Shuoyun Feidu

Beitang Zunyue raised his eyes and looked at Beitang Rongdu opposite, his expression was calm, like a faint wind: "...you have to remember, Rongdu, you are the greatest achievement in my life." As he spoke, he looked Looking at Beitang Rongdu in front of him, there is a kind of sincere intimacy and love hidden in his eyes, and even affection, but for some reason, he deliberately pretends to not be seen, that calm and well-founded posture Underneath, in fact, I have been suppressing many complex emotions that cannot be cut cleanly. In fact, as a mature man and a father, he looks at his own flesh and blood with this kind of gaze that hides love, but Beitang Zunyue does not He felt unnatural in the slightest, and he didn't feel any evil or sin. In his memory, whether as a lover or a son, Beitang Rongdu has always been the image of a child, and will always occupy a certain place in his heart forever. In the corner, even if the other party has grown up and matured now, this image will still be like a day for decades, and it will still be like this until a long time later. Perhaps time is really the most amazing thing, and everything can be consumed by it Exhaustion, no matter what it is, good, bad, happy, painful, profound, indifferent, will pass in the end, just like the words his father Beitang Jinchen once said: people are like this , No matter how far-reaching the past is, with the passage of time, in the end, it is still possible to face it calmly.

--It's just that it's also possible that you really can't be calm, can't be indifferent, no matter what, you can't even pretend.

Beitang Zunyue's words seemed to have some kind of strange magical power. Beitang Rongdu heard it in his ears, and the hand that was holding on to the chess piece trembled slightly. At this moment, in this ordinary afternoon, he was suddenly caught Such a few plain words moved him, and for some reason, he was so dazed in his heart that he couldn't speak. He seemed to raise his head subconsciously, staring blankly at Beitang Zunyue who was opposite him, and at his father's good luck card. Shenxiu's face, he had never heard this sentence from the man in front of him. At this moment, the eyes of the father and son intersected through the faint sunlight in the afternoon. The two very similar faces faced each other. Du seemed a little surprised, and seemed to be a little clear or silent, and more, it was a sour and warm current surging in his heart, flowing quietly in a corner that no one could see. It turned out that many in life Many regrets, sometimes just because of the gradual changes after meeting, if life is always just the first meeting, always just stay at the moment when we first met, how wonderful it would be, because that is just the beginning of countless possibilities , It’s just the beginning, but I haven’t experienced the repeated twists and turns and sufferings in the middle, and I haven’t seen the ending... Beitang Rongdu suddenly lowered his eyelids slightly, looked down at the chessboard, wondering if he was avoiding something , or trying to hide something, just at this moment, he is no longer the powerful and ambitious king of Chu, nor is he the crazy Beitang Rongdu who was ruthlessly abandoned by love, he is just a man who seems to follow his memory Back to a person a long time ago, he saw his young and strange father at a glance, and since then established a certain tone that has influenced his life, like a fetter, like a fate, meeting someone who may be right or wrong among thousands of people People, found that he was here, even though he was a step late, he still caught up, even though it was obviously the wrong time, the wrong object, and the wrong start.

The father and son sat under the same tree, with the snap of their fingers, flowers flew like rain, Beitang Rongdu looked at the chessboard fixedly, pinching the chess pieces with his fingers, the knuckles were already showing slight signs of whitening, Beitang Zunyue The words are so trance-like, vaguely like they reappeared yesterday, but these gentle words are like sharp knives gouging out the heart one by one, cutting the flesh and blood. The hearts that are closest to each other are basically one, but when there is love between each other because of thoughts, love because of love, hatred because of love, more power, more fame, more profits, and many things, they He is no longer so close to him, no more, so he can only walk forward slowly like now, towards a dangerous goal, can't turn back, and don't want to turn back, in fact, maybe One day a long time later, when I accidentally recall what I am doing now, I will feel stupid, and I can’t remember what I insisted on for, and even at that time, I have already forgotten that I used to let myself die or live But at least for the moment, what I hope most in my heart is to accompany someone to watch the thousand mountains and snow, and the mountains and rivers are picturesque.

