Overwintering method of lilac

Runsheng smiled emotionlessly: "I don't want to see you."

No matter how cold the wind is, it is not as cold as these words.Yu Qing suppressed the sudden bitterness in her throat, and said in a low voice: "Did I do something wrong?"

"Wrong? How could you be wrong. If I was wrong, I was wrong." Runsheng said to himself, "Why don't you ask me, who is that woman during the day?"

Yu Qing's heart trembled suddenly, but she still followed Runsheng's intention and whispered: "Who is it?"

Runsheng chuckled: "Zhou Gong's daughter. You want me to go on a blind date, so I'll go. See, doesn't it suit you?"

Yu Qing looked at him helplessly: "I never let you...I didn't mean that..."

"Then what else can you mean?" There was a strange smile in Runsheng's voice: "If you say you want to hide it, then I will hide it... If you say you want to hide it for the rest of your life, then keep it for the rest of your life..." He twitched He took a puff of smoke, and slowly exhaled: "Then I found out that you were right. There is really no other way but to hide it... Cao Yu used to go around telling others that our relationship is not normal, but now I have someone by my side. Such a woman, he doesn't mention that matter anymore. I used to think you were a bit stupid, but now I realize that you are very smart, and I am the one who is stupid..."

Yu Qing murmured: "I didn't... I didn't mean that... I didn't ask you to talk to the girl... We agreed to be together forever..."

Runsheng looked at the moon and said coldly, "Yes, we will be together forever, as long as you want."

Looking at Runsheng's profile in the dark, Yu Qing finally understood the meaning of that sentence.He wanted to say something, but when he opened his mouth, he found that his voice was hoarse: "But you... But you said that you don't like girls... Isn't that a lie?"

"I don't have to like it." Runsheng still didn't look at him, just smiled coldly.

Yu Qing murmured: "If people find out, they will be sad..."

"What's the matter with me?"

Yu Qing simply didn't know how he could say such a thing: "What do you mean it's none of your business! How can you hurt others like this..."

Runsheng laughed sarcastically: "What do you mean by harassing others? You and I obviously didn't hinder anyone, but we have to endure the eyes of others all the time, we have to be sneaky all our lives, and we can't be together openly... like this What if I get involved with other 'others'? I haven't murdered or set fire to anyone yet, so I'm kind enough."

He slammed out the cigarette, turned his head, his light-colored eyes fixed on Yu Qing's face, and his voice became very soft: "Don't talk about yourself so cleanly, didn't you also go on a blind date..."

Yu Qing said anxiously: "That's just catching up, it's hard to refuse...Runsheng, I really never thought about getting married, I agreed to be with you, and I want to be together for the rest of my life... "

"But you still went, didn't you?" Runsheng said indifferently: "You can't always refuse others. Compromise a little today, and compromise a little tomorrow. Some things will happen sooner or later." He smiled strangely: "In In this world, I know you better than anyone else. Because that's how I got you."

Yu Qing couldn't speak, his throat seemed to be blocked, and his eyes gradually blurred.

Runsheng approached him and said softly: "But I won't blame you. I'm different from you. Even if you get married and have children, I won't blame you. As long as you come to me, I will always be here. He raised his hand, brushing his knuckles lightly under Yu Qing's eyes: "During this time, I tried - I don't see you, I don't hear any news from you. I want to know if I can live without you... Look, how peaceful I am. From now on, if you miss me, I will come; if you don’t miss me, I won’t come... okay?"

Yu Qing was speechless, his mind was in a mess, and he could only look at Runsheng in a daze.

Runsheng rubbed his fingertips: "Why are you crying? The problem has been solved."

After a long time, Yu Qing finally heard his own crying voice: "What kind of life is this together?" He choked, waved Runsheng's hand away vigorously, and hissed: "Fu Runsheng, you bastard!"

"Asshole? Yes, of course I am an asshole!" Runsheng put down his hand, and his voice finally lost his balance: "I made you unable to live a normal life, I made you hide in fear, and I almost went to prison..." His teeth trembled : "You should scold me... You should have scolded me a long time ago! But why don't you come and blame me?! You deliberately want to make me feel guilty, so that I can't leave you forever, right?"

Yu Qing seemed to have been stabbed in the chest.He slowly shook his head and approached Runsheng: "No...I'm sorry, Runsheng...I didn't mean that..."

But Runsheng took two steps back: "What I said is true. I have already decided to let you live the life of an ordinary person."

Yu Qing stared at Runsheng who was close at hand, only to feel unprecedented disappointment and anger filling his chest instantly.They stirred, surged, and finally blurted out without thinking: "Then it's better to separate completely!"

All is quiet.

After a long while, Runsheng on the opposite side suddenly smiled.Yu Qing had never seen such an arrogant and sad smile on his face: "I knew it, this is what you really mean." He didn't seem to want to look at Yu Qing any more, turned around and left quickly.

On the empty riverside, Yu Qing watched his figure getting farther and farther away in the moonlight, until it was plunged into darkness, and finally couldn't help shaking twice, and leaned against the cold white birch tree.

The chest seemed to be emptied all of a sudden, only the cold wind passed through the body mercilessly, whistling past.Yu Qing clutched her chest tightly, looked up at the moon in the sky, and finally couldn't help sobbing.

He once imagined the difference between himself and Runsheng.Not in youth, nor in middle age, but after they grow old.There is no one else in all the pictures, only him and Runsheng.He hoped that he could leave a little later than Runsheng—just a little later, so that he could take care of the last things.If he left first, Runsheng would probably collapse directly.He didn't want Runsheng to be so sad.

Now all that imagination about separation seems to have lost its meaning.

Yu Qing slept very restlessly that night, always feeling a little stuffy in her chest.When I woke up early in the morning, my eyes were still red and swollen, and my cough was a little bit worse.When his roommate asked him, he could only say that he was angry.

The workshop came to urge the manual of the machine tool again.He and his colleagues stayed up late and worked overtime for two days.

During the breaks between overtime work, he still couldn't help thinking of Runsheng.

I don't blame him.Yu Qing said to herself.I really don't blame him.After these two days of busy work, I went to find him...

Two days later in the morning, all the translations of the instructions were finally compiled.Yu Qing rubbed her chest and went downstairs to hand in the materials.Probably because of the cold and staying up late, he felt very tired.

When I got to the stairs, I caught a glimpse of snow falling outside.

I don't know if Runsheng still wears so little.This thought broke into her mind for no reason, causing Yu Qing's footsteps to subconsciously pause.

Immediately afterwards, his eyes went dark, and he didn't know anything.