Rebirth promises you to love

When he woke up again, his own kingbed was under him.

Did it so intensely yesterday that I didn't even know when I was being shipped home.

"Are you awake?" Ruchun wore a white shirt unbuttoned, revealing a jade-colored chest.

My whole body is sore and weak. I just had a serious illness and another "doing" again. I feel that my bones are about to fall apart.

Ruchun handed me a glass of warm water, I drank it with his hand, and lay down again with a grunt.

He shook his head, sighed, went to the refrigerator to get me yogurt, and still frowned and scolded me, "If you drink yogurt on an empty stomach like this, you won't be able to exert the effect of probiotics."

I took two gulps, "It's just that it will affect it. If it doesn't work, I'll drink it with milk. I can't stand the taste of milk."

The back was a little sour, so I simply lay down on the pillow and continued to sleep. My whole body was refreshed, and the fragrance of herbs and trees that I loved most was exuded, which should be the result of someone's careful cleaning.

The whole world is perfect, but the right ear still can't hear anything.

Zhao Mei told me later, "Aren't you ashamed, such a big man was hugged by Teacher Su all the way to the parking lot?"

I can only say cheekily, "I'm just giving him a chance to show off his strength."

Ruchun pressed my shoulders, "Does your family put you under a lot of pressure?"

I said, "It's okay, there are no parents who really fight against their children. It's just that they are more anxious because they are not in a good mood recently. It may be menopausal syndrome. You don't need to worry about it."

Ruchun said something softly, but I didn't catch it.

I could only laugh dryly.

Seeing that there was no difference in his expression, I was relieved.

In fact, as long as I try to put my left ear in the direction of the speaker when I speak, I won't be seen as a problem.

I don't want Ruchun to know about such things.

Our road has been rough and difficult enough.

"In the past few days, whenever I have free time, I will call you, and the result is either 'the user you dialed is currently on the phone.' or 'the user you dialed has turned off the phone.'. Dare to go to your house to find you."

I grabbed his hand and asked him to lie down next to me, "Mom confiscated my mobile phone, so I won't answer your call. Maybe it will run out of battery later, right? I'll call you when there is electricity. You have already Shut down."

He smiled a little embarrassedly, "My mobile phone battery could have been on standby for two days, and I had a spare, so I didn't bring a charger to work. Who knows that I will call you whenever I have time these days. One day, the battery The power was used up so fast that it ended up turning itself off."

I frowned and thought for a while, "You haven't been home for a few days?" Otherwise, how could there be such battery usage?

He turned over and lay on his back on the bed, "You are not at home these few days, here is just an empty house, and there is nothing to look forward to when you come back. Besides, there have been several major operations these few days, and sometimes you just sleep in the bed. It's the hospital."

I was silent for a while, and asked, "Ruchun, after studying medicine and being a doctor for so many years, have you ever felt bored or wanted to quit?"

Ruchun smiled and touched my head, "Didn't you say that? God decides destiny, and doctors are God's only hand."

"I'm just talking casually." I closed my eyes to keep my emotions from leaking.

Su Ruchun was by my side, stroking my back, falling into memories, "When I was young," he paused, and continued, "I mean when the family of three was happy, my father often hugged me and carried me to the window sill. Look at the stars. He said, what should my son look like? The stars in the sky are always on and off, and the moon never changes its brightness regardless of whether it is cloudy or sunny. What kind of career will you pursue in the future and what specialty will you learn? What I expect is that you will grow up carefree and happy, like the moon. You are sunny and bring sunshine to other people's lives. You are happy and can make others happy. Happiness. Ever since I was in high school, I have never thought of being a career other than a doctor. Probably this is what I have chosen in my life, to let myself be sunny and happy, and at the same time bring sunshine and happiness to others.”

I found his hand and shook his fingers.

He won't know how many painful contradictions I have in my heart, and I will weigh trade-offs.

How should I ask him, if you were to trade your years of hard work for me for a mediocre man, would you be willing?

How can I have the audacity to ask him, if you let you put down everything you have now, and work hard for a brand new life with me, is it okay?

Love and career, love and ideals, love and future, in your eyes, which is more important?

In your eyes, which is more important between you and me?

In that case, I would never ask him.

At the end of May, Miss Zhao Mei got married in Morocco, and the groom was Dan Jiaru, a financial tycoon from Hong Kong.

I always knew that Zhao Mei was famous, but I didn't know that she was so famous.

Danjia is well-known in Xiangjiang, investing in many industries, and its family property ranks high in the whole of Asia.

Zhao Mei smiled wryly, "No matter how rich he is, it's not mine anyway."

I was startled, "You don't love him?"