Speaking of which, he, Beitang Rongdu, is nothing more than a person who is as powerless as others when faced with a tough fate. He can only struggle hard and try his best to win a game. To avoid being hurt, he would rather fail everyone than others. He may be very strong in strength and spirit, but sometimes his heart is very fragile. Perhaps, deep down in his heart, he has always been Longing for something to ignite his own life, at this moment, Beitang Zunyue appeared, and involved him in a grand dream with a love that was so intense that it was almost forced.

How heart-piercing, exhausted all the strength in the whole body, to be able to pretend to be calm and force a smile, lock all the past in the memory box, forcefully pull people back to the place at the beginning, as if everything It never happened... When Beitang Rongdu heard Beitang Zunyue's words, something seemed to hurt in his mind, which made people dizzy. As if nothing had happened, he said with a smile: "Father said that, I feel embarrassed. In fact, when it comes to truth, I should be glad that I was able to give birth to a good baby and was born in Beitang's family... There is always a relationship between people in this world. It is different. There is a kind of person who almost wants everything from birth, and everyone around him will turn around him, while there is another kind of person who wants nothing but suffering from birth. If I am not Father's son, I don't know what it will look like now."

Beitang Rongdu spoke softly, but his gaze quietly turned to Beitang Zunyue's wide sleeves. The brilliant dragon patterns embroidered with gold thread on the man's clothes slightly hurt his eyes. He has never been like this before. In this way, why do people have power? It is only because power can give a person the freedom to choose, that kind of power that is as powerful as a god, controls the life, death and fate of all beings, and makes everyone fear and hate. People with this kind of power have the power to choose or refuse at will... What's the point of being born in this world if you can't get what you want?Even if there is no redemption, you have to fight! ...Beitang Rongdu took a deep breath. There was a fierce conflict between emotion and reason in his heart, but the temptation brought by this power still firmly pulled him in. The kind of tearing apart all reason and morality, just to A person's crazy behavior is the real bloom in his life.

At this moment, the wind suddenly picked up a bit, blowing Beitang Rongdu's hair. Beitang Zunyue looked at the other party, staring quietly, there was some fluctuation in his eyes, and he couldn't tell what it was like. He was such a child. The son of Beitang Zunyue, Beitang Rongdu, you can call him good or bad, but he just takes everything that is crazy or even evil, without rush, without impulsiveness, or in other words, it is not true. His impulsiveness, he is full of vigor, he is very powerful, but also often glib, his image is within reach, so real, he is also very honest and detached about what he does, this is such a person, let He, Beitang Zunyue, fell into the abyss of love and could not extricate himself... Beitang Zunyue suddenly raised the corners of his mouth slightly, as if he was smiling, and said: "...Du'er, you have really grown up, you have grown up He's a man." Beitang Rongdu smiled slightly, loosened the gentle chess piece in his hand, and said softly, "Why do you say that suddenly? Although I've grown up gradually, my father is still like this, not the same as before. There is no difference, I remember you were like this when you left Unsheltered Fort, but now more than ten years have passed, you are still the same as you were back then." Beitang Rongdu smiled lowly when he said this, with an expression on his face. The room is so peaceful, so peaceful, but there is a faint sigh: "...Although Dad is not old, how can I not grow up."

Just as he was talking, Beitang Jiaqi suddenly walked over quickly, dressed in cherry-colored clothes, carefully embroidered with Zhai Fenglingyun's pattern, and red roses bloomed on the skirt, with mung beans in the center A pearl of all sizes, an exquisite and dazzling hundred flowers on her head, and a thin crystal necklace hanging down towards the small phoenix crown. When she moves, she can only hear the delicate and crisp sound of pearls and jade, accompanied by her picturesque eyebrows, she is really like a beautiful woman. Like a little fairy, she stepped forward and hugged Beitang Zunyue's arm, and said with a smile: "...Grandfather, look, doesn't it look good?" As he said, his right hand reached out to Beitang Zunyue's face, pinching the snow-white little hand Beitang Zun Yue patted Beitang Jiaqi's little head, and talked to her with a pleasant smile, and the grandparents and grandchildren enjoyed themselves happily.

