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On the day of the funeral, the cold wind was bitter, and the face was pierced with pain. The sky was gloomy, and it made people short of breath, chest tight, and breathless.

Condolences were densely packed, and Gu Yizhou hid himself in the crowd with an indifferent expression on his face.

He saw Ji Yang supporting a middle-aged man in his 50s. The man had a vicissitudes of life. Looking at his facial features, he should be Mu Chengxi's father.

There was no expression on Ji Yang's face. He took care of Mu Chengxi's funeral in an orderly manner, just like what others had seen him, mature, steady and meticulous.

However, Gu Yizhou always felt that something was different, but he couldn't tell exactly what was different.

After a while, Ji Yang helped Mu Chengxi's father away, and nodded to him.

Gu Yizhou was stunned, he finally knew what was different about Ji Yang.

There was no light in his eyes, and there was a dead silence.

Just as he was in a daze, someone suddenly held his cold fingers, and he turned around as if he had been burned.

Lin Beichen stood behind him, raised his eyebrows worriedly, and asked, "Why are you here? I've been looking for you for a long time. Your hands are so cold. Let's go into the room later."

Gu Yizhou looked at him, the dense crowd, the chaotic voices, the world seemed to be eclipsed at this moment, only this handsome young man was glamorous and beautiful.

He suddenly remembered that half a year ago, the summer when he sent Lin Beichen to the college entrance examination, the sky was gloomy and the surroundings were crowded and chaotic. Only Lin Beichen walked towards him step by step, with all the spring and sunrise on him.

Life and death are impermanent, everything he owns seems to be immutable and will never change, no matter how good his face will be, his talent that everyone envies will dry up one day. , will eventually turn into a pile of loess.

However, this person's gaze has never disappeared or changed with each passing day.

In the end, all he was looking for was the most difficult to find warmth in this world.Someone asked him how warm the porridge was, and someone woke him up that the tea was cold.

It seems to be that simple, but after going around and going around, after so many years of separation and reunion, he has never seen his own heart clearly.

Gu Yizhou clenched Lin Beichen's hand with his backhand, Lin Beichen's body froze, and he stopped in confusion.

"Brother, are you alright?"

Gu Yizhou shook his head lightly: "It's okay, it's too cold."

Lin Beichen hastily stretched out his other hand and said, "I'll warm you up."

Gu Yizhou raised his eyes, just in time to meet Ji Yang's gaze from afar, and there was an indescribable loneliness in that gaze.

When night fell, the sky was darker and the wind was blowing stronger than during the day. Gu Yizhou was afraid of the cold and couldn't help shivering.

Lin Beichen went to pick up the car, and Gu Yizhou stood in the corridor waiting for him.

After a while, he heard footsteps coming from far to near, Gu Yizhou pulled up his sweater, and the light dragged the figure of the person coming for a long time, so he glanced at the source of the sound.

At this time, someone called him: "Doctor Gu?"

Cold and polite, Gu Yizhou recognized that it was Ji Yang's voice, and he gave a low "hmm".

Ji Yang walked to the window, facing him, his whole body hidden in the dark, and asked casually: "Do you mind if I smoke a cigarette?"

Gu Yizhou said: "I don't mind."

"He doesn't like me smoking, and I basically don't smoke in front of him."

Gu Yizhou thought for a moment that Lin Beichen also likes to smoke, but he has rarely seen him smoke. Whether he also takes care of his feelings in this way, of course, he knows the answer better than anyone else.

The two were silent for a while, and Ji Yang shook off the soot calmly: "Lin Beichen likes you?"

Gu Yizhou was at a loss for words and didn't know what to say.

Ji Yang smiled: "It's good." Then he closed his eyes slightly.

Gu Yizhou couldn't think of words to comfort others. He felt that it was his own responsibility for not saving Mu Chengxi, so he said dryly: "Mr. Ji, I'm sorry..."

"You didn't feel sorry for anyone, Dr. Gu." Ji Yang's tone could not hear any disturbance, "Thank you for taking care of Xiaoxi for so long."

