Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

When I was in junior high school, there were programs for school celebrations in each class. At that time, our class was lined up with Corneille's "Cid", which only kept the basic framework and adapted it into a domestically produced modern funny version.

When it comes to being tall, some people come first and others come later, and I belong to the kind of people who lack stamina for preemptive strikes.When I was in junior high school, I sat in the second-to-last row of the classroom, and I didn’t wear glasses. No matter how I looked at it, I was a fair and clean boy who liked girls. Originally, Cid had arranged for me to play Don Roddick in the play, but I couldn’t help it. Second master, I couldn't find any acting ability from head to toe. After several failed attempts, I could only stand there as a decoration, acting as a guard without lines.

The programs produced by each class have to be reviewed, and finally three programs are reserved for each grade. As a result, the program of our class was unfortunately selected.

The school celebration was held in the Great Hall, and that was the first time I stood behind a crimson curtain.The literary and art committee will give the final explanation to the protagonists, and as an actor, the only thing I need to do is to stand on the stage and wait for the play to finish, so no one comes over to talk nonsense with me.

I stood on the sidelines, and there were students in front of me and behind me who were still reading the lines. The space behind the curtain was not too big, so I just stood there and lost my mind. When I came back to my senses, I needed the actors who appeared in the first act. After standing in my position, the Cultural and Art Committee pushed me two steps forward. After telling me not to be nervous, he retreated backstage, and the curtain was pulled away.

A second ago, you were still there in a daze, there was only a curtain in front of you, and the old crimson was all you could see, but a second later, everything changed.

From behind the scenes to the front of the stage, there is only a piece of cloth, but it is that piece of cloth that separates the stage from reality.All of a sudden, the calm turned into noise. You will hear applause, and you will find thousands of eyes looking in your direction. Only at this moment do you really understand what you have been doing in the past few months of rehearsal one thing.

Lifting the curtain was definitely a subversive experience, just like how I feel right now after everything I've been through today.

After reading the contents of the notes and photos again, I have seen everything I can see, and I have done everything I need to do. It becomes clear at a glance what kind of thing I have experienced.But when I have something to do, I don't feel it. Once I have nothing to do, I don't feel so good.

If Ye Wen was just playing tricks on me and threw it away when he was done, then I would definitely not let him off lightly, but his play is revenge, and there is a reason for it.

Basically, everyone has watched martial arts dramas. The rule of grievances in the world is that if you kill a person, that person’s son will kill your whole family after he grows up. You must not accept it. The person who killed the whole family will definitely not escape the bloody brutality. You can hate him and get revenge, but you can't say he was wrong.

Facing the enemy, it is definitely not kind of you to take revenge a hundredfold, but it is absolutely reasonable.

Although I can't accept Ye Wen's progress today, I have to admit that it is reasonable for him to retaliate against me.

Especially after looking at the photos, the mood that had been calmed down by the notes began to fluctuate again. I can't tell what I was thinking, and I didn't bother to think about it. I just felt tired in the face of this mess.

Today is a very fucking exhausting day.

But no matter how tired he was, he never went into shock, and no matter how unwilling he was, he couldn't stop himself from thinking wildly.

The noble and beautiful Ye Wen, Young Master Ye severely punished the disgusting rapist Guan Guan who was not punished by the law. With those photos as a backdrop, if this matter is brought out, there will probably be countless girls applauding Ye Wen Applause.

As for who is right and who is wrong between me and Ye Wen, and who is more wrong, I thought about it for a long time, but I couldn't come up with a result at all, I just felt a headache.

After getting out of the subway, I dangled and changed to the city railway. In the increasingly crowded crowd, I began to uncontrollably recall the time I spent with Ye Wen during the past year.

Jokes and bickering, long talks before going to bed, every little bit of happy things we have experienced together makes me feel chest tight when I think about it now, not to mention those words that you like me, I like you, I love you and you love me Certain scenes are gone.

The first person I fell in love with in my life hated me and despised me for playing with me.

No matter how I think about it, I can't find a bigger joke than myself.Right or wrong, Guan Erye's life this year is a complete joke.

I asked myself countless times, if I did it all over again, and I didn't force Ye Wen that night, how would things develop.

There are never assumptions in life, and all assumptions have no effect except to add to one's own heart.But I still keep making trouble for myself.

If I go back to that night, stop at the moment when Ye Wen and I were arguing, choose one, I let go, then Ye Wen will leave the hotel and disappear from my life, choose two, I will continue, let Ye Wen hate me from now on, Take revenge on me for a year.

