Pavlov and the White Moonlight

Tang Shuhe's father's funeral was simple, but trivial in the end.After his father passed away, his mother has been ill, and Tang Shuhe is the only child in the family. All affairs before and after the funeral fall on him alone. I can only help a little with his father's death. He has to do it himself.For two or three days, he barely slept. I lived at my parents’ house. In the early morning of the eve of his father’s funeral, he called me suddenly. Talking, sighing unnaturally one after another, each sigh seems to be eating himself.I didn't fall asleep too much at the time, so I woke up immediately. I glanced at my watch, it was one o'clock in the morning.

He couldn't take it anymore.

I sat up, was silent for a while, and said, "Did the paper burnt?"

He choked and said, "It's burning."

I said, "Um... well."

I should have comforted him, but I couldn't help it, and I sighed too.

"During this time, you have worked very hard," he said.

"Me?" I smiled. "No. I didn't help much either."

"Lu Huai." He called me.

"Ok?"

"Brother Huai." He called in a low voice.

My heart felt like someone had squeezed it hard.I turned my head and glanced out the window, grinning, not knowing how to respond to him for a while.

"Brother Huai is here." I said.

He paused, as if in pain, and hummed softly.

Our home is farther north than City X, and it's winter already.The north wind was blowing harder and harder, and all the unforgettable childhood events between Tang Shuhe and I happened in this small northern town where it snowed early.It was snowing again in the early morning, and the fine snowflakes floated outside the window.I looked at it for a while and said, "Shu Xiaohe, it's snowing, look."

He hummed, and for a while, the two of us didn't speak, listening to each other's breathing, we were all silently watching the snow.After a long time, he said, "It's really like when I was a child."

I smiled and said, "Yes, do you still remember..." I stopped.

remember what?Do you remember the first kiss in the corridor when I was 17 years old? Do you remember the song I played the guitar and sang to him on a snowy day?

"I remember." He said softly.

I was speechless for a moment.On his side, there was silence for a while, and the woman's crying also subsided.He waited for a while and changed the subject.He said, "Brother Huai...will you come tomorrow?"

"No, that's not the case," I said.

"You...you come, don't worry, I will make it clear to my relatives, you are not...you are just my good friend."

Just as I was about to speak, his mother's voice sounded over there: "Who are you talking to on the phone?"

Tang Shuhe's voice was very small and vague, he probably covered the receiver: "Lu Huai."

"Can you let mom say a few words?" She said vaguely.

"What are you going to say?" Tang Shuhe whispered.

"You..." The next thing I couldn't hear clearly, Tang Shuhe probably hesitated, and then the voice over there suddenly became clear: "My child."

I was a little at a loss, touched my nose: "...Auntie."

"Come to see your uncle off tomorrow, okay? During this time... You have worked so hard, and Auntie will see it. After sending your uncle away, Auntie will cook you something delicious."

Her voice was still nasal, and she twitched suddenly in the middle of her speech.I hesitated and said, "Okay."

There was a moment of silence.

"Auntie, watch him go to bed early." I said.

I heard Tang Shuhe sniffing at the side and said, "Got it."

One night of north wind, the next morning it was sunny and snowy.The funeral home pushed Tang Shuhe's father out to let the family take one last look before he was about to be cremated.I stood by the side and didn't go forward. Tang Shuhe's mother rushed forward, looking forward to it, and lifted the lid of the glass coffin with both hands, her eyes were a little bewildered. Tang Shuhe quickly walked over and pulled her away.

Probably because of the makeup, his father seemed to look better than when he was alive.Lying there, he looked a little like when he was young, with his name tag - Tang Youwen hanging on the corner of the coffin.

His mother sat on the ground with a numb expression, neither crying nor speaking. Tang Shuhe helped her up. We bowed to Tang Youwen's body for the last three times. The staff bowed to us and pushed him away.

