Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

On the morning of Monday, September 9th, I held a bottle of sweet soy milk that I made early in the morning, and ate pancakes while drinking.

Today’s pancake fruit has no scallions, so I put more coriander. In order to make up for the lack of taste caused by the lack of scallions, I also spent a lot of money to add meat floss and mustard. A set of pancake fruit for nine yuan is also It can be regarded as a luxury in the same category, and Guan Erye has experienced a luxurious life.

Although Ye Wen didn't target me anymore after returning from Huangshan, I still sat in the old position.Although the three-legged table is unstable, it is cool enough and has personality. Although the place is a bit sunny, but fortunately, the view is good and it is quiet enough. I can still see it through the small hole I tore out in the newspaper. The outdoor unit of the air conditioner hanging under the window and the colorful bird droppings on it.

Early in the morning, Li Qiang said, let me go to Ye Wen's office after dinner. I finished eating pancakes, drank soy milk, studied bird droppings, and after a full burp, I felt that my mood seemed to be worse than that pile of birds. The color of shit is much more complicated.

If people remember it a little bit, they will catch up with those who forgot to add sugar when they bought sweet soy milk. Today should have been the first step of Guan Erye's plan to change his mind and start a new life. He should have gone to find Ye Wen with pride Tell him that Guan Erye has been vegetarian for a month for him, but now it seems that this plan is in vain, and the so-called success is on the verge of failure.

His grandma's is only one day away.

That Wang Yuqing, I still haven't figured out whether I did something to him or not.

When I woke up yesterday, he was naked and I was naked. I asked him what happened, and he asked me to guess. I honestly didn’t say anything based on the scene and the fact that I and him were both clean. Happened, and then he said that's not necessarily the case, because he wiped my body after he took a shower himself.

I asked him again, and he said that since I was so entangled, I might as well do it now, that would be a sure thing, and I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.In the end, I wasn't tempted by him, and he didn't compromise with me, so the matter was put on hold. It was rare for me to make up my mind for a while, but in the end, I made an oolong in a daze.

Facing Wang Yuqing's smiling face like a little fox at that time, I thought, if I could make a wish, I hoped that I could travel back to the time when I just fell on the bed with him. Everyone is happy with success. If I do it, I will be happy and happy. Remember that the process is not too bad.

In fact, it’s okay if you don’t know if you don’t do this thing or not. At worst, try again for another month. What really depressed me was what Wang Yuqing said. Does it make sense to force yourself to change?"

I probably wouldn't take the same thing seriously if it came from someone else's mouth, but Wang Yuqing gave me a different feeling, especially after hearing him tell the secret, this feeling was even stronger.

It is normal for my mother to remarry after my father died. After my mother remarried, my stepfather was lukewarm about the oil bottle. It was fresh, but Wang Yuqing was special. He told me that he didn't reject his stepfather's behavior, and even liked it, except for the first time he felt so painful that he thought he would die.

Because after the stepfather did it with him, he would hug him and take a nap for a while, and he could cling to him like he clings to his biological father when he was a child, sticking to him, sleeping with his arms, feeling warm and safe.Just for this sense of security, he pleases his stepfather, cooperates and gradually likes the feeling of having sex with his stepfather. He maintained this relationship with his stepfather for two years before his mother finally found out about it.

Wang Yuqing was very quiet when she told me about this, but there was a smile on the corner of her mouth, and finally he said: "Guan Guan, I like to have sex with him, and I like the feeling of being hugged and pressed by him. Feel safe, you may think I’m dirty or perverted when I say this, but this is my true opinion, no matter whether it’s dirty or perverted, it can’t change the fact that it has existed. You say, if feelings and feelings can Self-fabrication and control, is that still emotion?"

Wang Yuqing's words made me think a lot. I am sure that I like Ye Wen, not only his looks and body, but I am also sure that I have feelings for other people's bodies. Indeed, even if I fail this month, I can try again One month, two months, but if I'm with Ye Wen, if I'm lucky and spend the rest of my life like this, will I struggle with this problem for the next few decades?

Because of Ye Wen’s point of view, because of his attitude towards loyalty, in order to please him, he changed himself, denied the behavior pattern that he thought was correct in his own conception, disgusted and disliked the normal desires that sounded bad but did exist.

Just imagining it makes me feel like I will accumulate stress because of this, so I wonder if self-denial and self-repression are real compared to liking someone and wanting to be with him for a long time correct.

It’s rare to think about life seriously, but when I pushed open the door of Ye Wen’s office, thoughts like Harry Potter and Dumbledore’s apparition flew to the sky with a whoosh. Thousands of miles away.

Plaid shirt with a black casual suit jacket, sitting behind the desk and drinking black coffee from a white porcelain cup, resting his chin on his left hand, and an amber ring on his middle finger, which I rarely saw him wearing once before.

I directly pulled up a stool and sat across the table from him. I felt good when I saw him. I just sat there. He rested his chin and read the materials in his hand without talking. I lay on the table and watched him swallow. No sound.

It took about 10 minutes like this before Ye Wen looked up at me, "You can explain that you are dumb and can't speak, but I still think you are deliberately slacking off at work."

"Hey, didn't you ask me to come here? The boss doesn't say anything, but the subordinates are on standby, right?"

"Now you know that you regard me as your boss."

"What is now? I've been looking up to you, my little one, and I'm willing to go through fire and water."

Ye Wen stood up and put the materials back into the cabinet, "Really? Then should I give you a chance to show your loyalty?"

"As much as you order."

Ye Wen pointed to the window behind him, "Then you climb out and wipe the outside of the glass clean."

I stood up and saluted, "I obey the chief." After I finished speaking, I walked to the window and leaned on the window sill swiftly.

Ye Wen stood below and looked at me with a smile. I knocked on the glass of the closed window and said, "Report to the chief, the fortress here is difficult to conquer, please ask for explosive support."

Ye Wen came over with a blueprint, handed it to me and said, "I've seen the sample of this garment, and I'm not very satisfied with your materials."

I jumped off the window sill, "I also don't think the combination of these two materials is suitable, wait for me to get the material samples, and you can see which one is suitable for you."

"No, I'm going to Muxiyuan this afternoon to look at the new fabrics, and I can take you with me." Ye Wen said and pointed to the window sill, "Wipe the footprints clean."