I think I'll choose the second, so Ye Wen said that if he wants to make me regret everything that day, he can't count as a success, because I don't regret as much as he expected.

But if the time goes back to the end of the graduation defense, the situation will be different. If I can go back to the time when I never met Ye Wen, if I don’t know that there is such a person in my life, then I would be more than happy.

If things developed like this, I thought, I would take Yang Xiaojiu to open a room that night and continue my wonderful life of "youth and romance".

If it can be done, what I hope most now is to open the storage in my brain, use the search function to search for the word "Ye Wen", the search scope includes all partitions, and the search items include all screen and sound tastes, and then after the search, find Little red cross, delete them all.

Too bad my brain is not a computer.

On Metro Line 13, there are fewer people on the train than on the subway. I stand at the link between the two carriages.

Outside the window, the sun, which had turned golden-red, was gradually sinking in the west, and shone into a bright orange inside the car.I looked up at the vertical pole on the roof of the car, which was attached to the rail of the armrest. The pole cast a long shadow in the sun.

As the train moved forward, the shadow continued to revolve around the fixed pole with a constant speed and a fixed direction. It looked like a fan blade, which was very interesting.

I kept looking up at the shadow until the shadow disappeared, and then I got out of the subway and walked aimlessly for a long time. After I stumbled across a bus that could go home, I jumped on it.

Fa stayed in a daze all the way, and when he got home, it was already dark.

I have always felt comfortable living alone, this is the first time, when I open the door and face the darkness, I feel deserted.

Turn on the computer and play a movie to make some sound. I went to the kitchen to look for food. I don’t know how to cook. Naturally, there is nothing at home. I always feel that there are instant noodles in every cabinet. Now I really want to look for it. But I couldn't find any of them.

In the end, I only found a pack of dried noodles and two eggs, so I cooked a bowl of egg noodles for myself with the ingredients. The egg noodles with only salt made people completely lose their appetite. In order not to waste food, I cooked them again. It took a lot of chili to barely finish it.

When I eat it, I always feel that the taste is not enough, so I put a lot of chili. After eating, I found that my stomach was burning and I realized that I really put too much chili.

After drinking a lot of water, I turned off the light and climbed into bed, put the computer on my lap, pulled the quilt to wrap myself and the computer together, and continued to watch the movie just now, but I didn’t watch a movie until the end I went in for a while, and didn't understand what was said at all.

I felt tired, but I didn't feel sleepy at all. Instead, I was very excited. Later, I tried a few movies but couldn't stand it. Finally, I dug out the porn.

As long as you haven't watched it, you can play it one by one. If you see the feeling, you can have a shot, and then continue to watch it with a different taste.

Instinctive pleasure and orgasm are the best ways to help the brain empty. I don’t know how long I have been tossing until I can’t get excited no matter what porn I watch, and I start to feel sleepy. Then I lie down on the bed and prepare to sleep. Glanced at the time.

April 4nd, April Fool's Day has passed, and soon someone will tell me that what happened on April 2st is just the worst April Fool's Day joke I have ever experienced.

People always have some illusions about life, don't they?

Just like how I used to face all the unhappiness and setbacks, I believe that as long as I sleep and wake up to face the sun of a new day, those messy things will disappear as if they never existed.

But when I woke up, it was still dark outside, and the new sun didn't know where it was shining on the earth.

I woke up not because I woke up from sleep, nor could I not fall asleep, nor did I hear a sound over 60 decibels, but because it was extremely sad. My stomach hurts and I had to get up to go to the toilet.

Together, I won't have the chance to sleep again in the second half of the night.

I have always been in good health, with few colds and fevers, and my stomach is very good. I have not had stomach troubles since I first came to university and adapted to the climate of Beijing.

If you don't sing, you are already a blockbuster. Once you make a fuss, you will make a big fuss. On average, you will go to the toilet every 10 minutes, and your feet will be soft.

There was no medicine at home, so I drank a little more water, thinking that diarrhea was a small problem, and it would be fine to finish all the stretches that could be done. If it couldn’t be done, I would definitely wait until dawn to buy medicine and take it.

In the end, I was wrong, and I dragged myself all night. In the morning, let alone going out to buy medicine, I even struggled to walk the few steps from the bedroom to the toilet. I have no energy, my legs are weak and my eyes are blurred.

In order to save time, I simply sat on the toilet and didn't get up. Instead of tossing about, I might as well respond to all changes with the same.

It was only when I woke up with the pain of hitting the back of my head against the wall tiles that I realized that I had actually fallen asleep sitting on the toilet. If there is a comparison like "the most special place you have slept in" in the future, I think I must sleep on the toilet today. Can be on the list.

