Rebirth promises you to love

Du Liya told me that Su Li found Su Ruchun,

As for what Su Li did with Su Ruchun, Du Liya only said one sentence.

"Father and son don't have an overnight enmity. What's more, these two people have lived together for so many years, and there is nothing more than a estrangement."

The rest, she didn't ask,

Again, I didn't ask a single word.

We are all fish swimming in the shallow sea, enjoying the warmth of the sun, the comfort of aquatic plants, sufficient oxygen, and the laughter of our companions.

At the bottom of the sea, there are fierce and cruel creatures.

Once, accidentally, because of a vortex or the turbulence of the seabed, I once glimpsed the ferocious faces of those sea monsters.

It took a lot of time and effort to calm down and accept, and still be a happy shallow sea fish.

Su Ruchun's painful past, he once told me with despair and self-abandonment, we shared the most important secret in life.

But this doesn't mean that I will expose the scars that hurt him, hurt him, and make him sad in front of him time and time again.

I only know that on that day, when Su Ruchun pushed open the door and walked in, the last trace of haze disappeared from his brows.

He said: "Dad asked us to go to their wedding together, let's go shopping for wedding gifts this weekend."

We thought for a long time and decided to give them a big gift.

The season is approaching, and the old models of clothing of major brands are discounted and new ones are on the market, and the flow of people in shopping centers is much larger than usual.The staff of wedding photography held small colorful flags in the hall to promote and attract people, and their tone was polite, but it was inevitably annoying.

I feel that my head is in a mess, I was so choked up by these people, and I still have a simple doll that was forced into it and a few discount coupons for the cafeteria. It should be a happy moment, I restrained my irritability and frowned Forbearance, I found a trash can and threw it in.

Ruchun held my fingers, we were walking side by side, I put my hands in my pockets, only four fingers sticking out, he held my four fingers.

Among the crowd, I was a little taken aback.

"What, think it's too noisy?"

I smiled wryly, a little embarrassed, "I've always disliked places with too many people, I didn't expect there to be so many people today."

Ruchun embraced me with her arms, and a lady with five or six colorful shopping bags in each hand hurried past me, the edge of the paper bag slipped on the back of Ruchun's white hands in the dry early winter There is a trace of white.

I laughed: "It's just a few paper bags, Ruchun, I'm a big man with rough skin and thick flesh, why are you so nervous."

He pulled me aside again, and a girl wrapped in a thick down jacket with a DQ blizzard passed by us, lowering her head a little embarrassedly.

After a long while, I said, "I don't know how many blessings I have accumulated in my previous life, so I can take care of you by your side."

I held his hand without looking at him, pursed my lips and smiled without speaking.

We stopped in front of the watch counter.

There are a variety of watches, and suddenly he remembered that he was hesitant to choose a watch for him here alone.

He glanced at me, his waist was slightly bent, and the watch on his wrist was exposed. He raised his hand and gently put the dial on his lips as if inadvertently.

I feel like my heart is full.

In the end, the two discussed it, and finally bought a pair of Patek Philippe couple watches at a domestic counter.

Brown strap, white dial, simple Roman numerals, the price is also jaw-dropping.

Ruchun took out her black wallet, and took out her bank card to swipe it.

I said, "We delivered it together, how can you pay the bill by yourself."

With a calm face, he said as a matter of course: "You are still in school, of course it is mine."

"But I made a few good investments with Datou, and Datou gave me a bonus last month, which happened to be hundreds of thousands."

The two of us pressed each other's wallets and refused to give up.

The counter lady in a small black suit and white shirt smiled sweetly: "It's the first time I've seen customers scrambling to pay hundreds of thousands."

I glanced at him and pressed the bank card on the counter, "Half and half, how about it?"

Su Ruchun felt a little helpless and compromised, "Okay, let's do half and half."

After all, the days will not always pass peacefully.

One day about a month later, while I was falling asleep, the phone rang at home.

When I woke up in a daze, the ringing stopped.

I looked at the caller ID below, it was a phone number I didn't recognize, and I subconsciously decided it was a harassing call.

I didn't have class the next morning, and my sleep quality was not good. I woke up at [-]:[-] in the morning because I woke up in the middle of the night, but my head was not clear enough, so I simply got into the quilt to catch up on sleep.

At this time, the phone rang again, and it was still the original unknown number.

I ignored it, the phone rang again, this time it was Su Ruchun.

"Hello, Ruchun?"

"Are you awake?"

"Well, what happened?"

"Come to the hospital, it's not clear on the phone."

I followed Ruchun to the inpatient department, he didn't say a word, I held back and didn't ask, when I got to the door, I saw the people inside, and took a step back subconsciously.

It's Han Qi.

Su Ruchun was about to take my arm and walk in.

I immediately pulled him and pulled him out. He had a lot of strength and stood still.

When I turned around, he pursed his lips stubbornly and looked at me with burning eyes.

I couldn't restrain the violence in my heart, "Let's go!"

"He's your father!" His voice was not loud, but his pitch was clearly elevated.

Who was it back then, when my mother hugged me to let go of her pride and begged him to stay, she still had to tear her fingers off her body one by one, even if she said she would turn off the gas and kill herself with me, she didn't look back?

Who ran away alone and left me and my mother with huge debts, people came to the door and even threatened to take my elderly grandmother to the top floor of the apartment and throw them down?

Who was it that squandered the last fortune on that scumbag woman so as not to leave a way out for our mother and son?A woman as proud as her mother was reduced to only two hundred yuan in her wallet?

Who was it in front of me to go to the bakery to buy breakfast with that woman in front of me, leaving me alone at home alone and hungry?

As a human being, it is natural to enjoy human relations and filial piety.If I'm just the product of his sperm contribution, then why should he ask me to support him until he dies when he is down and down today?

