heart to wild

When you think of your hometown, what do you generally think of?

For 14-year-old Yu Zisheng, who has just finished the first half of his first year of junior high school in Yuncheng, his hometown of Yancheng is a bit strange to him, and he needs to get to know it slowly.

Entering a new school, surrounded by unfamiliar faces, Yu Zisheng may still be a little at a loss at first when he hears the familiar but not friendly northern accent in his ears.

But as you can imagine, he never showed it in front of anyone, including his parents.

Since kindergarten, Yu Zisheng has been a popular child.

Popularity is really metaphysics. Even though his grades are mediocre and his personality is not enthusiastic, even the teacher of the subject he took last in the class likes him.People are creatures that are easily surrounded by kindness around them. Gradually, Yu Zisheng began to feel that Yancheng is really warm and indeed his home.

until that afternoon.

Do you still remember, when Yu Zisheng was in junior high school, he had a female deskmate who liked him but then ignored him, let's call her Xiaoshan.

One evening after school, there was almost no one on campus. Xiao Shan, who was in messy school uniform, suddenly ran from the teaching building to the playground in a panic. When she was palpitating and trembling, she accidentally found someone who was cleaning fallen leaves under a tree in the distance. Yu Zisheng, a student on duty.

The tears that had endured all the way came to her eyes almost instantly, the instinct to ask for help was more important than anything else, as if there was an evil spirit chasing after her, Xiao Shan stumbled to the boy, her white lips trembling, her forehead was full of fright With sweat, she trembled with a fragile cry, and told Yu Zisheng who stopped and looked over with unspeakable red eyes: "Mr. Gao... bullied me."

Teasing her in an empty office, touching her hand, wrapping her waist, threatening her, if you speak out, you will destroy her.

Xiaoshan hugged herself absent-mindedly, not even knowing that the tears were streaming into streams: "I'm scared, I'm so scared...Can you, can you take me home."

It shouldn't have been said that Yu Zisheng was the boy she liked but rejected her. The girl has always wanted to maintain a proud posture in front of him. She never thought that one day she would show such an embarrassing side to him with her own hands. in front of you.

But she was afraid.

She was so frightened that she wanted to die.

"Okay," Yu Zisheng replied, "you can sweep the fallen leaves with me, it will take a while."

It was very calm, without any unnecessary reaction, as if the place she escaped from just now was not Avi Hell, but an ordinary office that taught and educated people.

It was the second year of junior high school at that time, and Yu Zisheng was one year older than his classmates. I don’t know if it’s for this reason, but when standing next to him, he felt very safe—especially after he behaved so naturally, even Xiaoshan herself They all realized that her frantic heartbeat was gradually calming down, and the rhythm of her breathing slowed down a lot.

But still couldn't help trembling.

Yu Zisheng caught a glimpse of the lonely figure under the tree from the corner of his eye, called the other person's name, and threw the chocolate that was always in his pocket for hypoglycemia into the girl's arms.

"Hazelnut," he said.

Xiaoshan's home is not far away, just two streets away from the back gate of the school.The summer solstice had the longest day, but it was already dark when Yu Zisheng swayed with his schoolbag and sent the girl downstairs because he deliberately slowed down and swept the floor.

He didn't ask the other party if he planned to tell her parents what he told him. After all, he knew that Xiaoshan's mother was also a teacher in this school, and she was famous for saving face.

Yu Zisheng felt that nothing mattered to himself, but he couldn't apply his own vigor to others indiscriminately.

"Yu Zisheng." Before leaving, the girl stopped him.

Yu Zisheng didn't look back, and when he heard the trembling and crying "Thank you" from the other party behind him, he just stopped and waved his hands, until he heard Xiaoshan's running footsteps leaving, he turned around and waited for a light upstairs to turn on After that, just slowly picked up the pace to go home.

He arrived home much later than usual that day. Yu Zisheng didn't like to participate in the after-school activities of his classmates since he was a child.But the negative effect of this is that when he opened the door that night, he was greeted by two panicked faces of Yu Kun and Tong Qiyan but quickly concealed them.

