rebirth chores

Yuan Zhuoyang cooked a large table of dishes, all of which Xu Xiaowen likes to eat.He glanced at the bedroom door, but Xu Xiaowen didn't respond.

The dishes on the table were cold, Yuan Zhuoyang got up and went to the kitchen to warm them up before bringing them out, knocked on the door again, and listened carefully, but there was no movement at all.

Before I knew it, it was nine o'clock in the evening, and the ashtray on the coffee table in the living room was filled with cigarette butts.The dishes were hot several times, but the door of the bedroom was never opened.

Xu Xiaowen lay on the bed all night.With my eyes closed, I couldn't fall asleep, and my consciousness was clearer than at any time during the day.He was thinking why Yuan Zhuoyang did this.This is betrayal, this is cheating.He understands that Yuan Zhuoyang wants a child, and he understands that Yuan Zhuoyang is filial to his mother.But having sex with a woman is to carry on the family line, he can't understand.

Don't you want children yourself?More than once in front of Yuan Zhuoyang, he dreamed of adopting a child in the future.If the child is young how to teach him to speak, teach him to walk, who is responsible for changing the diaper and feeding the child.If the child reaches a sensible age, what school will he be sent to, and will he be given a red envelope by the teacher who will not give the child.

Yuan Zhuoyang, since you can accept women, why did you provoke him?Find a woman to live, and have children without any contradictions.

When people are sad, it is easy to recall the past happiness.

Xu Xiaowen remembered every detail of getting along with Yuan Zhuoyang.He remembered the first time he met Yuan Zhuoyang. Yuan Zhuoyang went to Fang Yunfeng's house to play. The handsome young man was in the stage of changing his voice.After getting along a lot, I realized that he is actually very good at smiling, and often when he is unhappy, he would play funny faces to tease him.With him, my personality has become much more cheerful, and I have more expectations for the future.Two people in one family, sometimes he is afraid that this is fake.

Xu Xiaowen heard Yuan Zhuoyang's knock on the door, but he didn't want to answer.After knocking a few times, there was no sound.No one disturbed him anymore, he continued to recall, being with Yuan Zhuoyang... Oh, by the way, why did he want to be with Yuan Zhuoyang?They had sex, more than once.It seems to be very logical to be together.At that time, Xu Xiaowen said in his heart that he had no hope for relationships, and that he would die alone in the future, so he excluded his relationship life from his life plan.In fact, in his own subconscious, he still hopes that there will be someone who can live with him and rely on each other when he gets old.Yuan Zhuoyang appeared and approached him actively.Although Yuan Zhuoyang was different from the person in Xu Xiaowen's imagination, he walked into Xu Xiaowen's life and made Xu Xiaowen get used to his existence.

In fact, habits are the scariest thing in the world.

Because Xu Xiaowen found it very difficult to let go of such a habit.

Yes, let go.

This night, Xu Xiaowen repeatedly thought about several possibilities.Things have already happened, people have to look forward.Xu Xiaowen will not deceive himself into fantasizing that nothing happened or crying endlessly.Those are all useless, but will embarrass yourself.Wasn't he like that in his previous life?Wagging his tail at the feet of An Ran and Jiang Yi, what did he get?

After living two lifetimes, one has to improve a bit.

Either forgive or give up.

Two roads lay before Xu Xiaowen.

If he forgives, Yuan Zhuoyang will feel guilty, and he will definitely be more kind to himself in the future, and will be more tolerant to himself.Yuan Zhuoyang has a biological child, and his parents probably won't interfere with his private life anymore, they don't even need to adopt the child anymore, blood relatives can't let go.And he and Yuan Zhuoyang may grow old forever.It is also possible that he, this matter is deeply buried in the bottom of his heart, and will be triggered by a certain introduction in the future, which will become a thorn in his heart.Children are the most obvious introduction.That was Yuan Zhuoyang's child. Could it be that Yuan Zhuoyang didn't care about it and left it all in the care of Yuan Jianguo Zhuolan and his wife?Living evidence flashed in front of his eyes, reminding him of Yuan Zhuoyang's betrayal, how he could live a peaceful life with Yuan Zhuoyang.Perhaps, first of all, he is patient and caring for the child, and gradually, he may get angry, find fault, quarrel with Yuan Zhuoyang again and again, complaining about Yuan Zhuoyang's sorry for him like a resentful woman.In the end, Yuan Zhuoyang got tired of it too.They just hit and miss.

