Yu weep

Determined to make it clear, I hesitated for a long time, not hesitating, but thinking about when is the right time.

We used to schedule our time closely to avoid each other, and now I taste the consequences of impulsiveness.

By the time I was completely free, it was already December.I calculated the time and planned to find Yu Qi this weekend and confess to her.

I also asked her roommates, Yu Qi is also very busy during this period, but until this week.After this week, she doesn't have much to do.This year, the Chinese New Year is late, and we only have the exam holiday at the end of January, and we have not yet entered the final month.

So I'm going to ask Yu to cry out this weekend.

On Friday, I study by myself in the library.On a rare free weekend, I was in the library thinking about writing homework assigned by the teacher.Science, medicine, liberal arts, and law are all No. 1 in baldness.

Coincidentally, Yu Qi was at the table next to me, and the seats between us formed a diagonal.I am facing the computer screen, and I can see her from the corner of my eye from time to time.

She was still the same, with her cane on the side of the table, sitting upright in front of the table, with one hand propped on the table, and the other hand writing and drawing in a notebook.They are required to read a lot of books in the liberal arts school, and Yu Qi is used to writing reading notes, so she stops reading from time to time, writes and draws in the notebook, and sometimes thinks carefully.She was wearing a white shirt and a light gray sweater today, and her hair was a bit long, so she simply tied a small braid behind her head.This is Yu Qi's most everyday outfit, but no matter how many times I see it, it still makes my heart move.

I tried my best to restrain myself from looking at her. She probably didn't notice me, or she was too absorbed in reading and didn't notice the surrounding situation at all.

So I also put my heart into my study.When the record of the moot court was almost written, the sky was already dark. Looking at the time, it was almost six o'clock.

I glanced at Yu Qi's seat, it was already empty.It is estimated that she finished what she was doing and left first.So I also packed my things and planned to go to the cafeteria to have a meal, and then I asked Yu Qi to come out tomorrow night.

Walking out of the library door, there was a group of people surrounding a tree by the roadside in front of me. I was a little curious. When I passed by, I heard faintly, as if someone mentioned Yu Qi's name.

What happened to Yu Qi?I rushed into the crowd, kept saying "sorry" and "excuse me" to the people in front of me, and finally gradually approached the middle of the crowd.

The crowd is less crowded.Candles all over the place were arranged in the shape of a heart, and a boy stood in front of the heart with a rose in his hand, performing an old-fashioned but enduring confession on the university campus.

However, the other person was obviously impatient.

The boy is still "affectionate" telling: "Some people say that you like girls, I don't believe it, but I can tolerate and accept it. You are single now, I can pursue you until you agree, right? I like you, you can consider Give me a shot?"

I'm on fire.What do you mean you can tolerate and accept?Why do boys always have strange and blind self-confidence?

The expression on Yu Qi's face changed from impatient to calm.She probably felt that there was no need to talk nonsense with this kind of person: "I don't need you to believe whether I like girls, let alone tolerance and acceptance. Your way of pursuing has caused me trouble, and I hope you don't bother me again .”

But that person didn't mean to back down at all: "I won't give up so soon, if I give up like this, I will be even more hopeless!"

I couldn't bear it anymore, pushed aside the crowd, and walked over to stand in front of Yu Qi, "You have no hope! You don't deserve to be called liking, I hope you understand, you are harassment!"

There was a burst of applause from the onlookers, and I heard a girl shout loudly: "Well said!"

The man's complexion turned green and then pale, and he shouted at me: "What's the matter with you?"

Yu Qi stepped forward to pull me, I held Yu Qi's hand, Yu Qi froze for a moment, and wanted to pull her hand away, but I sensed her intention and held her hand even tighter.

I heard myself say, "You offended my friend."

He sneered: "Friend? Will friends interfere with each other's emotional life?"

Why does he have the face...?My voice became high-pitched because of anger, "You are just someone who offended my friend. I hope I will never see you around Yu Qi in the future!"

I dragged Yu Qi away.Because of my anger, I walked a little anxiously, but Yu Qi couldn't go fast, so I led her and walked towards the invisible forest at a normal speed.

We went to the small pavilion in the middle of the invisible forest.

Yu Qi and I sat on the chair side by side.She looked at me in silence.

I had already finished the draft, but when she looked at me, I couldn't say a word.

