Pavlov and the White Moonlight

We made an appointment to meet at a Starbucks next to X University on the weekend.I arrived almost 10 minutes earlier, but I didn't expect him to arrive earlier than me, with a quiet expression, sitting by the window, and his composition was like an oil painting.

The first time I met him again, I was shocked and at a loss. I didn't pay attention to Tang Shuhe's attire. Today, when I was standing there watching him, I realized that this man had been drinking foreign ink for eight years, and he was quite foreign.He was still wearing the camel coat, white coat and black trousers, simple and clean, the profile of his face and even the strands of hair were beautiful.

What kind of research went to him when he went abroad, did he study beauty and hairdressing?

At this time, if he held a book and read it, the composition of the picture would be more perfect, but this person didn't do anything, just sat there clasping his hands, maybe a little nervous.I stood there watching him for a while, and when I walked towards him, he didn't notice, I called him, he was startled, immediately put down his hands and stood up, I smiled at him, he put the table The coffee served pushed me in front of me and said, "I remember you don't like too sweet."

I said: "Thank you." I took it and took a sip.

I said, "vomit."

Grass.

I don't like too sweet, but this is too fucking sweet.

My entire face was instantly moved by this batch of isatis root mixed with paraquat. Tang Shuhe gave me a horrified look and said, "Is it hard to drink... I'm sorry."

I waved my hand, opened my mouth half-opened stupidly, and waited for the smell to go down. Tang Shuhe stared at me with embarrassment. After a while, he said cautiously, "Is it better?"

I said, "Abaa abaa."

He couldn't help it, and laughed with me.I said, "Absolutely. How did you pick it out of a bunch of coffee, huh?"

He touched his nose: "It was recommended by the clerk."

I shook my head and said, "Let's find a cheaper place next time. It's expensive and tastes terrible."

He froze for a moment, and I said, "What's wrong?"

He shook his head, pursed his lips and gave a quick smile, and said, "Yes... can there be a next time?"

"..." I stammered, no one could bear to slap a person whose eyes lit up instantly.

Tang Shuhe didn't wait for my answer, didn't say anything, lowered his eyes and smiled, and said, "Let me order another drink for you."

"No need, no need," I quickly stopped him, "Didn't you mean to look at the house? I didn't come to drink it."

Tang Shuhe glanced at me and sat back.I said, "That's right, you dear—why don't you want the apartment allocated by the school?"

He hesitated for a moment and said, "Feng Shui is not good."

I burst into laughter: "Where is it, Feng Shui is so bad."

He said: "The suburban villa area to the east of X University."

I:"……"

You call this an apartment!

"Really," he looked at me seriously, "it's... not good."

"Oh," I turned my head, guessing that he doesn't like suburban villas, "Yes, if you live alone, then the big villa is not easy to clean, and it is far away from the city center, and the transportation is inconvenient. It's better to buy a suburban villa." The property in the center is better, the flat floor is comfortable to live in, but the commuting costs are a little bit, I remember that X University seems to be in the suburbs, right? Do you have a car?"

He nodded without saying anything, and I said, "As long as you have a car."

He looked at me silently, and I was a little embarrassed by his stare, so I added: "It's pretty good."

Tang Shuhe didn't answer, and asked, "What are you doing now?"

I said, "I'm... freelance now. I had a magazine column, I wrote a book, and I'm working on a play with a theater director."

He asked seriously, "What book?"

I laughed: "What other books, novels? Of course, I wrote a copy of the Criminal Law of the Tuotuo Kingdom, can you read it?"

The old lovers have not seen each other for many years and reunite. I probably always want to show that I have been doing well all these years. Even if I am not doing well, I have to force my swollen face to pretend to be a wave of fat, but I am indeed doing well now. To a certain extent, writing and eating, and met a group of fierce, ugly and hypocritical friends like Wen Ruixiu.

He shook his head, laughed softly, and looked at me with his coffee in his hands.I can't stand his eyes like that, it's like I owe him eight hundred years of looking at each other, and it's as if I lost one look at a glance, as if I didn't kick me or dump him in these eight years.I felt uncomfortable all over, and subconsciously wanted to drink something to cover it up, but it was only when my mouth touched the straw that I realized how frustrating this cup was, so I silently took my mouth away.

Tang Shuhe smiled, looking a little lonely: "I remember you used to love coffee."

Before, before, and again.Our past is like this cup of half-sour, not bitter dishwashing liquid mixed with almond milk coffee, which is quite expensive, and we can't drink it, and we can't bear it if we don't drink it.

Can I have something sweet, please?

I sighed, ignored him, and said, "You don't want the school apartment, where are you going to live?"

He said, "I haven't figured it out yet."

"Where is it roughly? Is it in the city center?"

He hesitated for a moment and said, "I...haven't made up my mind yet."

I:"……"

What a nice guy, what a pity he's a fool.

He continued: "I haven't made up my mind yet, so... don't go to see the house today, okay?" He conjured two tickets out of nowhere, and pushed them in front of me with two fingers.

Me: "...ah this."

He said, "Let's go to the movies, okay?"

