Shuoyun Feidu

Beitang Zunyue picked up a sunspot casually and placed it on the chessboard. Beitang Rongdu sat in front of the chessboard, his brows slightly raised, his slightly pale face exuded a slight calm aura, and he held a black stone between his fingers. Bai Zier, fell gently in one place, it was the warm summer season, the sky was as clear as water, swan geese flew by in the clouds, the wind was lingering in the garden, blowing off the little petals on the branches, and the surrounding flowers and leaves were lush , It is quiet and beautiful everywhere, full of vanilla green vines, rockery and flowing water, the fragrance in the wind is overflowing, which makes people feel peaceful. The whole garden is built with ingenuity and exquisiteness. Beitang Rongdu and Beitang Zunyue The two sat cross-legged in front of the chess table together. The scenery here was obviously pleasant, but Beitang Rongdu couldn't feel any beauty. He looked down at the movement on the chessboard without saying a word. The more he looked at him, he was silent for a moment, and finally said lightly: "...I came to see you today, but you seem to be too quiet, are you still complaining to me?" Beitang Rongdu stared quietly at the chessboard , as if there was no focus, after hearing this, there was no obvious reaction, but the eyes were slightly condensed, picked up a smooth chess piece, and said softly: "...how could it be? I am father's son, Dad can do whatever he wants, not to mention that I have already begged, begged for forgiveness, and done everything I can, but all of these are useless, since this is the case, I have nothing to do, what else can I do."

As Beitang Rongdu said, he suddenly raised his head slightly, and looked sideways at Beitang Zunyue who was sitting next to him. His long black hair was covered with light golden brilliance from the sun, hanging behind him. The strands were scattered on the temples, making Beitang Rongdu's unusually calm facial features look a bit bewildered. He was silent for a moment, and then slowly said: "It's you who made me like this, it's you, it's all because of you , if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be like this now...it's all because of you." Beitang Rongdu paused, as if consciously slipping his tongue, but he didn't really care, he just moved his right hand holding the chess piece. Still lingering in mid-air, he continued: "It's not that I didn't hate you, I definitely didn't..." While speaking, he pursed his thin lips slightly, as if he was trying to hold back something, and his eyes were fixed on Beitang. On Zun Yue's face, there was a look in his eyes that he couldn't tell whether it was cold or bewildered. This time, he didn't maintain the absolute calm just now, but there was a hint of trance in his voice, and he said in a low voice: "Dad, you once said that you would love me forever, but now, you don't want to play this game anymore...you killed me."

Beitang Rongdu's accusations were extremely low, there was no hoarse accusation, nor the madness of a mad tiger before, as if he was talking about a very ordinary thing, but those sentences that were not sharp It still pierced Beitang Zunyue's heart, it was so painful, every word penetrated into the bottom of his heart, and Beitang Rongdu's flat and calm voice continued to ring in his ears: "...a few years ago, when you When I didn't say those things to me, I was fine, I didn't have much to worry about, but then you insisted on letting me be with you, you wanted me, so I became yours, not only doing Your son still wants to be your lover, although you didn't force me in the end, but if I don't agree, I'm afraid I will lose you...I'm afraid, I can't live without you, so you succeeded, didn't you. " When Beitang Rongdu said this, he suddenly tightened his grip on the chess piece in his hand, and said: "To this point, you have made mistakes, and I have made mistakes, but you can't deny that it was your fault at the beginning. , you killed me."

Beitang Zunyue remained motionless, like a sculpture, he couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, and he didn't know what he was thinking. After Beitang Rongdu finished speaking, he closed his eyes, lowered his head, and another The hand that had been on his lap all of a sudden stretched out and grabbed the sleeve of Beitang Zunyue next to him. His slender five fingers were as white as jade, and tightened bit by bit, as if he wanted to use this move to grab What are you doing? Beitang Zunyue's eyes moved slightly, and then he looked deeply at Beitang Rongdu, and Beitang Rongdu raised his face again at this time, looked back calmly, and used the same complicated gaze Looking at Beitang Zunyue, scrutinizing the man's handsome face carefully, he said in a low voice: "Father, don't ignore me, even if you don't want to be with me anymore, take back your affection for me , But, don't take my father away, I...I can't even have this. "

