Shen Gong Ji

I listened to the imperial edict, and those words fell into my ears one after another. I dismantled them repeatedly, but still couldn't see what they meant.Du Shiruozi?Why Duruo?Shouldn't it be Yang's Juntian?Is the imperial edict wrong?No matter how you think about it, this canonization has no reason, as if it was born out of thin air.

In a daze, I looked back at Du Ruo who was kneeling behind me.He also had a blank face, in disbelief.And the hundreds of palace attendants behind me, they all stared at me with wide eyes, as if I could give them an answer.

I looked back at Yin Duanqing.He had finished reading the imperial edict, held it in both hands, looked respectful, bowed slightly to Du Ruo, and said, "Congratulations, Your Majesty, please accept the edict."

I stared at the imperial edict, and then at Yin Duanqing's indifferent face, "Is this edict correct?"

Yin Gongshi lowered his eyes indifferently and said, "Please rest assured, Mr. Xian, there is no fallacy in any word."

"It doesn't make sense?" I stood up, and after the shock, there was a surge of anger.I almost yelled!What exactly is going on! !Zhao Yanshu... What the hell is Zhao Yanshu thinking! ! !

I forced myself to suppress the severe pain that almost tore my heart, and tried to keep my voice calm, "I want to see Your Majesty."

"Your Majesty's wishes will be passed on to His Majesty."

"I'm going to see him now!" I couldn't hold back anymore, the air around me seemed to be thinner all of a sudden, I couldn't breathe, it seemed like there was a heavy wall pressing on me, preventing me from turning over forever!

Yin Duanqing didn't panic in the face of my anger, as if he had expected it.His calmness seemed to have slapped me, bringing shame to my anger.They already knew my reaction, all of them were watching my jokes!

"Young Master Xian, please calm down and ask Your Majesty the Queen to accept the order." He still faced Du Ruo with neither humility nor overbearing, as if I was invisible!

I finally couldn't bear it anymore, rushed over and grabbed his collar, and yelled angrily, "Didn't he have anything to say to me?! Didn't he even have an explanation?! Tell me! What's going on? !"

Qianyi and Uncle Jin hurriedly grabbed me from behind, and I heard Uncle Jin whispering "Juntian! Calm down!" in my ear, but I couldn't control myself.

I've waited so long...I've suffered so much...I thought I'd finally made it...but it was a scam!

And I don't even understand how I lost! ! !Duruo?Why Duruo?He's just a palace servant?Why him? ?

Uncle Jin, Qian Yi, and several other palace attendants held me down after a lot of effort. Palace attendant Yin straightened the clothes I messed up slightly, then walked towards Du Ruo, and respectfully put the imperial edict in his hand.

"Yin Gongshi...I..." Du Ruo hesitated, looking at me uncertainly.

Yin Duanqing raised the corner of his mouth slightly, and smiled kindly, "This is the will written by His Majesty himself, so don't worry about it."

I watched Du Ruo Xie En helplessly, watched Yin Duanqing tell Du Ruo to take him to Jiaofang Hall to settle down, and watched their guard of honor leave in a mighty manner. The anger that had supported me just now seemed to be suddenly taken away.Before leaving, Du Ruo looked at me worriedly, her lips moved as if she wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't say anything and just left with Yin Duanqing.

I suddenly felt that the world was spinning, and the whole world seemed to be different from what it was before.I don't understand what's going on. How come the peaceful life, day after day, has become so unreal?

I was in a daze that day, I wanted to rush to Weiyang Palace to ask what happened to the little emperor, but I seemed to suddenly lose my courage.That kind of looming fear is like a monster hiding in the depths of the forest. Although I can't see or touch it, I have a vague feeling that it is dormant there.If I really run away, what awaits me is probably the truth that I cannot bear...

But I can't just do nothing and let this inexplicable happen.Several times I have ordered someone to prepare a car to go to Weiyang Palace, but when I was about to leave, I hesitated again.Uncle Jin looked at me quietly at this time, and suddenly sneered, "Is it useful for you to go now? If His Majesty doesn't see you and hangs you outside the palace gate, you will really become the laughing stock of the entire Zihuan Garden. "

He has a point.There are already a lot of people watching my jokes.I shouldn't have given them any more laughs.The only sensible thing I can do now is to say nothing and wait quietly in Fuyao Hall, waiting for the little emperor to give me an explanation.

