Plan carefully

, I know he is looking at me, and the previous nights, I would walk over under his gaze, and fall asleep, leaving him to breathe silently behind me.

What the hell am I doing?

I took off my shoes, climbed onto the bed, hugged his stiff body, and kissed his cold cheek. This person I swore to cherish was frozen to death by the moonlight just a few feet away.

"I'm sorry, Mu Yu, I'm sorry..." Tears fell silently into his clothes.

He slowly put his arms around me and put his lips on my eyes.

The severe pain suddenly exploded in my heart, and I couldn't help sobbing, "I have to let her live... Mu Yu... I'm her son... I'm really useless..." It turns out that I can't bear anything, as long as I live When I set off a small wave, I was photographed in pieces, and I didn't have any strength to resist.At first I thought it was a detached attitude to be indifferent to fame and wealth, but now it seems that I am so naive. We are born in such a realistic and cruel world, so what qualifications do we have to be indifferent to fame and wealth.

I cried for a long time, until I could barely breathe, and cried until I couldn't cry anymore.He hugged me, half of his clothes were soaked with tears, and I later became dizzy in his arms due to the lack of oxygen in the brain, and I heard him speak when I woke up like a dream.

"I'm sorry, An Ran, I'm sorry..." The voice was so hoarse that it was hard to recognize.

The next morning I unexpectedly received a call from my uncle, who told me to come to the chairman's office at the head office at nine o'clock.I suddenly had a glimmer of hope that maybe the resignation could be redeemed.However, he asked Mu Yu to go there with him.

A very bad premonition flashed in my head. I asked why I was looking for him. Uncle didn't answer, he just knew it when he said it. I didn't dare to think too much.When I told Mu Yu, he didn't ask anything, just nodded, and put a towel soaked in cold water on my eyes, saying that it could reduce the swelling.

Before going out, Mu Yu suddenly hugged me from behind, very tight and very hard, as if she was going to be embedded in the bone, as if she would never let go, that kind of determination made my heart tremble violently.

However, a few seconds later, the moment he let go, the warmth dissipated and the cold struck.

I thought he would say something, but was silent all the way.

Office of the Chairman.

I have worked in the bank for three years and I have never been in this place once.

There were only three people in the office, the one who came to open the door was Xiao Li, the one sitting on the sofa was my uncle, behind the marble desk was the biggest leader of our line, Chairman Xia Chengbin, and the one on the table in front of him was mine Ledger.

This formation makes me a little confused. So, it's fine that Uncle is here, why is Xiao Li here?How did the ledger get into the hands of the chairman?I looked at Xiao Li inexplicably, but she winked at me secretly, and quickly whispered something in my ear, "You agree to whatever I tell you first." Although I was a little strange, I still believed in it from the bottom of my heart. She will not harm me.

I took the initiative to introduce myself and Mu Yu to the chairman.

Mr. Xia nodded, let us sit down, and said to me directly, "I called you here this time because of your resignation. It is said that your resignation letter has been approved by various departments according to the procedures. It is basically impossible to go back on your word. We stipulate that those who resign voluntarily will no longer be hired. But," he deliberately paused, and I knew that was what he wanted to say after this sentence.

"Li Lin and your uncle have both said a lot of good things for you. Considering the needs of your family and the fact that you have won honor for our bank, I can make an exception and give you another chance." I didn't bother to wonder Li How could Lin’s words be so effective, I just felt a bright light in front of my eyes, like walking in the dark night and finally saw a glimmer of light, stood up quickly to express my gratitude, Xia Dong waved his hand, and continued, “Of course there are conditions.”

His eyes swept over Mu Yu, but finally stopped on my account book in front of him, "I have seen some photos, and there are nearly [-] pages of accounts for the two of you in this book... Everyone knows your affairs well. , I don’t want to say anything, I don’t need to care about the relationship between you and Han Muyu before, just treat it as a young and frivolous one, I just hope that the two of you will have nothing to do in the future. This is my condition, can you accept it?”

In fact, this condition was not beyond my expectation. I already knew that I wanted to continue working in this place. This matter is a kind of taboo. What I didn't expect was that this legendary leader with great means would confront me so straightforwardly. .

Xiao Li winked at me vigorously, and I secretly looked at Mu Yu, but he also blinked slightly.

First agree, anyway, it's just a sentence.

"I agree, and I will no longer have contact with him in the future." Even if it is false, it is still extremely awkward to say this.

The uncle let out a sigh beside him.

"Okay." Mr. Xia opened my account book, flipped through it page by page, and said, "Then let's start with this account book! I have asked someone to add up the debits and credits, and the debits will end with the last one last week. It is 573 yuan and 2 cents more than the lender. According to your original intention, Han Muyu should owe you 573 yuan. I don’t think there will be any more involvement in the future. Let’s settle this account today! We can also count as a witness !"