"Puppy love?" Tong Qiyan joked unnaturally.

"It's getting late." Yu Zisheng walked over and put his arms around her shoulders, and softly comforted his mother by saying what he needed to be beaten.

At the dinner table, he greeted his parents, saying that he had something to do after school recently, and he might come back late, but when she went to school the next day, Xiaoshan called him out again, apologetically saying: The hard tone told him: "Thank you, don't worry about me from now on."

what happens.

Yu Zisheng couldn't hold back the red eye circles when he watched the girl leave, and finally didn't ask.

Perhaps it should be asked, isn't it? Yu Zisheng often thought so when he suffered from insomnia all night.

Everything is as usual, Xiaoshan, who is no longer her deskmate, is sitting in the front row of the classroom. When Yu Zisheng wakes up from the sleepiness in the classroom, he will occasionally prop his head and look at the back of the person who is seriously taking notes. Soon, he He looked away again and raised his eyelids to study the clouds outside the window.

At the end of the semester, Yu Zisheng once again stayed in the teacher's office to help move things. It was already late at the end, and the class teacher told him to wait and treat him to a meal.

Yu Zisheng couldn't refuse, and while waiting for the teacher, he was thinking about how to find an excuse to leave on the road later, when suddenly there was a sound of panicked footsteps in the empty corridor.

Yu Zisheng turned his head and saw Xiaoshan's helpless figure again.

save us.

When the class teacher came back from the bathroom, there was no one in the corridor.

He shook his head, and when he went back to the office to pick up the key, he was still lamenting the virtue of contemporary young people doing good deeds without leaving a name... Then he found that there were still two sets of papers to be taught tomorrow that had not been corrected.

Finally finished the day's work, the teacher got up and closed the door and went downstairs. When passing by the playground, he heard the noise of people and the sound of an ambulance in the distance.

It seems to be in the direction of the old faculty dormitory building. There are not many people living there. Which colleague has high blood pressure?

The idea of ​​going home for dinner changed, but the male teacher still hesitated, got up and walked in that direction.

It would be nice if you can help to clean up the follow-up.As he squeezed through the crowd, he took out his mobile phone to make a call to his wife. Then, he saw the bloody man being rushed to the ambulance by the medical staff, and the man tightly bound by the security guard. Yu Zisheng, who he thought had left the school at this time.

"What the hell happened?"

Teachers, principals, classmates, and parents all asked Yu Zisheng countless times, but all they got in return were "I didn't meet him" and a long silence from the surveillance video.

There was also a girl who was crying badly. The teacher was seriously injured and refused to visit. The adults couldn't ask anything from Yu Zisheng, so they had to ask another witness: Teacher Gao fell from the stairs. , is it an accident?

But this time, the answer they got was even more extreme. Apart from being absent-minded, there was only screaming.

There are always rumors everywhere, and in the end, the girl's innocence is lost, and the teacher and Yu Zisheng take turns to be the murderer and the righteous person.

Xiaoshan, a bystander who ran out to ask for help that day, somehow disappeared in plain sight. The remaining child who became the rumored heroine was a day student who was living under the fence. impression.

When things turned out like this, the aunt who raised her was afraid of embarrassment and would not show up, and the mother who had rushed back from all the way came to school. Her first reaction was not to care about her daughter, but to rush to their class and ask her classmates to call out Yu Zisheng. In countless pairs of silent gazes, he slapped him hard.

——The little bastard who ruined my daughter's innocence.

Innocence is gone anyway, but compared to an old bastard and a young bastard, if you choose a young bastard, you may still be able to marry in the future.

— But my innocence is still there.

— but no one believed it.

How is the heart broken?

It was thrown to the ground, splashed with mud, spit out, and stomped heavily when it was over.

It's so broken.

At the end of the corridor, there are three big red characters "Quiet, Jing, Respect".

Yu Zisheng, who left a palm print on half of his face, raised his fingertips and wiped the corner of his mouth scratched by his nails. Amid the woman's insults and intense pain, the boy looked calmly at the shade of the trees outside the window.

Midsummer is singing cicadas.