Xu Xiaowen shuddered.

Such a result is too sad and terrible.Even if he could endure this thorn for a lifetime, even if he was stabbed bloody, he would live with a smile, how could he guarantee that Yuan Zhuoyang would not let him down again in the future?

He had participated in Yuan Zhuoyang's gathering with his friends, where birds of a feather flock together and people form groups.Yuan Zhuoyang is just like the people in that circle playing games in the world.It's just that the happy life during this period blinded his eyes, made him dizzy, and even forgot the lessons of his previous life.

So, give up?

From then on, if you become a stranger, it is best not to meet each other, and completely remove the traces of this person from your life?Xu Xiaowen's heart ached.Before he found out, he was already so reluctant to part with Yuan Zhuoyang.

At dawn, Xu Xiaowen left Yuan Zhuoyang's apartment, and he only took his own clothes.He didn't bring any gifts from Yuan Zhuoyang, including the ring.Yuan Zhuoyang also stayed up all night, keeping an eye on the movement in the house.He heard the sound of the door opening and came out of the guest bedroom, just in time to see Xu Xiaowen closing the door with his bag.

He chased it out, but stopped in the corridor.What should be said has already been said, maybe Xu Xiaowen should be quiet, the last thing he wants to see now is himself.

In the most splendid season of spring, Xu Xiaowen and Yuan Zhuoyang broke up.Xu Xiaowen checked into the hotel with his luggage.He didn't want to go back to the dormitory, and he didn't want to face other people's problems. The crowd and excitement would only make him feel more lonely.During the day, he goes to school as usual and participates in club activities.When there is no class, I go back to the small hotel.Lin Lin and the others noticed his silence, mainly because he was too happy some time ago, which made his silence too obvious now.He only talked about quarreling with his lover. Everyone has always known that he has a secret lover, and he once urged him to bring her out to show his face, but in the end it didn't matter.

Outsiders can't participate in emotional matters, and the roommates listened to this reason and didn't mind their own business, so they let him go.

Xu Xiaowen deliberately didn't think about matters related to Yuan Zhuoyang, and focused his energy on his studies and long-awaited plans.

Fang Yunfeng came to him before, and kept saying sorry or something like that.After a few days of calmness, Xu Xiaowen has been able to deal with the problem rationally.In all fairness, if he was in Fang Yunfeng's position, who could he do better than?On the one hand is a cousin, on the other is a good friend, in a dilemma.On the contrary, Yuan Zhuoyang pulled Fang Yunfeng into such an awkward position and made Xu Xiaowen angry for Fang Yunfeng.

So facing Fang Yunfeng, Xu Xiaowen calmly expressed that he was not angry with him and understood his difficulties.In order to prove that he was not just talking, he promised Fang Yunfeng to invite him to dinner.

According to Xu Xiaowen's idea, it's over after having a meal with Fang Yunfeng. He is in a bad mood. Although he has adjusted rationally, his emotional wound has not healed. At this time, he actually doesn't want to see people and things related to Yuan Zhuoyang at all. .I didn't expect this meal to be endless, Fang Yunfeng was like sticking a piece of super glue on him. After eating today, he will come again tomorrow, and he will come again the day after tomorrow.If he doesn't have class on a certain day, he will find Xu Xiaowen for three meals a day. If Xu Xiaowen has class and he doesn't have class, he will follow him all day.

Xu Xiaowen didn't understand what was going on at first, and repeatedly told Fang Yunfeng that he really didn't blame him, and he didn't have to do this.Fang Yunfeng babbled a few words, looking very embarrassed, but he came the next day as usual.

Xu Xiaowen wondered, did he have a face of dying for love.The signs of failing in love and looking for death and life are so obvious that friends have to follow him closely to prevent accidents? !

