orc love

Bai Ran woke up not long after. He was lying on the bed he used to lie in Aunt Aisha's house, with his eyes closed and unwilling to open.

He vaguely heard Aunt Elsa and Herbert talking outside the door, but he couldn't hear clearly, and he didn't want to hear clearly.

What can I say, probably to comfort him!

Bai Ran thought that he didn't need comfort, he just lost his hope, and nothing changed for him.And Herbert was the one who really needed comfort.Anyone would want their own child, just because he lost this qualification, it is not cost-effective to say the least.

He knew that Herbert loved him, but if he wanted to give up such an important thing, he couldn't bear to let him love him, but why not love him?He couldn't tell himself, he thought that he already loved Herbert very much, otherwise why would he feel pain in his heart when he thought of making him not love him?

Then it occurred to him that such an assumption was useless, unless he died, there was no such thing as divorce in the beastman world.But when he died, would Herbert be with other people, and have children?

Bai Ran felt very uncomfortable and couldn't make a choice.

He imagined Herbert's life after his death, but he neither wanted Herbert and others to have children, nor was he willing to let himself be alone until the end of his life.

Thinking about it, his eyes became sour again. He felt that he was selfish, but he couldn't let go. He felt disappointed and confused for himself.

Herbert heard the whole process from Aunt Elsa, and he was silent for a while before saying: "Actually, we should have told him earlier. It's already too late now, but fortunately it's not too late."

Aunt Elsa didn't know what to say, so she could only keep silent and listen to Herbert.

"Ran's thoughts are very detailed. He must have thought about many things now, including his and mine. He has always felt insecure and feels that he is useless. After knowing this, he will definitely feel sorry for me and will do it again. Think about something. I know him too well, and I'm afraid that he won't be able to figure out what he will do..."

Aunt Elsa held Herbert's hand, "He is a good boy, God will take care of him."

Herbert nodded, and said in a deep tone: "In case, if he..." He shook Aunt Aisha's hand vigorously, "Auntie, I'm afraid I will feel sorry for you."

Aunt Aisha sighed, "Don't think too much, just go and see him, maybe he is not as fragile as you think."

Aunt Aisha wiped her eyes, got up and went to the kitchen, Bai Ran should be waking up soon, she had to cook him something to eat.

Herbert stood in front of the door, not daring to raise his hand to push.

He knew that although Bai Ran was weak, he was very strong. Just like the last time he got blind, he also calmed down after a while of panic, and comforted himself in turn.

But this time he was really not sure, Bai Ran liked children, he knew it.As a continuation of life and love, a child is a kind of spiritual sustenance for the partner, so he is afraid that Bai Ran will get into his horns again and refuse to come out.

I closed my eyes, and as soon as I exerted force with my hand, the wooden door opened with a "creak".

The inside was very clean and quiet, and the person on the bed was lying there safely, which made Herbert feel more at ease.He stepped forward and wanted to touch the man's face, but found that the man's breathing on the bed was hardly audible. He panicked for a moment, leaned over to listen, and could vaguely hear the beating of the heart, which was very regular. , but very powerless.

Surrounded by despair, he knelt down in front of the bed, holding Bai Ran's hand, holding back his voice not to tremble, and it took him a long time before he said, "Of course, are you there?"

Bai Ran heard the door knock and knew that Herbert was coming, but he didn't want to talk.But at this moment, hearing Herbert's trembling voice, a kind of sadness welled up in his heart. He gave him such a good lover, but he couldn't give him a complete home.

Then what can I give?

He slowly opened his eyes, with a smile in the corner of his eyes, and replied softly, "I'm here."

Herbert looked at him with a smile, but felt even more worried. He pulled his hand to his lips and kissed, "I should have told you earlier, I'm sorry..."

Bai Ran reached out to touch his face: "Anyway, I already know, it doesn't matter if it's early or late, I'm fine."

Herbert kissed his lips, looked at him deeply, as if he wanted to engrave him in his mind: "I said, nothing is more important than you, you promise me not to think about it, we will have a good time , we have just become partners, and there is still a long way to go, promise me, shall we live well?"

Bai Ran wanted to cry, but he held back. He looked at Herbert for a while and said, "Let's go home. I want to eat black potato balls tonight. Will you make them for me?"

Herbert nodded, "We'll do it when we get home!"

Herbert felt that his life was still the same as before, but it seemed that many places were different, which made him calm down again.

Bai Ran is too abnormal.

Herbert can only see him every night now. At other times, he is not studying medicine at Aunt Aisha's house, or learning how to cook at Andy's house. The small pieces of cloth that had been made were sewn into a fold, and many lines were drawn on it that Herbert could not understand.

In the first few days, Herbert felt very fortunate that Bai Ran was not too sad, but in the past few days he obviously felt that Bai Ran hadn't come out of the sadness.This discovery made him wonder what to do, because Bai Ran always had a sunny and happy expression on his face.