Beitang Rongdu watched this scene with a faint smile on his face, and he didn't interrupt. After a while, Beitang Jiaqi ran back to play with Beitang Runyou, and Beitang Zunyue and his son continued to play chess while playing chess. Not long after they were talking, the two of them, for some reason, talked about the bow and horse riding and shooting. Beitang Zunyue looked intently at the chessboard in front of him, his thin lips slightly curled up, and said with a soft smile: "...I got it a while ago." A good horse is better than your 'Zi Dian Liu', and this year's autumn hunting, I will be the first." When Beitang Rongdu saw him talking about these easy topics, he also followed the other party's intentions and picked them up. In ordinary words: "Father is very stingy, and he won't let me ride a good horse. According to me, your horse may not be better than 'Zi Dian Liu'." Beitang Zun Yue said: "... ...Where is I being stingy? There are always good things that I let you choose, but because the horse has such a strong temper, no one else can ride it except me."

Beitang Rongdu lowered his eyes and smiled slightly, playing with the chess piece between his fingers, and said in a soft tone: "Is your temper very fierce... Actually, what's the matter, no matter how violent a horse is, I can subdue it , if it is really disobedient, you can simply kill it with a knife. After all, no matter how expensive a horse is, if it does not listen to people's driving, it is useless." They are father and son, your temperament is really similar to mine... In the next life, maybe you will still be blood relatives of father and son."

Beitang Rongdu also smiled, and said: "...So it seems that it is really possible." He echoed Beitang Zunyue, but he was thinking with a smile in his heart, how is this possible?Life is short for a hundred years, and after that, I will walk through Wangchuan, drink Mengpo soup, and forget everything. It is like saying goodbye to my previous life. It is death in the true sense, and my unexpected reincarnation is just a fluke. Maybe he is so lucky every time, that's why he doesn't care about the next life or not, even if there is a next life, will Beitang Zunyue still be Beitang Zunyue at that time, even if we can meet again, but if the appearance is different, the temperament is different The smile is different, the things I have experienced are different, everything is different from before, completely different from the Beitang Zunyue in my memory, then, will that still be the person I love, no If there is such a tone of speech, there will be no such expression, no such habit, and there will never be any more. Such a person is no longer Beitang Zunyue, but another A brand new soul...Beitang Rongdu thought so, but he still kept a smile on his face, and said, "...Father."

"Huh?" Beitang Zunyue responded, and raised his eyes slightly, "What's the matter." Beitang Rongdu pressed his thumb and said leisurely: "I want to say, when the two of us grow old and die soon If I die first, then you must remember that when you meet in the next life, no matter what I become, don’t be impatient. If I have forgotten a lot of things in the past, you can help me slow down. Think about it slowly." These words were spoken flatly, as if he was talking about what the weather is like today, but the more Beitang Zun listened, his heart trembled slightly, and he paused before responding with his usual expression. Said: "...OK."

After the two of them said this, they didn't know why, but they all fell silent at the same time. Beitang Zunyue sat on the brocade stool, squinting his eyes slightly, as if he was basking in the sun. In fact, if it wasn't for the love, how could it be like this? In this way, the illusion of being ruthless and loveless... At this time, the light like pieces of gold sprinkled the sky and the ground. Compared with the majestic emperor sitting high on the dragon chair on weekdays, the current Beitang Zun Yue is more like It was an ordinary young man who was quietly spending his free time in his garden. Beitang Rongdu looked at his face that hadn't changed in the slightest compared to many years ago, and suddenly felt almost imperceptible. Sighing secretly in his heart, he thought, maybe no one in this world can foresee the future, you don’t know when you will grow up, you don’t know when you will succeed, and you don’t know when you will grow up. Falling in love with someone... Thinking of this, Beitang Rongdu couldn't help but take a serious look at Beitang Zunyue. Under the sun, Beitang Zunyue was as young as a silhouette in his memory.

