I have known love for many years

Chen Xin's title of "nanny" lived up to his name, he woke up immediately when he received a call from Fei Lian in the middle of the night, and when he heard what Fei Lian said, he was confused and sweaty and came down together.

"Jiang Fan, I know him, uh..." Chen Xin didn't know what to say, how would he explain to this old classmate and ex-boyfriend of his old friend?Say 'Is that person I introduced to your ex-boyfriend to start a new relationship so he can forget about you'?No matter how you hear this, you should be beaten.And it's strange for Fei Lian to call and ask about it at this point. Could it be that Fei Lian still has any thoughts about Bai Xuecheng?

Chen Xin's mind was in a mess, and the daughter-in-law who was sleeping next to him turned over and muttered: "Who is it in the middle of the night?"

Chen Xin hurriedly covered his phone, and whispered to his daughter-in-law: "It's okay, you continue to sleep, continue to sleep."

Chen Xin got off the bed lightly, put on his coat and touched a cigarette to refresh himself, lit it and walked towards the balcony while smoking it.

He passed by the baby's bed, looked in with his head, stretched out his hand to tuck the corner of the quilt, and suddenly felt a sense of time and space disorder in his heart.

It was like this back then, Fei Lian and Bai Xuecheng had a quarrel, and Fei Lian couldn't find Bai Xuecheng, so he called him; he was either surfing the Internet at an Internet cafe, or building a relationship with a school girl, or in the dormitory. Sleeping unconscious, Fei Lian called him to give him advice or find someone.

At that time, the night was as dark as today, without a single star, and the night wind at that time was probably so quiet and cool. Chen Xin seemed to see himself standing on the balcony with a cigarette in his mouth and a mobile phone, who was not so round a few years ago. On the other hand, Fei Lian's tone was as anxious as today - as if nothing had changed, yet everything had changed.Just like myself who has already married and started a business, just like friends who have been separated a long time ago.

Chen Xin exhaled hazy smoke on the balcony, his tone was hoarse after waking up, he rubbed his eyes and said, "Don't worry about Jiang Fan, there will be nothing out of the ordinary, his character is still very good of."

Fei Lian was suspicious: "When did they meet?"

Chen Xinxin said: Probably today.

But it is impossible for Chen Xin to say that, because if he said that, wouldn't it prove that he introduced them to each other?

Chen Xin laughed: "I don't know about this, maybe I met him in the game? I also met him through the game."

Fei Lian was a little surprised at once, Bai Xuecheng is actually not interested in games, let alone face-to-face with people in games.But since Chen Xin said there was no problem, he had no choice but to temporarily suppress his uneasiness, apologized to Chen Xin, and then hung up the phone.

Chen Xin on the other side was actually quite surprised. He touched his chin, and suddenly felt that he was not sure that Bai Xuecheng would still be able to play, but... is it really good to let them get back together?

Chen Xin was also at a loss, and said to himself: Tell Bai Xuecheng about the matter tomorrow, and let him decide on his own.

Fei Lian absent-mindedly sent Song Wuchi home. Before getting out of the car, the little girl said, "What kind of friend is that?"

Fei Lian said "Huh?" and said, "A friend from school before."

Song Wuchi looked Fei Lian up and down probingly, touched his chin, and said, "Brother, I actually wanted to ask you a question before."

Fei Lian subconsciously looked at the time again, and tapped his fingers on the steering wheel anxiously, but his face was still restrained and calm, and he said, "What?"

Song Wuchi held the car door with one hand, poked his head in, and said, "I've never seen you have a girlfriend, do you...don't like girls?"

Fei Lian immediately froze in place: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

Song Wuchi waved his hand: "I'm just surprised that you haven't met someone you like in so many years? You said that your hardware is not bad, but you seem to treat everyone the same. Instead, just now..." Song Wuchi seemed unsure of how to describe it. After thinking for a long time, he said, "You really care about that drunk person. It's... the kind that reveals your true feelings? Do you understand what I mean? It's a different feeling from others. .”

Fei Lian said expressionlessly, "I don't know what you're talking about, that's fine, hurry back."

Song Wuchi stuck out his tongue and closed the door for him: "Open slowly."

"En." Fei Lian waved his hand and drove away with a calm expression.In the rearview mirror, Song Wuchi stood by the side of the road for a while, then turned and entered the gate of the complex. Fei Lian's stiff body slowly relaxed. There was even fine cold sweat.

It wasn't until the numbness and stiffness all over his body gradually faded away that Fei Lian regained consciousness, reset the navigation route, and drove towards the hotel where Bai Xuecheng was temporarily staying.

In fact, Fei Lian didn't understand the meaning of what he did. After six years, he was already mentally prepared for Bai Xuecheng to start a new relationship.

