Mo Yan Appreciation

Hugged in his arms with his sisters for a moment, the embrace was so warm, they whispered in his ears, they said: "Little brother is so beautiful!"My little brother's feet are so soft to the touch!The younger brother's eyelashes are so long, and his mouth is so small... They sang to him, and the singing was so melodious...

He seems to have returned to his childhood, going to and from school with his friends every day, making trouble in class together, lying on the grass together listening to songs and reading comics, chasing MJ together, running on the road together, swimming in the seaside together, sleeping on the beach together …The sky at that time was blue and blue, the air smelled good at that time, the years at that time were so beautiful, life seemed to be forever boring, and time seemed to never fade away!

Zhongxu closed his eyes contentedly, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, he felt that he was getting closer and closer to these beautiful memories, as if he had never been far away!

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Time passed little by little, and Zhongxu had little consciousness left, but at this moment, the ringtone of the mobile phone suddenly rang, awakening his consciousness!

Zhong Xu struggled to take out the phone in his pocket, and when he connected, there was a voice of polite inquiry. It turned out to be a call from a colleague in the company, as if asking him if he hadn't come to work for a few days, is he sick?Zhongxu hangs up without even thinking about it!

Work?Zhongxu knew early on that this job was meaningless to him, it was just a spiritual sustenance, but at that time, it seemed that there was some force supporting him, no matter how humble, no matter how uninterested, he always supported him Now, I always think that this can prove something!But this time, it must be that this power is no longer there.

Zhongxu chuckled inwardly, why would he need to make a special phone call to inquire, he would know by reading the newspaper tomorrow morning.

Although this phone call was insignificant to Zhongxu, it reminded him that yes, he could not just die like this and be discovered only when the body stinks, and he failed to leave a single word to those close to him to relieve their grief.He can't be reduced to the laughing stock of others after death.Even if Zhong Xu died, he should have planned to leave in a peaceful and peaceful manner, with an elegant and dignified departure, rather than the current embarrassment.

When Zhong Xu thought of this, he felt a little scared. He realized that he had to save himself. He tried his best to turn over, retched a few times, and wanted to spit out the medicine in his stomach, but he had no strength and he couldn't find it. Seeing other people asking for help, I had no choice but to call my most trusted friend——Yan Zhenming.

Zhongxu called Yan Zhenming, and he said, "Zhenming, I miss you!"

(12 fresh coins) Mo Yan Appreciation (Devil's Year of Attack vs Tragedy Uncle Shou) 52

Thanks to Yan Zhenming's understanding of Zhong Xu for many years and his keen insight, he discovered the problem from Zhong Xu's short phone message and rushed to the latter's home in time. Life.

His consciousness was already clear, but he was unwilling to open his eyes for a long time, unwilling to face the current mess.He didn't know in his heart whether he should be happy or worried, maybe he just went like this, and there was nothing wrong with it, the merits and demerits of honor and disgrace can be left to others to judge, he couldn't hear anyway, and there was no need to Lying here helpless, worrying about how to face the endless questioning and endless pity of family and friends.

Zhongxu opened his eyes, the autumn sunshine was just right outside the window, and his good friend Yan Zhenming was standing by the hospital bed, presumably because he was too tired last night, now the other party was falling asleep on the chair, maybe it was because of staying up late, usually the streamer Yicai's face will be a little sad. The two have known each other for more than [-] years. With the marriage and career of the other party, the opportunities for Zhongxu to watch Yan Zhenming up close like this now are becoming less and less, and he feels very relieved.

The air conditioner in the ward is insufficient, it must be inappropriate for Yan Zhenming to sleep in ordinary single clothes, Zhong Xu wanted to sit up and help his friend put on a blanket, just when he propped up his upper body, Yan Zhenming was disturbed by the noise and frowned in his sleep, as if he was about to wake up Meaning, Zhong Xu hurriedly lay down again and closed his eyes.

In fact, he wasn't afraid of Yan Zhenming's questioning and censure, what he was afraid of was other things - he had protected this secret for too many years, and he couldn't imagine how the other party would treat him after this secret was revealed.Yes, when he knew how much he cared about Mi Shi, he was afraid that he would have trouble with him from now on.

Zhongxu clearly remembered the contents of yesterday's distress call, if he didn't think that he might never have the chance to say it again, if his consciousness hadn't drifted away at that time, and his brain couldn't stand his control, he wouldn't have said those words .Only at this moment did he feel scared. He really didn't know how to face Yan Zhenming.

