Pavlov and the White Moonlight

I was in a daze at that moment, he leaned forward, and we were suddenly very close, so close that I could clearly see his trembling eyelashes and his Adam's apple rolling up and down.

He was even sweating, his temples were shiny.

In that instant, anything can happen, and nothing can happen.I don't know, just looking at him like that.We looked at each other in silence, after a long while, he took a deep breath and sat back down with his head down.

The first thought that popped into my mind at that time was "what's wrong with this man", so I leaned over and asked in a low voice, "what's wrong?"

Tang Shuhe shook his head, he smiled at me in the dim light, the air suddenly became ambiguous again.Once upon a time, I would definitely kiss him.

The camera on the big screen was still shaking, I sat there in a daze, my tongue numb.

Did I really watch the movie because of Lou Ye?

Am I really coming to the appointment because I'm afraid he won't be able to find a house?

I said that it’s uncomfortable to come when you are called and go when you are called, but when people wave, don’t I still come?

Just touch my wrist, wouldn't I still be sitting here bumping around on the path?

Cheap or not, Lu Huai.

Tang Shuhe saw that my expression was wrong, so he reached out and grabbed my arm. I subconsciously pushed his hand away. He froze for a moment, with an expression as if he had been slapped, stepped back, and whispered to me. Sorry I crossed the line.

We were speechless for a while, Tang Shuhe held the drink in both hands, formed a curled up posture, and drank it one mouthful at a time.

It was almost evening after the movie ended, and I spent most of the day with him.After the show we said goodbye and went home.I asked Tang Shuhe what he planned to do with the house, and he didn't do anything serious today. He smiled and said that it will be settled, so don't worry.I said yes, I have something to talk about.

I can't say anything harsh to him after all.

He buried the lower half of his face in the collar of his coat again, nodded, slightly bent his eyes, and said, "Got it."

I said, "Then I'll go back first."

He said yes and waved to me.

My car started slowly, and it was the time when the sunset was the most intense. The scattered sunset pierced through the clouds. In the rear view mirror, he was standing there with his hands in his pockets, a small figure, standing in the glorious autumn In the sunset, he kept facing the direction of the rear of my car until I could no longer see him.

Every time I go home, Lu Bowen rushes over like he hasn’t seen me in 800 years, with a surprised and touched expression like "You are finally back, I thought you died outside when you went out to look for food" written all over my face. I licked it up and down, and hummed if I didn’t let it lick it. I simply picked it up and made an exception to lie on the sofa with it. Its dog head played with it for a while, and Wen Ruixiu sent me a message: "How is the writing?"

I said: "I just came back, let me review the book, I haven't written this kind of flirty drama for a long time."

He said if you have time now, I'll give you a call, or else.

I said yes.

After the call was connected, Wen Ruixiu came up with a hiccup, and I said, "...you don't drink anymore."

Wen Ruixiu laughed loudly: "Drink it, you just need to drink some to feel it."

I thought about it, and said yes, wait for me for a while, what did he say, I said I would get some wine.

I got up and went to the kitchen, and grabbed two bottles of cold beer. The moment the small light in the refrigerator came on, I suddenly remembered the string of questions Tang Shuhe had asked me.

Do you still drink that brand of beer?

Ok.

I opened the jar and took a sip, Wen Ruixiu said drunkenly, saying Lu Huai, I need to talk to you, hey, I need to talk to you.

I Le: "Say it."

He said, do you know why I want to ask you to write a script.

I remembered that Wen Ruixiu said that he was "intense, ugly and hypocritical", so he said, "Because I am beautiful."

Wen Ruixiu smiled: "Oh fuck."

I continued: "Because of what."

He said: "I really look down on some people nowadays. When they talk about what this drama is about, those who write about love, oh, those who look down on you, they have to add some unique philosophical things, blunt, you say, they They don't even know what their own play is talking about, they don't even understand those things," Wen Ruixiu hiccupped and said, "Shit!"

…You can’t communicate with a drunk person because you can’t keep up with the Brownian motion brain circuit that he stepped on a banana peel.I said, "...well."

Wen Ruixiu said: "It's hard to arrange a drama that tells the story of love well, don't you think so, Lu Hiccup."

Lu Xihuai himself, that is me, has realized that he is not the amount of "drinking a little" he said at the beginning, he is simply drinking too much, full of poor literary and artistic feelings, and he has nowhere to complain, so he is crazy about drinking. , simply opened another bottle of beer, and went crazy over the wine.

He said: "Some time ago, the old Meng Pai's "Tea House" couldn't even sell tickets. What the fuck was in the queue. If I sat down, I had to throw my shoes on the stage! Throw two! I put mine Size 44 shoes..."

I interrupted him: "Wen Ruixiu, first tell me why you asked me to write the script."

He said, "Ah...ah, let me think about it."

I:"……"

He suddenly groaned and said, "Teacher Lu, the first time I saw you, I thought you could write well. There is something in your eyes that is always missing. For such a person, the one on the stage is his." love."

... Sometimes I really can't stand his way of speaking. I sighed, and just about to say something, Wen Ruixiu said: "Lu Er, God will favor those brave, strong, and passionate people."

I was taken aback, Wen Ruixiu smiled and said, "Can you find the feeling?"

I took a sip of wine and didn't speak.

Wen Ruixiu said: "If you can't find the feeling, it's really not good, you should have a relationship."

When I said fuck you, he quacked and said, "Experience school."

I said that no school is good now, the Kongtong school took me up to Kongtong Mountain overnight, and it didn’t work. I finally hung up the phone when Wen Ruixiu started talking nonsense, and I also started talking nonsense.