Beitang Rongdu's words were completely opposite to the madness of the two before when they broke up. There was no heart-piercing impulse, nor was there any hysterical absurdity. The words were like weeping blood, Beitang Zunyue's face trembled slightly, even though Beitang Rongdu held his sleeves in his palm, at this moment his heart seemed to be blocked by something, it was very uncomfortable. At this moment, he didn't know why he was a little shaken, and suddenly wanted to hug Beitang Rongdu into his arms, let go of his toughness and persistence, even if this love needs to be shared with others... But Beitang Zun But Yue still didn't do that after all, he raised his hand, put it on the top of Beitang Rongdu's head, and gently stroked the other's head, just like when Beitang Rongdu was a child, there was a ray of uneasiness hidden in his eyes. Visible affection, and said softly: "... I won't ignore you." Then, after a long silence, he looked at Beitang Rongdu's thin face, and the darkness in his eyes seemed to disappear, and continued: "I started As far as I can tell, you and Zhen are both bad-tempered people. There are some things that are too similar. When things go wrong, people like you and my father and son can only be tolerated by others, but they can't be tolerated by others all the time. I can't do it, and neither can you."

As Beitang Zunyue said, he gently stretched out his hand to stroke Beitang Rongdu's jet-black hair. Looking at Beitang Rongdu's face, which was obviously much thinner than before, he couldn't help feeling a little cramped in his heart. Beitang Rongdu He is his only child, the only real bond, no matter how cruel he is to cut off the evil relationship between the two, he still can't bear to let Beitang Rongdu suffer these pains... Beitang Zunyue's eyes gradually darkened , as if sighing silently, the hand placed on the top of the opponent's head slipped down, caressed Beitang Rongdu's cheek, and sighed: "You are right, it was indeed Zhen at the beginning, and I insisted on taking you in my hand." ...Rongdu, I can't help you."

Hearing this, Beitang Rongdu was stunned and speechless for a moment, he couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, he only knew that all the ups and downs in his chest rushed up, as if being stirred together by an invisible big hand, Incessantly, he was about to vent. In fact, he knew that he hated Beitang Zunyue for being ruthless, and hated this man for forcing himself into the endless abyss of disobedience, so that he could no longer climb out gradually. , but later abandoned himself relentlessly, turned around and left, but at the same time, Beitang Rongdu also knew that all this was not just like this, Beitang Zunyue really loved him, whether as a father or a lover , it's all the same, and he has been giving all the time, but the way the other party uses to express it may be different from ordinary people. The person who loves Beitang Rongdu the most in this world must be this man, and in his own Deep in his heart, the love for Beitang Zunyue is far greater than the resentment. While hating the other party's unfeeling, he still can't let go of that love.

At this moment, all kinds of words are in the bottom of my heart, but I can't utter them, Beitang Rongdu tried his best to suppress the slight tremor in his voice, and murmured: "Father, I was wrong, I shouldn't have said that... I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." At this moment, the lingering hatred in my heart finally dissipated, leaving only the longing for that warm embrace, Beitang Rongdu knew that the people in this world who were very close to him by blood, It's not just Beitang Zunyue, he is also a father, has his own children, all of them are his own flesh and blood, but his real relatives have always been only Beitang Respect more than a person.

The father and son sat quietly, no one spoke, only the bright sunlight shone on the garden where the birds were chirping, sprinkled with golden splendor, and the surrounding flowers were like stars, twinkling and blooming, Beitang Rongdu held the Beitang Zunyue's sleeves suddenly wanted to give up at this moment. According to his and Beitang Zunyue's dispositions, love will never be the whole of each other's lives. There are other precious things in life For example, at this moment of peace and relativeness, maybe there is no such thing as a love that is eternal and unswerving in this world. A long time is enough for the former eachother to gradually fade and dissipate from the bottom of my heart. No matter how unforgettable it is, as long as it is always Let it be placed there by itself and not be touched, then maybe one day it will become calm, and even if it is touched inadvertently in the future, it will only be melancholy and a little aftertaste... ...Looking back, there is neither wind nor rain nor sunshine. As long as you deliberately don't face it squarely, then after a long time, maybe you won't have much worrying feeling anymore.