"I'm leaving. I don't know when I'll be back. Maybe it won't be long. He's still here. Where can I go..." He paused, as if he was sorting out his mood, and continued after a long while: "Farewell words , Doctor Gu, do you want to hear it?"

"What?" Gu Yizhou was at a loss.

"If anyone wants to like someone, just hold on tight and don't be like me." Ji Yang laughed at himself, "Only this ashes are left..."

Gu Yizhou's heart trembled, he saw Ji Yang lowered his head, his empty eyes didn't know what he was looking at, and finally there was a glimmer of light.

When he walked to the brightly lit place, Gu Yizhou saw clearly that Ji Yang's ring finger was wearing a ring.

Ji Yang finally waved his back to him, and Gu Yizhou knew that he would never forget Mu Chengxi in his life.

He began to ask himself, was it really the right thing to resolutely choose to study medicine?He was suddenly confused, and had deep doubts and denials about his life.

——Am I wrong, and are their expectations of themselves wrong?

Gu Yizhou covered his face, his eyes felt sore, and then his neck became soft, he raised his head slightly, and the corners of his eyes were moist.

"Brother, are you in a hurry?" Lin Beichen wrapped the scarf around his neck, "Let's go, let's go home."

He nodded and let Lin Beichen hold his hand.

After the two got into the car, Lin Beichen helped him take off the scarf. Knowing that he was worried, he asked worriedly, "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"Nothing." Gu Yizhou replied.

Lin Beichen knew that he had always been like this. He kept everything he wanted and didn't like in his heart. No one wanted to say it, and he didn't want to force him. Just as he was about to change the subject, he heard Gu Yizhou say, "I'm just envious."

"I'm very envious of Luo Rui, he can save lives and heal the wounded, but I can only watch their lives disappear little by little, but there is nothing I can do. Obviously, they trust me so much when they look at me, and they want to live so much..."

Lin Beichen was heartbroken, he hugged Gu Yizhou, kissed his hair, and murmured: "I don't blame you, I don't blame you, brother, you tried your best, you are also saving lives and healing the wounded, aren't you?"

Gu Yizhou lay in his arms, holding back his sadness.

Lin Beichen held his hand tightly, "Brother, you are also a hero. You saved people, and you saved me too. You worked so hard. But, brother, a hero will be tired too."

"So, let me be the hero's backing." Lin Beichen narrowed his eyes and smiled, "Let me be your umbrella for rain, medicine for your wounds, and someone you can rely on when you fall down."

A warm current flowed through Gu Yizhou's heart, he smiled slightly, covered Lin Beichen's mouth with his fingers, and said, "Don't be so numb."

"How can it be nasty, what I'm telling is the truth."

Lin Beichen pressed his hand to his heart: "As long as my heart is still beating for a second, it is because of my doctor Gu."

Gu Yizhou was amused by his sticky love words, and his bad mood disappeared in an instant. At this moment, he realized that he was as cowardly as a woman, and pushed Lin Beichen away with his hands.

Lin Beichen grinned, feeling happy in his heart. He didn't expect his brother to open up his heart to talk to him now.

After the car caught fire, he asked ambiguously, "Doctor Gu, which home should we go to?"

What is that home? Gu Yizhou turned away and didn't want to pay attention to him.

Lin Beichen smiled again: "Is it okay to move here?" After thinking about it, he added: "In the name of my husband."

Gu Yizhou couldn't help laughing, Lin Beichen was able to bend and stretch in order to achieve his goal.

Hearing Gu Yizhou's laughter, Lin Beichen's heart softened, and he couldn't help but want him to hug him into his arms and kiss him enough, but he couldn't, he had to endure it, if he really did this, Gu Yizhou would be angry and ignore him The loss outweighs the gain.

The weather was very cold and there were few pedestrians on the road. When Lin Beichen was waiting for the traffic lights, he heard a girl say in surprise: "Ah, look, it's snowing."

Gu Yizhou stretched out his hand to wipe off the mist on the car glass, and crystal snowflakes fell from the overcast sky.

There was light in Lin Beichen's eyes, he turned his head and smiled brightly at Gu Yizhou: "Brother, it's the first snow this year."