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"Ayu."

As soon as Shang Zhiyu opened the door, Zhuang Qiyun "jumped" out, his face was full of joy, it was as if a radiant light was shining on his face, very dazzling.

Shang Zhiyu understood the reason for his joy at a glance, but still told him, "Congratulations, you can finally get rid of the crutches, but just in case, I will ask Dr. Lin to arrange a film for you to confirm your condition." The wound has healed."

"No problem, you can shoot from any angle." Zhuang Qiyun joked, took the things in Shang Zhiyu's hand and said, "In this way, I can go shopping with you in the future. What shall we eat tonight? I'll come help."

"I bought beef, Chinese cabbage, enoki mushrooms and tofu, and I'm going to make sukiyaki." Shang Zhiyu took off his coat and changed his shoes at the entrance.

"Then I'll chop onions." Zhuang Qiyun, after watching a lot of food shows, probably also knows what ingredients should be served with any dish, so he consciously took the ingredients and went to the kitchen to look for onions. Shang Zhiyu raised his head at this time, Looking at his brisk back, a wry smile unconsciously appeared on the corner of his lips, and he heard Zhuang Qiyun's voice from the kitchen, "Have you run out of onions? I didn't see it."

Shang Zhiyu came back to his senses, immediately put away the expression on his face, put on his slippers and walked into the room as if nothing had happened, "In the small grid by the window sill, help me wash the vegetables first."

"okay!"

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"Well, it smells so good." Because of the addition of butter, there was a hint of sweetness in the air. Shang Zhiyu took out the wine after it was warmed up, poured it on Zhuang Qiyun and himself, and raised his glass, "Come on, let's celebrate you." recovery, let's have a toast."

Zhuang Qiyun picked up his wine glass and clinked glasses with Shang Zhiyu, looked at him seriously and said, "I've worked hard for you these days."

Facing such focused and deep pupils, Shang Zhiyu's heart skipped a beat for no reason, and then he realized that this was his own illusion. He had such an illusion only because the person opposite him was Zhuang Xifeng, but after a few months, Be it Zhuang Xiyun or Zhuang Xifeng, he felt that they seemed to be living with him like this all the time. No matter how much he wanted to get Zhuang Xifeng back and say sorry to him, he couldn't erase Zhuang Xiyun's existence, his death It's Zhuang Xifeng's heart disease. If he doesn't get over it, Zhuang Xifeng will never be able to truly recover. Hearing what Zhuang Qiyun said at this time, he couldn't help but smiled and said, "What's the matter, thanks to you, I have lived in the capital for so long , besides, you didn't give me any trouble at all, did you?"

"No way, you are busy with the three meals a day and housework, so how can you say that I didn't cause you any trouble?" Zhuang Qiyun couldn't help retorting.

"You're so serious, so it shouldn't be a problem for you to take more care of yourself in the future, right?" Shang Zhiyu's words were basically a joke, and he knew Zhuang Xifeng's idiot nature very well.

"Okay!" Zhuang Qiyun agreed straight away. After these days, he watched Shang Zhiyu busy in and out, resting his cheeks and thinking about the work he might be able to take, and murmured, "What will I do for you tomorrow?" Okay? Let’s mop the floor, maybe mopping the floor is more suitable for me..."

Compared to Zhuang Qiyun's look full of anticipation for his future life, Shang Zhiyu only felt that his heart was getting heavier and he didn't know where to start to speak.

"Zhuang Qiyun." He opened his mouth suddenly, interrupting Zhuang Qiyun's muttering, and called out his name.

"Huh?" Zhuang Qiyun turned his head, but saw Shang Zhiyu's solemn and serious expression, with indescribable complex emotions hidden in his eyes, he couldn't help but startled, and asked, "Ah Yu? What's the matter? Could it be that you are worried?" Well, I'm really all right, I won't lie to you."

Shang Zhiyu didn't answer his words, but said, "Do you still remember that I said I would take you to the amusement park?"

"Of course, how about just this week? How about we go after the filming is finished and we confirm that there are no problems?" Zhuang Qiyun is a child at heart after all. But the more I look forward to it.

Shang Zhiyu's heart sank again, and after a moment of silence, he still said that sentence, "Before going to the amusement park, there is one more thing you must know." He left the dining table and walked to the entrance , took out a CD in his coat pocket, the CD had no outer packaging, it was only placed in a transparent plastic box, and the CD was also empty, without any instructions.

"This is……"

Shang Zhiyu walked back to the dining table and handed the CD to him, and said firmly to him, "Everything related to you is recorded here. When you finish watching, I will accompany you to the amusement park."

Zhuang Qiyun was taken aback abruptly, and said nah na authentically, "But, Ayu, didn't you say that you don't have to think about things you can't remember?"

Shang Zhiyu hardened his heart, held back the sudden strong uneasiness in his heart, and said to Zhuang Qiyun ruthlessly, "Now, the time has come for you to face it, Zhuang Qiyun."