But I waited like this for three days, but only got the news that Du Ruo's canonization ceremony will be held in two days.

I can't sit still any longer.I also can't care about the faintly surging fear in my heart, and I can't care about other people's eyes.I called someone to prepare a carriage and went straight to the little emperor's bedroom.At that time, it was evening, and the bright clouds in the sky were gradually disappearing. The spring breeze shook the willows by the Taiye Pool, and the air was filled with the fragrance of flowers.Such a good weather should be suitable for happy and happy things to happen. It can't help but make people feel that all nightmares will wake up and hope for life can be rekindled.

Maybe, the little emperor had some important reason, maybe there was some misunderstanding in it.

It doesn't matter if he canonize Du Ruo, as long as he can give me a satisfactory reason, I can bear it.I told myself over and over that I wanted him as a person, not supremacy.The queen's seat means nothing, everything will be fine.

As long as he treats me sincerely, I can forgive him...

The tall and majestic Weiyang Palace, with such long white jade steps, makes the cinnabar red palace seem out of reach.I carried my long clothes and ran quickly to the main entrance of Weiyang Palace.The palace attendant at the door saw me and rushed in to report back.I waited outside the door anxiously, with thoughts in my head.

After waiting for a long time, I saw Yin Gongshi came out with all the palace servants in the palace, and bowed in front of me, "Your Majesty, please come in."

Looking at the open palace door, he took a deep breath, and walked in.I have entered this palace many times. On both sides are vermilion pillars coiled with reliefs of phoenixes and phoenixes. In front of it is a couch that is a foot above the ground. .The little emperor is not in the outer hall, probably in the inner hall?Suddenly, I heard strands of embroidered zither sound coming from the inner hall, the gorgeous silk strings, but pieced together a bit of mourning.

Following the sound of the zither and opening the bead curtain, I saw that he was sitting behind the zither with his black hair loose, seemingly lazily plucking fifty silver strings.It's only been a few days since we saw each other, but I'm already a little timid.I didn't dare to speak, just stood there looking at him.

"You're here." He said in a normal way.

His flat attitude finally rekindled the burning anger in my heart.I walked up to him and pressed his strings all at once, and the sound of the piano suddenly disappeared.

"You have nothing to say to me?" I stared into his eyes.

There was no wave in his black and white eyes, as if he was dead.I don't understand why such a look makes people feel a little distressed.

But when I thought about it again, I felt ridiculous.It has come to this point, why are you still trying to excuse him?

"I have nothing to say," he said.

I almost don't know him anymore.He was still so gentle a few days ago, could it be that everything was a dream?I almost doubted my memory.

Laughing back in anger, I laughed dryly at him a few times, my lips moved, but I felt that no matter how I questioned him, it was not strong enough.In the end, I could only ask palely, "Why Du Ruo?!"

"Juntian." He finally looked at me squarely, with such a demeanor, with a certain force of determination, as if he was planning to confess everything, "I will remember everything you have done for me. Even if Du Ruo becomes the queen, you The status in the palace will not change in the slightest. But sorry, empress, it can only be Du Ruo."

His words were as sharp as a needle, piercing my heart with sharp pain.All the illusions he had originally had were torn apart bloody.I slammed my fist on the table so hard that the zither's strings buzzed.

"Why him! Why!"

The little emperor sighed, and seemed to be looking at an unreasonable child, with a bit of pity in his eyes that I couldn't bear, "You should know that Du Ruo grew up with me. Since I was very young, he I have always been by my side. I once promised him that as long as he was my queen. But at that time, I was just a puppet emperor and had no power to protect him. If I unscrupulously expressed my feelings for him, it would only push him to the forefront In the end, it is the ending like the father and Du Qian. And Xiang Li, Yue Tu, Lian Moshang, and even you, let's see what happens to the people I put by my side?" He shook his head lightly, "I can't tolerate such an ending, so I decided to follow my father's teaching, the more I love someone, the more I put him where I can't touch him."

I listened to the truth he told, but for some reason I didn't seem too shocked.Probably deep in my heart, have I vaguely guessed the reason?

Du Ruo served the little emperor for so many years, but he was just an ordinary palace servant, and then he was sent to me suddenly, isn't it too strange?

I smiled wryly, "So, you put him next to me, and let me be the one who was mobbed and attacked?"