Not only these, but even the intercourse, which he usually feels very embarrassed and easily becomes angry, has begun to develop in the direction of "letting himself be manipulated".

For the sake of his health, Herbert didn't ask for much, and only asked for it every few days.But in the situation where he just did it the night before, Bai Ran actually asked to do it on his own initiative. Herbert thought it was because he wanted it, so he was so enthusiastic.

Under such circumstances for several days in a row, Herbert also felt strange.

What happened to his little lover? !

Herbert had to observe him more carefully, from his movements to his demeanor to his daily life, but he found nothing, so he went to Aunt Aisha and others.Reluctantly, they also felt that something was wrong, but there was nothing they could do about it, and they couldn't tell what was wrong.

In such a clueless situation, Herbert was going to lose his hair overnight.

But the matter was not over yet, after a month of this weird atmosphere, Bai Ran began to lose his appetite, his already thin body became even thinner, and any child who came over could push him down.

And the most important thing is that he didn't like to talk anymore, and he didn't smile much. He just guarded the stack of soft silk cloth every day, wrote and drew on it, and occasionally stared blankly for a while.

He didn't want to see anyone, except for Herbert, he went to sleep when everyone else came, so Herbert didn't dare to let others come.

He still teased Herbert every night like before, but at least for a while, Herbert could feel that he had pleasure, but now, Herbert knew that he didn't feel anything at all, because apart from frowning, watching Herbert When he came over, he gave a calm smile, and there was no other expression.

Herbert was unmoved by his teasing afterwards, and he didn't continue, just glanced at it lightly, and then began to sleep.Every time he slept for half a day, the sleep time was longer than before. Herbert always watched him sleep, and kept watching, for fear that he would never wake up again in his sleep.

Xiaoqiuqiu and Xiaotuan were also sent to Andy's house, because one day when Herbert was working outside the door, he suddenly heard the sound of falling. , there is nothing at all.Another day, Herbert was tidying up things in the room, and watched Xiaotuan jump towards Bairan, jumping into his arms like before, but Bairan was knocked down by such a small force .

Herbert felt frightened.

On a sunny day, he said to Bai Ran who was dazed by the window: "It's very warm today, do you want to go outside for a walk?"

There was no answer, Herbert wiped his face with his hands, and begged, "Talk to me, why don't we go outside and talk at home?"

Still no response.

Herbert suddenly felt powerless, and shouted: "What's wrong with you? Tell me! I'm your partner. You're sad by yourself, and you don't let me know! Tell me... ..." The first hunter of the bear tribe buried his face in his hands and cried, "I beg you...but...just talk to me...just one sentence...just one sentence..."

Bai Ran looked at him, his eyes filled with mist, he moved his lips, but he still didn't say a word.

Herbert hugged him, wiped his tears, his voice was choked, "I know you are sick, if you don't talk, don't talk, let's go get treatment... I will take you to find Yin Zuo, you are from the same place, he If you know a lot, let’s find him to treat you!”

Bai Ran nodded in his arms, whimpered, and finally uttered a word: "—OK"

Herbert told Aunt Aisha about the situation, prepared everything, and planned to leave early the next morning, but when he woke up in the morning, seeing that Bai Ran was still asleep, he couldn't bear to wake him up.

Herbert couldn't figure out why people who slept so much would still be so haggard. He touched the sunken black shadows under Bai Ran's eyes, full of heartache and pain.

In the end, it still didn't work out on this day, because it was almost afternoon when Bai Ran woke up.

Herbert planned to pick up Yin Zuo himself, so that Bai Ran would not have to suffer from the journey. Although the speed was slower, if he and Yin Zuo traveled in animal form, they should be very fast.

Herbert carefully fed him and gave him medicine. Now Bai Ran didn't seem to be afraid of suffering anymore. Sometimes he didn't need to eat sweet fruit after drinking the medicine. He could just drink a few sips of water, and even handed Herbert Push back the sweet fruit for him.

Feeling drowsy after eating, Herbert glanced at the sky, it was just evening.

He persuaded: "It will be uncomfortable to sleep after eating. Let's sit for a while. May I tell you a story?"

Bai Ran nodded, and nestled obediently in Herbert's arms.

Herbert told him a story when he was hunting in the mountains, but before he finished, he found that the person in his arms had fallen asleep.

He could only carefully put him under the quilt, and then stood aside, deciding that he must go to Yin Zuo tomorrow.

At this moment, there was a knock on the door, and Kevin's unique voice came in: "Baby Bairan~ We're here to see you, are you still out of bed? Haha..."

The author has something to say: Let me set the time to [-] o'clock every morning, Khan, otherwise there will be no punctual time every day.

Tomorrow night will be sent in the morning after tomorrow, and it will be set to be posted in the morning from now on.

Going to work, so painful TAT

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