I froze for a long time, but finally Yu Qi spoke first.There was still a little bit of afterglow in the setting sun, and the golden light reflected on Yu Qi's body. She said, "I think maybe, you have something to say to me. It just so happens that I also have something to say to you."

She paused, "I think, let me talk first."

"Some time ago, I said that I like girls. What I didn't expect was that the unknown people would guess who I like." Her tone was very calm, "I think you should have seen that what they said is not wrong .”

Yu Qi's expression didn't change, but she told me that she might be pretending to be calm, "I really like you."

"When I was about to graduate from elementary school, I found out that I had a crush on a girl. You also know that girl, and her name is Yun Ling." Yu Qi was slightly lost, but soon came back to his senses, "She also found out. We were immature at that time. I didn't hide this kind of affection well, and she also chose a way that she and I admitted later was not very appropriate. We haven't spoken for two years."

"After that dictation competition, we got back in touch and got the word out. So until now, we haven't been able to get back to our best form in the past. There always seems to be an invisible membrane between us, separating us forever. .”

She pretended to be relaxed, "So you see, I just need to hide my likes."

"But I didn't expect that I would like you. I don't know why, and I don't know when it started, it seems that you are here," she pointed to her heart, "more and more important."

What is she saying……?My heart started beating wildly uncontrollably.My mind went blank.

So it's true, she said it herself, she likes me.

She likes me.

"Some time ago, maybe you also found out." Her voice began to tremble a little, "I don't know how to face you, it just so happens that you also plan to see me, so we alienated each other very tacitly." She intentionally In a relaxed tone, "I can still be your friend if you want."

So, if I say no, you're leaving me, aren't you?

The expression in her eyes clearly meant to leave me.

I suddenly understood how much my alienation some time ago had hurt Yu Qi.She thought that I was like Yunling, planning to use distance to make her give up.

How sad would she be then?

"I don't want to see you, I just don't know how to face you. This is not your problem, it's my problem." I heard myself say, Yu Qi laughed self-deprecatingly, and wanted to speak, I interrupted her, "Because it seems very unfortunate that I also found that I seem to like you."

"So," I looked at Yu Qi, her eyes were full of disbelief, surprise, and doubt.

But not happy.I felt vaguely uneasy.

"So some time ago, it wasn't because I thought you liked me that I didn't dare to face you, but because I felt that you regarded me as a friend, but I seemed to like you." I continued, and Yu Qi raised his hand, "You don't have to Comfort me."

"I'm not comforting you...!" I said anxiously, but Yu Qi looked at me with an indescribable expression.

She's not in the right mood.

"You really don't need to comfort me." She laughed at herself. "Maybe you are pitying me, maybe you misunderstood your own feelings, and took the intimacy of friendship as liking... You really don't have to wrong yourself like this."

"When you stood in front of me just now, I also felt for a moment, do you like me? But, I thought again, suppose it was Jiang You, Yu Xiaonan, Fang Kexin, anyone who was in front of me. position, you probably would. And likewise, if they saw this, they would come and do what you did. So... I shouldn't be sentimental, and I don't want you to mistake the possessiveness of friendship Take it as liking, or as love." Yu Qi held his cane with both hands, lowered his head, and lowered his eyes slightly.

"Don't worry, I won't bother you anymore. You don't have to wrong yourself. You have always been too caring and considerate to me. Thank you very much."

How could this be?My heart is a bit unbelievable, even a little angry.

What did she take her love for...?Does she distrust my liking for her so much...?

I looked at Yu Qi in disbelief.

Yu Qi didn't look at my reaction, she avoided my sight, leaned on a cane, turned and left.She walked slightly hurriedly, unlike her usual appearance, and the rhythm of the cane hitting the ground was much faster than usual.

Her figure gradually disappeared from my sight.I slumped on a chair in the pavilion, watching the distant sunset slowly submerge myself completely in the nameless lake, the lake was frozen, and the ice reflected a golden light.Not long after, the moon rose, and the light on the ice changed from dazzling to faint.

"Student?" Someone shook his hand in front of my eyes.

I turned my head slowly and looked at the man.

Is a gentle girl.She looked at me a little worried: "Are you crying...?"

I wiped my face and there were indeed water marks.

The girl handed over a tissue and said, "Go back to the dormitory early. It's snowing."

Is it snowing?When I came back to my senses, I realized that it was indeed snowing.

This is the first snow in Yanjing this year.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-11-1518:15:53~2020-12-0617:02:01期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 7 bottles of Fanlian;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!