Don't get drunk

Ye Lan watched me pour the wine, and suddenly grabbed my hand: Do you know?The first time I saw your picture, I thought I was delusional - you look like him.

I didn't speak, met Ye Lan's eyes, paused, Ye Lan let go, and I put the wine bottle back in place.

Ye Lan lowered her head and said softly: But if you look carefully, it doesn't look like it.You are much older and more thoughtful than him, so you will not be calculated to death like him...

I also died once, and I said to myself, everyone is young and ignorant.

I asked softly: Why are you telling me this?

Ye Lan's short hair was lifted by the wind in the lake: You don't understand... I need to remember the past... For so many years, I have no one who can talk.For so many years, everything has been pressed in my heart.You are not him, but I tell you as if I were talking to him.

I fell silent, not knowing exactly what Ye Lan meant; I also didn't know what kind of scheming was hidden in these words.

Ye Lan smiled, her eyes gradually became sharper from a trance, and she looked straight into mine: You have complicated feelings for Zhou Lei, although I don't know why, but I can feel your guard against him and your concern for him. hate.

I whispered: He is my lover.

The corner of Ye Lan's mouth twitched, and he looked at me with his forehead propped up: "If you are really his lover, can you still sit with me and drink leisurely?"

Why choose me?I asked lightly.

Ye Lan twirled the wine glass at her fingertips: Zhou Lei, although he is usually crazy, he does everything without leaking.I must find someone who can make him show his flaws in spite of everything.

I folded my hands between my apart knees: how did you find me then?

I had a hunch when I read your profile.When you blocked the gun for Zhou Lei, I knew that I had chosen the right one.

Is it?But you said that he was just playing for fun, and he didn't really care about me.

Ye Lan narrowed his eyes: He was really just playing at the beginning, and he played it very crazy, and it became the happiest time he played in so many years, but later he didn't realize that this way of playing could involve himself in it.Xiangyang, you performed better than I expected.You are the one who can touch his deathbed.

Saying that, Ye Lan chuckled lightly.

This time boating on the lake, Ye Lan must need me for something. Seeing that he was in love for a long time and couldn't get to the point, I asked straight to the point: "Why did Young Master Ye come to me this time?"

Ye Lan tapped the desk lightly: I can introduce all my relationships abroad to you.There are many channels and channels, when will you send someone to me to explain.

In fact, I have always been puzzled, Ye Lan has no business in China, where does the money come from for such a large expenditure abroad?

Ye Lan seemed to see my doubts: the little money Luo Yu brought out is all with me.In order to help him with his father's affairs... it helped me.

No wonder Luo Yu dared to go back to China, he thought Ye Lan would take care of everything for him.

I nodded: Young Master Ye has given me such a big favor, so what is there for me to use Xiangmou?

Ye Lan put the wine on her lips: You are supposed to know the whole story, so I shouldn't keep you.But today I showed kindness and wanted to buy you with money, so don't tell the story, what do you think?

I laughed and said: Ye Shao really knows how to joke.

Ye Lan just looked at me like this, without saying a word.

Presumably, there must be something on Zhou Lei's side that needs me to come forward.

I murmured: But since Young Master Ye has spoken, I'd rather be obedient than respectful.I don’t know what’s going on with Zhou Lei?

Ye Lan raised her eyebrows: Have you read the news?

I nodded: This time it seems that there has been an upsurge of discussion in the field of psychology. Experts in education and psychiatry have all shown their talents in the media.It is said that the rich second generation has today's bad habits, mainly because of the lack of fatherly love and motherly love, an unhappy family since childhood, and a rich material life, which led to tragedy.

Ye Lan nodded seriously: What they said makes sense.

I quietly waited for Ye Lan's next words.

Luo Yu's body was found downstream, and this time Zhou Lei could not escape death.The public opinion outside is uproarious.

I didn't speak.

Ye Lan turned the wine glass in her hand and touched it with me: Let's celebrate.

Ye Lan dried it quickly, but when the wine poured into my throat, I felt for the first time that the jade liquid wine was so strong, burning the internal organs and cutting all the way to the heart.