But he couldn't see or hear the other person, no matter who that person was with or what he did, it seemed that there was always something behind him. He didn't think about it, and even gradually got used to tasting the food in his memories by himself occasionally late at night. Taste, those topics about reality seem to not exist.

This illusion once made him think that he had let go, until he met Bai Xuecheng again.

Those illusory fantasies that couldn't be touched seemed to become real all at once, and the thing that was supposed to be separated from him was suddenly torn off, and all the pictures about reality were thrown on his face—that person I have already lived my own life, that person has long been far away from me, I let go of it myself, and now he is with someone else.

All of these were thrown in front of him. It's ridiculous to say that he decided to let go, and he unilaterally decided that this was the best solution, but now he regretted it.

Isn't this a scumbag?

Fei Lian almost wanted to laugh at himself, so why regret it now?What worries?He even impulsively went to find Chen Xin in the middle of the night. This kind of thing would never happen to him before.

The word impulsive has always been far away from him, but very close to Bai Xuecheng.

Fei Lian rushed all the way to the hotel, locked the car door without taking his coat and hurried upstairs.

He didn't know what he was afraid of, he just felt flustered and short of breath-or maybe it was just a lack of exercise recently.When he arrived at the entrance of the hotel, he took a deep breath, tidied up his collar and cuffs, and asked for help to find Bai Xuecheng at the front desk.

The staff made a phone call for him, but no one answered. Fei Lian kept tapping his feet anxiously, and his leather shoes made regular "da da" sounds on the smooth floor.

After calling three times but no one answered, Fei Lian simply went upstairs to find someone.

At the door of the room, Fei Lian rang the bell, but no one answered.

Fei Lian stuck to the door again to listen to the voices inside, but he couldn't hear anything.

"Bai..." Fei Lian paused, and suddenly felt that his behavior might be a bit ugly, his voice was stuck in his throat, his raised hand slowly fell, and he turned around on the spot like a trapped animal.

But soon the villain in his heart said confidently: "What's the matter? He's drunk and lives alone. What if he gets alcohol poisoned? What if he vomited on the bed and choked on the vomit?"

Fei Lian quickly convinced himself: Yes, I am only saving people.

Fei Lian, who found a reasonable excuse, suddenly felt confident, and his hand knocking on the door lightened up.

"Bai Xuecheng? Bai Xuecheng?" He rang the doorbell and knocked on the door again, "Bai Xuecheng? Hello?"

His movement was so loud that the people around him poked their heads out in dissatisfaction: "What's going on in the middle of the night?!"

Fei Lian's appearance was polite and restrained. This kind of thing would never happen to him. He was very embarrassed to be pointed at his nose and yelled at. He had to go to the staff again to help open the door.

"Sorry," the staff frowned, "I can't just open the door for you, I can't confirm the relationship between you and the guests."

"He's drunk, what if something happens inside? Can I not go in? You go in and take a look?"

"This..." The staff was a little distressed, "I can't prove your words, if something goes wrong when you enter the door casually, the guest will complain..."

Before the voice fell, the closed door suddenly opened.

Bai Xuecheng stood drunkenly at the door, his upper body was naked, his lower body was wearing a pair of underwear, his whole body reeked of alcohol: "Who the hell... hiccup... noisy..."

Fei Lian immediately stood in front of him, and put his arms around his shoulders reflexively: "Why are you wearing this? I caught a cold for a while, so hurry back to bed..."

He pushed people into the door, and the staff followed behind: "Sir, Mr. Bai? Please identify him, do you know this person?"

Bai Xuecheng was put on the bed by Fei Lian's arms, covered the quilt, and looked at the staff with a confused face: "Who are you?"

The staff member was embarrassed: "It's not me, he, do you know him?"

Bai Xuecheng squinted his eyes hard, looked at the man who was tucking him in the quilt, and after a while suddenly said in a daze, "Fei... Lian?"

Fei Lian breathed a sigh of relief, and showed his ID to the staff: "Look, it's me."

Only then did the staff nod and exit politely.

The door closed, and the room suddenly became quiet. The temperature of the air conditioner was a little high, and Fei Lian felt a little hot.

He loosened his neckline and sat in the chair next to him. Looking around, he didn't see Jiang Fan's shadow, and he felt a little relieved.

Bai Xuecheng stuttered in confusion: "Fei... Lian? Are you... am I... dreaming? Haha..."

Fei Lian didn't say anything, just leaned back in the chair for a while, and said to himself: "I'm probably crazy."

"You, you are crazy. You, crazy." Bai Xuecheng stuck his tongue out, feeling drowsy and confused, "Crazy, if you say go, go, say, don't... just don't , you, nervous...sick."

The last sick word was almost silent, and then there was a snoring sound in the room.

Fei Lian stared blankly at the man for a while, then said, "Yes, I'm crazy."