from my heart [last days]

On the seventh day after leaving the ICU, Xie Lin did not appear again.

Su Shiqing was always in a hurry when he showed up occasionally, Peng He guarded the door of the ward but did not dare to come in, and Yan Shen, as the first discoverer of Cheng Yinshang, was busy filing a case against Zhou An in the past two days, and would come every evening Look at him, but still refuse to talk to him.

The days of recuperation are actually a bit boring. The hospital barely continues to work under the maintenance of the government. There are not many doctors and nurses, and there are even fewer patients. Xie Congxin has booked the top floor by himself, and he does not see many living people all day .Su Yuzhi and Yan Jing were driven away by Xie Congxin on the first day because they were too noisy and couldn't take care of others. His assistant Li Luo was ordered to take over Xie Congxin's care.

He has recovered a lot, can eat liquid food, can speak, and can sit up from the bed. Li Luo will bring new experimental data to check him every day, and let him arrange the next things.

The three meals were prepared by nurses, Xie Congxin read the information, Li Luo had nothing to do most of the time, and today he took an apple and peeled it for fun.On the bed, Xie Congxin drank a glass of water, watched while drinking, and asked her casually, "How about my injury report?"

Li Luo smiled and said: "The reports are all with the teacher and Senior Brother Yan, we haven't seen them yet."

With her natural expression, Xie Congxin understood that Su Shiqing and Yan Shen had concealed the reason for his injury.

Xie Congxin turned a page of the report and asked again, "When will I be discharged from the hospital?"

Li Luo neatly divided the apple into six equal parts, took out one piece and cut it into a rabbit shape, and said, "The doctor said that at least the calf and leg bones should be healed before being discharged from the hospital, which is estimated to be after the first month."

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, so it doesn't matter if you don't celebrate the festival, Xie Congxin said: "I can't give Captain Pei blood transfusions for a few days, how is he doing?"

Li Luo hesitated: "I don't know either, they don't tell me anything."

In fact, she knew a little bit, but Yan Shen warned her not to mention Pei Ze's matter with Xie Congxin.

She put the rabbits in a circle on the plate, and put the plate on the head of the bed. Xie Congxin raised his eyelids and took a look: "I can't eat it."

Li Luo pretended to be surprised: "Ah... I forgot."

Xie Congxin looked at her coolly, Li Luo put down the knife and said, "What should I do? Fruits are hard to come by these days, so it's not easy to waste them, why don't I send them to the next door?"

Next door is Cheng Yinshang with two steel nails on his ribs.

The little girl hadn't hidden her heart from the first day she was admitted to the hospital. Xie Congxin ordered some dishes and said, "It's very rare. I can't find ten boxes in the whole of Beijing. The condolences sent by the headquarters—for me."

The implication is that if you want to use my apples to please others, you must first obtain my consent.Li Luo rolled his eyes and complained half-truthfully: "How do these people in the headquarters do things? Don't you know that seniors can't eat? Why don't you send something else?"

Xie Congxin made a short nasal sound, turned his head to read the report, and didn't want to let go.

Li Luo smiled and said: "Speaking of which, I saw Peng Peng's father yesterday when I came here. I heard that he is their old captain."

Xie Cong didn't look sideways.

Li Luo looked at his face, "They seem to have mentioned Captain Pei, but I didn't hear a few words, I just heard them mention some military hospital, and I don't know which one it is, why don't I ask ?”

Xie Congxin finally twitched the corner of his lips, glanced at the fruit basket on the bedside table from the corner of his eye, "Go, take this one with you too, it takes up too much space."

Li Luo immediately beamed with joy, and took the plate but did not take the basket, "No need, one a day, come and go often!"

She went and returned quickly, and sat next door for about 10 minutes. When she came back, her hands were empty, but her eyes were shining, like a primary school student who had won an award. Xie Congxin gave her a slightly disgusted look. The little girl was not shy either, and sat down on the chair: "Brother, what kind of eyes do you have! Let me tell you that you were more crooked than me when you were with Captain Pei! Did I laugh at you? Did I despise you?"

"..."

Xie Congxin put down the document he had finished reading, "So how is the person?"

Li Luo knew that he was worried, so he didn't keep it up: "I heard that I just woke up yesterday, and there is no danger."

Xie Congxin nodded, Li Luo coughed again, and suddenly said out of nowhere: "Then what, Peng Peng said to tell senior brother not to sleep too much tonight, he will watch over you."

Xie Congxin paused for a moment, then nodded again.

In fact, he is a light sleeper. He slept too little a while ago, so he slept more deeply. These days, he has closed his eyes for more than half of the time every day, and the sleepiness at night is not so heavy, so he dreamed again He woke up very quickly in the sea that day, and met Pei Ze's eyes without any accident.

The hand that wasn't dripped was being held, and they looked at each other silently for a few seconds.

It has been two weeks since the accident, and Pei Ze has lost a little weight. The gauze on his forehead has not been removed, and he is wearing a thin sweatshirt with the zipper closed, so the injury inside cannot be seen.

Xie Congxin broke the silence and smiled at him first: "Come out secretly?"

Pei Ze tightened his grip on his hand, and responded in a low voice.

Xie Congxin didn't intend to sit up, so he asked him in this posture: "Will you go back later?"

"One hour." Pei Ze's voice didn't sound very good. It should be that the bullet burned the trachea when it passed through the lungs.

The injury was so severe, he just woke up yesterday and appeared in front of him today, Xie Congxin didn't say anything, but moved a little towards the bed and said, "Come up, lie down with me for a while."