After waking up and waiting for a while, I felt that I really had nothing to poop, I moved back to the bed and planned to go back to sleep, but although I didn’t poop anymore, my stomach and intestines still didn’t stop. The pain made me break out in a cold sweat. Not to mention sleeping, I changed a lot of positions, and I couldn't stand sitting, lying, or lying on my stomach. Finally, I lay on my side and curled up to feel better.

I really shouldn't eat that bowl of noodles, maybe the noodles have expired a long time ago, or the eggs are not fresh, or the eggs are artificial...

Diarrhea is not a disease like a cold. This is what I have always thought, so although my stomach hurts all night, I always think that it will be better if I wait a little longer. As a result, the facts once again prove that people who are usually in good health only get sick when they get sick. Even worse.

I procrastinated until dawn, and slept for a while when the pain was not so painful. When I woke up again, the sun was already shining outside. It seemed that it was almost noon.

Thinking that there is no way to go on like this, I climbed out of bed and planned to go out to buy some medicine to eat. The pain is not ordinary diarrhea, it may be acute gastroenteritis or something.

Finally, when I finally got to the door, there was another sudden pain, so severe that I couldn’t even straighten my waist. Forget it, I had to climb down the stairs and then walk out of the community to cross a road and walk a few hundred meters. The possibility of me being able to fight back and forth in my current state is very slim.

After thinking about it for a long time, I moved back to the bedroom, took out my phone from my pocket to charge it, and didn't have time to care about the dozen or so unread text messages, so I called Yue Chen first.

What are good buddies for?Good buddies are there to cause trouble.

Although he will definitely scold me for eating recklessly again, I feel more comfortable being scolded than having a stomachache.

Besides, I'm already ridiculous enough, I really don't want to accidentally pass out because of diarrhea, if the news of "a young man in this city died at home, the cause of death is suspected to be diarrhea" is published in the newspaper, then I will be depressed even if I die I have to come back to life.

It took two calls to get through, and Yue Chen's voice was messy, "Why did you remember to look for me? Is there something wrong?"

I cleared my throat and tried to make my voice not so hoarse, "Catie, help me, I'm running loose, my lungs are about to be pulled out of my asshole."

"It's easy to have diarrhea when the season changes. Is there any medicine? You can take some medicine first. I can't leave now. I'll see you later."

"Damn it, it's so fucking boring. I've always regarded you as a good buddy. What are you doing on the big weekend? Why not accompany your girlfriend, you value sex over friends."

"I'm in Tongzhou. The chicken coop hasn't been finished yet, so I have to watch it here."

"What are you doing in Tongzhou? What chicken coop?"

"It seems that the two of us really haven't been in touch for some time. I will quit my job after the year and do it myself. Didn't I tell you?"

I just remembered that I heard him mention it, but I didn't pay attention, "Haha, yes, I mentioned it, then you should be busy."

As soon as I was about to hang up, Yue Chen said again: "Wait, is your diarrhea serious? Don't delay, take some medicine, if you can't let Ye Wen accompany you to the hospital, yes, go to the hospital, don't take medicine indiscriminately, let me tell you……"

He was explaining carefully over there, but I was choked up. I had a stomach ache that night and hardly thought about Ye Wen. When he mentioned this name now, I suddenly realized very clearly that I It's over with Ye Wen.

"Niaoshengzi? Shut up? Hey, did you hear that? Is it a signal problem...Hello?"

I answered him, "I heard you."

The sound over there stopped for a few seconds, and then the messy sound suddenly disappeared, and Yue Chen's voice suddenly became very clear, "Can you hear me clearly now? What's wrong with you? The sound is all wrong, shut it down?"

"I'm fine, you are busy, hang up." After I finished speaking and hung up the phone, I felt very uncomfortable, as if twisting twists in my heart.

I don't know where the energy came from, I kicked over the small table next to the bed, then got into the quilt, covered my head tightly, and tried to force myself to think about nothing.

But it was just the opposite, the more I didn't want to think, the more I could think clearly. In the end, I was so annoyed that I banged my head against the wall through the quilt.

I thought Yue Chen wouldn't show up, but he still came, because I always like to lose things, so the spare key of the door is in his hand, so he doesn't have to knock to enter the house.

When the quilt on my head was forcibly lifted, I saw Yue Chen's ferocious face, and suddenly felt very kind, and calmed down.

"Have you taken your medicine?" He put his hand on my forehead, "I still have a little fever, what's going on?"