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Afterwards, Li Changen didn't have any thoughts on negotiating business matters, so he took his son back to T City.

After this incident, Li Su became completely stupid. After returning home, he didn't want to go out. He was locked in the room every day, either sleeping in a daze, or reading and painting. If Li Changen hadn't begged him outside the door, he would definitely not have eaten.

That thing cannot be said.

Li Changen could only keep apologizing to his son and blaming himself, but he couldn't really tell Li Su about that matter.

Li Su's whole person was also confused and confused, it seemed that his whole person had become ridiculous and ignorant.

Having that kind of relationship with his father, he felt that he was so dirty from the inside out that he couldn't stand it.

If he takes a bath, he will stand under the water for two hours, and he will not leave when his whole body is wrinkled.

He didn't think that Li Changen was so wrong or bad that he was not worthy of forgiveness.

In fact, he didn't feel that Li Changen was wrong and had to confess to him.

Because he knew that after another few days, in that erotic dream, the intimacy and joy of being kissed deeply, the irresistible pleasure of being stroked and kissed vigorously, all surfaced from time to time, which made him feel even more Feel obscene.

He felt that he was filthy, he was the filthiest person in the world, and he couldn't get clean anymore, so he hated himself extremely, but he couldn't tell anyone these words, and he couldn't tell anyone.

Even the least dared to let his father know what a disgusting child he was, yearning for his father.

He didn't want to see Li Changen again, seeing him made him loathe himself even more.

He felt that he couldn't go out, so he could only squat in a dark room and die slowly like that, or die quickly.

But he didn't dare, because Li Changen said that if he died, he could only die with him.

Li Su felt that she was going crazy, her mind was in chaos, and she didn't know what to do.

I was still working on drawing his lotus picture, but at some point, all the lotus leaves on it were painted black, and the flowers also turned black. No, the middle of this picture should be bright, but now It's getting darker.

He looked at the painting under his pen and shed tears silently.

When Li Changen came into the room to see Li Su, Li Su had already passed out in front of the easel.

Li Changen was always surprised by him, and ran to hug Li Su up, only to find that he was still breathing and his heart was beating, and his heart was a little more at ease.

Li Su was hospitalized again. In fact, the doctor said that he did not need to be hospitalized. He was just anemic and hypoglycemic, which is why he fainted.

But Li Changen knew that the bigger reason was that Li Su's heart knot could not be untied.

With Li Su like this, Li Changen hated himself even more, and never drank a drop of alcohol ever since.

In the hospital, Li Changen did not let Li Su live in a single ward, but in a private ward.

The rest of the children in the room were also living children. One had appendicitis, one injured his leg in a car accident, and one had a leg amputated.

Li Su was the least ill in the room, or he was not physically sick, just go home and eat well to replenish blood.

But psychologically, I'm afraid his illness is more serious, even worse than that amputated girl.

In the ward, the parents of other patients came and went. The patient with appendicitis was taken care of by his grandfather and a classmate, who always spoke in a low voice. Just like shopping in the market, there are many people every day, and the voice is very loud, telling jokes, talking about compensation and so on.The girl who underwent amputation always reads books, Shi Tiesheng's books, and looks very calm. Her mother is also a gentle woman. Because the hospital bed is next to Li Su's, she often peels apples for Li Su to eat.

But Li Su always turned his face away, lying down and covering his head with a quilt.

The mother felt that he was strange at first, but she didn't ask. Later, she got used to seeing him like this all the time.

Li Chang'en has nothing to do with Li Su. Before this, Li Su was hurt, at least he was his safe haven, but this time, he hurt him, and he couldn't say it out, and he didn't know how to undo the damage.

Because of this incident, Li Changen was haggard all over.

The nanny at home took care of Li Su in the hospital every day. In fact, Li Su was fine at all. Li Changen let him stay in the hospital just to let him feel some courage from other patients, the courage to live well.

In the hospital, there is always news of many people dying. For various reasons, some of those people died unwillingly, some of them were unprepared, and they encountered a car accident in an instant, or I fell off the roof of a building on a construction site, and when I met someone who was seriously ill, the family tried to pay for the medical bills, but they still left...

Li Su listened to the people in the ward saying this every day.

The appendicitis patient was just like him when he stayed in the ward quietly, and when he was discharged from the hospital, he was not alive.

It's just that the dazed Li Su would look at him from time to time, so he only noticed him when he left.

He left from Li Su's hospital bed, and Li Su called him in a low voice, "Brother?"

He thought that no one would hear such a small voice, but the boy heard it. Looking at it, Li Su's skin is so white that it makes people feel a little abnormal. Some people even wonder if he has leukemia, like in Korean dramas. same as the heroine.

Li Su handed him a few pages of drawing paper, he took it, and saw that it was painting him, his classmates, his grandfather, the window, the branches outside the window...

The boy was surprised and wanted to thank him, but Li Su lay down again, burying his face in the quilt.

Li Chang Enlai saw this scene, followed the boy who had undergone appendicitis surgery, and said, "Thank you."

The boy felt very strange and asked why he thanked him.

Li Chang'en said, "He seldom draws people, but if he draws you, it means he likes you."

The boy said, "Oh, then we should thank him. He...does he have leukemia?" There was some sadness in the latter sentence.

Li Changen shook his head, "No. He just locked himself in his own world and didn't want to come out."

The boy was surprised, and said, "Oh, he is indeed too quiet. I haven't heard a word from him for four days."

Li Changen gritted his teeth uncomfortably, "It's my fault."

The boy said, "Actually, I think it would be better to send him to practice Tai Chi or play basketball."

Li Chang'en said, "He doesn't like these things."

When Li Changen came into the ward, Li Su had already exposed his head from the quilt again, with a very calm expression, and said to Li Changen, "Dad, I want to go home."

Li Changen took him home again. In the car, Li Changen said, "Susu, didn't you say that you really wanted to go to Norway, and now we're going to travel there, shall we? Summer is just the time."

Li Su buried her face in the book, shook her head, "No."

Li Changen sighed in his heart, and said, "I want the phone number of the brother who is in the same ward as yours. He studies ancient Chinese literature. Do you want to make friends with him?"

Li Su continued to shake her head, "No."

There was an invisible wall built between father and son. Li Su only wanted to make the wall as thick as possible, so thick that his father could not see him, but Li Changen didn't know what method should be used to close the wall. Breaking through, he only saw that Li Su was becoming more and more indifferent to him, and was getting farther and farther away from him, but he had no way to stop him, no way to continue to pull him by his side to ask him not to leave.

Fortunately, Anwei came back soon, and Li Changen asked Anwei to come to his home to pick up Li Su to paint at Tang Wenyan's when he learned about it.

When Anwei came, Li Changen told him for a while, "Susu has been in a bad mood recently, you can talk to him more, read some positive books, listen to music, watch happy movies, go shopping, everything is good, It’s best to let him go out to adjust his mood.”

Anwei happily took over the job, but, "Why is Susu not in good spirits? What's wrong with him?"

Li Changen couldn't tell, so he told him not to ask, and not to ask Li Su either.