Pavlov and the White Moonlight

I still remember the heavy snow that day.

The party after the mid-term exam happened to be the birthday of the head teacher of Class [-] and our English teacher, Ms. Chai. The monitor of Class [-] came to discuss with the monitor of our class. We might as well organize the two classes together to celebrate Lao Chai’s birthday. surprise.The usual get-togethers are organized by the class themselves, and the students do some weird work, and the work is over after the picture is happy. The monitor didn't think too much, and agreed without hesitation. That's right, I agreed with a smile, and I was so worried about Su Tong, the cultural committee member.Su Tong was originally a bit introverted, but during that time he was so forced that he ran around the class asking if there was any classmate who could put on a serious program.Li Rui couldn't see it, and he didn't have much talent, so he squeezed me and said, "You will have a show this time."

Me: "...why?"

Li Rui said confidently: "Because you are my father."

I:"……"

Li Rui: "My respected father."

Me: "...All right."

Li Rui was happy, and he slapped his hands: "Let me tell you, there are already people in the first class who are going to dance swords, you have to fight for it."

Me: "Sword dance?!"

What the hell is this class?

I said: "Then I can't do it, if I have to, I can only act as Li Rui with a broken chest."

Li Rui said, "Okay, okay."

When Su Tong came to collect political homework that morning, I said to her, "Sister Tong, I will make a show at the party."

Su Tong said, "Okay, what are you performing?"

I said, "I haven't made up my mind yet... report me first. If you don't care about it, the buddies in the first class don't dance swords, and I can dance too."

Su Tong smiled and left.Tang Shuhe didn't speak all the time. After she left, Tang Shuhe asked me: "What do you want to perform?"

"I really didn't think about it," I smirked at him, "I won't tell you if I think about it, keep it secret."

"..." he said, "Okay."

I don't know why, but I always have a kind of mysterious intimacy with "Tang Shuhe's mother's family" towards Li Yiban.But after learning that there are sword dancing, face-changing Sichuan opera, excerpts from Taiping's "Legend of the White Snake" and chemical magic "Magic Sodium" in the program list of Liyi Class, this kind of intimacy disappeared.

My talent is so mediocre that when I came to school with my guitar on my back, and Tang Shuhe asked me if it was a guitar, I touched the bag and said, "No, it's Sanxian. Give it to class one. It is used as an accompaniment to the lyrics of Taiping."

Tang Shuhe's expression became strange.

After "The Legend of Zhen Huan" was broadcast, I found a suitable description for his expression at that time.

I don't know how many surprises you have.

I bought that guitar five or six years ago, and it hung on the wall of my room to eat dust after I was in high school.After not playing for too long, the calluses on my hands are almost gone, and my hands are so painful when pressing the positions and strumming.The time was too tight, so I had to use my lunch break to sneak back to the dormitory for practice that week, and was almost discovered by the dormitory auntie.Later, I could only familiarize myself with the positions silently, and couldn't play the sound, so I was not very proficient until the day of the party.At noon on the day of the party, Su Tong borrowed the key to the dance studio, and I practiced over and over among the sword dancers and the students who always tried to put sodium cubes into the water during rehearsals. , Seeing a pair of familiar eyes in the cracks between people coming and going, Tang Shuhe stood at the door of the dance studio, leaning against the wall and looking at me, and smiled when he saw me raise my head.I put down the guitar and ran over to rub his face: "You peek!"

Tang Shuhe glanced again, and said with a smile, "Guitar."

I said yes, and put my hands in his jacket pockets to warm them. There were people coming and going in the rehearsal room, bringing a gust of cold wind outside.I said, "You will go back to take a lunch break in a while, it's cold today."

He nodded and said, "Have you eaten yet?"

I don't have a good stomach, I don't eat regularly, or it's too spicy or too cold to occasionally cause stomach pains, it's not serious, Yu Sihai, Li Rui and the others all know about it, Tang Shuhe has been paying attention to my three meals since he found out about it, we didn't know it at the time, eight Years later, it will become my chronic illness just like Tang Shuhe.

I said, "Not yet. I don't have much time after going through the process with them at noon. You can help me bring something later."

He nodded and said, "Hurry up, I brought food, it won't be hot in a while."

Wo Le: "I haven't eaten hot food in the cafeteria, don't worry about it, go back to sleep, ah."

