Forever No.1

Feelings are imposed on others, and feelings are not rewarded if you pay. "

This sentence is not only said to the other party, but also to yourself.

Although he realized that Shi Zheyu cared about him, he didn't say anything about it. He always kept a distance between friends, but he didn't want to give him too much expectation.

"If you had told me earlier that you already knew, I would..." I just blurted out, but was interrupted by myself.

Wouldn't it be so deep?

Or will you not continue to like Gao Shide?

No, even if you are rejected, you may cry bitterly? You may be sad, but the love that once existed will not change.

Gao Shide is right. If you really like a person, you should not force your own thoughts on the other person. Feelings are not a math problem, and you can get the answer by applying a formula.

"Zheyu, I'm sorry if my behavior misunderstood you. I can't respond to your feelings, but I really regard you as a friend who can talk about everything. I hope we will remain friends in the future."

At the corner of the corridor, Zhou Shuyi looked at Gao Shide who turned to leave, and Shi Zheyu who was still standing outside the classroom, silently took back the steps he wanted to take, and continued to hide in the shadow of the corner.

'I never thought of liking boys. '

'I know. '

Even after confirming his feelings, this sentence remains unchanged, he does not want to fall in love with boys, except Gao Shide.

He is special.

Regardless of gender? Regardless of age? Regardless of any external conditions, they are just attracted by Gao Shide like this.

'Forget what I said that day, I wish you happiness. '

I don't want to see that person show a sad expression, because it will make me feel more uncomfortable.I want him to be happy, to get---the happiness of being liked by the person he likes.

"Gao Shide, I want to be your 'happiness'."

Zhou Shuyi muttered these words, then stepped out of the corner of the corridor with his chest straightened out, avoided Shi Zheyu who was still standing outside the classroom, and followed Gao Shide from a distance.

Ximending

The neon lights that gradually light up after nightfall replace the daylight and take on the task of illuminating the city.

This place has always been the trendiest fashion indicator in Taipei City. Many celebrities have received the business cards of talent scouts here, and then transformed themselves into shining superstars who are popular in the Chinese-speaking circle.

Gao Shide walked alone on the overpass in Ximending, looking down at the endless stream of vehicles under the bridge.Buzz buzz!

The phone in the pocket of his jeans vibrated to receive a message, so he took out the phone and looked at the message he just received.

───Where are you?I have something to tell you.

The fingers hesitated whether to click on the message, to reply to the other party's inquiry, and finally pressed the side button to keep the status of unread.Holding the mobile phone with a black screen hanging down by his side, he continued to walk towards the other end of the bridge with his head down.

"Why didn't you reply to the message? Gao Shide, you are really avoiding me."

An unhappy tone came from behind, and the people walking on the overpass stopped in surprise, and turned to look at someone standing in front.

Since Shi Zheyu confessed to this person outside the classroom, he has been following this person. He wanted to pretend that he "just happened" to appear in the same place after receiving the message "knowing" where the other party was. However, the message remained in the state of not reading or replying, so he walked quickly to Gao Shide and said unhappily.

"You got tired of playing the slave game, so you left me alone, didn't you?"

"I deleted the video, if you don't believe me, you can check it out."

Thinking that Zhou Shuyi's purpose was to confirm whether he still had the threatening video, he stretched out his right hand and handed the phone to the other party, but the hand he just stretched out was slapped away forcefully.

"You threatened me with the video because you were worried that I would be in a broken relationship, right? You said that as long as I can beat you, you would cancel the agreement with the book boy, it was also to divert my attention, right?"

Faced with the question of uncovering the facts, Gao Shide looked away guiltily and looked at the traffic under the overpass.

"Don't think too much about me, I just want to take the opportunity to be friends with you, and then... get closer to you."

In this way, at least before graduating from university and before leaving Taiwan for the United States with my mother, I can put an end to this relationship as friends.

"Is the luck you mentioned still mine?"

"what?"

Gao Shide turned his head to look at the person standing in front, confused by the sudden words.

"At the health center that day, I said that being liked by you was that person's luck. Then you thought I fell asleep and whispered in my ear, in fact, that luck has always belonged to me."

'It was not a joke when I said I liked you yesterday; it was true when I said I would sneak in that day; you said that the person I have a crush on is very lucky, but unfortunately you will never know, that luck...has always belonged to you. '

Zhou Shuyi walked towards Gao Shide quickly, grabbed his collar, dragged him in front of him, and asked seriously: "Gao Shide! Is the luck to be liked by you still mine?"