Does he fit too?

I felt the veins on my forehead keep twitching, and my eyelids trembled uncontrollably, "I don't have such a father!" I looked at him fiercely, "You're not leaving, are you? OK, don't move here, I Walk!"

Su Ruchun hesitated for a moment, and finally followed me silently.

I feel that my consciousness is simply chaotic, I don’t know which direction I’m going, I just sit in the subway station when I see it, no matter whether it’s the Ring Subway Line 2 or not, as long as I see the subway coming into the station, I don’t look at the direction or the destination and just go straight sit on it.

Time means nothing to me, and destination is all illusion to me.

I don't know how long I walked among the white and bright traffic machines in the underground of Beijing, getting on, getting off, and changing trains.

There are crowds of people, noisy people at the transfer station, different hair colors, and different arrogant, fat and thin beings.

There are not many passengers at some small stations along the way, and they swayed past, leaving only cold white lights and chairs made of metal and plastic.

Until the rush hour, the subway station was crowded with people, and I got into the car with the flow of people in a trance, and was squeezed out of the car door by a few elbows, staggering and falling.

Su Ruchun supported my fallen body in time, and said with restraint, "You've been crazy for a day, isn't that enough?"

I looked at his slightly frowning eyebrows, Han Xing's eyes, and the faint color of his lips, and suddenly felt very strange.

He forcibly pulled me over, cut my hands behind his back with his arm, and dragged me out, instead of making an escalator, he threw me into the elevator.

I stared at him unwillingly, shouldn't he understand and understand my mood best?

When we got out of the subway, the dazzling sun shone down, and we stood on the busy street without talking.

Only then did I realize that this is the Lama Temple Station of the subway.

There are vendors pushing carts selling boiled corn.

I was still in the mood to think, the city management probably got off work at this time, otherwise how could he be so blatant?

"Han Ruo, can you take a look at him before making a decision?"

I asked coldly, "What's wrong with him? Is he dying?"

Su Ruchun said: "He passed out on the street and was caught by his colleagues and sent in. I called you last night and you didn't answer, and I couldn't contact any family members. I had a checkup on him last night, and there was a tumor in his head, which needed to be removed." .”

"Oh, that means you can't die."

"Who says you can't die?" Su Ruchun glanced at me, "Any operation has a probability. Even the best hospitals in the country can only reduce this probability, not eliminate it. Appendicitis is still possible If the operation is successful, the person will die, let alone a tumor in the head?"

I don't speak, let the professionals finish talking, what else do I have to say?

"Han Ruo, just beg me." He looked at me with earnest words.

"Please? Han Qi is such a big face, to let you beg me for him?"

"Not for him, but for you."

When I entered the ward, Han Qi was wearing a blue and white hospital gown, leaning on the bed, reading a newspaper.

I remember that at that time, he had just lost his job and was laid off. He also wore a pair of dark blue woolen trousers every day, leaned on the big bed in our house, which could almost become a luxury, and read newspapers all afternoon.

What is confused in my memory is Ms. Wang Weiwei's blue-green dress, buttoned all the way to the neck, with a thick layer of foundation on her face, and lipstick on her lips. After a day of running around, even I feel a little more irritable .

Ms. Wang Weiwei hides her beauty under makeup and clothes, shouldering the life of the family and working hard.

But I was disobedient at that time, and I had a heated fight with a group of us little gangsters and young ladies, and I had to go home every now and then to ask for a large amount of pocket money.

It was cursing bitterly, hoping that one day they would regret going if they were killed by a car on the street.

Now that time has passed, I only feel the vicissitudes of life when I see him.

Han Qi probably heard my footsteps, put down the newspaper, smiled at me, "You're here."

He wears a pair of reading glasses on his face, the kind of folding glasses that don't need matching, and can be sold anywhere for tens of dollars.There is a little crooked on the bridge of the nose.

"Aren't you nearsighted? Why do you have to wear reading glasses now?"

"I was short-sighted when I was young, but later I used my eyes less and my prescription was less. Who would have thought that I was not so happy at the beginning, but now I complain that my prescription is too low and I am old-fashioned." Han Qi smiled a little like listening to a teacher with his hands behind his back. Elementary school students giving lectures.

I patted him on the shoulder: "I'm going out first, one day when you feel better, let's go to the colleague next to you to have an optometry and have a good eye test, and find a suitable one."

"well."

Ruchun was waiting for me at the door of the ward.

He pulled me by the wrist and pulled me to the flower bed outside the inpatient department.

The smell of green grass is damp, "Still can't face him?"

"I do not know."

"Han Ruo, you don't need to bear the hatred alone, and you don't need to bear the condemnation of him alone. Your mother has let go, what can't you let go? I remember you told me that the history of the world is yours. The world, then why do you have to bear the emotions of others, you ask yourself, do you really never want to see him again, even if he dies in front of you, you will be indifferent?"

I can't speak.

It is not so easy to untie the knots of so many years.

"Han Ruo," he put his hands on my shoulders, "the tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the child wants to support but doesn't want to be loved. He has nothing to do with me. But I can't bear you to walk away with pain like me. Life without him is complete, if forgiveness can make you feel better, why do you bother yourself?"

I held his hand and sat down on the stone by the flower bed.

He sat quietly next to me without saying a word.

The family members of the patients all walked in a hurry, some were carrying cloth bags containing lunch boxes, some were covered with hot sweat, and some were still jogging all the way at an old age.

I changed the posture of holding his hand to interlocking fingers.

I remember a long time ago, a certain girlfriend once held my hand and told me that this is the most difficult way to hold hands in a crowd.

But if I had to choose, I would rather hold hands with this person forever.