He frowned, looking a little worried, and repeated: "Hurry up, you can't skip eating."

I said ah ah ah I know.He reached into his pocket, squeezed my hand, and said, "Then I'm leaving."

I said, "Hey, wait a minute."

He looked at me ignorantly.

I touched my nose, cleared my throat, and said, "Baby."

He chuckled, turned his head, and said, "What are you doing?"

I leaned over, smiled and whispered, "Remember to sit where I can see it."

He hummed.I touched his face and said, "Okay, go back to sleep quickly."

he's gone.When I went back, the buddy who danced the sword looked at me for a long time and said, "Is that Xiao Tang just now?"

I cupped my fists at him: "It's Zhuo Jing."

He laughed: "This kid, this is where I went to get married."

The guy behind us yelled, "This is the magic sodium!"

There was still 10 minutes to ring when I got back.I didn't eat lunch, and my already throbbing stomach was like a lump of ice because I drank some cold water to quench my thirst.Tang Shuhe was leaning against the wall, wearing a down jacket and dozing off every now and then, and next to me lay a version of myself that looked like I had been hit by soft tendons...

I was so scared that I realized that it was actually a big pile of my down jacket.Tang Shuhe saw me coming back in a half-dream and half-awake state,

I squinted my eyes and lifted my down jacket with one hand, and said in a daze, "Why did you just come back, eat quickly... class is about to begin."

I took a look.Under the down jacket is a box of wonton noodles. There is a thin layer of water mist on the lid of the box. When it is opened, it is still hot.I said, "Thank you, baby." Then I picked up a chopstick, ate it while whistling, and said vaguely, "Kang ah."

Tang Shuhe narrowed his eyes, puzzled and said, "What?"

Yu Sihai said, "He said it was hot."

I bowed my head and gave him a thumbs up.

Yu Sihai sighed: "Can it not be hot? Xiao Tang put it in his arms all the way back."

I froze for a moment, Tang Shuhe quickly waved his hands: "It's not that exaggerated, it's just to keep out the wind."

At that moment, my heart was so soft that my hands were shaking.I put down my chopsticks and touched his chest and arms: "I'll see where it's hot."

He avoided me in embarrassment: "No - really not, it's through the clothes... Don't mess with me, eat quickly."

I insisted on rolling up his sleeves, and covered it with a down jacket, and looked at his belly and chest. There was no redness, and everything was fine, but his belly was soft, and mine was hard. hard.

I sighed, put the down jacket on my lap, continued to eat the hot wonton noodles, and said, "Wow."

Yu Sihai continued to translate into Chinese: "He said he loves you."

Tang Shuhe: "...I know."

My stomach and my heart stretched together, along with the steaming steam of the wanton noodles. Even though I tried my best, I couldn’t finish a big bowl of wanton noodles in 10 minutes , I had to hide it behind the bookshelf on my desk, but it was still steaming. During math class, the math teacher in our class kept staring at me. I kept asking her why she looked at me, and she said your head was always smoking.

Me: "...I put the lid on."

After attending two classes carelessly and absent-mindedly, everyone ran to the classroom of class one.The monitor of class [-] was organizing everyone to move the tables and chairs. When he saw us coming, he hurriedly asked, "Where is the cake?"

Our squad leader came in with a cake: "Here, here."

The two monitors quickly hid it.When Lao Chai entered the class, we were all in place, and the curtains were drawn. As soon as Teacher Chai and Teacher Gu entered the class, the students in Class [-] of Li began to sing Happy Birthday, and rolled out the birthday cake while singing. While clapping with Gu Jing.The moment Lao Chai saw the birthday cake, he was stunned. When the song was almost over, he turned his head and laughed, and said, "You guys."

We laughed and laughed: "Happy birthday, Teacher Chai!"

"Old... Teacher Chai, happy birthday!"

"Teacher Chai's birthday is awesome!

"Teacher Chai has an auspicious birthday!"

The monitor booed: "Teacher, make a wish!"

"Me," Old Chai said cheerfully, with a knife on his hip, "I just hope you..."

"It won't work, Mr. Chai!"

"Okay," Teacher Chai closed his eyes, muttered a few words in a decent manner, then blew out the candle, and said, "Hurry up and eat the cake, you guys hurry up and eat the cake."