As soon as I thought about it, I almost wanted to do this, to call the man next to me 'Father' affectionately, to forget all the past, to return to the simple filial piety of father and son at the beginning, and to keep walking peacefully. Go on, but, in the end, I am still unwilling, unwilling, and unable to let go of all the memories of the past with a smile... Beitang Rongdu thought, maybe he should cut off these thoughts first, and be peaceful with Beitang Respect and get along with each other, if there is a day of success in the future, then, if you still love this man so deeply, it will be fine, and if you have gradually forgotten it, then you will forget it naturally...

But even though he thought of this, he still felt very uncomfortable. Beitang Rongdu paused, then suddenly turned sideways, stretched out his arms and hugged Beitang Zunyue tightly, and said in a low voice: "When I was young, from time to time It will make you angry, but you will forgive me later, so, even if I have grown up now, you will always be like this, won't you?... Even if I do something wrong, please forgive me, because I...didn't do that on purpose." Hearing this, Beitang Zunyue thought that Beitang Rongdu was apologizing to him for what happened in the past, but he didn't know what Beitang Rongdu said and what he thought One is thinking about the past, and the other is talking about the future... At this moment, Beitang Zunyue couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. Now Beitang Rongdu's performance is clearly what he wants. The one who is also desperate, has also given up, and seems to have fulfilled his wish, but why is there no relief at all, and even rubbed the whole body so painfully?He suppressed the extremely complicated emotions in his chest, patted the top of Beitang Rongdu's head, and said in a low voice: "I will never forgive you...really."

As soon as these words came out, Beitang Rongdu couldn't help but tremble in his heart, and then he closed his eyes, still buried his face in Beitang Zunyue's chest, remained silent for a long time, then raised his head, and slowly let go of Beitang Zunyue Yue, said softly: "...Father, Jiaqi hasn't seen you for a long time. She misses you very much and always asks me to take her to see you. Go and see her now, okay?" Looking at Beitang Rongdu, he said: "...Okay." After hearing this, Beitang Rongdu stood up, and the two walked side by side towards Qionghua Palace.

When they arrived at Qionghua Palace, Shen Hanyan was not there. The palace people only said that they were going to ride horses at the racecourse, and Beitang Rongdu didn't care, and ordered someone to bring Beitang Jiaqi over. After a while, a small figure appeared at the door. Dressed in a light green shirt, combed with double hairdos, and holding a doll in his hand, it was the best time for Beitang, and when he saw Beitang Zunyue beside Beitang Rongdu, he immediately threw himself like a suckling swallow. Lin Tong threw away the puppet in his hand, ran straight over, threw himself in front of Beitang Zunyue, hugged the man's leg, shrugged his small mouth in grievance, looked up at the man, dragged After a long voice, he complained: "Grandfather, why did you come to see Luer..." Beitang Zunyue saw the girl, and felt an unspeakable feeling, leaned over and hugged her, Beitang Jiaqi used two small hands Putting his arms around his neck, he said aggrievedly: "Lu'er misses you very much, Daddy doesn't take Lu'er to see grandfather...why doesn't grandfather come to see Lu'er?"

The child's words were very simple, but it made people feel uncomfortable to hear them. Beitang Rongdu forced a faint smile and said, "Grandfather didn't come to see you because he was very busy. Why don't you come now?" Beitang Zunyue didn't know what to say, so he hugged Beitang Jiaqi and coaxed her to eat some snacks. After all, Beitang Jiaqi was a child at heart. After a while, he forgot the previous unhappiness and happily entangled with her. On Beitang Zunyue, instead of joking, Beitang Rongdu watched the scene silently, did not step forward, and did not want to disturb the grandparents, but walked out quietly by himself, leaving the quiet place where no one was disturbed. The world was left to the two of them.