I glanced at Xiao Li, she must have told the leader, otherwise who would know what I remembered.Xiao Li turned his head and said to Mr. Xia, "There's no need for that!" in a very... presumptuous tone.

"It's not necessary, why did you help others to calculate so clearly?" Xia Dong asked Xiao Li, and what was even more frightening was that Xiao Li yelled at our chairman, "Who told you to rummage through my things? Do you know?" Respect people?" Xia Dong was not in a hurry when he was yelled at, but when his eyes turned to me, his eyes turned soft and sharp, "I just want to know what is in this book that can make my daughter cry over and over again."

daughter?I was completely dumbfounded, "Li Er?"

Li Lin raised her chin and pointed at the chairman, "He is my father."

My first reaction was that Xiao Li's surname is Li, so why did he become the daughter of his surname Xia?If it's true, then her background is too tough...

Due to the current situation, I have no more energy to explore these things. I just want to save my resignation.

"Chairman Xia, how do you settle the bill?" I pointed at Mu Yu, "He doesn't have any money with him, and I don't plan to take that money either."

Xia Dong nodded, "In this case, I think you should follow your original practice and put your fingerprint on the final summary amount. These accounts will be written off from now on, and you will have nothing to do with them."

"Okay!" I agreed happily.What's the big deal about fingerprinting?In the future, I will change to another notebook, and I will only remember him alone.

I took my account book, handed it to Mu Yu, winked at him, click it, it's fake anyway.

Mu Yu hesitated, but she still stretched out her left index finger and dipped it in the ink pad.

As it turns out, no one is an idiot.

Xia Dong spoke again, his voice was as cold as ice and snow: "Anran, I know what you're thinking... I really can't control the matter of obedience and injustice, but I can take back what I gave you at any time... If I hear any gossip , you won't have another chance. You can try, if you can afford it."

I stopped Mu Yu from pressing down on her hand.

Do I have to sever ties with Mu Yu if I want to come back to work?Not for show but for real, to sever ties?It won't work, it won't work.

I froze on the spot, but I heard Xiao Li yelling to his father more excitedly than I was, "It's just to let him come back to work. Why are you doing so many things? Is it necessary? There are thousands of people in the whole bank, and he is one more." No more, one less, why are you embarrassing him? Who does he like to let him like to go, what does it matter to your bank?"

To Xiao Li's questioning, Xia Dong only said, "You will understand."

Turning to me, our chairman showed a stern attitude, "An Ran, it's easy to choose one of the two topics, I don't think you have any hesitation."

Instinctively, I clenched Mu Yu's hand tightly.Facing Dong Xia's cold gaze, he looked back, whether people in high positions are used to ignoring the pain and struggle of others.Let you give up one of your closest relatives and loved ones, come and try!

My uncle stopped me by the side, "An Ran, don't be confused, your mother is still lying in the hospital, do you have any other options?"

other way?I would never have asked to come back to the bank if I had other options.Looking at the relative in front of me, I am not afraid to beg him in a lower voice: "Uncle, don't force me... You are so rich, can't you help me? I will pay you back in the future."

The uncle sighed, "An Ran, what else can I do to help you? I also borrowed money and found relationships for you, but in the end, you are the son of your parents, and you should support them by yourself. I can't help you for the rest of your life... I've asked your dad sideways, as long as you continue to come back to work, you can still pay your mother's medical expenses with your income... And have you ever thought about it, why did you tell your mother that you resigned? How do you tell her about you and Han Muyu? Can she bear it?... No matter what, even if you blame me now, I still hope you can be a normal child and find a girl to marry Having a child is the real thing of a lifetime."

I looked at him tongue-tied, and found that his few words blocked me to death.

I can't use my incompetence as an excuse to rely on others or break the pot, because I still have one way to go, and because of my incompetence, I seem to have only one way to go.

In the empty office, I can hear my breathing will not stop.

Just then the phone rang, and when I heard the ringtone of my dad's phone, I became nervous, and even forgot to go out to answer it.

"Hey, Dad, what's the matter with Mom?"

"An Ran, your mother is fine, but the hospital asks you to pay the hospitalization fee."

"Oh, okay, when is the latest?"

"tomorrow."

"Okay, tomorrow, I'll send money tomorrow."

"Anran...do you still have any money?"

"Yes, yes, don't worry about the money. I'm on duty now..." I hung up the phone in a hurry, afraid that he would hear something.

I felt a line of eyes fell on my face, they all looked at me with pity or indifference, and I looked like a mouse cornered in a corner.

At a loss, I turned my head to look at Mu Yu, and he also stared at me, his eyes softly falling on me, like a pool of clear water.

What did you just say, choose one of the two ghosts!

I quickly got up, pulled Mu Yu and walked out, "Mu Yu, let's go home."

Uncle and Li Lin both called me anxiously.

No matter, I hold Mu Yu's hand desperately, yes, I can't see any way out, but no matter how difficult it will be tomorrow, today and now, I will never let him go.

