I have known love for many years

It was already 01:30 in the morning when Fei Lian got home.

He opened the door lightly, and the curtains were drawn in the dark living room, and he couldn't see his fingers.A cat ran out of the den, found its target in the dark, and greeted Fei Lian with its tail up.

Fei Lian changed his shoes, lowered his voice and said, "Good boy, are you still asleep?"

He stretched out his hand to rub the cat's head, and then stroked the smooth fur to the tip of the tail. Mei Short snored comfortably, and Fei Lian reached out to pick it up and walked towards his bedroom.

Before he took two steps, the light in the living room flicked on.Fei Lian subconsciously narrowed his eyes.

"I came back so late, what did you do?" A middle-aged woman's voice sounded coldly. She stood up from the sofa, folded her arms and slightly raised her chin to look at Fei Lian. It was a very questioning and commanding voice. The action is uncomfortable.

"Mom." Fei Lian stood still, allowing Mei Duan to climb onto his shoulders and then jump off, slithering back into the den.Even the cat sensed the danger and refused to look up any more.

"Wu Chi said you sent her back a long time ago, where did you go?"

Fei Lian's throat moved, and he said calmly, "I was called to work overtime temporarily."

"Why didn't you tell my family about working overtime? Do you know how long I've been waiting for you here?" The woman's voice was always cold, without any emotional ups and downs. After listening for a long time, it made people feel a sense of fear for no reason.

Fei Lian lowered his head slightly and stopped looking into his mother's eyes: "I didn't expect it to be so late, sorry."

The room was very quiet for a while, no one spoke, and there was a tense atmosphere in the air, and Fei Lian could hear his own heartbeat getting louder and louder.

After the silent suppression lasted for a full few minutes, the woman finally spoke, as if she had forgiven someone's sin, and said, "There will be no next time."

Fei Lian nodded.

"Hurry up and wash up and go to sleep." The woman brushed her hair, turned and went back to her bedroom, and when the door was closed, Fei Lian took a deep breath, as if he came alive.

In the cat's nest, the silver-white Mei Short opened her big round eyes, looking at Fei Lian as if worried, and her ears twitched.

Fei Lian rubbed his face, suppressing the suffocating feeling of powerlessness deep in his heart, like he had hypnotized himself for so many years, counting silently to ten while going to the bathroom, and when he went to bed, any negative emotions It all disappeared from his heart as if washed away.

But Fei Lian knew that they disappeared only temporarily, he didn't know how long he could last, maybe one day it would explode suddenly, maybe it would blow up until he didn't even know his last name.

Fei Lian follows his mother's surname, and her mother is arrogant, uncompromising, very independent and self-improving, but also very controlling.

Once it's something she decides, no matter what others say, she won't listen to it.

Fei Lian's parents divorced since he was a child, and his mother forcibly took Fei Lian, who was only five years old, in disregard of the court's ruling, and brought him up single-handedly. After Fei Lian's father remarried, he probably wanted to completely cut off contact with the mother and son, and never contacted him again. They didn't give any money, as if Fei Lian was raised by nature and had nothing to do with him anymore.

Regarding this, Fei Lian's mother didn't bother her endlessly, and she never came to ask for justice. Her ex-husband was dead, and no one in the whole family dared to mention that man's name.

This strong and self-respecting woman raised Fei Lian well by herself alone—but to be honest, she probably only had enough food and clothing to barely go to school. Fei Lian's later tuition fees, Largely on scholarship and needy funding.

Ever since Fei Lian could remember, Fei's mother had never smiled.She always kept a straight face, with a haughty expression on her face, she kept her arms crossed when she spoke, and she always kept people away, even if that person was her own son.

There was no room for communication and discussion with her, she did what she said, and Fei Lian didn't dare to talk back - after all, it was too difficult for a single woman to raise him alone, and he couldn't disobey any of her wishes.

Around the second year of junior high, Fei Lian, who had entered puberty, began to realize that he was different from others. He had no interest in girls, but he had strange thoughts on boys.

Especially after the physical education class, a group of boys were sweating profusely, shirtless, the appearance of youthful teenagers with tight and young skin, and the appearance of sweat sliding down their chests, all deeply attracted him.

He felt very confused and scared, and he couldn't help telling his mother that he wanted to seek comfort and protection, but the woman screamed as if facing an enemy.

"From now on, you are not allowed to mention a word! No!" The woman said hysterically, "I worked so hard to raise you, not to make you a pervert! I don't care what the hell you like! You are not allowed in I'll tell you in front of me! Don't let anyone know!"

Fei Lian was terrified. The woman's scream was like branding the poker into his soul, making him tremble uncontrollably. Since then, he dared not say a word.

……

Early the next morning, Bai Xuecheng was woken up by the alarm clock on his mobile phone. He turned over in the warm blanket, and opened his eyes slowly as if he remembered something after a while.

A little light came in through the drawn curtains, and the room was extremely quiet, and the slight noise of the central air conditioner could be heard.

Bai Xuecheng was stunned for three to five seconds before sitting up, looking around in a daze, but didn't find any clues.

"Is it really a dream?" Bai Xuecheng said blankly, "Why do I feel like I saw Fei Lian?"

Although Bai Xuecheng was drunk, there was no fragment. After thinking about it carefully, he felt that it was not a dream, so he called the front desk to confirm.

The staff at the front desk had just changed shifts, and no one could answer Bai Xuecheng's question, so Bai Xuecheng hung up the phone helplessly, and sat by the bed for a while.

Although this wasn't a dream, the scene where Fei Lian came to him, covered him with a quilt, and sat by his bed for a long time was more like a dream, right?Even Bai Xuecheng himself didn't quite believe it.

He rubbed his face inexplicably, got up to wash up, ordered breakfast and went to the room, sat on the balcony and watched the traffic flow downstairs starting the morning rush hour, and finished breakfast slowly and dazedly.

At 09:30, Chen Xin called.

When Chen Xin told about Fei Lian looking for him yesterday, Bai Xuecheng was in a bad mood.

"What does he mean?" Bai Xuecheng almost jumped, "Is he really sick?!"

Chen Xin said awkwardly: "You ask me, how do I know?"

Bai Xuecheng talked about how Fei Lian came to the hotel last night: "I'll go, he must be drunk too? Why do I think this is the only explanation?"

Chen Xin found it inconceivable: "I heard his tone last night didn't sound like he was drunk? Let's not mention this for now, Comrade Bai Xuecheng, has your revolutionary will wavered?"

Bai Xuecheng was silent for a while, and answered irrelevant questions: "Comrade Chen Xin, the organization asks you to work hard and make more contributions to society. Don't gossip about other people's homes all day long."

Chen Xin chuckled, and Bai Xuecheng snorted and hung up the phone.

Chen Xin held up the phone and thought: This is obviously shaken, right?