Yan Zhenming woke up, first checked whether the drip was normal, and then stretched out his hand to test the temperature of Zhongxu's forehead, but found nothing unusual, so he felt a little relieved.

Yan Zhenming sat alone for a while, then sighed, opened the door and went out.

Zhongxu knew that he was smoking. They had known each other for more than twenty years, and he knew each other's habits like the back of his hand.

Zhongxu woke up again because he heard someone talking, and the voice was a young woman who seemed to be saying, "Please rest assured, Mr. Zhong is fine, and he should wake up in an hour or two."

two?Could it be that someone else is coming?

From the content of the words, it should be a nurse from the hospital who spoke, since she said that he would not wake up in an hour or two, Zhong Xu simply pretended to sleep with his eyes closed.

Then Zhongxu heard a soft sob, and someone was talking intermittently: "If the old lady knows about this, she will die!"

It turned out that the third sister had also come, and Zhongxu felt sad for a while, and he became more determined to pretend to be asleep.

Someone by the side comforted her: "The old lady won't know, I only informed you, the eldest sister and the second sister didn't notify, I'm afraid they are too soft-hearted and can't hide their words."

"Yes, they are soft-hearted, and I am the only one who is hard-hearted, but what can I do? I have to support my family! And no matter how hard-hearted I am, what's the use of him? He still treats me like a family member. You were present when the accident happened last time. You were the only one present when there was an accident, in short, he will only look for you when he has an accident."

Zhongxu was startled, it turned out that the third sister already knew about the suicide attempt last time, and he thought that only he and Yan Zhenming knew about it.

Yan Zhenming's voice was a bit bleak, "As long as he is healthy, it doesn't matter who he asks for help first. Let's not push him too hard."

"Forcing him? Have we ever forced him? He forced himself!" Miss Zhongsan wiped her tears and spoke with a choked voice: "Zhenming, after so many years, can't you let my little brother go? Don't you Understand that as long as you're around him, he'll never be okay."

Yan Zhenming didn't reply, Zhongxu's breathing tightened, his throat froze, and he couldn't vent his breath for a long time.

Only Miss Zhongsan continued: "My mother was over 40 years old when my younger brother was born. He is the only child in the family. My parents have placed great expectations on him. Thanks to his hard work, he has been well-behaved and sensible since he was a child. Obedient, smart, and studious, no one praised him until you appeared and changed everything. I will always remember that day, when he came back from school, he pulled me excitedly and said: Sister, there is a new change in my class School student, don’t mention how powerful he is. He said he could drive a car when he was 4 years old. He shook hands with Michael Jackson. The jersey was autographed by Michael Jordan. He can solve the problems he solves, and he is also very good-looking, prettier than all the girls in the class. Since then, his daily topic has never left you. I didn't care, I just thought that you were good in character and learning, he would have no problem making friends with you, on the contrary, I was happy for him, but by the time I cared, it was too late, and he couldn't turn back. My dad I was so angry that I vomited blood. It was useless to persuade me with good words, and it was useless to beat him to death. In the end, my mother had to take him to jump into the sea together. She said she was born and she was responsible. She He said that he would take him to jump into the sea, so he really followed her. He walked without any hesitation, and had the heart to see death as home. It’s passed, and my younger brother didn’t mention it again. After you dropped out of school, he also went outside to study, and he had less contact with his family. When he came back after a few years, his temperament changed a lot, and he was also polite to his family. , moved outside alone, didn't do a few serious things, and her personality became loose and unruly. My mother cried countless times. Why do you think she cried? Can't the Zhong family have a big business to support an idler? She is After crying for him, he never smiled happily... Do you know that you ruined my little brother's life!"

Yan Zhenming didn't reply for a long time, the whole ward was quiet, Zhongxu only felt infinitely sad in his heart, he thought he hid it well, it turned out that he liked Yan Zhenming, everyone knew it.

"Do you think that what we objected to at that time was his sexual orientation? We didn't want him to be with you, so we didn't dare to say that's all. You are always together, can't I see it? You just regard him as one of your followers , There is no such fate between you. After so many years, are there still few people coming and going around him? Every day you are by his side, he will never give up. How many people can compare with you? Can you find someone you are truly satisfied with? If you really want to benefit him, stay away from him!"

Yan Zhenming's eyes are red