The moment his father was pushed away, his mother suddenly let out a scream, as if she was going to take her breath away, but she didn't.She leaned in Tang Shuhe's arms for a while, then sat down slowly.After a while, he said slowly: "Give it out later, your father will be a handful of ashes."

Tang Shuhe didn't speak.His mother closed her eyes, a line of shallow tears streaming down her face.

She said: "You hate your father so much, you hate him so much."

Tang Shuhe said, "Don't mention this matter again."

She said: "Your father regrets it...for making things like that..."

"Don't talk about it. The funeral will be held later, so don't mention this matter today." Tang Shuhe was expressionless and interrupted her.

His mother's lips trembled.

His parents and relatives were all silent.

"It can be said that the child is such a child, no matter how much parents break up, they can't break up. After so many years, don't they still lead him to his father's funeral?"

I froze for a moment and turned my gaze to the speaker.It was a middle-aged man with bald temples and a black suit. He was sitting behind Tang Shuhe's mother playing with his mobile phone. He didn't lift his head when he was talking. If you look carefully, those eyes are similar to those of Tang Shuhe and his father. I didn't know this man at all, but the words were obviously aimed at me and Tang Shuhe. Tang Shuhe supported his mother, turned his head, and said, "If you want to make trouble, go out."

"Am I making trouble? What's your attitude? Is this your attitude when talking to your elders?" He put down his phone, "I've endured you for a long time, little bastard, your father's bones are not cold, you are doing this in front of the old Tang family. There is no such reason for being a human being. My child, your father hated him like that in the past, but if he saw it now, he would not be angry and come back to life! Old Tang’s family can be regarded as a scholarly family, your father and mother are very educated Man, how did you raise such a—”

Tang Shuhe suddenly stood up.The man stared and stood up: "What's the matter, why do you still dare to beat your uncle? Your father said seven or eight years ago that the old Tang's family does not have an unworthy descendant like you, and you are still rushing back Give him a bowl..."

"Okay," a woman in a fur coat next to him grabbed his sleeve, "If you have anything to say, talk to another day. Today is a big day."

"Let me tell you," Tang Shuhe said word by word, "First, the person I brought today is my benefactor. My dad was helping me from dying to dying. Today's funeral is impossible without him." The reason for coming forward, second, you don’t want to talk about “Old Tang’s family”, my father’s funeral is our family’s business first, my mother and I haven’t spoken yet, so it’s not up to others to point fingers.”

"I'm someone else? I turned against you," the man shouted loudly, "I'm your uncle, your father's younger brother!"

"Bastard brother!" Tang Shuhe's mother had been wiping away tears, but now she turned around suddenly, pointed at the man and cursed, "Get the hell out of here as soon as possible, now that you think about it, you are his real brother. Old Tang was hospitalized. How many times have you visited him? How many nights have you stayed? Did you see your figure when Old Tang was leaving? You are not as good as a child with a foreign surname. Old Tang was sent away by Xiaohe and this child. In the past few days, you asked him if he had a good night's sleep, he was so busy, and you couldn't let him not show his face when Lao Tang went to the funeral, what did he do, that's why there is no reason to be a human being!" She was in a hurry , pointing at the tip of his nose hoarsely, "Don't be a fool, what good is it for you to provoke our mother and daughter, who can't see your dirty heart and lungs, you want to be blind! !"

Tang Shuhe said, "Go out."

The staff of the funeral home came to maintain order and kept the place as quiet as possible.Tang Shuhe refused to budge, and repeated: "Go out."

I was standing next to Tang Shuhe, both of them were ready to fend off the man after he rushed over, the woman in fur gave him a hand, and said with an apologetic smile: "Okay, how many years have you been this tempered, You can’t hold back any words on the day of the elder brother’s funeral, you can’t hold back your words, you are straight and quick, and you are not human inside and out, and your sister-in-law is so good-tempered that she is impatient, so hurry up and blow some air, ah, let’s go for a walk.”

