turned white.Her fingers caressed the cane involuntarily.

Looks a little guilty, Yu Qi this guy.

"Actually, I rented a small house off campus." Yu Qi finally said, her tone was a little slow, "I told you that my body still has a lot of inconvenience in the dormitory, climbing up and down the bed, That's very problematic."

This is what she said.So I'm actually not surprised that she rents a house.only……

"You chose at this time, it's hard not to make people wonder if you want to avoid me." In the end I chose to play a straight ball.

I figured it out, the best way to deal with a guy like Yu Qi who is twisted in his mind and has to turn around when thinking about everything is to give her a straight ball when he comes up, and don't give her room to think about it.

Yu Qi obviously choked on my straight ball, she paused and said, "You're right, I wanted to avoid you."

She drooped her eyelids and said, "But I actually wanted you to come to me in my heart. I'm not surprised to see you come to me today."

She should have something to say.I watched her quietly, waiting for her next words.

She really continued: "Anyway, I feel that what I said to you that day is indeed inappropriate. But, I still feel," she was silent for a while, "I still can't believe that you will like me."

I looked at her. She was a little shorter than me, with drooping eyelids, and I couldn't see clearly the expression on her face.

I said, "Yu Qi, look at me."

She looked up and finally met my eyes.I could clearly see that there was already a little sparkle of tears in her eyes.

She is not a crybaby.In other words, she never wanted to be a crybaby.Obviously more emotional than anyone else, but always holding back, making himself look cold.

He is obviously gentler than anyone else.

I said, "I really like you. I don't know how to say it before you believe it."

I said, "Actually, I have always treated you differently than I have treated others."

I said: "Actually, the first time I saw you was not the first time I introduced myself in the first class of Yunhu junior high school. The day before that, I was at the school gate and saw you from a distance."

I said, "At that time, I was curious about you."

I said, "You know, I have a hard time paying attention to everything around me. You are the first and only person I have ever been curious about. It's really easy to have a crush on you." .”

I said: "This feeling slowly turned into liking. I don't know when. But when I knew that Jiang You liked girls, I realized that girls can also like girls."

I said, "So Yu Qi, I really like you."

While I was talking, the tears in Yu Qi's eyes became more and more obvious, and her eyes were filled with tears.

She choked out, "Really? Are you sure?"

She said, "I'm asking you a few questions, you can't interrupt, you can only hmm."

I looked into her eyes: "Yeah."

"I shouldn't have come into this world. Birth was a mistake, and it was a source of pain for a family." "Yeah."

"My relatives are weak, my family is broken, and I don't know what love is by nature." "Yeah."

"I've experienced nothing in the world."

"I was tortured by fate, I lost my true self, my talent was dusted, and my light was lost."

"I am physically weak and sickly; I am mentally disabled and sensitive and suspicious; I am cowardly and inferior, and I can only escape."

"Can you accept me like this?"

When I listened to one sentence, I felt that my eyes were red, but I still wiped away Yu Qi's tears.

She told me all her thoughts and anxieties in her heart, and she told me to say yes, but I denied every word of hers, and I also wanted to tell her what was in my heart.

"Your arrival is a gift from God to me. You are not a mistake. Even if you think about your grandparents, you are not the source of pain for a family."

"Even if your family is broken, even if you have nothing, even if your fate is cruel, but you have not surrendered, you are fighting, and you will always have a fearless heart."

"I can take good care of your body, and I can give you a sense of security if you are sensitive and suspicious. If you want to escape, I will catch you back, or I will escape with you."

"Now listen to me. I'm not as strong and friendly as I seem. I'm indifferent, not sociable, slow to respond, slow to express, and unable to express. Before you, I didn't have any close friends, even if I played well. Nothing, it was you who changed me, after I met you, I owned you and let me have friends."

"No one is perfect, if you say you are flawed, then I am flawless, we are made for each other."

"I know you're afraid of intimacy and loss, you can't believe in commitment, but Yu Qi, you can give me a chance."

"Do you want to?"

Yu Qi finally nodded to me.She finally agreed to me: "Yeah!"

She finally hugged me.

It's snowing again in Yanjing.

The author has something to say: I have thought about this chapter for a long time.