I have known love for many years

Back then, Bai Xuecheng left in a hurry without even saying goodbye, but there was no meaning for the two of them to say goodbye face to face.Bai Xuecheng decided that Fei Lian was going on a blind date, and that he would marry someone else in the future. He would always be a liar who deceived himself. After leaving my hometown, I couldn't cheer up for a long time.

Hearing what Bai Xuecheng said, Fei Lian thought for a long time before he vaguely felt that there seemed to be some kind of little girl... As for whether it was from a venture capitalist, he couldn't remember at all.

"It's impossible for me to be with a woman. It's impossible in my life." Fei Lian said, "Although I don't remember what you said, I guess it was only because of business that I contacted more frequently."

Bai Xuecheng: "..."

This man can't remember anything that hit him so hard!So why was he sad for so long? !

If it wasn't for Feilianti's breakup and this incident that coincidentally made him completely misunderstood, according to his temperament, he couldn't let go so simply.

Bai Xuecheng suddenly felt that such a thing as being in love would really make people's IQ drop to zero. Thinking about it now, he hadn't asked Fei Lian to prove it at the time. About Fei Lian's date with that venture capital girl, he also got it from his colleagues in the department. I heard it.

Bai Xuecheng suddenly felt wronged.

Knowing that Fei Lian didn't intend to play with himself or deceive others, the lump in Bai Xuecheng's heart finally subsided.

He ate a few mouthfuls of food angrily, and said: "I'm so stupid, I should go to you and ask clearly! What's the fun in guessing? I've been sad for so long! If I could ask clearly at that time, You don't want to get rid of me so easily!"

How could there be these six years of suffering between them?

Bai Xuecheng is still very confident in his thick skin and stalking skills. At this time, the more he thinks about it, the more he feels wronged, and the more he thinks about it, the more angry he gets. Fog gathers in his big eyes, and he looks watery, very It hurts.

Fei Lian felt guilty and distressed: "I don't know that you misunderstood this matter, I thought..."

He thought it was him who broke up, and Bai Xuecheng left decisively in a fit of anger. After all, Bai Xuecheng's character was not hesitant like him.

After clarifying this matter, Bai Xuecheng took a deep breath and said, "Then what about the breakup? Why?"

Bai Xuecheng recalled the state of the two of them getting along at that time. After graduation, the state of getting along with each other was really not good.After living together, the frictions continued and the conflicts escalated. They couldn't communicate with each other and couldn't understand each other.

At that time, there were constant quarrels all day long, and even a phone call or a message could cause disputes.But with Bai Xuecheng, no matter how noisy he was, he never thought of breaking up.

He only regarded this as a running-in period for the two to enter a new stage.How do you look at how pleasing to the eye when you are young? After the passionate love passes, you will always encounter new problems at different stages. The stories in fairy tales are always beautiful. will be so.

After living together, they need to constantly adapt to the daily necessities, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, small frictions in living habits, and differences in thinking due to different family education environments.With the growth of age and experience, their vision and way of looking at the same things will change, which is not just a problem that can be solved by a few words of tolerance and understanding.

Bai Xuecheng said: "Am I too impatient? Didn't give you enough time? Or are you getting impatient with me, thinking I'm unreasonable and unreasonable? At that time..."

Bai Xuecheng said with difficulty: "Do you...don't like me anymore?" Are you already bored with me?

Bai Xuecheng found that he was always very spineless when it came to Fei Lian's affairs. Instead of acknowledging the relationship between the two, he stopped hiding. He was more afraid that Fei Lian was full of boredom at that time.

Bai Xuecheng felt that he was still a bit of a clean freak when it came to relationships. He couldn't accept that even for a moment, Fei Lian had negative emotions such as trouble, boredom, and impatience towards him.

Just thinking about it, Bai Xuecheng could hardly stay in his seat, he really wanted to cut open the man's heart and take a good look.

Fei Lian was shocked: "How is it possible? I never said I don't like you!"

Fei Lian's face was flushed with anxiety, and he was sweating a lot: "I broke up because of myself, and it has nothing to do with you! I'm just... I'm just too cowardly, I hate my cowardice, I don't want to It will cause more harm to you. It is ridiculous to say this, but at the time... I really thought about letting you stop the loss in time."

"Let me stop the loss in time? Who should stop the loss? You?" Bai Xuecheng was stunned.

"I'm not a good person," Fei Lian took a sip of tea and moistened his dry throat.He never mentioned this to Bai Xuecheng, he was afraid that Bai Xuecheng would look down on him, but since he wanted to take a step forward, he had to face up to these problems, "You are different from me, you are...you can say that I have always felt guilty for being broken by me. I was greedy and guilty, but I was unwilling to let you go. When you wanted to take me to see your parents, I suddenly woke up. "

Bai Xuecheng looked at him expressionlessly.