Mu Yu was dragged by me for a few steps, and finally stopped abruptly at the door, he grabbed me, and his voice clearly slammed into my head: "An Ran, what should I do, Auntie?"

"There's always a way," I said.

"But she can't wait, I can barely scrape together enough money for next month."

"Then we'll talk about it next month." I still pulled him out.

"safely……"

"Shut up!" I yelled back angrily.

Mu Yu turned my head and looked at me seriously, "An Ran, listen to me, you have to come back to work, Auntie needs you... I have never hated myself so much, when you need it most, I can't help you You, I still make you so embarrassed...don't you just press a fingerprint? I'll just press it. "

"What fingerprints, are you crazy?" I held his arm tightly, my chest was so painful that it was about to explode, "Mu Yu, I can borrow money, I have a lot of buddies and friends, and I can find other jobs , the waiter with a monthly salary of 1000 yuan, I think I can also do it. Last time, a bar owner said that I went there with a daily salary of [-] yuan...Old Tian said that it is also very profitable to sell tickets..."

Mu Yu supported my shoulders, and gently interrupted my nonsense, "Don't do this, An Ran, don't do this..." He couldn't stand it anymore, couldn't stand it, I was struggling in vain in front of the reality, at a loss.

He whispered in my ear: "Anran, don't think about those messy things, you are so clean, you can't spoil yourself...Anran, you are fine...you are fine, I will always love you..."

I was soothed by his last sentence, and stayed as if my soul had been taken away.

He pulled me back to the desk, and said to Chairman Xia who had been silent all this time, "I promise you, as long as An Ran is still in the bank, I will never have any contact with him again."

When he was talking, I looked up at him, and was surprised to find that he had lost so much weight, his chin was pointed, and his skin was black and blue. It was obvious that he hadn't eaten and slept well for a long time. , I don’t have any relatives or friends, he doesn’t know where to collect so much money for me. Recently, I can smoke a pack of cigarettes a day but I have never bought it myself. He always prepares for me while asking me to smoke less. Keep it in hand... If even he can give up... I must be crazy...

I took that account book again, and turned to those accounts under Mu Yu's name, flipping through page by page, the past was like water.Under the last account is the total amount of loans written by others, which actually has five digits, and the final loan balance is 573.2.

What is it called?There is no such thing as borrowing and borrowing, and our dense layers of memories and entanglements make them add, subtract, and subtract to become such a few thin Arabic numerals?It's ridiculous, this 573.2 is really ridiculous.

Mu Yu dipped his left hand in ink, and everyone looked at him as if observing some kind of ritual,

"After pressing the fingerprints, the two will be cleared. It's good to get together and break up, and each will start again." The uncle said from the side, feeling like the master of ceremonies of this ceremony, explaining a new era of batting mandarin ducks.

There are no heartbreaking scenes when couples are torn apart in countless bloody TV series. We are so quiet now, watching the vows drifting away into ashes, and watching the world collapse and collapse again.

It's just that the word "cleared up" irritated me, how could it be cleared up, who wants to settle with him?

No one expected my sudden attack.Mu Yu stared at me in a daze as I grabbed his right hand, tore off the light blue half-fingered glove that my mother knitted for him, pressed the entire palm of my hand twice into the red seal table, and slapped it hard on the last page of the ledger, Press on that inexplicable 573.2.

The bright red palm prints covered half a page, only the little finger was empty, which was incomplete.

Blood welled up in my throat, and I felt like the world was turning upside down.

"We can't clear..." I said, or maybe just thought, I couldn't tell.

If I can't clear it, I would rather owe you my whole life than settle it with you.

My ears are filled with the sound of the wind, howling and circling, so that I can't hear anything else.I just looked at Mu Yu like that, watching for a moment, from the moment he rubbed my hair for the last time, raised the corner of his mouth at me, to when he turned around and walked towards the door step by step, to when he opened the door, closed the door, and his back changed. The black door panel, I watched every frame very carefully and remembered it very clearly. I wanted to call him but couldn't make a sound. I wanted to hold him, but he couldn't move like a stone.

Perhaps, this is just one of countless joys and sorrows, just another bow of love to reality, just two people breaking up.The reality forced me to have nowhere to go, and I forced him to have nowhere to go, it’s no big deal, we can still live well, at most I am no longer qualified to say that I love him, at most I will lose my heart from now on.

That palm print smeared in front of my eyes, covering the whole day with scarlet red, but in the blink of an eye, it sank into darkness thicker than ink...

The right hand dripping with blood and missing the little finger, unfulfilled promises, vows to grow old, longing for villas and luxury cars, lingering love, all unfulfilled ideas, unfulfilled expectations, everything I owe him, I can’t give Yes, so regrettable, but inexplicably relieved.

My last bit of realization is this: I'm still endlessly involved with him, and that's fine.

Opening his eyes again, he was actually lying in the hospital. Xiao Li said, "An Ran, do you know that you have a heart attack?"