Pei Ze nodded, first stuffed his hands back into the quilt, then lay down carefully on his side, with his arms lightly on his waist, and half embraced him in his arms.

Even if no one told him, it would not be difficult to guess. Xie Congxin turned over and leaned against his arms, feeling his body temperature and breathing, and touched his chest with the hand between the two of them. and the bandage underneath, lightly touched the place where he was shot, and asked him in a low voice: "An operation?"

"Yeah." Pei Ze rubbed the top of his head.

"Is the bullet out?"

"Take it out."

"It got better so quickly because of the virus?"

"……Um."

The physical intimacy that he hadn't experienced for a long time made the uneasiness of the past two weeks dissipate a lot, Xie Congxin tilted his head slightly, leaned his forehead on his stubble chin, and hugged him quietly for a while in this position, Suddenly asked again: "Are you crying?"

Pei Ze paused, but did not answer.

Xie Congxin reached up, touched the corner of his eyes, and said, "It's salty."

Pei Ze grabbed his hand, his five fingers were extremely stiff, but the force on his skin was careful and light.

Yes, it is salty.

His tears, and Xie Congxin's tears, intertwined at the end of the day, were as salty as sea water.The moment he woke up, he felt overwhelmed for the first time looking at the shocking injuries on Xie Congxin's body. Those traces of destruction came from him, and he hurt Xie Congxin.

He didn't expect Xie Congxin to remember.

Xie Congxin raised his head and looked into his eyes. The dark pupils reflected the light coming in from the corridor, revealing some emotions hidden in the darkness, like the rising tide under the moonlit night, quiet but turbulent. Everything is drawn into the deep sea.

What do you like about him?The eyes are undoubtedly one of the reasons.

Xie Congxin pressed his fingertips on his forehead where the gauze hadn't been removed, and Pei Ze lowered his head obediently, expressing his submission with this tiny movement, Xie Congxin said: "Captain Pei, you have worked so hard to come here, there is nothing you want to do to me. Did you say that?"

Of course, Pei Ze's lips were pressed against the meridian on the inside of his wrist, countless emotions filled his chest, but he didn't know where to speak.

Xie Congxin took some hands off and pressed his thumb on his dry lips, "I'm sorry so don't say it, this time it won't be so easy to forgive you."

You can never forgive me, Pei Ze thought, because I can never forgive myself, and all words can't express a ten thousandth of this guilt.

He lowered his eyes, held Changan's thinner hand bone, lowered his head to kiss him, licked his lips and tongue, gently and slowly, Pei Ze gave a soft "um" when they parted.

Can't say it, but fortunately they still have a future, and he will integrate all the words he can't say at this moment into the future time.

Xie Congxin found a comfortable position in his arms, and closed her eyes again.

When we don’t meet, there are always a lot of things I want to say. When I really meet, I confirm that the other party is fine, and I feel that there is nothing to say. This precious hour is really a waste of talking.

The smell on Pei Ze's body was mixed with the smell of laundry detergent, dry and warm. He leaned against Pei Ze's arms and fell back asleep listening to his heartbeat.

He is always quiet when he sleeps. Pei Ze knew this on the way back from the heavy city. Xie Congxin doesn't move much at night, and likes to sleep on his side. Grabbing the hem of his clothes, he hugged the tall man in his arms, the top of his head could just touch his chin, and every part fit just right.

Pei Ze just looked at him in the dark, the broken hair on his forehead, the densely packed eyelashes, the raised corners of his lips, the shimmering light on his profile, engraved every detail into his heart.

I have something to say, but not yet.

When Xie Congxin's breathing slowed down evenly, Pei Ze seized the time to get up and kissed him again on the wrist before leaving. Xie Congxin didn't wake up.

Peng He was guarding outside the ward, seeing Pei Ze come out on time, he was surprised and asked him in a low voice, "Are you leaving now?"

Pei Ze silently closed the door and shook his head at him.

Peng He didn't understand what he meant, so he got on the elevator with him, and walked outside the hospital. Father Peng was leaning against the car and smoking a cigarette. Pei Ze walked over, and he only glanced at him, and said, "Is the wound open?"

"A little bit." Pei Ze unzipped his waterproof sportswear jacket and threw it into the back seat of the car. Only then did Peng He realize that blood was oozing from his chest, and the shape of the bandage was through through the thin t-shirt. come out.

More than just a little bit, it was a gunshot wound, the metal bullet entered the body with huge kinetic energy, and it could be healed in just a dozen days, Peng He hastily yelled "Captain", Pei Ze looked up at the hospital without changing his expression The direction of the top floor.

Peng He stood where he was, opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but Peng's father stomped out the cigarette, "Let's go, Academician Su and the others are waiting, take care of the wound by yourself."

Pei Ze didn't answer, just nodded, his figure stood upright in the night, his retracted gaze took away all the warmth and softness just now, and was as cold as a lone wolf in the moonlit night, Father Peng was too familiar with his gaze, That was his usual expression. It was Pei Ze, whom he had known for more than [-] years, even if he was alone, he was unstoppable.

Peng He didn't realize anything was wrong, and watched the car disappear into the night.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and the temperature has picked up a little in mid-February, and it's not very cold outside, so he walked back, breathed into his palms, thinking about going back to the compound tomorrow, and let his mother pack a few Bring a dumpling to Cheng Yinshang and Xie Congxin to taste.

Upstairs, Xie Congxin opened his eyes in the dark, and put a little dark color on his fingertips into his lips.

The almost imperceptible rusty smell was diluted in the saliva, and he moved a little towards the side where Pei Ze lay, covered his body with the remaining body temperature, and closed his eyes again.

The season of winter to spring is a great time to change from old to new.