Mo Yan Appreciation

The first reaction has always been NO, he has not said this word for many years, just thinking about it makes him feel flushed, but the other party's question is right next to his ear, blowing towards his face with dense heat, undoubtedly very tempting, then The bright eyes full of smiles also seem to hide incitement and bewitchment, which invisibly put a lot of pressure on Zhong Xu and affected his judgment.

Yes, Zhongxu hasn't said love for a long time, but he can't deny that he does have some inseparable feelings for Li Moyan.

We have to start from the beginning. It was Zhongxu's first job with some meaning, and it was the first time he really had the opportunity to show his own value. Among so many students who are arrogant and defiant, Li Moyan's disguise was particularly successful. It attracted his attention, but the other party was the first person to ask him for help. However, the mistake was that the help this time was not successful, leaving many sequelae.

Perhaps every man has a "heroic dream" in his heart, Zhong Xu is no exception, and his heroic dream came to an abrupt end before it started, which has become his greatest regret, or heart disease.In fact, up to this point, everything can still be redeemed. As long as Zhongxu is a little bit more cruel, the stories that happened after that can still be avoided.

However, the story has already happened after all, and the fire has already happened. As for the things that happened between the two after that, were Zhong Xu's instinctive corrections?Whether it was Li Moyan's unilateral entanglement, or an unclear fate, is unknown.

Zhongxu had to admit that he spent more time on Li Moyan than on anyone else, more than his family, his friends, and even his previous lovers. However, this is love?

Love, tolerance, anger, forgiveness, how can these not be love?If it was a happy ending that was doomed from the very beginning, shouldn't it be time to embrace affectionately at this time, and then everyone will be happy?

However, Zhongxu is just Zhongxu after all, he is not Yan Zhenming, he was born rich, but he refused to accept the mission entrusted by his family. He once chose to end his life because he was afraid of getting old, and he once again accepted his cheating lover. I was cheated again and again by a boy who was nearly 20 years younger than me.

Zhongxu is not cowardly, or he just refuses to take responsibility, because he is afraid of change, and instinctively gave up trying.

Going back to the previous question, is caring and caring really love?The answer Zhongxu got was that he was still not sure.

He is almost at the age of no doubt, how can he fall in love with a young man who is nearly 20 years younger than him, not only is there nothing to be proud of, but he will be laughed at by others!It's okay to fall in love with a boy 20 years younger than me, but love?forget it.

Shock, hesitation, hesitation and self-mockery flashed in Zhongxu's eyes one by one. Li Moyan saw them one by one, and his original joy was fading away bit by bit. He looked at the person in front of him, and his tone became desolate. Question: "Can't you just listen to your inner voice once and for all, regardless of so many concerns?"

Yes, Zhongxu, you have already reached this point, you have searched for death, you have also gone through running away from home, you have also had a crush on a vigorous crush, how come it is the time to charge with open swords and spears, it is considered heroic When dedication also had to bite the bullet and move forward, did it stagnate again?

Zhongxu was still hesitating, he was also full of confusion, but in the end he obviously did not change his answer, he looked at Li Moyan who was close at hand, this young man who seemed ignorant and unscrupulous because of his arrogance, at this moment Sadness is also really sad.

Even though it was difficult in his heart, even though it was difficult to speak, Zhongxu just replied: "Give up, Li Moyan, it is impossible between us."

Li Moyan took a few steps back again and again, with tears in his eyes, but a stubborn chuckle on his lips, still maintaining his dignity.This time, he gave up the fight. He thought that after doing so much, the other party would be a little moved, but he still lost.It has always been like this, the more people who give their sincerity, the more they lose completely. Isn't that the case with Zhongxu in the past!

Once upon a time, because of a boring bet, Li Moyan deliberately approached and played with Zhongxu. At that time, he naturally did not expect that one day he would really fall in love with this middle-aged man who was a generation older than him. He has finally tasted the bitter fruit of his own sins today, so where is he going to complain?

Zhongxu continued to return to France. No one knew what he was thinking. He could tilt the balance towards Eric, who was not dominant, but why couldn’t he tilt towards Li Moyan, who seemed to be affectionate and sincerely in love with him? ?

As everyone knows, for a long time, Zhongxu's love has always been a love of compromise. Perhaps he has already gotten used to this kind of life, and got tired of it and gave up chasing.