Beitang Rong crossed out of Qionghua Palace. He didn't know where he was going for a while, so he just walked. At this time, the summer heat was not enough, and naturally it was not very hot. In the endless lake, lotus flowers were in full bloom. The fragrance of birds and flowers, Shili Qinglian is filled with a kind of sweet fragrance when it is in full bloom. Thinking of what happened just now, my heart was a little confused, so I simply removed the clothes on my body with one hand, leaving only a pair of trousers, and just stretched my feet into the water, only to hear a 'splash', and snow-white water splashed on the surface of the water, but people Has disappeared.

The lake water is very cool and transparent. It seems that no matter how turbulent the emotions are, they can be cooled down slowly and make people calm down. He raised his chest out of the water, took a long breath, and saw a small wooden boat not far away slowly passing through the lotus sea, gradually swinging into the depths of the lotus, and sitting on it was a slim boat. The figure, beautiful and beautiful, with blue silk and snow skin, is Mu Qingping. At this time, Mu Qingping inadvertently found Beitang Rongdu whose upper body was exposed on the water, so she swung the small wooden paddle and slowly paddled against the water. past.

The small boat gradually came in front of Beitang Rongdu. Under the sunlight, the surface of the lake glowed with a colorful light golden color, sparkling with sparkling waves, which almost made people feel dizzy. It was see through, as black as lacquer, clinging to the naked body, dripping drops of water fell from the broken hair on the forehead to the surface of the water, rippling round after round, Mu Qingping looked at it Looking at Beitang Rongdu's indifferent face, he seemed a little surprised, and asked: "...Why are you here?" The black aquatic plants only said: "It's just nothing to do."

"Yu Du loves that it comes out of the mud without being stained, and it is clean without being seductive... The flowers here bloom really well, much more beautiful than those elsewhere." Mu Qingping said while sitting on the bow of the boat with a smile on her lips. , the slender figure was reflected in the clear lake water, moving shimmeringly, Beitang Rongdu reached out and picked a lotus flower from the water, and threw it to her casually, Mu Qingping took it, then closed her eyes slightly, and sniffed lightly on it The fragrance of the lotus, the mouth slowly said: "Plucking lotus in Nantang Autumn, the lotus flower surpasses the head, bows the head to get the lotus seeds, the lotus seeds are as clear as water, put it in the sleeve of the lotus, the lotus heart is completely red, remembering Lang Lang, looking up at Feihong..." Bei Tang Rongdu listened, and if he felt something, there was something repeated in his heart, and he couldn't stop, thinking of Beitang Zunyue who was in Qionghua Palace at this time, but he only smiled faintly, and said: "'Yi Lang Lang can't come'... ...Could it be that you are thinking about someone." Mu Qingping's heart moved slightly, and then she blushed, and said: "...Who is there? You are talking nonsense again."

Although he said this in his mouth, he couldn't help thinking of Shen Hanyan, and he couldn't help but sighed secretly, but he was afraid that Beitang Rongdu would see something, so he changed the topic and said: "I have nothing to do all day, it's boring , I'll bring Jiaqi over to play." Beitang Rongdu turned his eyes slightly, and said lightly: "Don't go, father is in Qionghua Palace at this time." Mu Qingping was slightly taken aback when she heard the words: "...the emperor is here ?” Now that I heard that Beitang Zunyue was there, I didn’t say anything more, the two chatted casually, and broke up after a while.

It was almost noon when Shen Hanyan came back from the outside. At this time, Beitang Zunyue had already returned to the palace. Before leaving, he brought Beitang Jiaqi back. After Shen Hanyan returned to Qionghua Palace, he only saw Beitang Rongdu was alone, standing in front of the bookshelf flipping through the books on it, when he saw him coming in, he turned his head and said: "...go take a bath, I heard that you are going to ride a horse, the weather is hot, you must be sick Sweat." Shen Hanyan smiled, agreed, and said casually: "Where is Luer, why didn't you see her... If you come here usually, she won't be here." Beitang Rongdu slightly 'huh' She let out a sigh and said calmly: "Father came this morning, and Jiaqi hasn't seen her grandfather for a long time, so when father left just now, he simply took her back to the palace, and sent someone to send her back after staying for a day or two. "Shen Hanyan didn't say anything after hearing this. Seeing that it was almost noon, the two of them ate together and chatted casually.