He actually nodded his head, "That's right. I will give you all the favors and let you attract everyone's attention, so that those who used to be suspicious of Du Ruo will no longer pay attention to him. Moreover, put him in the By your side, I can also take the opportunity of coming to you to meet him. You are a foreigner, and you have no background in the court. Even if you make trouble in the future, you will not cause any big trouble. Therefore, I will suppress it in a timely manner. You, promoted you at the right time, let you replace Ouyang Qi's position step by step. However, I didn't expect you to be very capable. Originally, I was worried that the power would be regained in the future. Even the power held by the Taiwei is too great, it is not good Dealing with Lian Moshang, but in the end, you and Ouyang Qi solved it together. Originally, I was worried that you would not make it to the end, and it would not be easy to find other suitable candidates, but I never thought that you would make it this far."

I stared at him blankly, as if I had been thrown into a bottomless abyss.I can't believe that this is the truth, under the tenderness that dazzles me, there is actually such a cold truth.

It turned out that he was actually a very affectionate person. He made plans for the one he loved, and was cautious in every step, just to fulfill the promise he made when he was a child.Unfortunately, that love is not me.

My heart-piercing, gut-wrenching heartbreaks have been going on for a long time, but they are just an episode in the stories of the protagonists.This has never been my story, I am just an outsider, not only the little emperor, but also Ouyang Qi, Zhu Ran, and Duan Xihe, all took advantage of my tenderness and kindness, but I mistakenly thought that I was trapped in.

It turned out that I was just a pawn, a pawn who could be replaced at any time, and I was doomed to be abandoned from the beginning.

My heart hurt so badly that I half-kneeled on the low couch and pressed my hands on my chest, but my eye sockets were very dry and my ears were buzzing.

He frowned slightly, the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, and his expression seemed to be tinged with pain, "Actually, when I met you just now, I valued this and decided to take you back to Beijing. But on the way I couldn't bear to find that you were a simple person, so I ignored you for a long time after I brought you back to the palace. But I didn't expect that you are just like everyone else, a person who can play tricks and compete for favor .You adapted to the court faster than I expected. If you hadn't deliberately attracted my attention as you did at the Hongtu Banquet, I wouldn't have decided to use you in the end."

I heard myself laughing, was it my fault?Blame me for not falling in love with you so quickly, and for falling so deeply so quickly.So I hope to let you look at me more, and get a little more of your tenderness and beauty?

But what can I do?What went wrong?Why did she finally reach the end, but ended up with nothing?

I obviously like him so much...I did everything for him...

Is this the retribution God gave me?

I raised my head and opened my trembling lips, "Haven't you ever thought about my feelings? Do you think I don't feel anything?"

"Of course I know how much pain it will cause you. So I don't want to see you, and I don't want you to know all this. As long as you are obedient, nothing will change. But you must ask."

"Hehehehe..." I laughed, my voice was dry and broken, "Why is it all my fault? Why am I always wrong no matter what I do?" I raised my head, grabbed his shoulder, and stared hard at his face. The bottomless black pupils, hoping to see even the slightest emotional fluctuations from inside, but there is nothing there... nothing...

"Zhao Yanshu...you are too ruthless!"

He closed his eyes, "I'm sorry."

Are you sorry?Are these three words the end of my three years of struggle?

I hate him...I've never hated a person like this...I looked at him, wishing I could stab a knife into his heart and dig it out to see what color it was!

I stood up, sneered a few times, and stared at him fiercely, "Zhao Yanshu, you are obviously Du Ruo's uncle, but you made him your queen. Aren't you afraid of being ridiculed for such a corrupt canonization?!"

He opened his eyes suddenly, and shot at me like a sharp sword.

But I don't care anymore, he can't hurt me any more.Even if it hurts, it's already numb.

I just want to get revenge on him, but there is nothing I can do.In the end I could only frighten him with such bravado.

But then what can I do?Really tell the truth to ruin his reputation?That's too exaggerated, he is just sorry for me alone, he is a wise king, and also a dedicated person, he is not guilty of death...

I think, I can only admit it, right?I deserve it, after being let down again and again, I still have to lean forward with a shy face.Why do I believe so that he really loves me?Why am I so confident that I will be the protagonist in the whole story?In fact, I was nothing from the beginning...

All I could do was take a deep breath, suck all the pain into my chest, and turn away.