Sweat broke out on Fei Lian's forehead, like a prisoner who confessed and lenient, he said with difficulty: "You live in a different circle from mine, and I haven't let you get in touch with people and things in this circle. There are many things you don't know... ..."

Just as Bai Xuecheng was about to speak, Fei Lian waved his hand to let him listen to himself. He sped up his speech and said, "I'm not trying to make excuses, and I'm not trying to dismiss you with 'you don't understand'. This is mine. The choice is that I don't let you know many things, I just want to have a relationship with you, it has nothing to do with anything else."

"But I'm afraid you will be hurt. I mean, once the matter of the two men is known to the outside world, it will cause a lot of unnecessary troubles. Our work and colleagues' relationship will be affected, and your family may not accept it. You may ..." Fei Lian pursed his lips, "Your family atmosphere is very good, and your parents love you very much. In the past, you kept telling me about family affairs. Every time you returned to school on leave, they would ask you to Bring specials. They're nice people, and I don't want to hurt them."

"You have never quarreled with your family," Fei Lian looked into Bai Xuecheng's eyes and said helplessly, "Family is different from other people, and it is not a relationship that can be separated casually. They will be entangled with us for a lifetime, and you will always Can't get rid of it, once there is a problem between you, this will become a thorn, the longer it goes on, it will only hurt more. I don't want you to fight with your family, I don't want to be that thorn between you, so I back down gone."

Fei Lian closed his eyes: "I'm sorry."

At the beginning, he was not angry with Bai Xuecheng, he didn't understand why Bai Xuecheng just didn't understand.If they don't mention it, they can still live together for a few years.But after Bai Xuecheng left, he returned home alone, and the part of the rented house that belonged to Bai Xuecheng was completely empty. Only then did he realize in a heart-rending pain that it was Bai Xuecheng who was devoted to him. And stubborn love.

How many years?How about in a few years?Waiting for Bai Xuecheng to get married?Or wait until this relationship loses its temperature in the dispute, and the two become complete strangers?

He thought he had done a smart thing and kept the best in the present, but the empty rental house laughed at him, and he suddenly realized: Bai Xuecheng was never at fault, he just chose to be with someone Unworthy people talked about a love affair like a joke.

After that, Fei Lian didn't dare to inquire about any news about Bai Xuecheng.

The private room was extremely quiet, the sound insulation here was very good, and the noisy dinner party outside did not affect the conversation between the two of them at all.

Bai Xuecheng didn't speak after listening, and ate his meal by himself, Fei Lian almost sat on pins and needles.

After a long time, Bai Xuecheng took a sip of soup and said, "Do you think I'm a fool?"

Fei Lian was taken aback.

Bai Xuecheng said: "I don't understand those bad things in your circle, and I don't want to understand. Does it have anything to do with me? Does it have something to do with you? I'm dating you, and I'm not with you Talking in the circle, everyone's situation is different, and everyone's choice is also different, your circle? What's wrong with your circle? Are you superior to other circles? Everyone has become persecution paranoia?"

Fei Lian opened his mouth blankly, not knowing what to say.

"Do you know what your name is?" Bai Xuecheng raised his finger and pointed at him, "'Most people are like this, so I can't help it', this is a herd effect! Others are others, you are you! Fei Lian, don't be brainwashed by those things, we just fell in love, people who want to be together can be together anyway, everything else is an excuse."

"Do I look like a fool? Will I not know what will happen if I tell my family that the two of us are together?" Bai Xuecheng said, his eyes were red, he lowered his head, and quickly controlled his emotions , Said, "I am ready, Fei Lian, but you have not been ready."

"You don't need to worry about my family affairs." Bai Xuecheng continued to eat with his head down, and said slowly, "That's something I should solve. If you really want to be with me, we can face it together. My future I choose my own path, even if it hurts their hearts for a while..."

Bai Xuecheng sighed: "There is no way to have the best of both worlds in this world, at least not with your family. If you can't ask for forgiveness, then you can only bear these burdens and continue on. Fei Lian, harm is never inevitable."

Fei Lian seemed to have never thought about this, and suddenly froze.

Bai Xuecheng looked at him and smiled: "I'm curious, where did you get these negative thoughts? You... never mentioned to me about your family, right? I don't know how your family is. Here, the family is not only an object of mutual support and dependence, but also an object that can be trusted. Maybe I will hurt them, but I also believe that they will accept us in the end. Because this is family.”

"To put it simply, that's what happened," Bai Xuecheng said, "What seems to you like the sky is going to collapse is nothing to me at all."