"Why do you love him?" Zhao Mei rolled his eyes, "However, if you marry early, you are married, and if you marry late, you are also married. It is better to marry quickly. I was originally his child bride."

I smiled wryly, "After being friends for so long, I can't even attend your wedding."

Zhao Mei asked, "What are you going to do, just be a real housewife?"

I shook my head and fell down on the sofa exhaustedly, "I don't know."

I am now equivalent to a black household registration, without any identity, no way to go abroad, no way to buy and sell assets, and my mother has blocked all my future opportunities.

She didn't look for me, because she expected that I would compromise.

However, once I go back, I will lose, which is equivalent to agreeing to her deal in disguise.

Zhao Mei said I was a housewife, which really flattered me.

I could burn the kitchen down by cooking, stain my shirt by doing laundry, and burn a hole in my tie.

I had to help the big head with a few short-term positions and earn some pocket money.

Several projects in the new district of City D were completely unavailable.

The whole person feels disconnected from society.

Ruchun is getting more and more busy.

Sometimes I didn't even come home at night. I originally wanted to go to the hospital to look for him, but I was worried that it would affect his work, so I had to give up.

I heard that one day he had four surgeries and one consultation.

I heard that he has surgery all day, and he will have a class at Zhao Mei's school in the evening.

It is said that……

In the end, the communication between the two people only got up and kissed, and the farewell kiss was left.

I can only know all his current situation through Zhao Mei's mouth.

I faintly feel that the distance is widening, but there is no clue to prove it, and there is no way to get closer.

Ms. Wang Weiwei also gave me an ultimatum.

I hesitated.

Finally, there was a weekend when he didn't have to go to work.

At the instigation of Datou, Ruchun and I drove to Tianjin for a short trip. This is also the best way to travel when I don't have an ID card and passport and can't fly.

He kept focusing on driving. I was bored and fell asleep. When I woke up, I stretched myself. I glanced out of the corner of my eye and found a light blue toothpaste box in the gap between the seats.

I shook my head, I didn't expect such a meticulous and considerate person like Ruchun to leave things in the car.

I subconsciously took it out, and when I took it out, I suddenly felt regretful.

Ruchun probably noticed my bending over, and turned to look at me, the atmosphere was a little awkward for a while.

I'm such a fool, why subconsciously thought it was toothpaste.

KY, Personal Lubricant.

I don't recall either of us ever using that lube, it's usually the high end workshop oil that doesn't do any damage there.

When I found out about this later, I was a little embarrassed.

At that time, I was a little touched.

He was really not willing to let me suffer any physical or psychological damage.

But now, how could he have such a thing?

He threw it into the backseat calmly and continued to concentrate on driving.

I looked at the scenery flying by outside the window, and my heart was complicated and difficult to distinguish.

His hands were on the steering wheel, with a part of his arm exposed. It was still the Rolex Green Water Ghost I bought three years ago.

I know every inch of him.

But I feel in a trance that I can't see clearly the sincerity buried under his texture.

In 06, Tianjin did not have the current Tianjin Eye.

I said, "In two years, I guess a Ferris wheel will be built here."

Su Ruchun asked, "Why are you so sure?"

I squinted my eyes and pretended to be mysterious, "Intuition."

In the ancient culture street, among the pedestrians coming and going, we sometimes stand side by side, sometimes one behind the other.

We might be colleagues who come to relax together on the weekends.

We might be the neighbors who partner up to stock up on cheap groceries.

We may be travel buddies together.

We may be brothers, seniors and juniors.

No one will feel that we are acouple.

I don't want to be stared at strangely, but I feel that such a loose relationship, a relationship that cannot be recognized by anyone, is worthless once he no longer cares.

There are old-style houses everywhere, and the crowds are bustling. Finally, I couldn't help asking, "Who left that thing there just now?"

Su Ruchun frowned, "Prominent?"

I said, "Oh, that doesn't look like yours either."

There's nothing exciting about a trip, and for the first time I know he's a liar too.

Datou and Ni Xianhe, even if they want to do it, they don't use KY.

This, the boy with the big head, has always been outspoken, and has never concealed anything in front of me.

I feel in a trance that I can never go back to the past.

It's like a beautiful and moving jade, which is shattered inside due to the shock, but invisible on the surface, as long as it is touched, it will shatter.

On Monday, I went to R University to handle the handover.

I have to feel the low efficiency of my alma mater.

The entire college is probably full of unfamiliar faces, as well as new faces that have just been added.

One emperor and one courtier.

This is what is right and wrong.

I turned on my phone and looked at the wallpaper.

In the photo, we are smiling happily, our teeth are neat and white, and our eyes are as bright as stars.

I stared blankly as the screen dimmed again.

Reflect my shadow.

