father's tree

Li Changen was worried that Li Su would ignore An Wei, but fortunately, the cheerful An Wei always had a way to make Li Su ignore him and talk to him.

This also allowed Li Changen to finally relax a bit.

Soon, Li Su's life in the second year of high school began. He and An Wei both transferred to the liberal arts class. After being divided into classes, they had to adapt to the new class. However, this was not a big problem for Li Su and An Wei. .

Li Su doesn't care much about the classmates in his class, so whether it's a new class doesn't matter to him; and An Wei, who can call everyone a brother and loves to talk to people, doesn't care about the new class. They got along very quickly, and naturally they didn't feel unaccustomed to changing the environment.

Li Su completely wrapped herself in his cocoon, or turned into a butterfly, or died inside.

His daily life became more regular than before, school, Tang Wenyan's house, his own home, studying or painting.

He has moved out of Li Changen's bedroom and moved into his own bedroom.

This is what he has only completed from birth to now, from sleeping in his father's arms to sleeping alone.

The pain in the meantime is like a child being weaned abruptly.

However, Li Su had to stop.

He didn't dare to sleep on the same bed with his father anymore. When he slept by himself, he often dreamed of Li Changen's kisses, hugs, skin-to-skin contact, rubbing, his scorching body temperature, slightly rough and calloused lips. Fingers caressed his tender skin, with a slight pain, but it also brought him to heaven.

Li Su wakes up from the dream, even a good dream is a nightmare.

He didn't dare to sleep with his father, fearing that his ugliness violated ethics, and his thoughts that should be despised and reviled by everyone would be known by his father.

He can not care about his classmates saying that he is gay, but he dare not let his father know his dirty mind.

Li Su felt that she was no longer a child worthy of her father's love.

He didn't know how other people grew up step by step and then left the arms of their parents, but he seemed to be inseparable from his father's arms no matter how he grew up, which made him have such dirty thoughts now.

He was afraid and hesitant, not knowing what to do in the future?

What is his future? Leaving Li Changen, thinking of this, he felt that the pain was worse than death, but he had to leave.

At this time, An Weilai said to him, "Let's apply to study in France."

It was already winter, and the trees in the yard had almost lost their leaves, leaving only sharp branches piercing the pale gray sky, and there were no birds, and when the wind blew, even the last leaf was blowing in the wind gone.

Li Su sat on the ground under the eaves, staring at the sky in a daze, without a coat on his body, his fingers were stiff from the cold, and he didn't move even if his cheeks were sore.

Anwei's words broke the dead silence of the sky at this time, and brought Li Su back to his senses, with a bit of surprise on his originally blank face.

"France?" Li Su said softly.

Li Su was wearing a black sweater, with a pale face, beautiful eyebrows, dark pupils, a straight nose, and dark purple lips, like a lonely and distant painting.

"Well, let's go together. The teacher is not at home most of the time, he will send our paintings and grades to the school and tutor over there, and they are his friends, we don't have to work hard, and the two can be together. How? So?" Anwei stared into his eyes, looking at him expectantly.

Li Su thought, France, that is far away, is he going to go so far away, is he going to be so far away from his father?

But what can I do if I don't leave him?

Be with him all your life?Live like... like other couples?

He remembered what Anwei said to him, a man loves a woman, wanting to hug him, kiss him, have sex with him, get married, have children...

Li Su had never understood this before.

In his paintings, these things have never been shown, this kind of strong love that wants to separate oneself, in his paintings, they are all pure, in pure color blocks, either joy or despair.

However, there is no such strong love, a love that wants to break through the body, a love that will never die, a love of love, not just a little child looking up to his tall father.

Li Su hugged her arm and buried her face in it. An Wei squatted beside him, still asking him, "Susu, let's go together, huh?"

Li Su nodded.

Anwei was ecstatic immediately, "Did you agree, did you agree?"

Li Su stood up and went into the studio. There were paintings all over the place. Many of them belonged to him and Anwei. There were both practice works and final works, both good and bad. People who are not familiar with the art can distinguish the works of An Wei and Li Su at a glance.

Anwei's works are always brightly colored, bright and open, and the characters are also bright; while Li Su's works, even the most joyful works, are lonely, sad and desperate.

In the past, Li Su only thought that it was due to his own personality, so these things were always included in his works, but now he understands that not only his personality, but also his acquired growth has carved these things into his bones.

From birth until now, until he dies in the future, he will only live in the world with his father, and if he loves only one person, he is doomed. sense of security.

Even with his father by his side, he was worried that he would remarry, and he would feel lonely and sad, thinking that if he did remarry and let him go away alone, it would be his real despair.

The more you love someone, the more lonely you are.

Li Su's health was not good. When the weather turned cold, he caught a cold very quickly.

At first it was a sore throat and a bit of a headache, but he didn't pay attention to it, and Li Changen didn't notice it either.

After that, I started to have a low-grade fever and cough.

Li Su's body was thin, and when he coughed, his whole body was like a candle in the wind. It was earth-shattering as if he was about to cough out his lungs and then die.

At first, Aunt Mei, the nanny at home, also advised him to see a doctor quickly, but Li Su didn't listen. Li Changen went on a business trip. Aunt Mei saw that his cough was really unbearable, so she wanted to drag him to the hospital. Li Su refused. Ken, Li Su was not happy, and Aunt Mei had no choice but to call Li Changen.

Li Changen hurried back and went to Li Su's school to find him.

When Li Su transferred to the liberal arts class, she still sat in the first row, facing the door. During class, she covered her mouth with a tissue and coughed for a while. The teacher looked at him very worried.

Li Changen was at the door of the classroom and gestured to the teacher. The teacher went out to ask what was the matter, and then let Li Changen into the classroom to take Li Su away.

Li Su was lying on the desk coughing, and was pulled by the arm, and then she raised her head slightly, facing the lights in the classroom, and saw Li Changen's worried face.

Li Changen frowned, his eyes full of worry and distress.

In just half a year, he seemed to have changed a lot, even more than Li Su.

In the past, Li Changen was a high-spirited person with a personable manner, and there was always a smile on his handsome face, which made people feel his amiability, but now, he rarely has a smile on his face, his eyes are much deeper than before, and he looks more Introverted, always silent.

Li Changen wanted to take Li Su out, but Li Su was not willing to go with him at first, so the teacher came over and said, "Li Su, you should go to the doctor quickly, how can you attend class if you cough like this."

Li Su then followed his father out of the classroom, Li Changen held his hand tightly, led him away, and asked, "I'm not at home, don't you know to see a doctor?"

Li Su just let him pull her forward without answering.

When Li Su was about to go down the stairs, Li Su almost fell down. Li Changen quickly grabbed him and pulled him into his arms. At that moment, Li Su was hugged tightly by him. It's a distressed eye.

Li Su hurriedly pushed him away, but Li Changen didn't let go, his voice was a little hoarse, "Baby, let's stop doing this, please, stop doing this, obediently, listen to Dad..."

Li Su's nose suddenly became sour because of these words, and his eye sockets were moist. He lowered his head, and tears slipped out of his eye sockets silently.

Li Changen didn't notice that he was crying, so he just dragged him downstairs to the parking lot to drive.

Li Su got into the co-pilot. When Li Changen was driving, he turned his head to look at Li Su, only to find that his face was full of tears.