He didn't go to meet Eric immediately, but decided to collect and clear up his mood first, but before he could fully sort it out, the other party heard the news and came to him first.

Eric said with dissatisfaction, "Why didn't you come to me when you came back? I brought your luggage for you!"

Zhong Xu expressed his gratitude, and found some reasons to prevaricate the other party. It is impossible for him to break up with the other party before clarifying his emotions. This is not a good solution to the problem for both parties.Eventually, the two reverted to their previous relationship.

Zhongxu is still working in the team. Colleagues in the team come and go, but his work content has not changed much. After the rent expires, he pays the rent for another year, but he does not move in with Eric. Too far into the future, the two still have no clear plans.

Everything here is still the same as before he returned to China, but there seems to be some differences, and he can't say what is different.

Perhaps, it's because of a change in mentality. In the past, he didn't have any expectations for the future, and he always muddled along. Now, he seems to be looking forward to something.

One day, Zhong Xu was having a meal with Eric. He was eating Chinese food in a Chinese restaurant. He looked at the unauthentic Kung Pao Chicken on the table, and suddenly had a whim, and asked the person opposite: "If one day I want to go back to China, what would you do?" Will you go back with me?"

Eric didn't seem to understand his intentions, "What do you mean? You live well here, why do you want to go back?"

"There is no reason, maybe my family wants me to go back, not to mention, we are all Chinese."

The other party smiled, "I'm French." He occasionally likes to eat Chinese food, but he is no longer Chinese.

Zhong Xu also laughed, he knew very well in his heart that the other party would not go back with him, we are all adults, long past the age of going out for love on the spur of the moment.

If you throw the question to Zhongxu, he will give the same answer as Eric, there is nothing wrong with that.

(11 fresh coins) Mo Yan Appreciation (Devil's Year of Attack vs Tragedy Uncle Shou) 72

Zhong Xu's life is going on like this, he seems to have accepted the arrangement of fate and stopped struggling. Presumably, only when he was really crazy when he was young can he truly calm down.

A Chinese team member named Zhao Lei came to Zhongxu’s motorcade to exchange and study. The other party inevitably faced many difficulties in a foreign land. We are all Chinese, and Zhongxu gave him a lot of help.

French is different from English. First of all, communication is a problem. Zhongxu sometimes acts as a free translator for him, but because Zhongxu voluntarily helps, he doesn't think it is any trouble.

Racing can be said to be a high-tech and high-cost competitive event, especially the formula car race, which started relatively late in China, with few teams, and its development is relatively backward.As a Chinese, Zhong Xu couldn’t help but feel a little regretful about this. He once thought about investing in this area, but it was always because there were not enough opportunities, so it didn’t work out in the end.In any case, he hopes that the motherland can develop in racing, which is the main reason for helping Zhao Lei free of charge.

Of course, this Zhao Lei did not live up to Zhong Xu’s expectations. The other party practiced really hard. Zhong Xu has worked in the team for several years. He has met many people who regard racing as a career, but he has never seen a car racing like Zhao Lei. As a living person, except for eating and sleeping, he spends almost the rest of his time in the racing car. Zhongxu sighed and tried his best to help the other party.

After going back and forth, everyone became more familiar with each other, and the two spent more time together, and the topics of conversation became more extensive. Once, Zhong Xu accidentally asked the other party, "You are studying here, and it is sponsored by your team. Yes, or did you fund it yourself?" After all, racing is not a cheap sport, and the cost of studying here is even more expensive. There is always a reason for the other party to work so hard.

Zhao Lei smiled, looking unfathomable, and he replied: "Neither, it was funded by my sponsor!"

Zhao Lei asked him: "I heard from them that you have also been on the field before and won the ranking? When will you show me your hand?"

Zhongxu just shook his head when he heard this, it’s worth not mentioning what happened so many years ago, now racing is just a job for him.

Zhongxu and Zhao Lei got so close, which aroused Eric's taste to a certain extent, but he still remained silent.

It was the weekend, Zhong Xu and Eric were staying at home, watching a DVD while doing some intimate things, but Zhong Xu suddenly received a call from Zhao Lei, he was afraid that the other party had something important to do, so he answered the phone, this is in To a certain extent, Eric's dissatisfaction was exacerbated.

So after Zhongxu hanged up, Eric sneered: "Why, in the end