Zhuang Qiyun looked at the blank CD, then raised his head to look at Shang Zhiyu, he bit his lip, as if trying to suppress the surging emotions in his heart, suddenly, he stood up and slapped the CD away from Shang Zhiyu's hand , said loudly to him, "At the end of the day, you just want to get rid of me as soon as possible, don't you? The same is true for Xiaofeng. In fact, he won't come back at all. He even said that he wanted you to come. Lied to me! Lied to me all the time!" After Zhuang Qiyun yelled these words, he turned around and ran into his room, only to hear the door slam shut with all his might, which only made the windows rattle and Shang Zhi Yu's heart suddenly ached.

Suddenly there was only boundless silence in the room. Shang Zhiyu stood on the spot, looking down at the food still cooking in the pot for a long time. The laughter just now seemed like a dream. He walked over slowly, squatted down, stretched Slowly pick up the CD on the ground.

"Zhuang Qifeng..." Shang Zhiyu sighed softly, suddenly he didn't even have the strength to stand up, so he sat down on the spot, and was stunned for a while, then he turned around, turned on the TV, and put the CD behind him in the DVD player.

This is a reissue of "Anemone", which he asked Zhou Yanyu to send over from the very beginning, but until today, he has not had the chance to watch it again. He never had the chance to make up for the premiere that he missed at that time, but, This was already the gentlest way he could think of, instead of telling Zhuang Qiyun bluntly:

Zhuang Xiyun is no longer alive, in fact, you are Zhuang Xifeng.

Like Lin You, he couldn't say this sentence, but maybe this is the fastest and most direct way.

With the melodious melodious music, the big drug lord played by Zhuang Qifeng slowly entered the scene. He stood in the middle of the anemone he cultivated with his own hands, and his eyes gradually looked into the distance. There, the silhouette of a woman appeared faintly, floating in the air. On the screen playing the sad melody, the big drug lord slowly raised the burning lighter in his hand.

The camera gradually slowed down, and as the lighter fell, the ruthless fire ignited one of the plants with a "boom", and then the fire spread violently, and the golden anemone bushes like oil paintings instantly turned into a gorgeous flame. Red, and the figure of the big drug lord was slowly engulfed by the fire... Finally, the three characters "Anemone" slowly burned on the screen, and the film officially started.

The sky has long since darkened, and Shang Zhiyu is still sitting alone in the darkness, facing the scenes of the films shown in front of him. The feeling is completely different from that of the follow-up filming, but it connects all the clips at that time into one that people can't let go of. The story is sad for the past of the big drug lord, and also worried about his long-lost future. While watching, Shang Zhiyu's mind always appears over and over again the appearance of Zhuang Xifeng suffering from allergies all over the body at that time , Zhuang Xifeng's unparalleled concentration during the filming, and Zhuang Xifeng's cautiousness when he asked him if he could be friends. Zhuang Xifeng restrained all his emotions and was willing to stay by his side as an ordinary friend. Later, it was the irreparable injury caused to him by himself and Gu Yunlan, which lasted until today. As if it hadn't stopped, Shang Zhi was engrossed in facing the TV screen. Just now, Zhuang Xifeng... no, it was Zhuang Xiyun's voice that kept repeating in his ears:

After all, you just want to get rid of me as soon as possible, don't you?The same is true for Xiaofeng, in fact, he will never come back at all, and even said that he asked you to come, you are just lying to me all the time!been lying to me!

That's right, I'm lying to you, because I've always wanted to see him again... I'm so sorry... Zhuang Qiyun...

When the subtitle of "END" appeared, Shang Zhiyu was still facing the TV, but his mind had already drifted to the distance. After a while, he got up silently, walked to the door of Zhuang Qiyun's room, and knocked lightly on the door. The human inside said, "You didn't eat much just now, are you hungry? Would you like to cook a bowl of noodles for you?"

After waiting for a while, there was no movement inside. Shang Zhiyu stood helplessly at the door for a moment, sighed, and turned around. At this moment, there was a slight movement inside, and Shang Zhiyu stopped immediately. When he turned his head, the door opened.

Zhuang Qiyun stood inside the door, and the lights were not turned on in the room, so that they all stood in the dark, unable to see each other's expressions clearly. Shang Zhiyu's heart had already softened beyond words at this time, and he knew that he could no longer He opened his mouth to force him, and knew that facing Zhuang Xifeng's face, it was impossible for him to be ruthless again.

"Sorry……"

"Sorry……"

The two spoke at the same time, and stopped at the same time. After a pause, the two suddenly spoke again:

"Are you hungry..."

"I would like to see..."

Shang Zhiyu was stunned by his words, Zhuang Qiyun immediately repeated it, as if he was afraid that he would regret it, "I am willing to face it, but, Ah Yu, can you... stay with me..."

