Pavlov and the White Moonlight

As soon as the thought of "putting it away" popped into my mind, I was in a bad mood. That night, my mind was full of taking it away, so I fell asleep on my stomach at the desk during the evening self-study class. At that time, I was still dreaming. I dreamed that Tang Shuhe was holding a cleansing bottle with a large LED light circle behind it. He said to me in the Buddha's light, from now on, you will be a good fortune boy under my seat.

I woke up with a shock, Tang Shuhe was shaking my shoulders and said, "Wake up, the preparation bell is ringing."

I looked at him blankly, and he looked at me blankly and said, "What's wrong?"

Me: "...it's fine."

"Just get entangled, you'll get entangled to death." Yu Sihai said.

Yu Sihai couldn’t eat my dog ​​intestines for 10 yuan for nothing. Three or ten minutes before the dormitory building was about to turn off the lights, I climbed up the ladder, pulled Yu Sihai’s feet and pulled him off the bed. Si Hai rubbed her eyes in a particularly good-tempered manner, and sat with me on the stairs in the stairwell, probably knowing that I was very upset recently.He sat there, pondered for a while, and said, "Would you like some wine?"

"Drink fart." I said.

"Hey," Yu Sihai sighed loudly, and said, "Is it because of Xiao Tang?"

I said um.

He said, "Hey."

As soon as he sighed, I wanted to sigh with him: "Hey cough."

He said, "Oh, oh, oh, oh."

... like two deaf people struggling with vocal rehabilitation.

Me: "...can we have a constructive secret talk on this matter."

"Why don't you go to Li Rui for Jianshe, he is the best."

"...the sea," I said, "I really don't know what to do."

"It's just such a little shit, it's impossible for you not to know what to do," Yu Sihai said, "You just need someone to conspire with you and let you tell what's on your mind."

"...well," I said, "Ocean, I found out, I found out that I seem...not like. I feel like I'm a little..."

"You discuss it with your mouth first." Yu Sihai said.

I was silent for a while.

I said, "I feel like I am interested in Tang Shuhe."

"A fool can see it. Liu Hongbo can see it too." Yu Sihai said.

I:"……"

I muttered to myself: "Really."

Yu Sihai sighed, hooked my shoulders, and said, "Lu Er, you have to think about it now."

I said, "Isn't that what you think?"

Yu Sihai made a little gesture with his hands: "The little you mean to him is only that you don't disgust him - after all, he really didn't do anything, or you are really ready. "

He didn't say the whole thing, but I get it.

Prepare to take that step, accept a new boyfriend, prepare for a relationship you never imagined, and a life that might change because of it.

"Think about it," Yu Sihai said.

I put my forehead on my knees and said in a muffled voice, "I know..."

Yu Sihai didn't speak, just put his arm on my shoulder, just like that.

I knew I had to figure it out, but when I saw Tang Shuhe, I was confused again.He always gave me a feeling of "this is fine, so be it", and it would be good to stay with him without retreating or advancing.But that won't work.

"Why don't you...you try first." Yu Sihai said.

"Try a fart," I said immediately, "Is this possible to try? Isn't this just playing with others?"

"That's not what it means," Yu Sihai said, "If you try it secretly, it's over."

Me: "... Who the hell am I going to try secretly? I'm not Jia Baoyu!"

Yu Sihai clicked his tongue: "What a good word, why did you make it so obscene, I mean, try it, break yourself in that direction, if you think it's really not good, then pull it down, if you really like it, Then go, don't hang on to others."

I said, "...Okay, I see, I'll think about it."

He nodded and said, "Quietly, don't act like a hooligan, it's disrespectful."

I was speechless: "I know! What do you think I'm going to do!"

Yu Sihai chuckled, but didn't speak.

I was quiet, and suddenly called him: "The sea."

He said, "Why?"

I hesitated and said, "If I really...would you..."

"No," he said.

I said: "Ah."

"Li Rui doesn't know either. He just likes to yell," Yu Sihai said. "Last time when Xiao Tang's seat was buckled into a chair, he was angry for a long time, and he kept looking for the one who buckled the chair. Who is the grandson. Don't worry, ah."

I said, "...well."

Yu Sihai patted me, the two of them were in a daze, when I suddenly heard a faint sound of footsteps coming from the stairwell, my heart skipped a beat, and I whispered, "Not good! I'm here for rounds!"

"Run, hurry up!" Yu Sihai stood up and ran, and I followed behind him, the two of them ran wildly in the corridor, I called him in a low voice while running: "Yu Sihai, run slowly! Run like a fucking dyke exploded!"

Yu Sihai hurriedly ran on tiptoe, and the two of us rushed into the dormitory lightly in a ballet dance posture, then quickly climbed onto our respective beds on all fours, lifted the quilt and got in.

Li Rui sat in the quilt in shock, looked at the two of us who were already lying peacefully, and said for a long time, "...fuck, I thought it was two monkeys who got in."