"I've bought all my tickets," he said.

Hey.

I said that the clothes are so beautifully arranged, and my feelings are waiting for me here.

This is a catch in a urn!

Fuck, I'm not saying I'm a turtle.

I was also afraid that he would not be able to find a good house because he was not familiar with the place, so I went to the appointment under the sun, but he snapped out two movie tickets—haha, unexpected, I am here to pick you up.

I sighed and said, "Shuhe, I remember I told you last night..."

"Brother Huai," he said, "it's Lou Ye's film."

"His film hasn't been shown in theaters for a long time," he said.

I was relatively speechless with him.

He remembers that I like drinking coffee, Lou Ye's movies, and what brand of beer I like to drink. He should remember that I used to like him very, very much.

Every time he talks like that after the reunion it makes me feel bad.In these blank eight years, both of them have already gone far, but one of them has to go back by a fork in the road, standing in place, holding out a heart-piercing past, pretending that nothing happened, and saying, I Remember you used to like this.

Seeing that my expression was wrong, he added: "It's all here."

Me: "..." After traveling across the sea for so many years, a Chinese still has to say this sentence.

I said, "Then I won't go."

He persevered and whispered to me: "Go. Let's see how his camera looks on the big screen."

I hesitated.

He said, "Go ahead."

He said, "Brother Huai."

I didn't say anything, I took one of the two tickets away, and he rolled his eyes with a smile, took the other ticket happily, and said softly, "Let's go eat first."

I looked at him, and I was so happy.

I said yes, please.

He said, "I have booked all the hotels."

I said: "Farewell, you can buy drinks and movies, and I will buy lunch."

He shook his head, the corners of his mouth still curled up: "Let's talk about it next time."

...I take back what I said earlier that he was a fool.

This person has changed.He knows the trick.

I opened my mouth, and a spoken line floated in my mind.

I heard that he, instead of being a chef, switched to the anti-fraud hotline, and dared to say that he would never be deceived again. The cruel reality has already reached my psychological defense line.

...Although he is fooling me now.

To be honest, I'm really afraid that he will have some kind of candlelight lunch, which is the kind of mystery with such old and thick curtains drawn on a sunny day, and then someone will come out to play the violin for you while eating, you can't think about it. I had goosebumps all over my body, and I was quite nervous the whole time in the car. Fortunately, Tang Shuhe's aesthetics was normal and his EQ was online, so he didn't fix those bells and whistles. The meal was quite peaceful.We didn’t talk too much about the past. We have been talking about this blank eight years. I also know a little bit more about him. I know that he has a good life, studying in university, taking exams, publishing papers, blogging, and teaching , It's okay, I didn't suffer too much from foreigners.The restaurant was a bit hot, I persuaded Tang Shuhe to take off his coat, he said it was all right, but after a while he couldn't stand it anymore and kept tugging at his collar unconsciously.

I said, "Just take it off, it's okay, are you wearing a suspender?"

Tang Shuhe shook his head and smiled, and took off his coat.When I was hanging the clothes on the back of the chair, I saw a black bracelet on his wrist, which was quite wide and made of rubber, and it was very incongruous with his gentle white shirt.He found me looking at his wrist, raised his hand, and explained: "It was given by my little niece."

I nodded, thinking that the little girl is very cool, my little niece only gave me the kind of fairy wand that would squeal when I pressed the switch, and I couldn't take that thing out of the house.

It was almost afternoon after dinner, and it was almost time for the movie. We walked side by side to the movie theater. When we sat down in the movie hall and waited for the movie to start, he whispered in my ear and asked me to wait for him for a while. I made an ojbk With a gesture, he quietly walked out, waited for a while, when the advertisement was put on, this man walked in with two glasses of Coke in both hands, and a bucket of popcorn between his elbows, like a bowl artist. Look, happy: "What are you doing, who can eat here after eating so full."

He whispered, "I see them all."

He refers to those couples who get out of a double into a couple.

……OK.I took the Coke he handed over and said, "Thank you."

I took a sip, I was so touched, I finally drank something from Yangjian.

The movie begins.The camera was shaken, dizzy, and dim. I haven't watched Lou Ye's movies on the big screen for a long time, and I didn't expect this kind of effect.The camera was indeed too shaken. During the murder scene where the body was thrown, I heard someone in the back row groaning in pain: "Why is it shaking so badly, my mother, I'm motion sick."

I wanted to laugh a little, reached out and grabbed a handful of popcorn, and said angrily, "Are you dizzy..."

Tang Shuhe grabbed my hand that went into the bucket.

We stared at each other silently in the background sound of killing and throwing corpses. Tang Shuhe grabbed my wrist and just looked at me, his delicate face mottled in light and shadow.

I recalled how I found the tape of "Summer Palace" in high school. Hao Lei was sitting on the boat, shaking and bumping, with clean and crazy eyes, full of desperate love and shaky desire.

All light flooded her, all oxygen was absorbed by her.

The author has something to say:

"All the light comes to me, and all the oxygen is absorbed by me." - Hao Lei "Oxygen"