from my heart [last days]

No matter what kind of person you are, you still have to pass the year.

In order to make the two left-behind patients Xie Congxin and Cheng Yinshang feel at home, the hospital was decorated with lights and festivities.Red couplets and blessings were hung outside the door of the ward. On New Year's Eve, when Li Luo was going back to her home, the two nurses on duty, Cheng Yinshang and Peng He, ate a simple New Year's Eve dinner in Xie Congxin's ward.

The dishes were cooked by Peng He's mother. Peng He went to pick them up in the afternoon and put them in an insulated box. There were vegetables and soup. Xie Congxin couldn't eat the dishes, so he was given a bowl of special bone soup without oil. Two mini dumplings stuffed with cabbage, shiitake mushrooms and pork were wrapped not much bigger than a fingernail. Xie Congxin swallowed it without tasting any flavor.

He finished the soup without changing his face. Peng He didn't know that there was no salt in the soup, so he leaned up to him and asked, "Is it delicious? My mother is good at cooking. She taught the team leader."

It has no taste, but it doesn't hinder the review. He recalled Pei Ze's craftsmanship and nodded seriously, "It's delicious."

"We'll eat when you're both well," Peng He happily turned to Cheng Yin and said, "Call uncle and aunt to join us."

Cheng Yinshang, who was sandwiched between the front and back of the steel plate, sat on the wheelchair and smiled, "Okay."

Only then did Xie Congxin realize that Cheng Yinshang also had parents.

Seeing him looking over, Cheng Yinshang reacted quickly and explained to him with a smile: "They are at home. I was afraid they would be worried, so I didn't tell them. They thought I was on duty tonight, and I would go back to see them when I recovered from my injuries. .”

After all, it was because he was injured, Xie Congxin felt a little guilty, nodded and said, "Tell me before you go back." The National Academy of Sciences sent him a lot of things, most of which he didn't need, and it was just right for Cheng Yinshang to bring them back.

There was no Spring Festival Gala at night, so the two nurses moved Cheng Yinshang's bed to Xie Congxin's room, set up a table, and let the two patients watch the three alive and kicking.

Xie Congxin lay on the bed and watched. He memorized the cards quickly, and he could tell what was left in the hands of the three people from the cards they played. It was a god's perspective. He soon felt deeply desperate for Peng He's card skills.

It's not that his brain is not bright, but he really doesn't know how to count cards. The twenty grapes used as chips lost only three in less than an hour, and he was about to disappear.

One more loss and the game will be over. Peng He has a sad face. In the last game of life and death, the nurses have a tacit understanding and become farmers together. One of them has a pair of threes, and she has four cards left in her hand. Peng He can't judge. Whether it comes out to be a bomb|bomb, whether to be crushed to death after a moment of hesitation, or to follow along, keep the other one in prison, and keep the last revolutionary fire.

Xie Congxin couldn't stand it anymore, glanced at the pool, and knew that the little nurse couldn't possibly be holding a bomb, so he reached out and tapped Peng He on the back, calling him: "Two for two."

Peng He had a very obvious blind worship for Xie Congxin, and immediately obediently took out the cards and threw them on the table loudly. As expected, the nurses had no cards to suppress. Xie Congxin pointed to the combo of cards in his hand and brought Then he quickly played the rest of the cards.

Peng He finally won a hand, proud and elated, the corners of his mouth almost reached the corners of his eyes when collecting the grapes, the nurses said: "Academician Xie for cheating, it's so unfair!"

Peng He immediately hid the bowl of grapes behind his back: "Bah, bah, what cheating! My elder brother instructs my younger brother to play cards, how can it be considered cheating?"

The nurses all laughed out loud, and Xie Congxin twitched the corner of his lips, touched a grape from his bowl and ate it.

He didn't eat much, just took a small bite. The high-end gift fruit was actually quite sweet. He touched another one and handed it to Cheng Yinshang who was in the next bed.

"Ah! Brother! Why are you eating my grapes!" Peng He turned his head and found that the two he had just won were gone, and wailed on the spot.

Xie Congxin wrapped the grape skins in a paper towel and threw them into the trash can, "What's the rush, help you win it back."

Peng He immediately stopped howling, rolled up his sleeves and cleaned the pool twice, stepped on the chair with one foot like a gangster collecting protection fees, and dealt cards to everyone: "Come on! Come again! Look! My big brother cleaned up all of you!"

The nurses laughed and called him arrogant.

All the efforts now are probably for the sake of being so leisurely in the days to come.

At twelve o'clock, the security guy downstairs set off fireworks, a total of nine shots, which are said to be from last year's stock. Naturally, Xie Congxin would not ask Beijing where fireworks and firecrackers were banned a long time ago. The nurses opened the curtains , several people were sitting in the ward looking at the red, green and green lights, and one of the nurses suddenly sang in a low voice: "Unforgettable tonight, unforgettable tonight, no matter the end of the world or the end of the world..."

Xie Congxin never watched the Spring Festival Gala, but he was familiar with this song. He looked sideways, and the nurse stared out of the window with red eyes. Another older nurse put his arm around her shoulders and sang along with her. .

