Fanhua is gone

章节字数：2786更新时间：11-03-0514:44

Walking downstairs to the garden, Lin Fan felt as if his body was exhausted. He sat on the bench, lowered his head, and looked at his toes.

Knowing that Shu Yan was following him, but now Lin Fan didn't want to and didn't have the strength to talk anymore. He sat there blankly, thinking for a long time, but still didn't understand why Shu Yan would confess to him. All boys.

Apart from this, what made him feel confused was that Lin Fan didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Shu Yan, did those frequent misses count as liking?But the most critical part of the problem is that they are all boys, and they have heard about homosexuality since they were young, but at that time he never thought that he would encounter this kind of relationship one day.

He is 18 years old, but his emotional world is blank. He has never dated girls, nor has he ever been attracted to a girl. Because of this, his classmates once joked that he likes men.I still remember that I was just talking and laughing at that time, not having a girl I like just means that I haven’t met a suitable one yet, he always just smiled when he joked about liking men, how could it be, it was a distorted feeling, isn’t it ?

So when he heard Shu Yan's confession, he was so shocked, he never thought that he would be liked by a boy, but what made him even more terrified was that he didn't feel disgusted!Isn't this an abnormal feeling?Why are you thinking about what to do besides being surprised? This is a feeling that is not recognized by the world!And when I think of this, I feel bitter and uncomfortable in my heart.

Looking at the time, it was already past nine o'clock, Lin Fan got up and prepared to go back to school.

Shu Yan immediately caught up and said, "It's so late, it's not safe, you can stay with me and go back tomorrow."

Lin Fan continued to walk forward, Shu Yan became anxious, and said loudly: "Are you worried about what I will do to you? If that's the case, I'll go to a nearby hotel and you sleep in my place, is that okay?"

Lin Fan turned around and said, "I never thought that way, I just want to go back to school."

"Then I'll take you back. I'll come back when you get to the dormitory downstairs." Seeing Lin Fan's determination to go back, Shu Yan hurriedly said.

"No, you are not far from my dormitory building."

Shu Yan insisted on sending Lin Fan back, knowing that it would be useless to say any more, so he walked in front, and Shu Yan followed behind him.We will soon arrive at the dormitory building, which is actually not far away.

When he entered the building, he realized that Shu Yan hadn't left yet, so Lin Fan said, "Go back..."

Shu Yan nodded, and then said: "Xiaofan, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kiss you forcefully, I really wanted to..."

Before he could finish speaking, Lin Fan interrupted him and said, "Stop talking, go back..."

"However, I don't regret liking you, and I don't regret what I said to you tonight. It's just that I scared you. I'm too impatient. I'm sorry..."

Lin Fan didn't say anything more, turned around and walked into the building.

Walking up the stairs on the third floor, Lin Fan looked down. Shu Yan was still standing there, looking in his direction.Lin Fan paused, then walked towards the bedroom.

Cheng Xuan had already returned, Lin Fan took off his shoes, turned off his cell phone, lay down on the bed, and pulled the quilt over his head.

Cheng Xuan looked at Lin Fan covered with a quilt suspiciously, wondering if something happened, when the phone rang.

It's Shu Yan's call.

"Hello?" Cheng Xuan was a little surprised to call at such a late hour.

"Are you in the bedroom?"

"Well, what's the matter? Aren't you very busy?"

"What is Xiaofan doing now?" A little worried tone.

Cheng Xuan looked at Lin Fan who was lying on the bed, walked out of the bedroom, and asked, "Xiao Fan seems to have something on his mind, he fell asleep as soon as he came back..."

Shu Yan was silent and didn't speak for a long time.

"Hey, what's the matter with you? Why don't you say anything when you call?..."

Shu Yan coughed twice, and said: "Cheng Xuan, I saw Xiaofan tonight, and I had dinner at my place... I, I did something, and Xiaofan got angry."

Cheng Xuan was confused by his words, "Why did you make Xiaofan angry? Don't you always try to make him happy?"

Shu Yan paused again, and then said: "Cheng Xuan, you are right, I really like Xiaofan. I just told Xiaofan..."

"Ah!!!" Although he had tried his best to control his volume, Cheng Xuan still called out, "You scared him, didn't you?"

"Um……"

"However, you usually tease Xiaofan like this. He should be immune, right? Why did I feel that Xiaofan was depressed and sad just now? Did you do anything else?"

It seemed that after a lot of effort, Shu Yan finally said, "I kissed him...it's still a French kiss..."

Now Cheng Xuan was speechless for a long time.

"Are you still listening?" Seeing that there was no sound, Shu Yan asked.

Cheng Xuan took a deep breath and asked, "Where are you now? Are you in the house you rented? I'll go find you."

"No, I'm downstairs in your dormitory..."

Cheng Xuan hung up the phone and ran directly downstairs.

Shu Yan stood outside, unable to see the expression on his face clearly in the darkness.

"Find a place to sit down." Cheng Xuan dragged him to a nearby chair and sat down.Then he glared at him, and said, "I said, what nerve did you burn out? You actually went to kiss Xiaofan forcibly! You clearly know that he is different from us, this is good, even if Xiaofan treats you It really has such a little meaning, and I was scared away by you!"

"..." Shu Yan moved his mouth, but didn't say anything.

Cheng Xuan continued to scold him: "Since you know that you like Xiaofan, you should think of a way to let him accept you slowly, and when his love for you can break through the shackles of those worldly concepts in his heart, you will not be able to accept you again." Timely confession, isn't this a natural thing?..."

Shu Yan was no longer silent, and said: "Yes, I understand everything you said! It is one thing to understand, but another thing to actually do it! When I saw Xiaofan's slightly red face, I couldn't control it. Control my emotions! Then, before I could react, I kissed her... Then, then, things got out of hand..."

Cheng Xuan was silent for a while, then patted him on the shoulder, and said: "I really can't blame you for this matter, think about myself, every time I see Xiao Chen, I feel restless and feel hot all over... Now the important thing is , what should I do next?"

"I don't know, maybe Xiaofan won't want to see me these days..." Shu Yan lowered his head, "Let him be quiet first, with his gentle personality, he may forgive me when his anger subsides." ...I only hope that he will not break up with me from now on... As long as I can be with him like before, I am very satisfied..."

Cheng Xuan looked at Shu Yan and said, "Shu Yan, you are indeed in it, your love for Xiaofan may be deeper than what you realize now! After so many years, I have never seen you so low I am also very moved and admired by the gesture of speaking, this kind of attitude that as long as you can look at the person you love, you can be happy!"

Shu Yan smiled wryly, and said, "I hope Xiaofan can feel it too..."

"However, do you just let go? Are you willing to just look at him like this?"

The bitter smile on Shu Yan's face widened, and he said, "Then what can I do? I don't want to see Xiaofan being frightened by me anymore. Just now, I saw him so distraught and powerless, and my heart ached... ...But, I won't let go, I just guard him in another way, until he also falls in love with me..."

Cheng Xuan couldn't find any better words to comfort him. He never thought that Shu Yan would be trapped by love. All along, he was always full of self-confidence. , he has always dealt with all kinds of people and things with ease, exuding infinite charm all over his body, he seems to be smiling to everyone, but no one can really leave a trace of reflection in his eyes , let alone enter the heart.Therefore, Cheng Xuan didn't know what to say to Shu Yan who was worrying by his side now, maybe all the words were so weak to him.