Since then, the relationship between Beitang Zunyue and Beitang Rongdu's father and son has been restored. It seems that they have returned to the time when Beitang Rongdu had just returned to Unsheltered Fortress. Maybe it was intentional, or maybe it was the two of them. They all tacitly avoided everything in the past.

In the blink of an eye, it was the end of July. On this day, Beitang Rongdu was standing in front of the desk and practicing calligraphy. A servant came in and said with lowered hands: "...Reporting to the lord, the princess is making a noise to ask the lord to go to the racecourse." Beitang Rong After hearing this, Du couldn't help laughing and said, "What the hell are you doing, girl? Han Yan didn't keep an eye on her?" After thinking for a while, he put down his pen, washed his hands, and ordered someone to come forward and change his clothes. Then he went out.

When I arrived at the racecourse, I saw Beitang Jiaqi riding a black horse from a distance, wearing a water-red robe, wearing pink satin boots, beside Mu Qinghan, holding the rein with one hand, and sitting on the horse with the other hand. Beitang Jiaqi on his back, the two were smiling and didn't know what they were talking about. When Beitang Rongdu saw him, he narrowed his eyes slightly, but kept silent, but Beitang Jiaqi raised his little hand when he saw his father coming. He said with a grin, "Daddy, is Luer going hunting with Daddy?" Mu Qinghan kept his expression on the side, but when he looked at Beitang Rongdu, there was a smile in his eyes, Beitang Rong Du Chao nodded slightly at him, and then said to Beitang Jiaqi: "How old are you, and you want to go out? This king was six years old, and it was the first time to leave the house... you now How old are you, if you really lead you to hunt, what will you do if you bump into something accidentally?... Jiaqi is obedient, and I will take you there when you grow up." Beitang Jiaqi Raising his mouth, his beautiful eyes narrowed slightly, he flicked his horsewhip and muttered: "I don't want it, daddy is bad..." Beitang Rongdu was not willing to let his daughter make the child angry, so he just walked forward, stretched out his hand, He carried Beitang Jiaqi off the horse, turned around and handed it to an eunuch behind him, and ordered: "Send the princess back to the young master, and don't let her run around." Beitang Jiaqi was in the eunuch's arms like a twisted candy Struggling, he shouted angrily: "Daddy is bad, I don't want..."

Beitang Rongdu put on a straight face, raised his hand and slapped Beitang Jiaqi lightly on the head, and said, "Be obedient, don't be so self-willed. In a few days, Daddy will take you into the palace to play with your grandfather, eh?" After all, Tang Jiaqi was not a child who made trouble for no reason. Although she was not happy when she heard the words, she reluctantly calmed down. Seeing this, Beitang Rongdu smiled, and asked the eunuch to carry her back to Qionghua Palace.

For a moment, only Beitang Rongdu and Mu Qinghan were left on the spot. Beitang Rongdu touched Heima Youliang's body casually, and said, "...Why did you bring this girl here?" Looking at him, he said softly: "Jiaqi wants to ride a horse, so I'll bring her here." Then, he brought another white horse not far away, and said: "... If there is nothing important, why don't you go for a walk?" Beitang Rong Du glanced at the man, paused for a moment, and then responded: "That's fine." After speaking, he got on the horse, sat still, and grasped the rein with one hand. Seeing that Mu Qinghan was also on the horse, he moved his legs The belly of the horse under the seat, the two turned the horse's head and rode away together.