He asked me to grow three inches of hair, and I kept it three inches long.I’m always too lazy to wipe my hair after taking a shower, so I can only let the water drops tick on the tips of my hair, soaking my collar, slipping into my body, passing through my skin, standing in front of the French windows on the sixteenth floor and looking at the lights of Wanjia below, I’m not afraid The evening wind blows cool.

When I was squinting lazily at the night scene, he would take a thick towel and carefully wipe my hair.

Gentle control, conniving strength.The trembling of the hair tip is gently transmitted to the scalp, and the feeling of the light touch of the tentacles penetrates into my memory along the place closest to the thought, the helpless tenderness and infinite caring.

Others did not do as well as him, not because he was extremely smart and handsome.It's because there is no one else who is willing to feel my feelings with such heart, willing to pamper someone so delicately and tenderly.

It's not that they love each other, but they are unforgettable.

The screen suddenly lit up, and a text message arrived.

Heart pounding.

I opened it and it said, "Let's break up."

Sure enough, after such a long delay, he was showing me his cards.

I just feel that my heart has fallen from a hundred-foot-high building and shattered into scum.

I couldn't believe it was true, but it was indeed a text message from Ruchun.

I called and forced a smile, "Ruchun, you have to watch the time when you're joking, I'm doing business in R."

He was silent for a moment and said, "Han Ruo, I'm not joking, let's break up."

"Why, why?"

"I'm tired. I don't love you anymore."

I covered my heart, "Ruchun, you won't lie, how can I believe that?"

"I'm getting married next month, do you think I'm lying?"

"Married?" I sneered, "Are you getting hard on women?"

KY is for men, why is there a woman now, how many men and women are around him that I don't know?

"It's not in your concern. I've had enough of you. You will only be my burden and burden. I don't want to see you again."

The phone dropped, and my right ear was buzzing.

I never thought that one day, he would say such things to me.

So decisive, leaving no leeway.

So clean and neat, without a bit of muddy water.

Such a cold determination is like a sentence.

With one arm, I swept all the pen holders, books, official seals, and computer monitors on the table to the ground. The LCD screen instantly looked like a thin and brittle ice surface, and all of a sudden it was full of white cracks.

Not enough, I kicked the log desk and slid forward for a while, and kicked again, and the chair fell to the ground.

I covered my face, tears leaked from between my fingers, and wiped a few indiscriminately.

What a fucking shame.

It's just a lovelorn, what's the big deal, it's just being dumped, why can't you have a bit of backbone.

I told myself.

We are just the same as thousands of people who love each other in the world, maybe a little worse than many people. We have never lived and died together in a vigorous way, and we have never stood at the top of the pyramid to overlook the world hand in hand.

We are just a pair of ordinary lovers. We don’t talk much sweet words when we send text messages. It’s nothing more than today’s vinegar and tomorrow’s hot sauce, coffee during the day and porridge at night.

In this glamorous city of Beijing, we are just two mayflies and a pair of corn. We don't love anymore, we have to let go, it's as simple as that.

Luo Dai's concentric knot has not yet been formed, and the tide at the head of the river has leveled.

When I thought that the mountains were high and the waters were far away and the sky would last forever, he had already decided to let go, without dragging his feet in the slightest.

Han Ruo, I don't want to pursue you to take the initiative, confess that you take the initiative, kissing is also your initiative, this is a matter between the two of us, isn't it?

Han Ruo, if something is too beautiful and good, you will be afraid that it is fake, that the time to own it is limited, that it will be stolen, and that it is a fleeting phantom because it is too unreal.

Han Ruo, tell me, you won't regret it.

Han Ruo, I don't know what constitutes a 100% lover, but if Su Ruchun is destined to have such a person in his life, then he must be you.

Han Ruo, you are the most incomparable piano I have ever played.

Han Ruo, can you stop working so hard, I will feel sorry for you.

Han Ruo, I regret it, I regret leaving you a way out, I deserve to bear all these considerations, the pain of weighing choices, the torture of jealousy and biting, from now on, I will never let you go Han Ruo, thank you, willing to understand I.

Han Ruo.

Han Ruo...

Han Ruo——

There are countless voices, some are deep and hoarse, some are clear and compelling, so many romances, so many loves, hatreds, hatreds and ignorances.That pair of bright black eyes, the man's sincerity and deep feelings, like invisible threads, entangled my body, penetrated into my body, penetrated into my heart, like a flame, burning in my heart, every spark trembles, It hurt so bad I couldn't breathe.

The way he looked at me was a little persistent, a little doting, as bright as two most beautiful cold stars in the sky.

However, the last sentence he said was, I don't love you anymore, I've had enough of you, you will only be my burden and burden, and I don't want to see you again.

Haha.

It turned out that my do-over was, in the end, just a joke.