Ye Lan put down the cup, let out a sigh of relief, and continued: But yesterday, when I went to see Zhou Lei, he knelt on the ground and begged me, saying that he didn't want to die, and he did it unintentionally.Beg me to let him live.

I was startled.

Ye Lan hooked the corner of her mouth: I promised him.

As he said that, Ye Lan looked at me with scrutiny: If you want to die in this kind of case, unless there is a major meritorious service, or...or Zhou Lei has a mental problem and cannot be responsible for his actions.I'm going to arrange the next way for him.But there is a condition, if he is really so attached to the world of mortals, he must be really crazy.Zhou Lei hasn't called me back yet.

I looked into Ye Lan's eyes: Do you want to let him go?You've been preparing for so long, don't you want to kill the grass?

Ye Lan won't pour wine this time: first, if he dies, the threads in many old men's hands will be broken, and I still have a place to use him; second, he's the last one, he's dead , My connection with this world is broken... I still want to find a reason to live.Third, he is not so easy to die.

I thought about it: can I meet Zhou Lei?

Ye Lan nodded: yes.

-

When I came to the detention center and saw Zhou Lei, he had changed a lot.

Even though it hasn't been a week, he has already lost a lot of weight, and the once beautiful curve of his chin has become thinner.Gone is the handsome hairstyle, a monk-like crew cut.Before, the energy and spirit were full of high spirits, but now they are like a pool of stagnant water.Wearing a simple prison uniform, he quietly approached the meeting room under the leadership of several people.

I've been watching him since he came out.

Zhou Lei nodded slightly when he saw me. At this time, he still showed a demeanor. He walked over slowly and pointed to the bench for me to sit first.

Across a table, Zhou Lei looked at me calmly.It's just that I don't understand something hidden in those eyes.

Zhou Lei... I will speak first.

Zhou Lei pressed my lips with his hand: don't talk, I just ask you, why did you help me block the gun in the first place?

I paused: I don't want you to die.

The flesh on Zhou Lei's face became thinner, and his eyes became bigger and brighter, looking at me so burningly: Why?That's dangerous.You're probably dead yourself, aren't you?

I said: I don't know, the body took action first.

Hearing this, Zhou Lei lowered his head, buried his face in the cross of his hands, sobbed suddenly, raised his face and wiped his eyes after a long while, only then did I realize that there was a ring of the same style as mine in his palm.

Zhou Lei smiled with tears in his eyes: "It's been hidden all the time, and I haven't been taken away by those bastards."

I reached out and patted his shoulder.

Zhou Lei suddenly said: I have asked you like this, why don't you want to say that you love me?

I looked at the ring that was tightly packed by him: I am a person who does things, not just words.

Okay... Zhou Lei raised his head and leaned back on the chair, and then tears rolled down his reddened eyes: Just relying on your words, I promise Ye Lan.

Ye Lan said, you can let me go, as long as I take some medicine, like my father, if I really become crazy, he will let me go.

I was silent.

Zhou Lei raised his head and continued: "I met my dad when he was locked up inside and no one recognized him, only my mother."Holding her photo in my arms and looking at it every day, I asked him, who is this.He said, this is his woman.The woman of my life, who blocked the gun for him, I asked him again, who am I, and he said, he didn't know me.

Xiangyang, when the time comes, I will only recognize you.

Zhou Lei smiled self-deprecatingly: If I really became like that, would you still be willing to guard me?If I go crazy and get released on medical parole, will you take care of me?

I held his hand: that would be worse than death.Have you really thought about it?Is there no other way?

Zhou Lei covered his face with one hand, and overlapped my other hand: I want to die too, but I can't bear you.

I sighed.

Zhou Lei suddenly said: Do you know why I like you?

I shook my head.

Zhou Lei smiled wryly: I just figured it out too.When I was a child, I kissed my mother, and she told me that sincerity is hard to buy in this world.She felt that my father was sincere to her.I thought she was so happy.But what happened later, I think she is stupid and childish.I hate that she left me so early.But I also envy her, she died for the person she likes.But it's useless to die. If you die, everything is over.My dad brought home a newcomer, but my mom died in vain.

Xiangyang, I can't die for you in vain, I want to live and stay by your side.