Dazedly, I glanced at the scattered wine bottles on the coffee table in the living room, and thought to myself, what is this picture? When walking towards the bedroom, the phone suddenly buzzed again.

The surname Wen is endless. This is... oh it's not him.

It's Yu Sihai.

His message popped up on the screen: "Lu, Xiao Tang asked me where you live."

I quickly replied, "Don't tell him, Mom."

Yu Sihai sent a voice message, and said happily, "You don't drink alcohol anymore, and you curse people with reduplicated words."

I said, "You really...you don't need to worry about it, you don't need to worry about this matter."

Yu Sihai was silent for a while, and said, "You really don't care?"

I said: "Yeah."

Yu Sihai sighed and said, "OK."

I said, "The end general will meet him in person."

Yu Sihai said you should rest earlier.I squinted my eyes and looked at the screen, then called Tang Shuhe directly.It took less than three seconds for the ringing to be picked up over there. Tang Shuhe seemed a little surprised: "Lu Huai?"

The moment Tang Shuhe's voice came into my ears, I was a little confused. I felt that this person seemed to have disappeared for a long time, and it seemed that I just walked side by side with him in the sunset yesterday, listening to music with a pair of headphones.I said, "...Shu Xiaohe, you...why did you go to you?"

He froze for a moment, then called me cautiously: "Lu, Lu Huai?"

His unfamiliar and surprised tone woke me up.

The atmosphere suddenly cooled down.Tang Shuhe smiled as if he was at a loss, and whispered, "You, what's wrong with you?"

"I... sorry, I'm not sober after drinking some wine." I said.

"No... no, it's okay," Tang Shuhe said slowly, "What do you want to tell me?"

I took a deep breath and shook my head: "Wait for me... oh."

I finally remembered why I made this call.I said, "Ask Yu Sihai where I live."

He paused, and replied, "Yes."

I said, "Why are you asking this?"

He was silent for a while, then said, "Don't be angry, I want... to live closer to you."

I said, "You want to live in our community?"

He said, "Yeah."

I thought about it and said, "Stop it."

Tang Shuhe asked in a low voice: "Is it not possible?"

I said: "Forget it. The security of the property here is okay. The shared area is a bit larger. The key is that a man jumped off a building last winter on our side. Do you believe that Feng Shui is not Feng Shui? I am afraid that you will sleep at night. Fear."

"Lu Huai." He called me.

I said: "Ah, it's in Building C, it seems that I had an argument with my wife and then..."

Tang Shuhe raised the volume a little and called me, "Lu Huai!"

I was interrupted by him: "...what's the matter."

He said: "I want to be closer to you. Feng Shui... I made it up myself."

I don't know why I felt very wronged when I heard his words, I said: "Tang Shuhe, you fucking, you..."

Tang Shuhe didn't speak, but listened silently.

I said, "Tang Shuhe, you bastard."

Tang Shuhe couldn't hold back and laughed out loud.

I said: "You are laughing fart! Just tell me if you are!"

Tang Shuhe stopped laughing and hummed lightly.

I said: "Room 3, Building A, Unit 205, Boya Shijia, come here, and I'll see what tricks you can do! You little shit."

Tang Shuhe: "...Okay."

I said: "I still want to get closer to me, what do you want to do, you, you just want to fuck me!"

Tang Shuhe said, "Yes."

I said, "What kind of instant noodles are you!"

Tang Shuhe was silent for a while, and said, "Wait for me."

"...what are you doing?"

Tang Shuhe said, "I'll get some wine."

"Oh," I lay on the bed and laughed, "What's all this? baby……"

"I'm back," he said.

"...you called while standing next to the refrigerator?"

Tang Shuhe said, "I ran."

I was at a loss for words.

Tang Shuhe said: "You continue."

"...I forgot," I said, "you failed your studies, why are you still drinking at home?"

Tang Shuhe didn't answer.I thought about it and said, "Oh. I remembered. I just scolded you."

Tang Shuhe hummed, and said, "You ask me which pack of instant noodles I count."

I laughed out loud.I heard Tang Shuhe open a bottle of wine, and I said, "Beer."

He paused and said, "How do you know?"

I said, "I can hear it. The sound of beer being poured is... squeaky."

Tang Shuhe hummed softly, filled a glass, and started drinking.

I said, "Hey, drink slowly!"

He paused.We didn't speak for a while, listening to each other's breathing.

I lit a cigarette and smoked slowly.

He heard the sound of the lighter on my side and asked, "Why are you smoking?"

I said, "You still drink and you don't let me smoke."

He stopped talking, and the beer and the cup were spitting together, making a sound like an undercurrent of ocean waves.

After a while, Tang Shuhe asked softly, "Brother Huai, have you been happy these eight years?"

I said, "Tang Shuhe, what do you think?"

He doesn't speak.

I have a sore chest: "Eight years, Tang Shuhe, the Anti-Japanese War is over! Eight years! I was a virgin when I was with you!"

Tang Shuhe paused, smiled wryly, and asked, "What about now?"

I said, "Now I'm a mother of two!"

Tang Shuhe: "..."

I whispered: "You are poisonous, Tang Shuhe. You belong to the Tang Sect."

I said, "Either you lower your head for me, or I am too fucking mean."

I took a big drag on the cigarette suddenly, and felt a light buzzing in my head.

I flicked the cigarette ash and said, "But I really miss you, Shu Xiaohe."

Thinking about it now, the boy's heartbeat is really sharp, it can make people hurt for so many years.

To tell this story, we need to start over.

The 17-year-old who is not tired, smokes or drinks, and has iced Coke on the corner of the table.

The author has something to say:

"God will treat those who are brave, strong, and passionate." ——Meng Jinghui's "Rhinoceros in Love".