"You said...you wouldn't like me..."

The voice of speaking was full of pain, no matter how hard he tried, he would not be accepted, knocking him into scattered pieces time and time again, afraid to look into the other person's eyes, for fear of seeing the disgust of this feeling in that person's eyes .

"Do you think I like this?"

In the shower, no matter how much time you spend under the shower head, the turbulent thoughts cannot be washed away.

No matter what you do, you always think of this person? No matter where you are, you chase after a figure similar to him, and the moments when the two of them spend alone are deeply imprinted in your mind, and they are played repeatedly uncontrollably...

"Because it's you, I don't like it... I have to like it..."

That's when he realizes that he's put someone above a friend before his reason admits to it.

Gao Shide raised his head and closed his eyes, put his hands on the other person's shoulders, slowly pushed him away, and took two steps back: "If your purpose of saying these words is to make fun of me, I'm sorry, I can't laugh. "

"Nobody's kidding you, I mean it."

Zhou Shuyi tugged Gao Shide's arm, and expressed his thoughts again, but the person in front of him frantically pushed away, stared at him, and said with red eyes.

"The person you like is Jiang Yuxin, isn't it? Please, you can use any method you want to mess with me, but I can't afford to have feelings."

When I was in middle school, I found that my feelings for Zhou Shuyi were different from those of other friends. At first, I thought it was just to let the boy who had forgotten him not forget him again.

However, as I grow older, I gradually understand that this feeling is a boy's liking for another boy, which is impossible to accept.So I chose to hide my feelings in my heart, and only secretly took out the photo at the bottom of the closet when I was alone, and looked at the photo with a smile and was unwilling, but I still had to take a photo with him on the awarding platform Zhou Shuyi.

"Why don't you trust me."

Looking at Gao Shide's teary eyes, he felt that his chest hurts? It hurts.

Because of his neglect? His dullness? His every disgust and rejection made this person not believe that he had fallen in love with him.Zhou Shuyi grabbed the necklace hanging on his chest and tore it off forcefully, ignoring the red blood oozing from the skin cut by the chain on the back of his neck, standing on the overpass with noisy traffic, he said to Gao Shide.

"Do you want me to take this off so that you will believe that I have fallen in love with you?" However, the other person sighed and laughed wryly at himself...

"Removing your lucky object doesn't mean anything."

Every time he got closer, he ignited the hope that he might be able to change something; however, every time he hoped, it ended in disappointment.

Friends are the closest distance between them; a further relationship is absolutely impossible.

Seeing the tears rolling down the man's cheeks, a picture suddenly flashed in his mind.The little boy in my memory, with the same eyes as Gao Shide, was sitting on the stairs at the end of the corridor, holding his knees and crying silently.

The boy raised his face and proudly refused the handkerchief he handed out, just because he didn't want to be seen by strangers crying, and he didn't want to be seen by strangers as frail...

So he turned around and grabbed the railing, and stood on the pier of the overpass above the crossing road, yelling at the passing cars? At all the passers-by walking in the downtown area.

"Me! Zhou Shuyi, I like Gao Shide! The most, the most, the most! In this world, he is my favorite person!"

Then Gao Shide jumped off the pier before he had time to react, threw himself on him and hooked the back of his neck, and kissed those gentle and warm lips hard.

In an instant, it was like a freeze-frame picture in a movie, staying at the second of breaking through the defense.

The brain stopped functioning, and Zhou Shuyi passively let Zhou Shuyi kiss over and over again. The temperature belonging to another person was transmitted to each other's hearts through the pressed lips.

Gao Shide raised his hand, gently hugged Zhou Shuyi's back, closed his eyes and kissed affectionately the person he had secretly loved for many years.It wasn't until the jerky kiss made the two of them almost out of breath that they reluctantly separated.

Zhou Shuyi smiled and asked playfully, "Is this your first kiss?" "No." Gao Shide looked at the person in front of him and shook his head.

"who's that person?"

A strong desire for monopoly subconsciously emerges from this sentence.

"One day, I rescued a fool who almost drowned himself, and accidentally kissed him while pulling in the pool."

"That? That doesn't count, your first kiss must be mine."

Remembering the unexpected kiss in the swimming pool, so she blushed and hugged the back of the other person's neck, and kissed again.

***

If you like someone, who cares?

Whoever is broken, who should be held accountable.

Because it's you, I don't like it, but I have to like it.