Lao Chai was in a good mood that day. He stood there and cut the cake for each of his classmates. He applauded cheerfully when he saw everyone performing, and even took out his mobile phone to record the video. Then he came out, wide open and closed, and almost danced the sword in Lao Chai's face, but he was really handsome, the magical Na's magic was too fast, as if he threw a sodium block and lit a sky lantern or something, everyone was shocked I was taken aback and it was over. The next one was me. Half of the cake was still in my mouth. The host gave my name before I finished eating it. I quickly swallowed the cake with water and wiped my mouth and hands. I took off my coat and went to the corner of the classroom to get my piano.

"Get out of the way!" Yu Sihai pinched his nose and shouted in a strange tone in the crowd.

"I'm going to start pretending!" Liu Hongbo continued in a strange tone.

"Damn," I walked through the aisle carrying the piano, Tang Shuhe kept looking at me with a smile, when I passed him, I bent down and whispered to him, "Look at me."

He smiled and nodded.

I just sat down on the chair in the middle of the classroom open space.Tune the strings and clear your throat.

I saw Tang Shuhe moved to the first row closest to me, sitting there, leaning forward slightly, holding the edge of the chair with his hands, in a very serious posture, I smiled at him, and he curled the corners of his mouth.

I really want to keep looking at him, but the prelude is too difficult. If I don’t watch the piano, it’s really easy to forget the position, so I lower my head.

After the prelude of the first bar was played, I heard Xu Ru whisper, "My God, it's "Faith", is it "Faith"?"

"Whenever I hear a melancholy movement, it evokes the pain of memories."

"Whenever I see the white moonlight, I think of your face."

"Knowing that I shouldn't think about it, I can't think about it, but I think about confusion."

"Who makes me sad and who makes me look forward to, it's you."

I am too young, I have nothing, I have nothing, I can't say love loudly in front of all relatives, friends, teachers and elders, I can only look directly into the eyes of my young lover in the crowd, and sing secretly and boldly over and over again, I love You, I love you, I love you.

"I love you with such clarity and firm faith."

"I love you, how warm and brave you are."

"I don't care how hurt my heart is, how panicked my love is, and what others think."

"Love is a belief that brings you to my side."

"I love you."

"It is the faith that is loyal to oneself and loyal to love."

"I love you."

"It is the power that comes from the soul and life."

"Love is a kind of faith, take me to your side."

He keeps looking at me.At the end of the song, everyone applauded together, didn't say anything, just laughed.At that moment he looked at me with a smile, I hugged the guitar and looked at him, both of us were blushing, we didn’t care about the next show, we sneaked out, I smiled, and I didn’t have time to talk , was pushed to the corner wall of the stairwell and kissed, rare force, he bit my lip, said Lu Huai, you have to sing this song to me alone, I hugged him and rubbed him The nape of the neck, say yes.

He put his forehead on my shoulder, didn't speak, and panted heavily.Leaning against the wall, I gradually felt something was wrong, and I said, "Baby..."

He said sullenly, "Don't talk."

I couldn't help laughing, and lifted his chin: "Why are you shy... It's normal to have a reaction."

He said don't you.

I laughed, and I said I did, and then hugged him, and the two stood together quietly, frozen in the cold wind, waiting for the evil fire to subside.

The cold wind poured in through the gaps in the small windows in the stairwell, which were in disrepair.I hugged Tang Shuhe tightly, looked out the window, and said, "Honey, it's snowing."

He hummed without looking up, and after a while, he said, "From now on, you have to sing this song to me alone, not to others."

I said yes.

It was snowing heavily outside the window, and when I hugged him, I was thinking that I would have many opportunities to say love to Tang Shuhe loudly in the future, but such a nasty occasion is probably rare.I remember this group of friends, I remember Lao Chai's birthday, I remember singing love songs to Tang Shuhe in front of fifty or sixty people, singing "I love you" over and over again, a belief about love, and then being squeezed by my gentle and gentle little boyfriend Pressing the collar against the wall and kissing, those memories are stored on the tip of my 17-year-old tail, together with the heavy snow, it is as bright and clear as those teenage years, too white and too close to spring.

The author has something to say:

So I hold down the snow in my heart again and again

They are too white and too close to spring

Read your poetry in a clean yard.this human love

Trance like a sparrow flying by suddenly

And the days are bright

——Yu Xiuhua