As if sensing his gaze, Beitang Zunyue didn't move, instead he smiled and said: "...the older you get, the more you look like me, but recently you have lost a lot of weight, but your spirit seems to be more It's better." Beitang Rongdu smiled casually, naturally he didn't reveal anything, there was a sense of freedom in his smile, and said: "Although he is a little thinner than before, his body is still very strong, that's all. As long as you take care of it slowly, you will be able to grow stronger, and there is no rush for such a short period of time." As he said this, he thought of the words of the former imperial physician in his heart, so unconsciously, even the smile on his face flashed After a bit of reluctance and bitterness, there was no sun in his world, but it was not a dark night after all, and he was used to it, and he didn’t complain, just because he had never had it before, and he didn’t know how it felt. So it doesn't matter to lose, but later Beitang Zunyue gave him this kind of warmth and light, which made him gradually rely on this feeling, so when Beitang Zunyue took this light back, he could no longer accept it , For this reason, I don't hesitate to take risks, to grab, to snatch, to grab everything that I once owned. Since this person may not automatically look back in his life, then I will go to the front and let him face up to it again... At this time, Beitang Zun Yue didn't know why, and suddenly put down the chess piece, and said in a flat tone: "...Du'er, walk with me."

--Love is born from the heart, the reason why the heart is moved by people is just because of the word "love", even if you are determined to abandon it, but the "only lower your eyebrows, but your heart" is still because of love, love A thought is invisible and has no trace, how to cut it off?

Bei Rongdu agreed, nodded to Beitang Zunyue, stood up, and the two walked side by side, walking slowly on the path paved with hexagonal stones in the garden, Beitang Zunyue narrowed his eyes slightly Eyes, staring at the scorching sun in the sky, in fact, love is like a fire, even if it was burning very hot and warm at the time, if no firewood is added to it, as time goes by, this flame will also burn. Gradually become weaker, as if he will not always tolerate Beitang Rongdu unconditionally, because even if he loves again, he will still be tired, and he will be as tired as ordinary people. When he loves this person, he can compromise again and again, but when he gradually finds that even though he has infinite patience and puts all his enthusiasm into it, the other party will never reciprocate in the same way, his heart begins to grow. It gradually became colder, because he was only one person after all, and he didn't have a steady stream of feelings that could be squandered by another person... Beitang Zun grew his hair back to his shoulders, and the ends of his black and shiny hair snaked down silently. The moment he raised his head, strands of hair brushed over his face as sharp as a knife, and the sun's golden light immediately filled his deep eyes, and he suddenly said: "...Du'er, tell me, in your eyes, what kind of person is I?" What kind of person?"

Beitang Rongdu was startled for a moment, and then he lowered his head and smiled. He knew that he didn't want to turn back, and he couldn't, but he just said: "What kind of person...Father, in my eyes, you should probably be a very dignified person. He is a very kind person." Bei Tangzun listened more, and seemed to be a little surprised: "...Oh?" He smiled, and the eye stone on his right ear hung down a long tassel, following the walking His movements swayed slightly, brushing his cheeks lightly, Beitang Zunyue turned his eyes slightly, looked thoughtful, and smiled lightly: "I have always been loyal to myself in everything I do in my life. I don't believe in fate, I never believe in it." , what you want, you can work hard and get it by yourself." He said, his eyes almost imperceptibly passed over Beitang Rongdu's handsome face, and he sighed slightly in his heart: "In my life, I can love you because I believe in tenderness. Others bow, give in, compromise, but never forever, never."

