monopolize his white moonlight

Time flies, and the New Year is coming in a blink of an eye, and the whole city of Nantong is bustling with festive festivities.

Lin Beichen's internship life has gradually stabilized. Whenever he has free time, he goes to the hospital, but he no longer pesters Gu Yizhou as usual.During that time, everyone's heart was like a heavy stone, extremely heavy.

Soon after, Mu Chengxi was sent to the laminar flow ward of the hospital.

A camera was installed in the small room to detect the patient's status at any time, the roof was filled with air purification devices, and there was a piece of soundproof glass opposite the hospital bed. Ji Yang would talk to Mu Chengxi through the landline every day, but he dared not say Too long, I'm afraid Mu Chengxi will be too tired.

Mu Chengxi's father signed the consent form for bone marrow transplantation, and a few days later, Mu Chengxi performed the marrow removal operation before the transplantation.Seeing his face tortured by illness, Ji Yang felt as if a knife was cutting his own flesh and blood.

The day before the transplant, Mu Chengxi said to him: "Brother Ji Yang, you haven't said that you like me, can you tell me something."

Ji Yang replied gently: "Do you want to hear it?"

"Think about it." Mu Chengxi was full of anticipation.

"I'll tell you when you're done with the operation." Ji Yang took a deep breath, "If you want to hear it, please cooperate with Dr. Gu."

"Can you say it now?" Mu Chengxi had a certain kind of premonition, thinking that if Ji Yang didn't say it now, he might never hear it again.He looked at Ji Yang and discussed, "Can I not have the operation?"

"I can't." Ji Yang's face changed, and he realized that his tone was too blunt, and he said softly: "It's hard to find a suitable bone marrow match, Mu Chengxi, you have to be good, you know?"

Mu Chengxi wanted to say that he didn't want to be treated anymore, he was very scared, he was afraid that he would not be able to get off the operating table, he was afraid that he would never wake up if he slept like that, and he would never see Ji Yang.

He was really afraid of chemotherapy, bone puncture, and lumbar puncture again and again, and he didn't want to experience that kind of pain and despair again.

But he didn't want to make Ji Yang sad, so he just acted coquettishly in the end: "Brother Ji Yang, I hurt so much...It really hurts so much."

How could Ji Yang not know, he wished that the one who hurt him was himself.

In any case, the operation is still going on as scheduled.

When Mu Chengxi was pushed into the aseptic warehouse again, Ji Yang half-kneeled beside him, whispered a word in his ear, Gu Yizhou could only open his mouth, Mu Chengxi's pale face He finally had some blood, and finally smiled happily at Ji Yang.

No one heard what he said.

That night was very long, time seemed to stand still, Lin

Beichen and Ji Yang stood guard outside the operating room.

The last time it was like this, Ji Yang swore in his heart that if Mu Chengxi was good, he would treat him well according to his heart, love him and protect him well. He was lucky, God gave him a chance, so this time Well, what will happen this time?

He didn't dare to think, he was more afraid than ever.

He just sat there with his head buried, like a prisoner waiting for the dawn, as soon as someone told him you were acquitted or you were going to die.

After a long time, Lin Beichen looked at the time. At 03:30 in the morning, the door of the operating room finally opened. Ji Yang suddenly raised his head, his eyes were bloodshot.

A doctor came over, looked at them, and asked, "Who is Mr. Ji?"

Ji Yang stood up dumbly.

The doctor sighed softly and said, "The patient wants to see you."

Ji Yang woke up like a dream, followed the doctor instinctively, changed into sterilized clothes, and put on a disposable surgical cap... He didn't know how he walked into the operating room, his brain stopped thinking at that time, The whole person lost his soul, and he could no longer hear his own breathing.

Then, he finally saw Mu Chengxi lying on the operating table.

Mu Chengxi smiled at him quietly, his breath was weak, as if he would disappear if he touched it.

Ji Yang's ears could no longer hear any sound, and his eyes were pale. He approached Mu Chengxi step by step, using the greatest strength and courage in his life with every step.

Everyone, including Gu Yizhou, held their breath, for fear of disturbing this desperate man.