They said they were walking casually, but after they left the Qing Palace, before they knew it, it was noon and the weather was getting hotter. The two dismounted and found a place to rest. They tied the horses aside to graze, where flowers The sea is layered, paved with intoxicating colors, and even the water is full of petals of various colors, which are turned crimson, making the stream water faintly scented with a cold fragrance. Beitang Rongdu squatted by the stream and washed his face. Qing Han walked around the area, then brought back two hares, built a fire under the tree, and roasted the prey he had just caught on the fire. He also came over to help, and the two sat chatting and laughing, but they were comfortable.

After eating a meal of roasted rabbit meat, Beitang Rongdu and Mu Qinghan took a rest under the tree, who knows that the weather is unpredictable, and when they are sleeping soundly, they don't know that they are all right, and the sky is still clear just now , at this moment, the sky suddenly became overcast, and after a while, accompanied by the dull thunder from the sky, it suddenly fell with big raindrops. Beitang Rongdu was awakened, and hurriedly opened his eyes. Qinghan also woke up, both of them saw this scene, knew that there was going to be a heavy rain, they couldn't avoid it, got on their horses quickly, and had no time to think about anything else, since the heavy rain was coming, they had to rush to find a place where they could shelter from the rain place, take shelter temporarily.

The two of them had just found a cave, tied their horses firmly outside the cave, and there was already a heavy rain pouring down outside, splashing countless water splashes on the ground. Beitang Rongdu saw the rain pouring like a curtain outside the cave, and couldn't help but feel I was a little fortunate, and then remembered that it was fortunate that I didn't listen to Beitang Jiaqi's coquettishness and took her out to hunt. Otherwise, if we encountered this kind of weather, I'm afraid that she would easily get sick as a child.

At this time, the cave the two are in is not too big, it can only accommodate more than ten people, and it is a little damp, but there are many dead branches and weeds in the cave, so Mu Qinghan is around Gathering up some withered grass and tidying it up a bit, I let Beitang Rongdu sit down, and I sat beside him, sitting cross-legged on each other, chatting casually, just quietly waiting for the rain to stop.

A sound of thunder rolled across the sky in the distance, and the rain beat the leaves outside. It was as if a curtain of water had been hung between the sky and the earth, making it difficult for people to see the distant scenery clearly. Not long after, the heavy rain did not slow down, and at the same time, a little coolness outside gradually invaded the cave. In addition, Beitang Rongdu and Mu Qinghan also got some rain outside just now, so naturally they were not comfortable, so the two Then he collected the dead branches and weeds in the cave, lit them with flint, formed a fire, and started a fire.

The heavy rain was pouring down outside, and a damp and cold air poured into the cave. Mu Qinghan saw Beitang Rongdu who was beside him casually holding his knees with both hands, his face was thin, and his complexion was as white as transparent. The light blue blood under the clear skin, not even the light of the fire can add any color to the face, it looks like a very cold look, in fact, Mu Qinghan naturally knows that the cultivation base of Beitang Rongdu is already cold and hot Not invading, but still said: "...It was raining just now, why don't you bake the clothes outside."

Beitang Rongdu didn't care when he heard it, he looked down at the slightly wet robe, he gave a slight 'huh', then took it off casually, propped it up with dead branches, and put it next to the fire to roast Shit, Mu Qinghan next to him did the same thing, after he put on his clothes, he looked up and saw Beitang Rongdu sitting cross-legged again, because it was summer, except for the outer robe, only the close-fitting inner was left on his body.

The clothes were only made of a thin layer of white silk material, soft and close to the body, making the waist thin, and the limbs well-proportioned and slender. When Mu Qinghan saw it, for some reason, a strange feeling suddenly appeared in his heart, and he wanted to move away. Opening his eyes, he inadvertently saw a few strands of wet black hair on Beitang Rongdu's fair neck, which was an entanglement of pure black and absolute white, so charming that it was shocking. Mu Qinghan paused, and stretched out subconsciously. Going out, gently brushing the wet hair on the neck with his fingers, Beitang Rongdu was a little surprised, as if he was stunned for a moment by Mu Qinghan's slightly abrupt intimacy, and turned his head to look at the other party, but But they didn't say anything, for a while, the two looked at each other, it was raining outside, but it was quiet in the cave, only the light of the fire danced slightly, and there was no sound.