Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

It seems that Ye Wen has made up his mind to make it difficult for me to stay in Beijing.First he made a false accusation so that I couldn't find a job, and then he came out of nowhere and wanted to pay me off, okay, right now I just passed an interview, and he actually came again to make me give up the chance of getting it.

Ye Wen, Ye Wen, you lied to me for almost a year, and you still feel puzzled?

I squinted my eyes at Ye Wen, "Sure enough, you are still looking for someone to follow me."

Ye Wen turned his eyes away and didn't speak.

All right, if you don’t tell me, I’ll say, “I’m not going to leave Beijing, at least I won’t take the initiative to leave. If you have any tricks to use, heh, just use them.”

Ye Wen took the wine handed over by the bartender, and only took a sip, "I didn't come to you to talk about this, I came to remind you not to go to that company, it's for your own good."

"Oh, it's for my own good." I blinked at Ye Wen and raised my cup, "Thank you for reminding me."

Ye Wen pursed his lips and frowned, "I'm serious, don't go, the boss of that company is called Li Le, who used to be a student of your school, and he came out of Xu Hui's studio."

"Tsk, there are so many designers from our school. Should I be proud of my alma mater?"

"Don't you understand? The reason why Li Le wanted you was entirely at the behest of Xu Hui. You should be aware of the conflict between you and Xu Hui. You are not allowed to go to any company related to him."

From the time Ye Wen mentioned Xu Hui's name, I probably guessed what he wanted to say, but compared to the unhappiness of work being ruined, Ye Wen's sudden appearance and saying these words made me feel more upset.

I raised my head and drank the wine, then put down the glass and looked at Ye Wen, "Are you finished?"

Ye Wen just looked straight at me and moved his lips.

I stood up before he could say anything else, "Okay, bye."

Go out from the small bar, on the left, about 60 meters away is a lively neighborhood, on the right, there are a few snack bars, the business is a bit deserted, and further inside, there are only street lights standing, and no pedestrians can be seen.

I turned left, and as soon as I lit a cigarette, I heard footsteps coming up from behind, and after walking a few steps, my shoulder was pulled.

"Wait." Ye Wen's voice was a little anxious.

With my back to him, I continued to inhale the half-puff of the cigarette, then exhaled forcefully, closing my eyes and trying to calm myself.

But he couldn't calm down.

I slammed the cigarette I had just taken a few puffs on the ground, and stomped on the little orange light in the darkness with my feet.

As if a fuse was buried under my feet and a cigarette butt was lit, I turned around and yelled at him, "What the hell are you thinking! Ah? What the hell are you thinking!"

I can't explain why I suddenly yelled at Ye Wen, but I can clearly hear my voice suddenly explode on the relatively quiet path, and I can even feel the vibration of my vocal cords when I speak, and the contraction and relaxation of the muscles in my neck , The violent beating of the pulse.

The anger in my heart burned to the roots of my ears in an instant, and I felt hot from my neck to my face.

Almost the opposite of my state, Ye Wen stood there with a calm face, as if he didn't hear what I said, "So, you won't go to that company anymore?"

"Fuck! I go where the hell I like to go, you can fucking control you!"

Ye Wen looked at me seriously, and said in a serious tone, "You shouldn't go, or you will regret it."

I couldn't help but push him back and watched him stagger a few steps, "Fuck you! Tell you Ye Wen, I've never fucking regretted it in my life! Don't think that you can't make clothes and can't find them." So what happens when you get to work, fucking Beijing is not your Ye family’s backyard! How long you want to stay, what you like to do, you don’t have any fucking control!”

Seeing his appearance and expression, I couldn't calm down. I clenched my fists and then loosened them, and then I clenched them again. I wanted to say even worse words, but I held back my fists, turned around and left.

I have no reason to be angry with him, and I have no reason to beat him.

Ye Wen said in a calm voice from behind: "You are free to live where you want, and you can do whatever job you want, but don't do stupid things just because you are angry with me, and definitely don't provoke Xu Hui again."

When I got home, I grabbed the basketball and went out.

There were four or five kids around my age on the court. I played with them, but my mind was full of what Ye Wen said just now, and I couldn't concentrate at all.

Later, when I played three-on-three, I shot ten shots, ten of which were missed. When the No. 11 shot was made, I aimed hard at the backboard and smashed it.After the ball hit the ground, those people looked at me like a lunatic and pointed at me for a while, and then they all left, leaving me alone to occupy the basketball court, and I couldn't make any shots.

After finally making a three-pointer unconsciously, I bent over and supported my knees, panting, watching the basketball bounce and roll farther and farther into the grass behind the hoop.

From April Fool's Day to now, I have actually not been able to calmly think about the whole thing carefully, and I have been unconsciously avoiding everything related to Ye Wen.

I don’t know if it’s because I yelled at him a few words today and played basketball for a long time later. Now I’m lying on my side on the bed, looking at the light of the building opposite the window, I feel quite peaceful in my heart. Then a hurdle that has been invisible and insurmountable seems to have passed suddenly.

I carefully recalled the things I experienced with Ye Wen from the beginning of our acquaintance until today, and I felt from the bottom of my heart that between me and him, there is no right or wrong.

Thinking about the whole thing, I just feel helpless.

The past must always be let go, and only by letting go of the burden can we move forward?