"...I know." In the quiet garden, Beitang Rongdu, who was holding hands behind him, said in a low voice. He seemed to be a little dazed, as if in a dream, and he just accompanied Beitang so idiotically. Beside Zunyue, walking slowly, the surrounding is silent and hot, where the wind passes by, the flowers on the tree gently fall down, making a slight 'plop' sound, in fact, Beitang Rongdu has understood a long time ago Now, I can see clearly, what kind of fearless existence his father Beitang Zunyue is, sometimes he is too calculating, and one day he will count himself in, but Beitang Zunyue may It's back to basics, so in the end, any calculations, threats, or powers are useless when they are placed in front of a man like Beitang Zunyue who ignores all external influences. He will not give in, nor will he When threatened by others, he will watch you jump up and down, and see the knife approaching, even if you kill him, his brows may not frown, so even if he succeeds in the future, at best, he will not give him the choice to leave The only way to make him change his mind is love and waiting...

Perhaps, this is one of the reasons why Beitang Zunyue can make himself so moved, so madly eager... For a long time, there seemed to be a distant sigh in Beitang Rongdu's lonely heart, and then it gradually faded away. Go, but suddenly a smile appeared on his face, that smile was very peaceful and peaceful, because he knew what he did, he didn't regret it, even if he was crazy, so what?Beitang Zunyue deserves his madness for this, and in the end, he just resigned himself to God's judgment, so Beitang Rongdu half-closed his long and narrow eyes, and said calmly with a smile: "...Dad In my life, I am afraid that I have never been coerced by anyone or anything, but I am different. In this world, I sometimes bow my head or even give in for some things, but even so, I will never Giving up my chance of success, what I want to do, and all the choices I make are all willing... In the end, it is actually the same goal by different routes, and I am still very similar to you, Dad."

The light golden sunlight cascaded down from among the lush green branches, casting a large mottled dazzle on the ground, and also falling on the father and son. There was a trace of rosy and calm in Beitang Rongdu's face. Faced with the dry and fragrant sunshine, with his hands behind his back, although his face was thin, he smiled brightly, and his tone was somewhat sonorous. Looking at the white clouds in the sky, he said freely, "I dare not say that I can be compared with you, Dad." , but at least I dare to bear what I have done in my life and what the consequences will be... I have no shame in my heart." Beitang Zunyue listened carefully to Beitang Rongdu's words, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. The sunshine of the day was extraordinarily warm, and there was absolutely no trace of deliberate freezing between each other. He stared intently at Beitang Rongdu, with a look of kindness in his eyes, raised his right hand unconsciously, and gently touched Touching the top of Beitang Rongdu's head, it was exactly the same as before. His slender palms stroked Beitang Rongdu's dark hair, and he sighed with pity: "Silly boy." I don't know what he was referring to, Beitang Rongdu Du was stunned, there was a strange sadness in his heart, and at the same time, there was something warm coming up. This situation made him seem to have hallucinations, as if everything was the same as before, and he only felt that the world was so quiet , could almost hear the sound of flowers blooming and falling, but Beitang Zunyue only kept his eyes on him, seemed a little lost, and said: "... Du'er."

Beitang Rongdu gave a soft 'hmm', the sun was shining brightly on his crow-black temples, Beitang Zunyue's expression seemed to have not changed a bit because of the lost love between them, it was still warm Yes, the smile on the corners of his lips was still soft, Beitang Rongdu suddenly had a slightly sour nose, something stirred in his heart, mixed flavors, sweet and sour, a heart was pinched and rubbed until it was unbearably soft. After tossing about things, his heart has become as hard as iron, but Beitang Zunyue's intimacy unconsciously shown at this moment still makes Beitang Rongdu's eyes sour... Beitang Rongdu narrowed his eyes slightly without showing any trace Eyes, to hide the real emotions that may be revealed in the eyes, and at the same time cut off the overwhelming warmth in his heart for this man, just because he knows that no matter how unbearable, no matter how separated, no matter how concealed, his eyes cannot always You can deceive people for a moment, and you still can't let go after all, so with a smile, blue Youyou's eyes gathered a clear color, looking at Beitang Zunyue, a peaceful smile floated on both cheeks, Beitang Zunyue gradually Losing his eyes, he patted Beitang Rongdu on the shoulder, and said, "Come and walk with me."