These words moved Shang Zhiyu for a moment, but also felt pity for a moment. Although he couldn't see the expression on Zhuang Qiyun's face at this moment, he could see the courage he showed, and the fear that was hidden deep in it but tried his best to suppress it.

Perhaps Zhuang Qiyun will disappear after watching the CD, or maybe he will have to wait a while before seeing Zhuang Xifeng. If it is the former possibility, Shang Zhiyu will not be able to answer the question smoothly, but if it is the latter possibility, he will definitely be interested in Zhuang Qiyun. He felt deeply guilty, but at this moment, he could only say to Zhuang Qiyun, "Well... I will be with you..."

Shang Zhiyu closed his eyes silently, resisting the endlessly spreading self-blame and bitter emotions in his heart, turned around and walked back to the living room, "Do you want to turn on the light?" He lowered his body and asked the people who followed silently behind him.

"Need not."

Shang Zhiyu walked to the TV, turned on the DVD player and the TV again, the screen lit up, and a close-up of the big drug lord suddenly appeared.

When he turned his head, Zhuang Qiyun was standing between the sofa and the TV in a daze, before he had time to sit down, at this moment, he seemed to be looking at others through the screen, and seemed to be constantly looking for himself in it.

"This is..." His tone was close to trembling, but he managed to remain calm.

"This is a movie you starred in, called "Anemone Flower." Shang Zhiyu replied in a low voice.

Suddenly, Zhuang Qiyun sat weakly on the sofa, and the word "Anemone Flower" pulled away all his memories, as if something was tearing his nerves in his mind, and some past events resurfaced again. Keep going up until his whole body is buried in it, unable to extricate himself.

His expression was in a trance, Shang Zhiyu did not forget the promise he made just now, he walked over, sat down beside him, and then gently held Zhuang Qiyun's hand.

The palm of that hand was cold and there was no warmth at all. As soon as Shang Zhiyu held it, Zhuang Qiyun clung to him tightly, as if grabbing a life-saving straw, but his eyes kept staring at the screen, and there was scene after scene The picture attracted all his attention and took away all his mind. At this time, Zhuang Qiyun seemed to have left a body, but it was unknown whether this body belonged to Zhuang Qiyun or his own.

Shang Zhiyu looked at him worriedly. He wanted to stop him from continuing to read, but he never opened his mouth. As the big drug lord recalled the past, Zhuang Qiyun seemed to slowly see the past from there, but What followed was unstoppable trembling. Shang Zhiyu had been paying attention to his condition, and seeing him start to tremble at this moment, he couldn't help being shocked. He hurriedly wanted to stand up and turn off the TV, but was held tightly by Zhuang Qiyun. Hold on tightly, and refuse to let go.

But he trembled more and more, and Shang Zhiyu covered his dazed eyes staring at the screen with the other hand in desperation and said, "Don't watch it anymore, it's my fault, I shouldn't force you, close it." Eyes, let's not look at them, okay?"

Under the palm, it was full of tears, which were warm, but it made people feel extremely heartbroken, but Zhuang Qiyun shook his head again and again, and he opened his lips and said, "I... I remembered... Xiaofeng... Xiaofeng... ..."

Shang Zhiyu was slightly taken aback by his words, he let go of his hand covering Zhuang Qiyun's eyes, Zhuang Qiyun had turned his head, his face was full of tears, looked at him and said, "Xiaofeng... Xiaofeng wants to prevent me from committing suicide... then A knife...he took my knife...but I refused...to keep grabbing...in the chaos...Xiaofeng...he...was me..."

Shang Zhiyu was stunned on the spot, not knowing what to say for a moment, while Zhuang Qiyun kept saying, "...it was me...it was me who killed Xiaofeng...if it wasn't for me...I was a murderer... "

At the end, Zhuang Qiyun's voice was full of tears. He was heartbroken and desperate because of the sudden memory of the past, and finally he cried out, "Xiaofeng is dead! He is dead! I killed him It's me!"

Shang Zhiyu didn't have time to think about it at this time, he wrapped Zhuang Qiyun who was still trembling in his arms, and let him cry like a child, more like a little beast that lost its mother, and when he saw With such a sad Zhuang Qiyun, Shang Zhiyu's heart was also twisted into a ball, which was extremely uncomfortable. At the same time, his mind was also in chaos. He didn't expect the result to be like this. Zhuang Xiyun actually mistakenly thought that he had killed Zhuang Xifeng, Obviously Zhuang Xifeng is still avoiding the facts. Could it be that Zhuang Xiyun really died because of Zhuang Xifeng, so that he didn't want to wake up at all, and would rather die by himself?

In the end... what should I do?

Seeing Zhuang Qiyun like this, Shang Zhiyu seemed to feel boundless pain, he couldn't help but feel self-blame for his own powerlessness, and even more heartbroken for what happened to Zhuang Qiyun. At this moment, he could only hold him tightly in silence, Hold him tighter.