I shouldn't be angry with Ye Wen, there is no reason or meaning, so if he appears again next time, I will control my emotions, try to straighten this messy rope, and return to normal life.

I don't know if this is a good thing, but after I made my decision, Ye Wen didn't make me wait long before reappearing.

During this period of time, I have been picking up some graphic design odd jobs at home. Although I can’t make much money and it’s not stable, it’s enough to cope with my current life. Before I figure out what to do in the future, I have to figure out a way Fill the stomach.

What Ye Wen said before about the bosses of that company, Li Le and Xu Hui, I asked a few seniors about the situation, and it was confirmed that Li Le was indeed Xu Hui's protégé, and the two of them had always been very close.As far as the matter is concerned, Ye Wen can be regarded as helping me. Of course, I can't guess his motive for doing this, and I don't want to guess.

After working for more than half a month to finish the set of jobs I received, I asked a friend on Q to go to the bar.

The lights are feasting, I am sitting on the sofa drinking with my "bow tie" in my arms. I met the bow tie on the Internet, so when we meet each other, we call him by his net name. This guy is young and not very experienced, but he is very enthusiastic and loves to play. Fighting with him for wine and boxing is definitely a fun that can make people fully immersed.

Of course, if Ye Wen hadn't suddenly interrupted me, I would have had a better time playing with the bow tie, happier and deeper.

It’s said that there are only three things. I really didn’t expect that Ye Wen would come to the bar to find me again. I can’t figure out whether this guy has a problem with his brain structure, or he is deliberately trying to get along with me. He always happens when I am having a good time. Appear.

The bar was very noisy, and the bow tie was noisy, but Ye Wen's voice seemed to have a particularly good penetrating power, so it floated into my ears surrounded by many noises.

"You stop drinking."

I heard him talking, and when I raised my head to see him, he held the lower half of the wine bottle in my hand with his hand, his expression on his face was cold, his voice was also cold, and his eyes fell on the pile of empty bottles on the ground.

The bow tie was sitting on my lap at the moment, and he also looked back at Ye Wen, and shouted almost at the same time, "Oh! Handsome guy!"

It attracted many people around to look here.

I patted the waist of the bow tie, pulled the bottle back from Ye Wen's hand and put it on the ground, and smiled at him, "Come to see me for something? Or...do you want to have a threesome?"

Before Ye Wen could speak, the bow tie looked at Ye Wen and me excitedly, "This handsome guy is your friend? Really? Can the three of us play together?"

I hugged the tie and kissed Ye Wen, "You can ask him, as long as he agrees."

The bow tie got off my body, and I pulled Ye Wen's sleeve very familiarly, and yelled at him, "Hey, handsome guy, how are you?"

Ye Wen glanced at the bow tie, "Not good." A tone of refusal from thousands of miles away.

Tie stuck out his tongue, let go of his hand, looked at me and asked for help with his eyes.

I bent down to grab the wine bottle on the ground, but Ye Wen grabbed my arm and pulled me up from the sofa forcefully, "You come out with me, I have something to say."

I couldn't help feeling a little anxious again, but remembering the previous decision, I followed him out with a smile.

After walking a few steps, Ye Wen stopped and turned around, pointing to the bow tie and said, "You, don't follow me."

I looked at the bow tie with an embarrassed expression on the spot, and patted his head, "Be good, wait for me, I'll be back in a while."

The tie looked at me obediently, then at Ye Wen reluctantly, nodded and sat back on the sofa.

On the steps outside the bar, three or four punk-dressed kids were sitting, drinking and making noise in circles.Ye Wen walked in front and didn't stop until the surroundings became quieter.

I lit a cigarette and smoked while leaning against the wall, "If you have anything to say, tell me."

Ye Wen turned around, "You always go out to drink, do you give up on yourself?"

From a distance of half a meter, I spit smoke mixed with alcohol on his face, "Can't you see that I am having a good time? This is called life adjustment."

Ye Wen asked again: "Is it because you can't find a job?"

I asked back: "Do you think, where do I get the money to drink without a job?"

Ye Wen lowered his head slightly, "I mean, you are a fashion designer, but you can't find a design job now, so..."

"So you give up on yourself? Hahaha, I really don't want to give up on myself because of such a stupid thing, but then again, what do you mean? Why can't I find a job in fashion design? Don't you know better than anyone else? ?”

"Well," Ye Wen looked up at me, "So, what I mean is, if you still want to continue to do fashion design, I can introduce you to my friend's studio, or if you want to answer the negative sentence, that's fine too." He After a pause, the voice lowered a bit, "I shouldn't let my personal grievances affect your design career. Regarding the theft of design drawings, I will also find a way to clarify as soon as possible to minimize the impact on you."

He looked at me after he finished speaking, as if he was waiting for my answer. I continued to smoke, trying to endure a lot of harsh words that were on my lips, and when I calmed down after smoking, I replied: "That's it. Bar."

Stamping out the cigarette butt, I turned and walked back to the bar.

Bow Tie is having fun with someone at the next table.Before I came in, my idea was to take him out and find a place near the bar for a field fight. If Ye Wen wanted to monitor, take pictures or even watch the scene, let him see enough.

But now I really saw the bow tie, but I didn't feel any interest at all. Watching them play like crazy, I just sat in the corner and drank the rest of the wine and smoked the cigarettes in the cigarette case. I went home by myself.