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"You can pick lotus in the south of the Yangtze River, lotus leaves in He Tiantian... Fish play with lotus leaves in the east, fish play with lotus leaves in the west, fish play with lotus leaves in the south, fish play with lotus leaves in the north..."

Ten miles of lotus seas are fragrant, green leaves and red flowers are boundless, the water waves are shimmering like gold under the sunlight, in the warm wind blowing from the lake, there is a faint singing of the palace goddess, and the afternoon sun is blocked by the emerald green lotus leaves that cover the sky , During the boating, she didn't feel hot at all. Mu Qingping sat leaning on the bow of the boat, with five or six lotus pods piled up beside her, and she still held one in her hand, slowly peeling fresh lotus seeds and eating them.

The small boat leisurely passed through the lotus sea, accompanied by the young woman's melodious singing, Mu Qingping raised her head by accident, looked at the majestic palace looming in the distance, and suddenly had a thought, and immediately looked at her without looking back. Gong'e, who was rocking the boat, said: "...Go straight to the left and go to Qionghua Palace to have a look." Someone behind him responded, and the boat turned around slightly, and then slowly headed towards Qionghua Palace.

The hall was quiet and silent, the bead curtains were half rolled, and there was a faint scent of lilies as calm as water, and the sound of cicadas not far from the window made the hall extraordinarily quiet, Mu Qingping came a little abruptly, and the servant outside reported With a cry, she walked straight in, and as soon as she got inside, she looked up and saw a figure standing in front of the desk by the window, jumping into her sight without any warning, it was a very handsome man A beautiful man, in fact, logically speaking, the word 'beautiful' should not be used to describe a man, but when seeing this man at this moment, this word must be the first word that pops up in anyone's mind. Meiyu should be smooth and moist, her skin is like the first snow, with a soft luster, but she doesn't have any femininity. She only wears a snow-white gown, a bun on her head, and a green jade hairpin. There is no obvious decoration, and the whole body does not have the slightest air of human fireworks. He is holding a book in his hand, and he is slowly reading while standing in front of the window.

When Shen Hanyan saw Mu Qingping coming in, she just nodded with a slight smile. Mu Qingping walked faster on the road, and there was a little sweat on her forehead, and her face was rosier than usual because she was exposed to the sun just now. Many, Shen Hanyan asked someone to pour her a cup of iced sour plum soup, put down the book in his hand, and said: "...the chef just made the sour plum soup today, and drink a bowl to cool off the heat first." Mu Qingping stretched out her hand to hold the porcelain He took a sip slowly, then looked around and said, "Why didn't you see Jiaqi?"

The hall was quiet, warm wind slowly blowing in from the long open windows, carrying a burst of fragrance of lotus, lingering, Shen Hanyan sat down with his clothes up, with a faint smile on his lips, making him look more and more dignified Che, said: "...Beitang brought Lu'er and Ju'er into the palace today to greet His Majesty. They probably won't come back in a while." Mu Qingping gently Oh', the almond eyes drooped slightly, and the long oily black eyelashes were like butterfly wings. His gaze flicked across the young man's face, and he said, "I heard that you haven't slept well at night lately?" Shen Hanyan smiled, That kind of indifferent smile made people feel calm for no reason, and said with a disapproving smile: "It's just because of the sweltering weather, I used to do that often, it's not a big deal."

Mu Qingping took a sip of sour plum soup slowly, stroked the exquisitely embossed decorations on the cup wall with her slender fingers, and said in a casual tone, "...I have a prescription for calming the mind and calming the mind. , mix mint, honeysuckle, white snake grass, chrysanthemum, andrographis, cassia, luminous sand and smilax, make a sachet and take it with you, and put it next to your pillow at night... I haven’t slept well recently , That’s how it’s cured, it’s indeed much better, and it should be very effective for you, why don’t you give it a try.” As he spoke, he untied the sachet he was wearing from his waist and wanted to hand it over, his voice seemed to be With a slight hesitation, he lowered his eyes slightly and said in a low voice, "This is the one I just made, you... just take it and use it."