Ji Yang held Mu Chengxi's hand, and Mu Chengxi opened his mouth. He didn't hear the sound, but he understood the mouth shape. Mu Chengxi said, I, like, like, you.

He repeated, muttering, "Me too."

--"me too"

--"me too"

Ji Yang said word by word: "Mu Chengxi, I like you."

A tear flowed from the corner of Mu Chengxi's eye, but there was a happy smile on his mouth.

Ji Yang wanted to help him wipe away his tears, but someone pushed him away, and the scene was chaotic.

Someone mechanically repeated: "Heart rate value 65, 64, 64.5..."

"End-stage blood pressure, lower than 90/60 normal value"

"Oxygen saturation 75%."

Ji Yang's whole body was stiff, staring at the slowly flattening line on the ECG monitor, and the temperature in his palm cooled down little by little.

"Complete heart stop."

"Ineffective Ventricular Pacing"

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Gu Yizhou's brain was in pain as if it had burst, he seemed to have had a nightmare, and when he woke up he was hesitant and helpless.

After he left the operating room, he looked dazed and defeated. When Lin Beichen saw him, his heart ached and he hugged him tightly.

The first rays of sunlight after dawn passed through the glass, casting a few dappled halos on the floor.Gu Yizhou closed his astringent eyes, and wrapped his arms around Lin Beichen's muscular waist.

Lin Beichen was taken aback for a moment, then kissed his hair, and said softly, "Brother, it's over, it's over."

Gu Yizhou buried his face in his sweater, feeling that the world became quiet in an instant.

has it ended?

I don't know, anyway, after that day, Ji Yang stopped talking. He stayed alone in the ward where Mu Chengxi used to live, neither eating nor drinking nor sleeping.

Ji's father, Ji's mother, and Yu Qin, they all went to persuade him to comfort him, good and bad, and crying, but Ji Yang was still indifferent. He only thought that Mu Chengxi just had an awkward fight with him and ran away angrily. Go out, and he will come back naturally when his anger subsides.He can't leave, what if Mu Chengxi can't find him when he comes back.

In this way, the day before Mu Chengxi's funeral, Lin Beichen went to find him.

When he entered, Ji Yang didn't turn on the light, the whole person was hidden in the darkness, and the room was silent.

Lin Beichen stood in front of the window, lit a cigarette, slowly exhaled a smoke ring, and said, "Mu Chengxi will have a funeral tomorrow, don't you want to see him for the last time?"

Ji Yang raised his head slightly, his voice hoarse: "What?"

"He's dead." Lin Beichen hit the nail on the head.

Ji Yang's shoulders trembled, as if trying to hold back something, after a long time, he said slowly: "I know."

Then he stood up and looked at Lin Beichen. The pain in his heart seemed to open a gap. He smiled: "I know."

"How could I not know? He wanted to give up treatment a long time ago, and he was still begging me at the last moment. He said he didn't want to have a transplant operation. Why didn't I listen to him? How could I make him suffer so much..."

"He is most afraid of pain... But, how did he survive these days, such a long needle pierced through his waist, how much pain and fear he must have, why am I so selfish, I want him to live, I just want him to live, but why can't I replace him for this life, I, I..."

Ji Yang couldn't cry at the end, and Lin Beichen's heart was also stabbed.

"Why is he so cruel, why did he leave me like this, what did he ask me to do, what did he ask me to do..."

"I told him I liked him."

"Did he hear it, did he hear it last, what should he do if he didn't hear it?"

He looked at Lin Beichen, as if grasping at the last straw, and asked, "Did he hear that?"

Lin Beichen replied: "I heard it, he knew he was going to die, and he saw you for the last time to hear you say this, how could he not hear it."

"I heard it, I heard it..." Ji Yang repeated dully, and finally showed a knowing smile.

He said softly: "I said that the ring will be worn on his finger personally."

The day before Mu Chengxi's bone marrow transplantation, he ordered a pair of simple men's rings. At the moment Mu Chengxi was pushed into the operating room, he said in his ear: "Come out alive, I will wear it for you." ring."

I wait for you, I marry you, and - I love you.

[The author has something to say: There will be extra stories about Ji Yang and Mu Chengxi later... Forgive the knife. 】