Overwintering method of lilac

For a long time after returning from Jiangbei, Yu Qing was dreaming every night.

Sometimes the Runsheng in the dream would suddenly turn into a monster when he was doing well, and sometimes the Runsheng in the dream would cry at him.

And more often, Yu Qing would dream that he ran farther and farther on the long railway bridge until he disappeared into the darkness—no matter how hard Yu Qing chased him, he never turned back.

Yu Qing woke up from the nightmare, opened her eyes dully and looked at the ceiling.

Dreams are not dreams.

That night, when Yu Qing came to his senses and ran to the end of the bridge in the direction where Runsheng left, Runsheng had long since disappeared.

Yu Qing was sad and terrified before, but Runsheng ran away without saying a word, and he was very afraid that something might happen to him.In the dim night, Yu Qing called Runsheng's name along the river, but the only response was the wind on the river.

If Ma Kai hadn't appeared suddenly when passing by the food stall by the river, Yu Qing didn't know how long he would have to keep looking.

Ma Kai was wearing a slipper vest, carrying a flashlight, and said that Runsheng had gone to his place, and told Yu Qing not to worry.He dragged Yu Qing to sit down and rest in the empty seat of the food stall, and bought Yu Qing a soft drink.

At that time, Yu Qing's voice was already hoarse, and she was dizzy.He said, did Runsheng really go to your place?

Ma Kai vowed: No one will give me money if I lie to you.That bastard was in my store, and fell asleep after drinking a bottle of wine.

Yu Qing was already unable to think about the loopholes in his words.Ma Kai looked determined, and Yu Qing's heart slowly sank.Although the heart fell to the ground, grievances surged up.He wanted to cry again: I...I want to drink too.

Ma Kai sighed and comforted him: the tongue and the teeth are still fighting.Isn't it normal for friends to quarrel a few words, even if they move their hands, it's okay.Besides, you two are so nice, as for what.Wait until I turn around and scold him for you.

After speaking, he looked up and glanced to the side.

Yu Qing stared blankly, sniffing.He didn't intend to tell Ma Kai anything, and no one else would know about Runsheng.

Ma Kai wanted to take him home, but Yu Qing said no.Ma Kai didn't let him buy wine, so he just finished drinking the soda - after finishing drinking, thank Brother Ma, and returned to Jiangbei by himself along the same road.

In summer, the sky dawned very early, and when Yu Qing walked across the river bridge, the sky was already purple.He stopped in the cold wind and the sound of water, and was finally able to calm down and think.

Yu Qing couldn't tell which thing broke her down more - whether it was her long-time friend who said she liked her, or her best friend was a pervert, or whether Runsheng would do something worse because he couldn't think about it for a while .

Then, for some reason, he remembered that many years ago, he was pressed against the wall of the dry toilet by his neighbor's relatives and pulled his shorts.Runsheng protected himself then, but now?

He didn't know what he did wrong.Runsheng looked very sad, and he couldn't help but worry about him; but when he was sad, what was Runsheng thinking about.

Runsheng's distorted face appeared repeatedly in his mind.Yu Qing was almost certain that, at least at that moment, Run Sheng hated herself.

How could he treat me like that.Yu Qing's heart ached so badly that she almost felt a kind of resentment—Run Sheng was such a jerk.

But that hatred was only a little bit after all, and it was blown away by the cold wind.In the end, Yu Qing squatted down helplessly and powerlessly, and shed tears facing the rolling river.This time there will be no one to comfort him.Because he knew he couldn't and couldn't bring it up to anyone -- ever, ever.

The summer sun was blocked behind the curtains, and Yu Qing just lay there wearily.He had another night of nightmares, and the dreams were bizarre.He ran desperately in his dream, but in the end he couldn't escape, and was bitten off by Runsheng who turned into a monster.

Yu Fen called him to eat outside, but seeing that he should not answer, she knocked on the door.Yu Qing was listless: "Here we come."

Unexpectedly, after a while, Yu Fen pushed the door open and walked in.

Yu Qing was only wearing a pair of shorts, seeing this, she hurriedly pulled the quilt to cover herself.Yu Fen didn't look at him, she came over and opened the curtains, Zhaohui rushed into the room in an instant: "The older you get, the lazier you become."

"I don't have it." Yu Qing said sullenly: "I didn't sleep well at night."

Yu Fen sat down beside his bed: "Why? Did you quarrel with Runsheng?"

Yu Qing's heart trembled, subconsciously denied: "No."

Yu Fen looked at his expression: "There was no quarrel, I haven't seen you looking for him for a week, and he didn't come looking for you either?"

Yu Qing lowered her head: "Anyway, it's not considered a quarrel, so don't ask."

Yu Fen was thoughtful: "You two have conflicts, you don't have to give in to him all the time."

Yu Qing was a little surprised, because Yu Fen was not the first to say such a thing.Er Fatty said the same thing the day he came back from Jiangbei.He also asked Yu Qing if he had quarreled with Runsheng, and then persuaded Yu Qing not to spoil Runsheng all the time.

Yu Qing couldn't talk about those things with Er Fatty, so he could only keep silent.