"Let's go." She dragged him out, then came back and said a lot of things with a smile, Tang Shuhe's mother was always lazy, Tang Shuhe pursed his lips, and his face was not very good. looked up at me.

I waved to him to indicate that it was okay, he turned his head, said a few words to his mother, walked towards me, pulled me into the corner, and whispered: "I'm sorry, brother Huai, I didn't expect to come out today something like this."

I am happy, shook my head, patted his arm lightly, and looked at his face carefully: "Are you all right? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

He shook his head.

It's really nothing to be forced by innocuous people, I just want to sigh, why all kinds of strange relatives are gathered around Tang Shuhe, thinking of the way he said "this is my benefactor" just now, A little funny, a little sad.

He looked at me very carefully, and said in a low voice, "Don't, don't be angry...don't hold back your anger."

"Besides I'm really angry," I said.

Tang Shuhe lowered his head, stopped mentioning it, leaned over and whispered to me: "It's my uncle and my aunt..."

There are too many facts today, Tang Shuhe really doesn't have time to talk to me here for a long time, I nodded and said: "I see, let's talk about it when we go back, you should do your own work first."

The man was still standing outside the door cursing, and Tang Shuhe's aunt was sitting next to his mother, still laughing and saying this and that, but his mother was always cold, and saw me standing there alone, and waved to me, Say, "Son, come."

His aunt looked at me and said, "This is the same kid back then...he's a good kid, and he's good-looking too. If you want me to say, I just couldn't think about it back then, and I haven't seen it for so many years. What's the matter? That kind of behavior forced Xiaohe to almost..."

"Okay, let's not talk about it." His mother said suddenly.

Alarm bells went off in my head.I glanced at Tang Shuhe, he was standing not close to us, bent over, as if he was writing something, didn't hear the conversation here, his aunt saw my expression, froze for a moment, quickly covered her mouth and said: "Hey Yo... I said the wrong thing, so I won’t mention it.”

I suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette very much, my fingers began to shake uncontrollably, I forced a smile and said, "I'm going out to smoke a cigarette."

Damn it, the wind outside cut people's faces like a knife, my lighter shook back and forth, but it couldn't start, and Tang Shuhe's face was all in front of my eyes.His brother-in-law and his sister-in-law are clearly showing a bad face and the other is singing a bad face. I want to know what happened back then, but I never want to hear a relative who has malicious intentions embellish the story. I want Tang Shuhe to tell me frankly. I listen, but now I can't help thinking about Tang Shuhe, I think about what happened to him back then, "how he was forced", the truth has never been so close to me, I can't help being anxious.

Before I could sort out my own thoughts, the woman in fur came out again, without looking at me, took the man's arm, and said in a volume just enough for me to hear: "Okay, what's wrong with their family?" What does it have to do with you, no matter what, he is his son, and you are only worried about eating carrots here."

Seeing that I didn't bite the hook, the woman turned around, looked me up and down, sighed, and looked very regretful: "Good boy, really good boy, even a serious married person may not be able to do what you are... It's hard for you to be so kind, but you didn't say a word when you were beaten so hard back then."

I pulled the corner of my mouth and gave a smirk, crushed out the cigarette butt, spit out a puff of smoke ring, without looking up, said: "The main reason is that Tang Shuhe is too busy, so come to help, it has nothing to do with anything else."

"Two benevolent children, so kind, so kind," she said, "Xiaohe doesn't hate his father, and you don't hate him either, and you can still send him a good one. They are really two benevolent children. If you are a little colder, you should No one can say anything if you just let it go like this. After all... don't say it's you, just us uncles and aunts, it's hard to see it. After all, it's my own son, how can we let it go? As for the hands...Xiao He told you all about it, alas."

I didn't speak.She sighed again and said, "How can you send a child to that kind of place."

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kowtow!I procrastinated for too long, and I will definitely not do this next time! !