Sometimes I don’t feel good, and when I don’t, I miss it. For many people, this is probably the first time in their lives. New Year’s Eve is not accompanied by the Spring Festival Gala that was so common at that time. In the dark night, waiting for the signal to recover, waiting for the virus to be conquered, the end of the world to end, and the dawn to come.

When the nine fireworks came to an end, the nurses also finished singing. With tears in their eyes, they turned their heads and said "Happy New Year" to Xie Congxin. Xie Congxin responded with a blessing.

The nurses went to clean up the tables and chairs, Xie Congxin was still looking out the window in a daze.

Afterwards, the singing nurse came to shake the bed down for him. Seeing that he didn't look very interested, the nurse suddenly smiled and said, "With Academician Xie here, we will definitely be able to watch the Spring Festival Gala next year."

Xie Congxin returned to his senses with a "huh", only to realize that the eyes of everyone in the room were on him. The little nurse wiped away tears and made a cheering gesture to him, "You are our hope!"

The burden often puts pressure on others, but it also inspires motivation. Xie Congxin smiled at them and said, "And 'you' are my hope."

On the day of Lantern Festival, Xie Congxin was successfully discharged from the hospital, and Yan Shen drove to pick him up and sent him and Cheng Yinshang back to the hotel.

Xie Congxin had a slight fracture in his calf, and he didn't want to sit in a wheelchair, so the doctor gave him a three-legged crutch to walk slowly, but he didn't need help.After getting out of the car and going to the front desk, Xie Congxin naturally asked the front desk for the key cards of his and Pei Ze's rooms.

The room on the top floor had been cleaned, and it was spotless. It had been a long time since no one had lived in it. Xie Congxin went to his room and moved the remaining luggage to the next door.

Of course Yan Shen's face was not good-looking, Xie Congxin pretended not to notice, leaning on a cane with one hand, and slowly opened the closet door with the other, moved Pei Ze's to one side, and hung all his own in.

In fact, they have lived together for a long time. Since they were together, they have never slept separately. There are two toothbrushes in the bathroom, pajamas and underwear in the corner of the closet, Xie Congxin’s laptop on the desk, and a small but small one at the head of the bed. Some supplies that come in handy.

Yan Shen watched him go in and out to put things away, gritted his teeth and said, "You really are..."

Xie Congxin stopped and looked back at him, "What is it really?"

Yan Shen tried his best to control the expression on his face, trying not to make himself look too embarrassed: "Are you really willing to be fucked by him?"

The biggest contradiction between them used to be that Xie Congxin was only willing to be one.

Yan Shen also thought about backing down on this matter, but he couldn't say it anyway, and he still hoped that Xie Congxin would bow his head first.Then the virus broke out, and during the more than a month when he didn't receive any sporadic news from Xie Congxin, he was tormented by worry and fear, and finally thought about it thoroughly. As long as Xie Congxin was willing, he didn't care who went up or down.

It's just that I didn't expect that it would be so far behind by being so late.

There was no way to be reconciled, he thought that Xie Congxin should be as proud as a phoenix inhabiting a sycamore tree, but he didn't want the phoenix to turn around and willingly lie down under someone else.

He didn't ask very nicely, his words were almost rude. He thought Xie Congxin would be unhappy, but Xie Congxin just raised his eyebrows and asked him, "I look like I was forced?"

"..." Yan Shen didn't even know where his anger came from, "Why him?"

"Why can't it be him?" Xie Congxin opened the curtains of the room to let in the light from outside.

"If I said..." Yan Shen paused, "What if I said he was dead?"

Xie Congxin stopped tying the curtains, and Yan Shen saw his frowning against the light, "I don't ask, it doesn't mean I don't know anything. Either tell the truth, or don't say anything."

The cold war has been going on for almost a month, both of them are on fire, and they may break out at any time, Yan Shen can't help but want to smile bitterly, Xie Congxin is willing to bow his head in front of Pei Ze, but he is still unwilling to give in to him.

He suddenly felt a little tired, raised a hand and said helplessly: "Forget it...I admit defeat."

Xie Congxin just looked at him quietly.

"Kun Yuanpeng has been arrested," Yan Shen sighed, "You don't know yet, academician Xie turned himself in, and sued him for abetting your mother to commit suicide 23 years ago."

"..." Xie Congxin was silent for a moment, and said, "Kun Yuanpeng will not plead guilty, and Xie Lin has no evidence."

"Yes, there is no evidence, so we need to create evidence," Yan Shen said, "On New Year's Eve, he turned into a zombie and attacked the teacher."

Xie Congxin was startled, and immediately asked: "How is the teacher?"

"It's okay, don't worry. Captain Pei was with the teacher at the time." Yan Shen smiled, "You can ask them for details when they come back."

Everyone is fine, but they can't appear in front of him immediately.

Xie Congxin nodded and didn't ask any more.

Yan Shen didn't say any more, watching him shake off the quilt, shaking out countless dust in the slanting sunlight coming in.

At this moment, both of them understood very well that there was no going back to the past between them.