Er Fatty sighed at the time, and asked something that stunned Yu Qing: Did he not let you have sex with others?Then, without waiting for Yu Qing's answer, he continued talking on his own: I don't want to pay attention to him behind his back... After all, we have been buddies for so many years.But he can be a little bit of that sometimes, you know... very bossy.How should I put it...that is, you are only allowed to get along with him. If you get along with someone else, he will start acting like a monster...

Yu Qing didn't know what to say.Er Pang seems to have touched part of the truth.But in reality the problem is much more serious than that.

Er Fatty talked eloquently, and concluded that Yu Qing was too used to Run Sheng.

You agree to everything he says, but if one day he forces you to do anything and you don't agree, he will hate you.Er Fatty said so.

Yu Qing felt sad.He didn't feel that he was spoiling Runsheng, but what Er Pang said seemed to make sense.Now that her sister said the same thing, Yu Qing couldn't help thinking: So all this is my fault?

He sat on the bed in a daze.Yu Fen looked at him worriedly: "Is there really a quarrel? Do you want me to make peace for you?"

Yu Qing came back to his senses: "No need." He whispered: "I can solve it myself. Just find time... just talk to him."

Yu Fen looked at his younger brother for a moment, then suddenly stretched out his hand to pat him: "Okay, get up quickly, get up, go out to find friends and classmates to play with, or have a relationship. You don't need to listen to grandma, my sister supports it." You... Let me tell you, in our whole life, this holiday is probably the most relaxing, cherish it. When you go to college in the future, there will be a bunch of exams; ;If you get married again, you will be very obedient, there are old and young, and there are a bunch of seven aunts and eight aunts to deal with, and you won't be able to calm down for the rest of your life..."

Yu Qing was stunned, and vaguely glimpsed something different from the words: "I haven't seen you mention this before..." He blinked his eyes, and his tone unconsciously brought a bit of slyness: " Who do you want to be with, old and young?"

Yu Fen blushed slightly: "With you! With grandma! With our mother! You are my elder and younger..."

Yu Qing didn't believe it: "Is someone chasing you in the factory? What kind, let me have a look, crooked melons and dates can't be done..."

Yu Fen picked up the pillow and patted him, sticking her waist: "Don't change the subject there, it's about you now. Don't be lazy, get up quickly, if you don't go out to play, help grandma dry the beans. Oh, By the way, if you go out, help me go to the tailor shop and bring back my newly made skirt." She threw the pillow into Yu Qing's arms: "I even made you a jacket...don't tell grandma, keep it secretly , and bring it when you go to school. Otherwise, she will accuse me of spending money indiscriminately."

Yu Qing got up and felt that she had regained some energy from her sister's smile: "You still love me."

"Little slob, get up quickly." Yu Fen flicked her braids and went out.

The family had breakfast and each had their own business.Yu Fen was going back to the factory early in the morning, and Zhou Hui hadn't come home from get off work yet, so grandma went to the morning market to take advantage of the good weather.Yu Qing remembered her sister's advice, and took the receipt and car keys to the tailor's shop to pick up the clothes.

As soon as he left the building, he heard a stern reprimand at the gate of the courtyard.

Yu Qing looked over from a distance, and found that Fu Gong was carrying a briefcase, with a bad expression on his face: "...he didn't come back for a few days, and he didn't say a word... Look at you, do you still look like a student... Are you going to be a student?" Little rascal!"

Runsheng stood opposite Fu Gong, with his shirt in and out on his trouser waist, looking messy.

"Your mother called to ask how you are, but I dare not tell her!"

The corners of Runsheng's mouth twitched, he was actually smiling.He didn't say a word, and seemed to be admiring something.Fu Gong was chattering, he turned his eyes absent-mindedly, and inadvertently glanced at the gate of the North Building.

Yu Qing didn't have time to hide in the building, the eyes of the two happened to collide.Runsheng's smile disappeared, he stared at Yu Qing for a moment, then lowered his head.

Gao Gong's wife hobbled towards the gate of the courtyard with a small willow basket on her shoulders.Seeing someone approaching, Fu Gong finally suppressed his voice, and said in a low voice, "I have to go back to the factory...wash yourself well!"

The father left, and the old lady passing by also left, and the yard was quiet again.

Yu Qing hesitated for a moment, then finally lowered her head and walked towards the door bravely.

Didn't want to go halfway, a shadow blocked his way.

Yu Qing raised her head and found that Run Sheng was looking at her expressionlessly.He seemed to want to show his embarrassment in front of Yu Qing on purpose: the buttons on the top of the shirt were hung precariously by thin threads, there was a small bruise on his pale cheekbones, and there were red marks on his cheeks.The smell of perfume, wine, cigarettes and indescribable smells came together, making Yu Qing almost want to cough.

Seeing Yu Qing looking at him, Runsheng reached out to wipe the red marks on his cheeks.The mark faded away, and it turned out to be lipstick.

"I got into a fight with someone." Runsheng said softly, "It hurts."

Yu Qing didn't answer.

"It's all because of you." He stared into Yu Qing's eyes.