It wasn't until one day that Xu Xiaowen overheard Fang Yunfeng and Yuan Zhuoyang talking on the phone before he figured out what was going on.Co-authored, Fang Yunfeng came to take care of his cousin and sister-in-law driven by the dual sense of guilt and responsibility!

Needless to say, the next time Fang Yunfeng came to the door, Xu Xiaowen slammed the door unceremoniously.If Fang Yunfeng followed him any longer, he would treat him as transparent.

Living in a hotel for a long time is not a good choice, so Xu Xiaowen rented a house near the school and moved in.The landlord is an old lady in her 50s. She is in good health. Her sons and daughters have their own families and businesses. I only come to visit her on weekends. His wife has passed away for several years.Many residents in the city don't even know the surname of the neighbors across the door. The old lady feels lonely, so she simply cleans up a room in her house and rents it out to students in University B. If there is a young man, she will have someone to talk to.Xu Xiaowen loves to be clean, and never brings back people who don't understand. He also likes to help the old lady with housework, and the old lady likes him very much.The kitchen is considered public, and Xu Xiaowen often cooks meals for the old lady by himself, and the old lady can't help but praise him.These days, few girls can cook, let alone big men.

A few days after Xu Xiaowen settled down, he received a call from Jiang Yun, saying that the newly bought house had been renovated, and the couple would move to the county in a while.It took a lot of time from him to get the real estate certificate to the decoration.Before I knew it, several months had passed.

Xu Xiaowen went to the stock exchange to inquire about the details of opening an account for stock trading.The account manager who received him was very enthusiastic, and he talked about a lot of miscellaneous things. If he just said that stock trading is risky, Xu Xiaowen would not say anything, but the eloquent receptionist who received him said that stock trading is a stable profit. Losing business, pat his chest to guarantee that as long as Xu Xiaowen puts the money in his hands, money will make money immediately.When he said this, Xu Xiaowen dared not do it.During the Chinese New Year, he bought two houses in one go in his hometown. Although the housing prices in his hometown are quite reliable, but he paid in full, Xu Xiaowen now only has hundreds of thousands of money left in his hands, and investing it all in the stock market is like a sea of ​​water. It seems that the waves do not necessarily splash a single one.Xu Xiaowen didn't have the character of a gambler with all his wealth - the most important thing is that Xu Xiaowen looked at many stocks, and none of them sounded familiar.

Not too disappointed, Xu Xiaowen had a dream of getting rich, especially with the huge sum of money from winning the lottery.But after the actual operation, he found that the good luck of the pie in the sky is difficult to have a second time.It is true that he has memories of his previous life, but he was a low-level wage earner in his previous life. He didn't understand anything, and he didn't care about the international situation, domestic and foreign policies, economic trends and the like. Later, he was raised by Jiang Yi and learned everything. In bed work, he almost lost his original ability to earn a living, let alone other things, otherwise he would not be cut off so easily by An Ran later.

Hundreds of thousands of dollars would be a considerable amount if they were just put in the bank to earn interest, more than enough to maintain Xu Xiaowen's daily expenses.In fact, Xu Xiaowen himself does not have much ambition. He is not willing to put it in the bank because of the soaring inflation and prices in the future, and the purchasing power of RMB in his hands will be greatly reduced.

It turned out that he also thought about doing IT, asking Yuan Zhuoyang to help him set up a software company or directly set up a website.Like shopping Taobao, Dangdang, or game software such as Happy Farm, Plants vs. Zombies, there are business opportunities everywhere on the Internet.But firstly, he felt guilty in his heart, and always felt that doing this was like stealing other people's things. Secondly, he knew nothing about network technology, and his hands-on ability was zero.So this program PASS.

When I was with Yuan Zhuoyang, I picked one or two to tell Yuan Zhuoyang. At that time, Yuan Zhuoyang praised "his" creativity, but I don't know if it works or not.

There are other programs that are in the same situation.

After a comprehensive comparison, Xu Xiaowen decided to choose the most conservative plan