We both lay in bed and laughed wildly.

I didn't sleep well that night, Yu Sihai is too magical, he can always come up with some new words that make me have nightmares, and he accepted them and tried them secretly. What happened to Li Rui and Yu Sihai the next day? Li Rui couldn't wake me up even if he picked it up, so Li Rui had no choice but to put his alarm clock next to my pillow, and then left.By the time I rushed to the classroom, I was only 3 minutes away from class.Tang Shuhe glanced at me who was still panting, and said, "Didn't sleep well?"

I said, "Ah, I got up late——Yu Sihai, did you bring me breakfast? I'm starving to death."

Yu Sihai said: "Xiao Tang brought it for you and put it in the hole of your table."

I said yes, thank you, thank you, glanced at my watch, and started to eat quickly. I ate the breakfast Tang Shuhe brought me quickly, and at the same time, I heard him muttering next to me: "It's almost mid-term, it's normal to work harder, but don't get bored." It's too late."

I:"……"

Damn, why is this man so obsessed with studying!

I was so depressed that I hiccupped.

Maybe it’s because I’m pretending. During class, I couldn’t help but glance at Tang Shuhe from the corner of my eye. As a result, I stared at him countless times. My God, why didn’t I realize that he was always looking at me in class? It was so weird that at the end Gu Jing couldn't bear to watch it anymore, and directly called our names in class: "Lu Huai Tang Shuhe, are you plotting something?"

Tang Shuhe and I looked away instantly.I heard a low chuckle from below.

Plotting something.

Plotting some... about teenage love.

Should teenagers have sex with men?

After Tang Shuhe was named by Gu Jing, he became very popular—that’s right, I glanced at him again, what’s the matter? He stared at the blackboard with a red face, pretending that he was really listening to the class seriously, and then 10 minutes later, we They looked at each other again.

I felt that he was confused and flustered, and sweat was about to break down. I didn't know what to think, and in a split second, I flicked my tongue at him.

There was a beep, and it was crisp.

Tang Shuhe: "..."

Yu Sihai: "...It's blunt, is that what I taught you?"

Gu Jing was so angry that she knocked on the desk, and she pointed at me: "You, stand behind! Stand with the water dispenser! After class, you can play the water dispenser for me!"

I was a little embarrassed: "No, teacher."

Gu Jing said: "Stand behind!"

Me: "...OK."

I silently stood up and stood to the back.

When get out of class was over, Gu Jing didn't really let me perform tongue-tapping at the water dispenser, but my friends lined up and laughed at me as a mentally handicapped one by one.When I returned to my seat, Tang Shuhe whispered, "Do you have something to say?"

Me: "...wait for the physical education class."

never mind.Stealing test screwed up, just say it.

I don’t know if all schools have such a green Roman-style corridor with wisterias and lilacs. Anyway, our school and the No. [-] Middle School next door have them. I once wondered whether this is specially used for dating. Now it seems that it really is.

"Shu Xiaohe, I have something to say." I said.

He sat across from me with a very calm expression, the kind of calm that was forced out, and he said: "...you tell me."

I said, "Just...you relax a little bit, you're making me so nervous."

The two of us were actually very nervous. Under the promenade hidden by flowers and willows, we were sticking two red-faced, bare-handed and helpless sticks.Tang Shuhe smiled hastily and said, "Is it about me?"

I nodded.

His face turned pale immediately, and he said softly, "It's so fast."

I said: "Well," I scratched my head and struggled to choose my words, "That's... didn't I say you let me think about it again? After this period of field research, I found that I was indeed... ah, yes You have a feeling, but I'm not sure, whether this feeling is...that is, that kind of liking, so, can you give me a little more time, and I will definitely give you a clear answer, okay?"

Tang Shuhe was stunned.

He blinked, smiled quickly, and confirmed: "You...are you going to tell me this?"

"Ah yes," I was a little embarrassed, "I know I'm a jerk, isn't it my first time... You have to give me some time to get used to it."

Tang Shuhe looked at me for a long time, then suddenly laughed and leaned against the pillar in a relaxed manner.

I looked at his relieved reaction and asked in confusion, "What do you think I'm going to tell you?"

He smiled and shook his head.

I said: "What ah."

He lowered his head and said with a smile, "I thought...it was all over."

"That's impossible," I said.

"Lu Huai," he said softly, looking up at the dome covered with vines, "Actually...after the sports meeting, you can leave me alone."

I said, "I said, I..."

He went on self-consciously: "You can also pretend that you don't know, you can pretend that you don't understand, you can actually not tell me these things today, and then graduate properly."

I said, "I don't want to hang on to you forever."

He looked at me and said, "You can hang me."

There was a light smile in his eyes, and the moment I looked at each other, I understood that the "you can" he said was not "you could have", but "even if that's okay, because I want to."

I looked at him, and suddenly my heart twitched very gently.

He said: "...I, haven't I said it all the time."

He said, "I like you, I like you very much, Lu Huai."

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